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ex-furry · 4 months

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hiiii i don't think i've seen you on my dash in a long time but wanted to say i hope you're doing well

hiiiiii ty this is so sweet 💓 i've been doing pretty well, just focusing on getting my new cat acclimated to our house and the dog (queen has conjunctivitis though 💔). for some reason i stopped scrolling tumblr around the time i was having panic attacks that felt like heart attacks and didn't even start again once i was put on propranolol. ptsd brain has been bad recently too but we push through 💪

i haven't been online though and i want to be included and say. you wouldn't last an hour in the asylum(s) where they raised me

#new cat is hard for the trauma in my brain because in my head everything is going to go badly all the time #everything will end in disaster etc etc #idk i've been thinking a lot abt trauma recently bc i have to and i feel like i'm unlocking shit abt myself #and my 2022 brain #bc i did get a new one that year #now i'm like oh well death is after me and everyone i know and love is going to drop dead #for some reason i've also only recently realized that i'm so paranoid abt my dog getting out every single day #bc the day before my dad texted and told us to come see my mom on sept 16th my dog got out #bc someone opened a gate #like. it's trauma babes #but! i think i'm coping fairly well 💗#it's late i'm thinking about a lot lol #tmi and graphic words incoming 🚨🚨🚨 but this all only started after i thought abt someone telling me once #that my trauma wasn't that bad and thinking that i could've just asked them if they've ever seen their mom's internal organs LOL #but then i thought too much abt it and it messed me up. but i can still watch squeex and distract myself so Who Care 💖#did actually have a panic attack in cheesecake factory on my birthday and watching squeex in the car fixed me lol #that clarion is gone now and has been for a while but i think they should blow it up #also i don't drink caffeine anymore it's been like a month

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