#for 20 years'' actually loved that. i find it's so fun. the platonic ideal of pure-hearted & selfless devotion & chivalry. slay.

[meirimerens]

watched a guy's playthrough of TOTK where he got moved to tears by the ending and etc which made me want to start a new game on my copy of Phantom Hourglass i had from a friend and never had the courage to delete the previous saves of (especially since they were basically complete) but i finally did and am having so much fun... i forgot how fun the artstyle of PH & ST was... how silly some of the cutscenes & expressions looked...

^ this barely registers as a dude to me. he's closer to a korogu in this.

[mustafa-el-fats]

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HOW TO LIVE MULTI-DIMENSIONALLY THROUGH SACRED GEOMETRY

Adapted from a lecture at the Astrological Society of Connecticut

19 August 2012

All the graphics are originally from the two volumes of the Ancient Secret of the Flower of Life (c) by Drunvalo Melchizedek, although I have altered them in many cases (for instance, I created the looping gif, and the multicolored Flower of Life sphere, and colored the merkaba positions).

Sacred Geometry is not what you learned sophomore year of high school. This is something much different and much more fun. Sacred Geometry is the organizational basis of all that exists, has existed and will exist. Found within these patterns are both two and three dimensional shapes which carry archetypal memories.



This is a very brief introduction to what Sacred Geometry is and how you can use these concepts to expand your consciousness. The basic form of sacred geometry is called the Flower of Life. It is a beautiful interlocking series of circles. Each circle’s circumference crosses other circles’ center points.

You can draw the Flower of Life yourself, using a high quality compass. The basic steps look like this, with the finished product (usually illustrated with a double circle as a frame) in the lower right.

The eye-shaped space in between each set of circles has its own meaning. One circle represents universal consciousness, the gold/solar source, and unchanging archetypes linked with, in the other circle, empirical consciousness, the silver/lunar reflection, and the changing realm of the senses, through the eye-shaped center that encompasses balanced human consciousness.

The curved lines of the Flower of Life promote feminine, right-brained thinking. When you apply the straight lines of Metatron’s Cube (connecting all the centers), you add in the left-brained, masculine thinking. So if you need to concentrate more on one type of thinking or the other, or you feel unbalanced, you can meditate on either the curved shape, the straight line shape, or the combination.

I call this Flower of LIfe figure “the mother of sacred geometry” because every important shape can be found within it, including the five Platonic Solids, named for the great Greek philosopher Plato. It is an ancient symbol which has been found all over the ancient world.



The five Platonic Solids are the tetrahedron, the cube (hexahedron), the octahedron, the dodecahedron, and the icosahedron. If you have ever been involved with role-playing games, these will be familiar to you, as the shapes of the dice.

To find the 5 shapes within the Flower of life, you extract a shape called Metatron’s Cube. You select these 13 circles from the Flower of Life shape—this is called the Fruit of Life—and then join all the centers with 78 straight lines to make Metatron’s Cube. This ancient shape, named for an angel, has been used to ward off evil and can be carried as a talisman.

From within Metatron’s cube, you can find the five Platonic Solids:

Tetrahedron



Cube (hexahedron)



Octahedron



Dodecahedron



Icosahedron



The 5 Platonic solids are ideal, primal models of crystal patterns that occur throughout the world of minerals in countless variations. These are the only five regular polyhedra, that is, the only five solids made from the same equilateral, equiangular polygons. They have the same face shape on every side and only 1 angle per edge. All other shapes have different faces and/or angles. Also, if you spin any of these 5 shapes around its center point, its corners will describe a perfect sphere. The Platonic Solids occur in the crystal world. Working with them connects us to nature and the higher realms of the cosmos, especially those attributes associated closely with each polyhedron.

Each of these shapes has metaphysical properties, making them valuable tools for meditation and rituals.

The Tetrahedron is the four-sided pyramid. Each side is a triangle. (The pyramids of Egypt, Central America & elsewhere are five sided pyramids--four sloping triangular sides and a flat square/rectangular base.) It represents the powers of manifestation & creation, the element of Fire, the color Red and the Solar Plexus (third) chakra. Can help you burn through problems. It is masculine.

The Cube (Hexahedron) is the six-sided box. Each side is a square. It grounds the creation of the Tetrahedron into the physical realm. It represents the element of Earth, the color Green and the Base (first) chakra. Use for grounding. It is masculine.

The Octahedron is the eight-sided diamond. Each side is a triangle. It represents love, the heart and compassion, integration, the 8-fold path to Enlightenment, the element of Air, the color yellow and the Heart (4th) chakra. It can help you move forward. It represents your inner child.

The Dodecahedron is the twelve-sided ball with the pentagon faces. It represents the 12 faces of the God/dess within, Ascension, Mystery school teachings, the color Gold, the element Ether/Spirit and the higher chakras (8-12 and up). It connects you to the universal life force. It is female.

The Icosahedron is the twenty-sided ball with the triangular faces. It represents prayer, transformation, the color blue, the Naval (2nd) chakra and the element Water. It can help you sustain focus and momentum. It is female.

Each of the five Platonic solids carries special teachings. The tetrahedron invokes the power of manifestation and the cube grounds that creation in our bodies and this reality. Our core heart is found in the octahedron as an expression of selflove and compassion. Prayer is invoked in the form of the icosahedron. The twelve faces of 'God within' are discovered in the dodecahedron.

Four of the five platonic solids embody the number thirteen. The cube and octahedron have twelve edges or lines surrounding one center. The icosahedron has twelve corners around one and the dodecahedron has twelve faces around one.

The only solid not supporting this is the tetrahedron and when two tetrahedrons are joined (star tetrahedron) there are twelve edges around one. More about the star tetrahedron in a moment.

Platonic Solid

Edges

Corners

Faces

Total

Numerology

Tetrahedron

6

4

4

14

5

Cube

12

8

6

26

8

Octahedron

12

6

8

26

8

Icosahedron

30

12

20

62

8

Dodecahedron

30

20

12

62

8

Star Tetrahedron

12

8

8

n/a

n/a



There is a 6th mystical shape, also found within Metatron’s cube. This is the star tetrahedron, made up of 2 tetrahedrons. This powerful shape is also called a Merkaba. It is basically a 3 dimensional Star of David. It contains within it the geometry of the cube, the octahedron and the tetrahedron. The word Merkaba, in ancient Egyptian, is translated as MER: rotating fields of light, KA: spirit, and BA: soul and in Hebrew it means 'chariot'.

Everyone knows about auras. You can get the colors of your aura photographed or looked at by a psychic. What a lot of people don’t know is that your aura is not really a shapeless blob. It’s the shape of a star tetrahedron. Three of them, actually.

Stand up straight. Hold out your arms. Your static field is a hand’s width past the edge of your finger tips and the top point of that field is one hand’s width above your head and the bottom of that field is one hand’s width below your feet. These are your hands’ widths so for each person it’s slightly different.

Running from top to bottom is a tube, the pranic tube, which carries energy from both earth and sky into your physical body. It is as big as the circle made by your thumb and forefinger. The top of the pranic tube is your soul star chakra, and the bottom of your pranic tube is your earth star chakra. These lead into your crown and root chakras (which also point straight up and down, unlike the other five, which point front and back). Your root and crown chakras are actually two ends of the same tube, and the energy running through it is changed as it passes the other 5 horizontal chakras.

The alignment of the static star tetrahedron in your aura depends on your gender. If you are male, the point of the sun tetrahedron (yellow, in the drawing) is in front of you, the flat part behind you. If you are female, the flat part of the sun tetrahedron is in front of you and the point behind you. These star tetrahedrons do not rotate. They represent your physical body and are neutral.

There are two more star tetrahedrons in your aura. (The term “merkaba” refers to all 3 of these star tetrahedrons together.) One star tetrahedron is male and electrical in energy and it rotates counter clockwise (to the left), and relates to your mental/logical thinking. The other star tetrahedron is female and magnetic and it rotates clockwise (to the right) and relates to your emotional thinking.



Meditating with the merkaba activates the left and right brain together, raising your consciousness level. It brings dualities into balance—male and female; heaven and earth; everything that is yin and that is yang. You can, with practice, use the Merkaba field to lift your consciousness to higher realms.

When you meditate and use any kind of breathing method, you should be aware of the breath and energy going in through both ends of the pranic tube and meeting in your heart. It’s almost like pumping up your heart, it gets bigger and bigger with each breath until it explodes into light from all the combined energies of earth and sky. When you visualize that happening and you’re working with the merkaba, the ball of light that surrounds you should look like a flower of life sphere in rainbow colors.

Crystal Grids and Sacred Geometry

One of the many things you can do with all these wonderful shapes is make crystal grids. This is a layout of crystals chosen for a specific purpose, placed in sacred geometry-based patterns to connect, clear, amplify, generate and re-direct energy. Crystal grids help to better formulate and ground intent, then assist to spread and manifest the sole purpose of that intent. Working with crystals and sacred geometry together can raise our vibration, clear physical and emotional blockages, expand our perception and reconnect us with Source.

You can use as the base the whole Flower of Life shape, and place a crystal on each line crossing. Or you can use a Metatron’s cube and concentrate on whichever of the Platonic Solid shapes (or the Star Tetrahedron) you feel the need to connect to. You can purchase sets of Platonic Solid crystal shapes and Star Tetrahedrons to use in the grids (or just hold the single shape you need). You can make permanent grids by gluing the crystals in place and keep them in your car or in certain places in your home, as needed. Build them with a clear intention and purpose in mind.

Star Tetrahedron grids are multipurpose. If you want to concentrate energy, and bring energy in from above and below, point the crystals toward the center. If you want to spread energy over a large area, point the crystals outward.

This is a quickie grid I put together for this lecture, using a star tetrahedron in Metatron's Cube. In the center is a large amethyst star tetrahedron (which is for sale! contact me) surrounded by long singing laser quartz crystals and small Herkimer-type quartz.

No matter what shape you use, activate the grid in the same way. Join up all the crystals in the pattern you laid, using your finger, a special crystal, or a wand. Do it 3 or 9 times, concentrating on bringing energy in from above and below, and putting the energy toward whatever purpose you built the grid. If you know Reiki or anything similar use that energy as well to program and empower the grid.

Looping animation of Metatron's Cube,

the Platonic Solids and the star merkaba:



You can build them for healing yourself or for healing someone else, for protection, or any other positive thing you can think of. You can put a piece of paper under the grid with the person’s name or photo, or with your affirmation written out (always phrased in the present time, and with gratitude).

You should recharge and empower the grid at least once a day until it has served its purpose and then take it apart, and cleanse the crystals, freeing them of the programming.

I offer for sale sets of crystal Platonic solids and loose merkaba crystals of all sizes, from $10 up. There is no page for these; contact me if you're interested.

All the fold-up Platonic Solid & star tetrahedron patterns below are (c) by Bruce Rawlins from his excellent Sacred Geometry Sourcebook, which I HIGHLY recommend. They are all PDFs requiring the free Adobe Reader.

Star Tetrahedron fold up

Tetrahedron fold up

Hexahedron fold up

Octahedron fold up

Dodecahedron fold up

Icosahedron fold up

Here is the promo video I created to loop on my tablet and advertise the talk:

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[bangtanloverboys]

tag game

answer 10 questions and ask 10 of your own

tagged by @rougebangtan @chelsea-chee (bc two people tagged me i answered 20 oops)

How do you feel about reptiles as pets? Not my type of pet to own, but they’re cool!

Name a weird song on your phone. Sasquatch Song by Stopin’ Tom Connors

Do you know how to ride a bike? Yes!

Have you seen Star Wars? If so, which is your favorite episode? I have, only episodes I really like are episode 4, 6, & 7

Nintendo, PlayStation, or XBox? I don’t play video games 

Would you ever want to get professionally photographed? Yea, actually have gotten that before for a headshot a couple years ago and for a couple cosplay shots! if u mean sexy tho idk abt that

Ideal date to go on? Oh boy heres a few bc im that bitch that has too many ideas: aquarium, going to a museum (preferably one that’s an egyptian history one bc i find egyptology fun to learn), or night in watching movies

Long or short hair? On me? Short. On others? No preference.

Favorite movie genre to watch? Movies with weird ass concepts

Do you use a planner/would you ever want to use one? I used a planner in middle school but that was it, haven’t used planners since then much oops

Do you have a favorite planet in our galaxy? If yes, what is it and why? Pluto because fuck you it’s a planet

Is there a language you would like to learn? Italian!

If reincarnation was real and/or something you believe in, how many lives do you think you would've lived? I do believe in reincarnation and I actually am aware of one of my past lives! It was my grandfather, so I’m aware of at least one. Not sure about others though.

Do you believe in soulmates? Ye! Sometimes you just click with people and it works out, whether the relationship is romantic or platonic doesn’t matter, it’s a bond you know that you know you don’t want to lose 

What city would you move to in a heartbeat had you the chance to do it now? None, cities are too expensive

Do you have a favorite type of landscape? Is it some place that you visited? I have many different conflicting aesthetics, so i like ocean cliffs, mountain ranges, forests. I jus. . .don’t like dry places, no thank u

Do you connect with another culture other than your own? Not really? I mean, I’m very disconnected from my own culture (italian) but like i love learning about culture, hence why i'm majoring in anthropology, to learn about other cultures and become more aware of them and learn to be respectful

Does being an early riser or a night owl affect your daily routine? I can go to bed late as i want and still wake up at 8 fucking am; my body is trained to wake up that early for some stupid reason

What's a healthy habit you've been trying to maintain during quarantine? No part of my routine has changed because even then i don’t go outside much kjalskjsdlas 

Handwritten or typed? TYPED fuck my handwriting

My questions

What is your favorite word (in any language) and why?

How long would you last in a zombie apocalypse?

Where do you find meaning in your life?

What would you do if you ran into a famous person?

How long have you been on tumblr?

Favorite late night snack?

If you had the power to solve one unsolved mystery, which would you choose?

Do you believe in astrology?

What food combination do you want to ban?

 What’s the worst movie you’d ever seen?

i tag: @mlkydrms @lumins @yoongs-jeontae @tipsydipsydo @salade-tb don’t feel obligated to do this if you don’t want to tho

[kimium]

My Own Favourite Fics

Hello everyone! Earlier (about a month ago?) I made a list of fics of mine that I felt didn’t get a lot of attention but I love them. However, I was thinking recently about my own fics and which ones are my “favourite”. Truth be told, I love all of the stories I write, but of course, there are always some that just stick to you more or not. 

So, I figured I’d make a list of some of my favourite fics. This list is actually very long. I’ve written 146 fics as of this post and narrowing them down to ten was challenging, so I’m keeping them at 20. I’m also not including any fics co-written with @someobscurereference because I LOVE THEM ALL and I feel that’s sort of cheating (they’re both of our fics).

Anyways, I’m posting my list under the cut, so if you’re interested you can check it out. Who knows, maybe you’ll discover one of my older fics ahahaha… So, in order of them being posted (recent to oldest), here I go!

1. Will You Marry Me? (BSD)

This fic was my first Bungou Stray Dogs fic and I really love it. I really like stories where Chuuya runs away with Dazai and joins the ADA. I also really like 5 + 1 fics and thus, this fic was born. 

2. Self Fulfilling Prophesy (FE Fates)

Writing this beast was a real challenge. There are a few areas I think I could have done something different and what not, but overall I’m very happy I wrote it. All the support I had with this fic from ObscureReference really helped me complete this multi chaptered fic. I’m also happy it’s completed. It took so much out of me.

3. Do You Want This Back? (FE Fates)

What I like best about this fic is the completely different tone I went with. I knew writing Leo/Niles as a Serial Killer Couple was very far off from canon but I really, really wanted to write it. The idea took hold of my mind and didn’t let me go. In order to balance the darkness of the idea I went with Immortal Owain meeting them. The counter balance, I think, really worked and I think sometime I’ll add more to this series.

4. Different Kisses (Magi)

I love Magi so much, so writing this was a lot of fun! Writing Sinbad and his interactions with his Generals was a lot of fun to come up with. That and platonic kisses and friendship was a lot of fun to explore as a topic. Plus, I’m such a sucker for Sinbad/Ja’far as a pairing so adding it in at the end was very indulgent of me.

5. Nightmares and Coffee (Danganronpa series)

I am firmly on board with Komaru and Nagito meeting properly and becoming friends. Having them meet briefly and talk was the main idea of this fic and I really enjoyed the soft, silent pace of their meeting, coupled with awkwardness and the beginning of a friendship.

6. Flawed Logic (It’s True Because You Want It to be True) (KHR)

I’m back with a KHR fic on a list and this time it’s the one I used to fill my “Forced Begging” square in my Bad Things Happen Bingo. Honestly I love all my 100/51 fics to pieces, but this fic made the list because of how I wrote Byakuran. I honestly love writing him so convinced of his ideals that it’s now true. There’s nothing Shouichi can do and I find that sort of situation and mindset a lot of fun to explore (for both Shouichi stuck in the situation and Byakuran in the mindset).

7. Prices (SDR2)

This fic is super special for me because it re-purposed a very old idea (like a three year old idea?). I really loved using the idea and having it incorporated into a KomaHina fic. The magic aspect and world building was a lot of fun too. Plus, I was able to hint at some of my favourite Kingdom Hearts originated worlds with some of the scenery and that’s always a win.

8. A Dance (Just for You) (FE Awakening/Fates)

I had so much fun with this fic!!! It’s honestly one of my most favourite Fire Emblem fics I’ve written and it’s all in Grima’s relations with the Awakening kids. It was utterly fun writing all the subtleties with the other Awakening kids, since I wrote exclusively in Inigo/Laslow’s POV. Sometimes I think of writing more and maybe I will some day.

9.  Heart Snatching (FE Awakening)

Finally I wrote a fic that’s entirely Awakening and not the Awakening Trio! Writing in a slight AU as Chrom and his relationship with Grima/Robin was honestly the best. I also really liked taking a more fairytale esque theme underlying the entire story.

10. (Un)Protect Me (SDR2)

I love all of my Demon Komaeda fics, but if I had to pick my favourite one, I think it’s Part Nine. It’s the ending I think is canon for my series and it helped wrap up a lot of ideas and themes I had going on with the other nine parts. Demon Komaeda really blew up in my mind and the fact that I can talk about it having parts really makes me happy. This series holds a special place in my heart as I finally was able to write a darker look into KomaHina… even if I had to do it in an AU ahahaha…

11. Jeweled Scars (FE Fates)

Yet another fic apart of a series on this list, Jeweled Scars is really special to me because of how well my Crystal Scars AU was received. Ahahaha I honestly thought the idea up on a long drive and worried that my idea was too ridiculous. However, the image of crystals in place of scar tissue was such a great image that I went with it and I’m so happy I did! This one is the first one in the series and I really loved writing as Laslow. 

12. No More Tears (FE Fates)

What do I love more than Leo Trio OT3? Leo Trio OT3 where Odin thinks that he’s a burden on Leo and Niles’s already established relationship and it’s a Soulmate AU. Honestly, this fic was so cathartic for me to write. I love writing angst and the dark thoughts of “being in the way” only to be proven wrong. It’s such a great trope and I could honestly write a lot of Leo Trio fics like that if given the right prompt.

13. Healing is a Round Ball (SDR2)

This fic was the first time I exclusively tackled all the SDR2 cast and their POVs. It was a challenge but a lot of fun. I had a blast coming up with their coping mechanisms/ what haunts them on a daily basis. A lot of those ended up being my head canons and if anyone is curious, I’m super fond of my Despair Sonia and Saionji head canons.

14. Fixing the Almost Broken (SDR2)

I am so weak to the trope of alternate universes and body swapping/occupying as a device to compare and contrast. I actually wrote this idea in an earlier fic but not with as much… confidence? as this one. Still, the idea of canon KomaHina having their relationship more together than an Alternate Universe KomaHina was a ton of fun to explore.

15. Ties of Family (SDR2)

I remember writing this fic. I remember writing a chapter of it in Narita airport and posting it in Narita! It’s that old LOL. Writing a domestic KomaHina with a child Chiaki was very fun. Though I do remember being very wiped when writing this fic because at the same time I had Moving Forward happening and I was Modern AU’ed out by the end.

16. Waking Up in Pieces (SDR2)

Easily my longest fic and my most popular fic. This fic is usually my answer when I think to myself “what’s my favourite fic of mine?” This fic is very, very special to me. The entire healing process of Nagito and the struggles with Hajime and the others was something I really wanted to tackle. Having Enoshima’s voice influence Nagito was easily one of my most favourite parts to write. The slow build up to Nagito healing and realising how problematic he was? It was truly the best to write.

17. It was okay. It had to be. (SDR2)

I had always wanted to write a Hanahaki fic and this one is the one! It’s also that OT3 one where someone thinks they’re not wanted in a pairing, but what I love the most about this fic was how I wrote Kamukura. My biggest goal with this fic was to make Kamukura sympathetic and for others to see that his love with Nagito wasn’t a roadblock, but an aspect that also had to be embraced. I had a lot of fun with this fic. Even when I look back and realise I shouldn’t have been so afraid of writing more, I love this fic with all my heart.

18. Take It All (SDR2)

The idea of soulmates feeling pain when the other dies and then taking it to Nagito gaining everyone’s names was heavily inspired by Noragami and Nora having all those names on her. I really, really, love that imagery of multiple names or things written on people’s skin. Playing through SDR2′s canon was also a blast.

19. What Happened to the Moon? (Assassination Classroom/DR crossover)

This crossover was a blast and I really liked adding in canon from both AssClass and DR1 into this fic to create the idea that they’re in a shared universe. It really was a blast to write and I keep thinking about writing a prequel to this in Nagisa’s POV and how the world fell apart according to him.

20. How Did You Get In Here? (SDR2)

Oh, yeah, we’re cutting deep here! This fic is soft. So soft. I honestly really, really love it. I loved writing the idea of Komaeda breaking into Hajime’s cottage only to snuggle him. I loved how short and sweet this fic is and how I think this story embodies my desire to always see soft fics with KomaHina.

[the-strawzish-clownfish]

3 (I absolutely *love* fish and I want to see what you'll pick), 5, 8, 11, 19, 20, 25, and the two you really wanted :)

honestly fuck you for being so nice yobi

1. Do you plan on getting any tattoos when you get older? 

y e s and i will talk about them to no end

2. If you are what do you plan on getting? 

I want a black and gray crow with a diamond in its mouth and holding an osiria rose in its claw. There are reasons for this but the most basic is i rlly rlly like crows and also I could talk about this way more (I literally wrote an essay on this for English today) but I’m not gonna bc I have Self Control (i said, you know, like a liar)

3. (s a m e) If you were a fish in a fishtank what kind of fish would you be and what tank decorations would make you happiest? (i’m gonna ignore any and all rules of what you can have in tanks for this bc i can and also i ain’t know shit about anything other than clownfish so)

The little. Idk what they’re called. The ones you find at Petsmart that are like orange

like that, no i don’t care if i die right away i wanna be colorful

OOH or a clownfish, black ocellaris ideally

if i were the petsmart one i’d like like. a spongebob house. i had one for a beta fish when i was little and he liked it and it would remind me of him (fun story i had thirteen fish from when i was about two to when i was about eleven or twelve, all of them but the last one died within four days, one was separated from its head on the second morning)

5. What’s your favorite flower and why?

Oooh so I change between various flowers bc adhd, but I really like osiria roses (you know, the ones that are mcfucking FAKE) because 1. they’re pretty 2. they are impossible to obtain completely naturally and 3. one of my ocs gets one from her best friend who then ends up breaking her heart (in a platonic way) and it’s kind of symbolic but the flowers kinda represent my many paracosms

8. Who’s your favorite artist?

idek man when i first started looking at art online it was Moonkitti and her art was what ended up getting me into drawing, so she’ll always have a special place in my heart. legit every time i look at art though i go “I WANNA DRAW LIKE THAT” so in terms of just stuff? no clue

11. Say that you had a dream catcher that actually caught dreams. What are some of the things we would see caught in it? 

I do actually have a dream catcher my dad made for me when i was around eight or nine, it used to be above my bed but I haven’t moved it to my new bed yet so :( for a while I actually had NO NIGHTMARES. NONE WHATSOEVER. LIKE AT ALL. and i had nightmares pretty often before that, so i was really excited but it’s been years so i just have dreams now

anywho probably like fuckin. Mr. Deikres dreams. Worst nightmares I have ever had and even worse there were multiple of them (and i very very rarely have dream series). That’s a fun story and if you wanna hear about it then send another ask but I’m not about to make this even longer than I already have with my ranting

19. What’s something that you haven’t eaten yet but you really really wanna try it someday?

hmmmmm probably paella? it looks really really good and I’ve wanted to try it for a while but unfortunately I have no means of getting my hands on it and I cannot cook

20. Would you rather be a mermaid or a fairy and why?

fairy, i wanna see my friends and family and I won’t be able to do that as a mermaid

25. What’s your favorite genre for books?

gay

jk fantasy

[pastwinter]

heya, dears!! i’m just reposting this list of neato, romantic plots since it’s been a while and the list has gotten a little longer -- as usual, like this or shoot me a message if there’s something you’re interested in!

baek jinho | runaway manhwa artist | heterosexual | 24

a lil inspired by the truth untold by bts, i’d love!! a plot in which emotionally cautious jinho develops feelings for muse b ( a literal light! someone who really knows how to pull jinho out of her shell ) , and as is her habit, she keeps it all bottled in and hides it -- but! she’s awfully honest in her latest manhwa in which she depicts the protagonist finding the courage to admit her feelings, and it’s honestly so obvious!! that the love interest is a portrayal of muse b!! to everyone except muse b who has yet to read the manhwa ( or maybe they’re just oblivious ) . and maybe if we want to take it down the angsty route, muse b gets into a relationship with someone before jinho can confess her feelings?? 

ideally i’d like for muse b to have an outgoing personality seeing as jinho can lean towards reserved. age doesn’t matter so much really?? but she’s heterosexual, so muse b must be male.

jinho’s 24 and she has a little brother who’s 19, so anyone around that age she’ll label as a “ kid ” and dote on them like she would her brother so if anyone wants a classic “ i like you but you treat me like a child B(( ” plot, come at me!! and either gender could work here, but it’ll be angsty if your muse is a gal since jinho can’t return her feelings... and doesn’t that sound like fun : )))

“ you keep confessing to me and i keep turning you down bc i’m honestly scared out of my mind that i would ruin everything but good golly gosh you’re very persistent aren’t you?? and psh no this isn’t a date! i’m just humoring you bc i feel bad ( but we both know that’s a frikkin lie ) ”

also see this post for a few other plots i’m dying for starring my lil runaway!

lee gwangmin | youtuber | bisexual | 23

a second meeting with his first boyfriend!! bc while gwangmin cared for him deeply ( maybe even?? this guy was his first love?? ) , i can see the two having broken up bc gwangmin refused to acknowledge that his parents had an issue with his sexuality despite their uncomfortable words of support. he refused to talk about it and went to lengths to avoid having his parents and boyfriend around each other for extended periods of time, and that had to be frustrating!! and stressful considering this would have been around the time they’d be graduating/had just graduated high school. so maybe that’s why they broke up? 

the reason can always be discussed, but i’d love a second meeting in which both of them have grown up a little! and maybe confront the fact that gwangmin is STILL avoiding the problem.

also gimme a prickly pear who isn’t so prickly around gwangmin bc he’s such a wholesome sweetie pie and makes them feel so good about themselves and just!! happy in general!! and maybe they start to like him more than they should and gwangmin can tell but stays quiet bc... they’re so... CUTE when they’re trying to hide it!! and when it comes out on accident or they witness someone coming onto gwangmin and they get embarrassed and frightened of his reaction, he’s just grinning bc of course he likes them!!

y’all i’ll admit it right now -- i’m weak for cliche plots but who isn’t??

kim nari | professional dork singer | bisexual | 18-21

so my little ray of sunshine can be played during her time as a trainee or during her time as an idol 

so pretty pls gimme a sunbae-hoobae relationship that’s 90% platonic and mentor-like and 10% something more. but is that something more acknowledged?? not if you want to avoid scandals and secret relationships!!

but maybe... it DOES get acknowledged... and they gotta sneak around... but nari’s just debuted finally, and if it’s revealed she’s dating, that could be really bad for her... “ the timing might be bad but n o we’re not breaking up bc of a ‘ what if ’ ”

“ you’re that boy i ran away from back in middle school when you confessed to me and continued to avoid afterwards but now we’re older and dating isn’t so scary and you grew up to be incredibly handsome wow... also i’m so sorry ”

maybe said boy is a fellow idol?? a producer?? or she just runs into him by chance?? either way, it’ll be awkward for nari B ))

bc i’m weak for the idea ( and is it cliche?? MAYBE ) , consider your muse joining a show in which idols are paired with their “ ideal types, ” and nari just so happens to be on the show, too. now, this could go a few ways!

the producers are mistaken in pairing nari with your muse bc the two of them HATE each other!! but maybe not as much as they first thought.

OR they’re utterly smitten with each other... but they’re not paired together! they’re someone else’s ideal types, so do they pine and never act on their feelings or do some sneaking about without anyone knowing??

also give me a prickly pear who isn’t so prickly for nari bc she’s the actual sun and makes them feel so warm and soft :’ ))

choi donghae | lost soul | bisexual | 20

you know what i’d love?? an angsty plot in which your muse assists donghae in moving on aka brings his murderer to justice before danbi has a chance to kill him and before he’s able to take another victim. and while it’s a happy moment bc he and his sister can finally be at peace, it’s bittersweet bc your muse sincerely cares for him

i’d also give my left shoe for a plot where donghae starts acting as your muse’s guardian angel bc he misses them and doesn’t know what else to do with his extra time and they eventually figure it out bc no one has THAT much good luck

also donghae pretending to be human around your muse and starting to fall for them but that sweet boy just can’t!! keep such a big secret from them!!

and if we wanna go down the human!donghae route, gimme that classic “ bad boy/girl meets good boy ” but instead of corrupting donghae, he starts to rub off on them and that’s not good for their reputation, dude

choi danbi | bitter specter | bisexual | 20

" i’ve been pretending that i’m not dead by appearing to you when barely anyone is around but you ran into my mom and mentioned me and now you’re confused and shaking bc according to her, donghae and i are still missing, so i suppose i owe you some answers now ”

“ i saved you from getting mugged one time and it was very freaky and ghostly and now you’re purposely looking for me in random allies?? are you dumb??? and why is this so endearing to me?? ”

and for human!danbi, how about a rival athlete who she Hates but kissed one time when she was tipsy and now... now she hates them even MORE bc they won’t let her forget about it!!

son daehyun | grim reaper | heterosexual | o l d... but looks 28

before i even start, let me point out that daehyun is based upon the grim reapers from tvn’s goblin, but he’s part of a unit who specializes in finding the souls who were never allowed to move on

so... how about he's assigned to find a soul who was supposed to die YEARS ago, but narrowly avoided death through a miracle only a greater being could have caused and like... he’s gotta keep an eye on her bc she shouldn’t even exist but there’s no way that he can reap her when she’s living her life! but every time she finds herself about to die, daehyun is there against his better judgement to save her until he’s too late 

but maybe... she finds her way back to him bc she refuses to let go of their memories :’ ))

and gimme senior reaper dae having to show this rookie reaper the ropes and he’s trying to act all tough and cool for her, and while it’s so obvious how soft he really is, the rookie lets dae do his thing bc it’s cute. and she tells him so -- and dae is flabbergasted 

“ cute?? me??? nO i’m not blushing shut up ” 

ALSO dae meeting his love from a past life!! i already typed up a starter for this scenario a while back, but i’d also really love to plot it out!

son soojin | old soul | pansexual | technically old as heck but 26 in this life

lil info before we begin -- soojin is a reincarnated soul who chose to keep her memories in hopes of being reunited with her lover one day

what if… her lover was actually an immortal being of some sort?? and they’ve been sad bc they’ve gone all this time thinking they’d never see her again but wait!! it’s her!! she just has a different face bc reincarnation is apparently a thing!!

or similarly – they were broken up about her death but it’s been centuries, dude… they’re Over It and have moved on and are in love without someone else. sucks to be soojin.

oR soojin’s fallen in love with someone in this life, maybe even contemplating marriage when who is that she stumbles upon?? her lover from her first life?? well fRIK

O R soojin finds her lover, they don’t recognize her bc she has a different face, and she withholds who she really is bc they seem so… happy with their s/o. happy without her. and maybe it’s time she lets them go bUT WAIT A SECOND THERE SHE SLIPS UP and says something only SHE would have known/said!! her cover’s blown!! uh oh : )))

chae jihoon | vampire bar owner | bisexual | 94 but looks 24

how about you gimme jihoon seeing his first love for the first time since they turned him and ran away : ))))

so originally i wrote the person who turned jihoon was a lady, but!! it really doesn’t matter tbh. they just need to be on the wild side with a soft center :’ ) and apparently have a fear of commitment!

but really just!! give me a surprise meeting or maybe it’s on purpose -- maybe they really missed jihoon and just wanted to see how he was doing after all these years. maybe they want a second chance or a chance to apologize. whatever the reason, give it to me!!

also give me this horrible situation that ends in disaster : ))) once again, the gender is flexible since i haven’t put a ton of thought into this person who wiggles their way into jihoon’s heart during his darkest time. 

and who knows?? maybe our muses can have a happy ending instead of that sad ending! or... maybe not : )

also give me this softness right here thanks!!

and now just some general scenarios i’d love to see!!

polyships pls and thanks!! gwangmin and nari are one cute duo or could be paired separately with two other muses, as well as most of my other muses -- the only ones i don’t think would be up for it ( or at the very least be very difficult to convince ) would be jinho bc she's so wary of relationships to begin with and daehyun.

but give me the cute first date, the cuddling and kisses and before that, the proposition of dating each other. give me the angst where one thinks the other two don’t like them as much as they do each other. give me breaking up just to get back together bc it being just two of them doesn’t feel right anymore.

any sort of fan meets their idol plot! i’m Weak for them

best friends to lovers bc who doesn’t love those??

“ i’ve got a tough/cold image but i’m soft for you ” plots!!

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sooo i've come this way to ask you to answer every single one of the questions on that lovecore asks thing cause we haven't interacted in awhile and i love you so 💙💙💙💙💙💙

Aw babes I love you too thanks for asking me out haha💝💖💗💞💕💓💘 So here we go:1. Sexuality: Bi? Pan? Whatever...Ill go with whoever I fall for no matter the rest2. Dating someone right now? Yes3. Hopeless Romantic? Im quite mixed...like I have realistic expectations that young love mostly wont last long and that everything could change and come to an end and that sometimes you just part ways and all that stuff and I am well aware about it but when it comes to love gestures and confessions and dreaming of a future I can become quite romantic...but not hopless.4. What comes to my mind when I think of love...Music...certain songs play in my head and I have this feeling in my body like when your at a concert and the beat is so strong that your heartbeat matches with it and you feel it vibing through your entire body. Also my friends bc even if its rather platonic love...some of the most loveliest and romantic experiences Ive had with them. And my sister bc I dont love anyone more then her.5. Whats your type? I dont really have one certain type Im searching for. Of course I do prefere some things but in the end they dont matter if I have the right feeling about a person and we match up. I gotta say tho that I need at least a basic level of both emotional and usual intelligence. To me communication is the most important so I need someone whos able to talk wether it be serious stuff or just random thaughts. Also humor bc Im reaally sarcastic. And someone with a lot of patience and understanding bc I can be really difficult to get to know at first and I have some anticks I cant get rid of. But lookwhise I am so open for everything there is no certain type Im searching for. Oh and fun fact: now that I have some relationship and dating experience Ive realized that all and I really mean ALL the boys Ive dated had problematic families or difficult family situations so I might have a thing for that...not that I am searching for it but Ill end up with it anyways.6. Flowers or Hearts? Flowers7. Red or pink? Red8. Pastels or dark colors? Dark colors9. Scented lotion or perfume? BOTH10. Colors I associate with love? Red, rose and green but also some bluetones11. Animals I associate with love? Cats, bunnies and moose12. How do you know when you are crushing on someone? When Im even shyer then usual and make more stupid jokes and lose my appetite 13. How do you know when you are in love? When I want to talk to this person as much as possible and share stuff with them14. Have I been in love? Yes15. Fave romcome trope? I dont really like romcoms16. Fave aesthetic? So many...minimalistic all white and beige stuff but also pastels and flowers everywhere and the ocean in all its ways and forms17. Fave romantic movie? Eternal sunshine of a spotless mind and (500) days of summer18. Ideal date? Walking, talking, eating, stargazing and if possible go somewhere with water like a sea or lake or river or to a fairy wheel and share cotton candy19. What would you give your partner as a romantic gift? Something theyve wished for or something that reminded me of them...like you know you go somewhere and see something and instantly think "yn would like that" and definitly a pretty postcard with song lyrics that fit the situation on them...thats my way of showing that I like someone20. What would I want to receive? The same...either something Ive wished for or something that made them think of me or reminded them of me22. What do you think love is and how would you explain it? Well its a really strong chemical reaction within your brain that captures your whole body and takes over your mind. Its something twofaced kind of like it can be so strong and powerful but also so soft and sensitive. It comes in all forms you can think of and you can find it everywhere. I could go on and on about this but I think Id just get lost there so Im stopping myself here before the poet inside of me peaks out23. Do I believe in love at first side? In a metaphorical way yes. I do think you can have a certain connection with someone from the first time meeting on but there for you have to talk so not love at the actual first sight but first meeting maybe...yeah its probably just crushing then but if you let it grow it can bloom and a seed is still a part of the whole thing so yeah...or at least I just hooe so bc I read too many books about it24. Have you ever crushed on a friend? Yes25. Have you ever crushed on a stranger? Yeah 14-16 years old me was a crush hoe26. Celebrity crush? JB!!!!!!!!!!! 27. Crush on fictional charakters? Nope28. Matte or shiny? Shiny29. Bright or dull colors? Dull31. Fave lovesong? Ugh too many but what came to my mind first right now was Apple Pie by Princess Nokia32.

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KPOP BIGGER TAG!

I was tagged by the wonderful moosefan777, thanks boo!

This is really long, so if you’re gonna read it, fasten your seat belts, you’re in for a ride

1.) 5 favorite groups?

SNUPER, B1A4, B.A.P, NU’EST, VIXX, and KNK (I couldn’t pick just five!!!! 😱)

2.) Top 5 on your bias list?

Well if you can’t tell by following my blog, I bias Taewoong!!! And B.A.P’s Youngjae, B1A4’s Jinyoung, NU’EST’s Minhyun, and VIXX’s N (and from KNK it’s Seungjun)

3.) Ult Bias group and why you love them?

Uggghh! This is so hard! What’s there not to love about SNUPER? What don’t they have? You want amazing songs that never disappoint? They’ve got you covered. You’re more into stunning choreography? Don’t worry, their dancing is next level. You want members who are super sweet, but also so unbelievably cheesy, greasy, and are just plain dorks? SNUPER is just the group for you.

4.) Ult Bias and why you love them?

Well, if you saw the video post I made for Taewoong’s birthday, you probably already know one of the main things I love about Taewoong is his smile. I also just love his dorky personality. He is always just so fun to watch. He always seems to be having a blast with his life and that in turn just brings so much happiness to mine!

5.) Favorite Kpop Meme

Just a few of my faves

6.) Favorite pic of your ult? (I dare you to only pick one)

But, no, I really like this one:

7.) 5 Favorite Kpop MVs

KNK’s “Rain”, CNBLUE’s “You’re So Fine”, Seventeen (Performance Unit) “Lilili Yabbay”, SNUPER “It’s Raining”, and INFINITE “The Chaser”

8.) 10 Favorite Kpop songs?

KNK’s “Rain” (I literally listened to this song 20x in one day), SNUPER’s “내 여자의 여우짓”, NU’EST’s “여보세요”, B1A4’s “Lonely”, VIXX’s “Desperate”, DAY6’s “I Smile”, B.A.P’s “Coffee Shop”, CNBLUE Minhyuk’s “Star”, Super Junior Ryeowook’s “The Little Prince”, and BOYFRIEND’s “Janus”

9.) Favorite Kpop crack video?

Honestly, I don’t really have a favourite KPop crack video... I just search whatever variety of crack I’m in the mood for, and then just watch the first results

10.) Favorite content creator within the fandom?

suhyunggeun - I’ve always really enjoyed your stuff. And more recently sufferhyuns. Thank you both for blessing my dash (and here I am picking two Suhyun stans while insisting that I’m not one... I swear, Taewoong owns my life)

(And for groups other than SNUPER, I really like gomnu’s suff!)

11.) What fandoms would you say you’re an active member of?

An active member… Probably only SWING, thought I’d like to be a better TINKERBELL (KNK) too. I’m really mostly a casual fan of all groups I stan besides SNUPER

On my multifandom blog, on top of SWING, I really only interact with B.A.B.Y (B.A.P), Starlight (VIXX), Bana (B1A4), Carat (Seventeen), and Universe (Pentagon), though I wouldn’t really say I’m an “active” member

12.) Take your top 3 biases- fmk

Honestly, this question makes me uncomfortable because I respect my biases as people…

13.) If you could be best friends with any idol, who would you choose?

Well as I said, I would love to be friends with Sangho. But I’d love to take a road trip with some of the members of Seventeen (Seungkwan, D.K, and Vernon). Also Heejun from KNK - I want to validate the hell out him!

14.) If you could date any idol, who?

This was so hard to answer because I just never really look at idols like that, but I think I would have to say Seventeen’s S.Coups, I think he would treat me right

15.) What’s one Kpop album you think everyone should have listened to?

I can’t pick just one, so here’s five: I love, love, LOVE B1A4’s “Good Timing” album. B.A.P’s “Noir” is also super quality. As well as 15&’s “Sugar” and SNUPER’s “유성” album (that 80’s remix of “Platonic Love”…) - I was gonna put “I Wanna?” but “유성” has all the same songs, plus more!!!

16.) Are you a soft or a hard stan?

Soft all the way! I literally don’t know what to do with myself if my bias is anything other than soft

17.) An idol that makes you go into soft mode?

Basically all of SNUPER (Taewoong, Sebin, Sangho, Sangil), KNK’s Seungjun when he’s being his dorky self, Seventeen’s S.Coups, and NU’EST, just all of NU’EST

18.) An idol that makes you want to smash the empire state building with one single punch?

Seventeen JOSHUA!!!

Don’t get me wrong, I love him, but this is actually me:

(GIF credit to cheolshu, I just couldn’t find these GIF in tumblr’s built in GIF search that automatically links it to the post... But that last thing I want to do is steal someone else’s creation)

19.) Favorite vocalist?

Kihyun (Monsta X), Sandeul (B1A4), Sangil (SNUPER), Taeil (Block B), Minhyun (NU’EST), Sunmi, Ryeowook (Super Junior), Max (TVXQ), Raina (After School/Orange Caramel). Is that too many...?

20.) Favorite Rapper?

Taewoong, Jooheon (Monsta X), Zelo (B.A.P), Junhyung (HIGHLIGHT), Minwoo (BOYFRIEND) - even though Kwangmin is my BOYFRIEND bias..., Amber (f(x)) -Amber’s vocals are also amazing!

21.) Favorite dancer?

Jun (Seventeen), Lay (EXO), N (VIXX), Hansol (TOPPDOGG)

22.) Things you have in common with your ult?

Oh my goodness, Taewoong is like the ideal human being, what could I possibly have in common with him?!?! I can think of a lot of things that I admire about Taewoong and wish we had in common, but not many traits that we actually share...

23.) The most beautiful trait any idol can have?

As cliche as it sounds, I’m a sucker for a beautiful smile (the dorkier the better). I also fall for idols based on their personalities (again, the dorkier the better)

24.) Songs that will always make you jam along?

KNK’s “U”, Pentagon’s “Can You Feel It”, SNUPER’s “It’s Raining”, Seventeen “Clap”, and many, many more (basically all of B.A.P’s discography, but I decided to only put one per group in all my answers, and they were just too hard to narrow down…)

25.) Your worst wrecker?

I wish Pentagon’s Kino knew how to stay in his own lane… And I just adore KNK’s Inseong, even if he insist on bias wrecking me at every turn

26.) Any kpop concerts you’ve been to?

I’ve been to a B1A4 concert, I’ve seen B.A.P twice, and my friend and I went to KCON last year (if that counts… KNK was there!!!)

[Bonus: I have tickets for KCON again this year, as well as tickets for a Monsta X concert]

27.) Favorite choreo?

Well SNUPER’s “It’s Raining” choreography owns my soul. But I also love KNK’s “Knock” dance, Seventeen’s (Performance Unit) “Lilili Yabbay” choreography, and both VIXX’s “Shangri-La” and TOPPDOGG’s “Arario” (fuck me up with the fan dances)

28.) Favorite live performance?

I really love any special stages: Seventeen & NU’EST W’s “Heaven”, this beautiful stage (in which Eunwoo looks entirely too soft), this rude stage (this is one of the reasons I really wanted to learn more about Halo), Seventeen’s girl group medley

29.) Favorite debut mv?

NU’EST’s “Face”, KNK’s “Knock” and DAY6 “Congratulations”

30.) Recommend a rookie group!

Can I recommend SNUPER on a SNUPER blog? If not, then def KNK (I’ve answered then for like 90% of the answers, hahahaha)

31.) A kpop song you could listen to every day for the rest of your life?

Well, if you couldn’t tell by this point, KNK’s “Rain” and SNUPER’s “It’s Raining”. But also, CNBLUE Minhyuk’s “Star”

32.) Tag some cute mutuals you’d like to get to know better (and to do this challenge)!

I’ll tag sufferhyuns, though you don’t have to do it if you don’t want to (it took a really long time...)

[roses-and-grimoires]

Character Study

(Cut for length.)

1. What’s the maximum amount of time your character can sit still with nothing to do?

Idristan likes to think that he wants to settle down somewhere, maybe focus on writing down everything he’s learned about voidsent and voidtouched, and start a very nice garden. But in truth, I don’t think he’s ever really gonna do that. He gets really restless when he has nothing to do. Plus, it doesn’t do his self-destructive habits any good...

2. How easy is it for your character to laugh?

Depends on how you’re going about it. He can appreciate wit and laughing at others. More traditional jokes might not fly as well.

3. How do they put themselves to bed at night (reading, singing, thinking?)

These days? He’s been mainly using a combination of alcohol and potions to more or less pass out. Usually he would read or think for a bit.

4. How easy is it to earn their trust?

Idristan believes in varying degrees of trust. Getting him to trust you completely is hard. He’s been living with some secrets that could get him killed for years, and it’s really hard to get him to open up entirely with anyone because of that--at least, if he gets a choice in the matter.

5. How easy is it to earn their mistrust?

Fairly easily. Again, varying degrees.

6. Do they consider laws flexible, or immovable?

Very flexible. Idristan believes in doing what is right--specifically, what he believes is right. If that means doing things that are illegal in the pursuit of that, then so be it.

7. What triggers nostalgia for them, most often? Do they enjoy that feeling?

Spending time in the Brume. The smell of beef stew. Snow on Starlight. And it’s mixed for him. He enjoyed his childhood, as much as could be expected, but there’s a lot of guilt and regret there now too. He is sorry he couldn’t be there for his sister for all those years or speak to his mother again before she died.

8. What were they told to stop/start doing most often as a child?

To stop getting into fights.

9. Do they swear? Do they remember their first swear word?

Oh, yeah. He mainly sticks to blasphemy, but slips in a bloody, shite, or fuck now and then. All that Limsan influence lately. And yes. If only because his mother came down hard on him for it.

10. What lie do they most frequently remember telling? Does it haunt them?

Honestly, it’s hard for him to keep track. Once you’re gone through a couple of different identities and general lying about your past, it can be hard to keep straight. Perhaps saying he’s fine when he’s really not--and that one has gotten him into trouble before.

11. How do they cope with confusion (seek clarification, pretend they understand, etc)?

He’ll ask for clarification. Often not very nicely, but he’ll ask.

12. How do they deal with an itch found in a place they can’t quite reach?

Grumble and try to ignore it.

13. What color do they think they look best in? Do they actually look best in that color?

Black, of course. And it’s not bad on him, though he can pull off white fairly well too.

14. What animal do they fear most?

Dragons. Certain voidsent.

15. How do they speak? Is what they say usually thought of on the spot, or do they rehearse it in their mind first?

Carefully. He tends to hold back a lot (see lack of trust). Certain topics you practically see his mind working as he judges answers.

16. What makes their stomach turn?

Working with cultists.

17. Are they easily embarrassed?

Yes. He is rather prideful.

18. What embarrasses them?

Weakness. Admitting he made a mistake.

19. What is their favorite number?

13

20. If they were asked to explain the difference between romantic and platonic or familial love, how would they do so?

“One is about the person you want to spend the rest of your life with and would do anything for.... the other is about your sister.”

21. Why do they get up in the morning?

Because lying around doing nothing is far worse.

22. How does jealousy manifest itself in them (they become possessive, they become aloof, etc)?

He tends to become possessive, and a bit sulky as well.

23. How does envy manifest itself in them (they take what they want, they become resentful, etc)?

Sooo much resentment. So much. He’s far better about it now that’s he’s older, but it flares up every now and then.

24. Is sex something that they’re comfortable speaking about? To whom?

To his partner he’s fine with it. To everyone else, not really. He thinks it’s something that should be kept private. Basically he’s still a bit of a prude--though he’s getting better about it.

25.  What are their thoughts on marriage?

He likes the idea. He’s very much a monogamist and a traditional romantic. While he could live happily with a partner without ever making it official, there’s part of him that wants to do the whole ceremony and everything.

26. What is their preferred mode of transportation?

Anything but airships. Seriously. Anything.

27. What causes them to feel dread?

The thought that his secrets might come out. The idea that he might lose himself or hurt someone because of one of them. Inquisitors. Airship travel.

28.  Would they prefer a lie over an unpleasant truth?

No.

29. Do they usually live up to their own ideals?

Yes, but he usually doesn’t see it that way himself. His standards for himself are far higher than those he keeps for other people.

30. Who do they most regret meeting?

Uathach, Draidetch, Richaud.

31. Who are they the most glad to have met?

@solennelagarde​, of course. And @ser-gemini​. And @synn-heolstor​ and Michaux... not he would ever admit that to either of their faces. And ARK as a whole is slowly getting there.

32. Do they have a go-to story in conversation? Or a joke?

No, he tends to wing it. And since most of his jokes are either at someone’s expense or rather grim and fatalistic, it’s perhaps for the best he doesn’t always start with them.

33. Could they be considered lazy?

Kind of. He gets bored easily, and that tends to result in him slacking off--or trying to pin whatever it is on someone else. If it’s something he actually cares about though? Hello obsession, my name is Idristan.

34. How hard is it for them to shake a sense of guilt?

That’s actually possible? Someone should really tell him; the guy hangs onto things and just beats himself up, sometimes for years. It’s not pretty.

35. How do they treat the things their friends come to them excited about? Are they supportive?

If it’s something that interests him, he’ll share in the excitement, at least to a degree. If not, you’re more likely to get a “yeah, that’s nice” and perhaps an attempt to change the topic.

36. Do they actively seek romance, or do they wait for it to fall into their lap?

He tends to wait for it.

37. Do they have a system for remembering names, long lists of numbers, things that need to go in a certain order (like anagrams, putting things to melodies, etc)?

For names he tries to memorize them along with the face. Or... sometimes tries, if he thinks it’ll actually be worth it. Long lists and numbers I can see him trying to turn into songs, or at least something he can hum.

38. What memory do they revisit the most often?

The happy ones are mainly of his family and the time he spent with Solenne and all of his friends in the last free company he was apart of. He doesn’t really try to dwell on them, especially now.

The unhappy ones... well, those tend to come up in nightmares and certain places. There are reasons he avoids certain places in the Shroud now.

39. How easy is it for them to ignore flaws in other people?

Very, very difficult.

40. How sensitive are they to their own flaws?

Oh, he’s aware of them. He just chooses to ignore them.

41. How do they feel about children?

He likes them. He wants some of his own one day.

42. How badly do they want to reach their end goal?

Extremely. It’s honestly a bit unhealthy.

43. If someone asked them to explain their sexuality, how would they do so?

“I mainly like women. Not that it’s likely any of your concern, because flings don’t really tend to interest me.”

QUESTIONS FOR CREATORS A) Why are you excited about this character?

He’s fun. He’s prickly enough to create conflict, but also has that hidden sense of empathy and concern for others--one that he will vehemently deny if you push him on it. He also has some fairly lofty goals that give him a direction to move in--even if it’s unlikely that he’ll ever achieve a few of them, watching him struggle is entertaining. Plus, he’s got a lot of stuff that he struggles with, so that can come into play--and a few secrets that can be danced around. Basically it’s just easy to throw him into things and see what happens. That and he’s gone through some really interesting growth already, and I’m interested in seeing which direction he moves in now.

B) What inspired you to create them?

Honestly? Two things. Thanks to the MSQ and some Ishgard rp I really started to like the setting and wanted an Ishgardian to play around on. Second, I fell in love with the characters from a podcast--or at least, the idea for one. Basically there was one guy who started out as a psychologist then got dragged into the occult and became a paranormal investigator. So I took the basic idea, twisted it a bit (voidsent hunter instead of investigator), and found a way to make it work with an Ishgardian backstory. He actually ended up pretty different than said character as a result, especially motivation-wise. C) Did you have trouble figuring out where they fit in their own story?

Sometimes. I feel like I’m really not that great at coming up with long-term plots, plus it hasn’t always been easy to find people that he bounces off of well. D) Have they always had the same physical appearance, or have you had to edit how they look?

Pretty much the same. I settled on what he would look like really on once I had an idea what I was working on.

E) Are they someone you would get along with? Would they get along with you?

No, probably not. I mean... the guy’s kind of a jerk. And he’s pretty particular about the people he likes. F) What do you feel when you think of your OC (pride, excitement, frustration, etc)?

Sometimes I just want to facepalm cause he’s a stubborn idiot who doesn’t always think about peoples’ feelings. But I’m proud of all the ways he’s changed too. G) What trait of theirs bothers you the most?

He is really self-destructive. He’s got some bad habits that he is actively not working on, has a bad tendency of pushing people away, and just.... being too prideful and stubborn to admit that he needs help. H) What trait do you admire most?

His stubbornness, ironically. He’s gone through a lot, yet he’s still around and he’s still empathetic to other people. He wants to do some good in the world. He hasn’t let it turn him completely resentful and bitter. I) Do you prefer to keep them in their canon universe?

I usually come up with new characters for new settings. An AU could be interesting though. J) Did you have to manipulate or exclude canon factors to allow them to create their character?

I had to dive really into Ishgard lore to make sure that I was getting everything right (hell, I had to check something fairly recently). So I feel fairly confident his backstory makes sense and fits with what we know. There’s been some other stuff that’s happened to him that’s a bit lore-bendy, and while I feel like I can justify it really well, I acknowledge what it is.

Tagged by: @ser-gemini​ Tagging: Anyone who wants to. It’s a bit long, so if you feel like it consider yourself tagged!

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My Martial Arts Story (TKD)

2020.04.26

today i miss my dojang extra... i woke up from a dream where i was supposed to spar but didnt have my dobok?? and one of my instructors handed me a.. dobok skirt?? and i was like? and he was like yeah u right this isnt gonna work sdbsmdfjsdd i dont really ever have tkd dreams (i think bc i usually am always doing tkd) but since i stopped for a bit the dreams are coming out. it made me miss sparring so much :( so below i wanted to talk about my tkd story in more detail. Enjoy!

i've actually always been a martial arts nerd, but moved around/focused on studying too much to commit to one until recently. I was talking to my mom the other day and neither of us can really remember what got me into it. I just remember wanting to be able to defend myself and be/feel strong from a very young age, and i knew martial arts was a way to do that. As a girl I also received a lot of messages that my gender was ‘weak’ and needed ‘protection’, which i really didnt like (it made me hate being a girl for some time). This is why i wanted to try martial arts. I discovered taekwondo when I was around 10 years old at a small dojang in my hometown. I loved the school & the master, who I remember always had a bamboo stick he would play around with when the kids started being rowdy (he never hit anyone, it was just his way to say ‘dont fck with me’ haha). but had to stop going after yellow belt because i was the oldest out of all the kids and i tried to go to adult classes for a while but i remember not liking it because it was ‘too slow’ for me and my mom couldnt drive me to late night classes. I was swimming a lot at the time too (fun fact i almost competed in synchronized swimming as a kid but had to stop due to illness (am totally fine now and it wasnt bad dont worry)). 

I didn’t do any martial arts in middle school, and only had brief encounters when i started high school. I dabbled in kick boxing (which i still love) through an intense week long training while i was on holiday with family, and then did a bit of karate, for which sadly i had not such a great experience with the instructor which made me distance myself from the sport. The instructor brought up a heavy personal life event during class and i broke down (what did she expect i was like 15 and that event was really hard). When my mom picked me up, she shook her head to her and said ‘girls...’ in a very demeaning way, as if me crying because she re-awoke trauma was a result of ‘feminine weakness.’ i have not forgiven that person for that comment yet. she shouldn’t be a teacher if she treats students like that in my opinion. High school was very competitive and intense so i focused on studying and didnt really do sports then.

In college I really want to do more martial arts, but the lack of proper clubs or instructors made it difficult. I then went to study abroad in seoul and thought to myself if i dont try tkd again in the literal birthplace of the sport what am i doing with my life. i had good experiences with classes at uni; the two masters i had had very different personalities (one was very outspoken and funny while the other.. you could FEEL the power of tkd when he touched your arm slightly to place it correctly sdhfskdj he was very nice though). I had to stop because i was focusing on my academic projects though. 

i then graduated and moved to the city, where finally there were plenty of martial arts opportunities! the first thing i did after moving to the city, even before moving into my apartment, was to visit my current dojang. i audited a class and in my head was like ’oh my god i MUST join them right now give me a dobok let’s GO’. I signed up for classes that day. The dojang master (my dad. my father, the love of my life (in the most platonic way)) was a seoulite (we bonded over that) and realized I hadn’t started my job yet so he gave me a discount, which i felt incredibly surprised by and grateful for. I started lessons the next day. at my dojang beginners usually get 3 private classes at the beginning to get the basics down before joining the group. after my first, the instructor said that i was probably ready to go with the group if i felt comfortable doing so bc i already had basics. i went every day until i moved into my apartment, when i had a mental and physical breakdown and got really sick for a week (like.. i dont remember feeling this weak and sick my entire life). 

But thankfully i got better and pushed myself to go to dojang again. and it was hard. it was the summer and i hadnt used my body really in years, if ever at that level of practice. three times a week as Difficult for me, physically. i remember being frustrated that my ego wasnt satisfied haha (i thought i remembered a lot more than i did). but i loved the instructors a ton and practice was a great safe space/stress relief for the other sht that was going on my my life. I do remember that i was ready to graduate from white belt and start feeling better about my moves by the end of that summer (i was pretty frustrated that i couldnt do higher level moves, though mostly at myself). 

i finally got yellow stripe and tkd things went uphill from then. i got to know ppl at my dojang better, started to go to practice more progressively. I got my yellow belt and decided then that i wanted tkd to always be in my life as much as possible. I started going to practice every day or almost every day. my tkd friendships were developing, there were small disagreements too but overall i fell more and more in love with my instructors, the dojang master (again, my dad) and the sport. we laughed so much, sweat so much, lived well.

after green stripe, my self consciousness during practice spiked a bit more than usual. this is probs bc my life outside of tkd was stressful and i was looking at my friend fellow tkd members who were higher level more. i wasnt jealous of them, far from it, i just felt small compared to what they were able to achieve and felt bad that the instructor had to stop to explain the technique to me Again. in case it wasn’t clear, i am no prodigy; i learn slowly and with long consistent practice. the two disagreements i had with my closest member friends (two separate very different reasons; we kept things civil on both sides but having to deal with that was a new experience for me so i wasnt great at it haha) didnt help my anxiety shut up during practice. i still kept at it. in january my school has an attendance challenge where you win prizes if you go every day or more than 20 days out of the month. I almost made it, but got really physically tired & kinda sick 3 days before then end of jan and had to miss one session. i was also mentally drained by life stuff so i decided to prioritize grad school applications and did less tkd in february. but that experience of going every damn day was so fun; i realized I needed to do this so much more. if there was a tkd seminar where they send you off somewhere to to tkd for like 3 months i would be down. that is when i realized my love for the sport, and the significant changes in my body that had been occurring over the past months really revealed themselves. i hear you thinking there’s no way i could fall more in love with my instructors but guess what... spending every day with them really made the love Explode dudes. In jan and fed i also really started loving sparring, even though im not great at it. 

and then... march came. i got lucky to have been able to celebrate my birthday a few days before they decided to close my state down. at first i was still able to go to my dojang with smaller classes and different format of classes that respected health guidelines, but eventually everything was moved online. during that week of limited classes, i got to hang out with friend members and instructors for what would be, unbeknownst to me, one of the last times. one night after (6 feet no contact) starring, me, 2 friend members who also went very frequently and an instructor had a beer on the mats just talking and chilling. we said that we would do it again the week after. and then the state decided to shut down small businesses. i was helping the dojang transfer their classes to an online format with another student for a week (we two were the members with the highest attendance in the recent times), but then the instructors decided they should not let students come in anymore. 

i was angry, i was sad, i was devastated. it was the sound solution to take and all these closings are essential and needed for public health safety, but emotionally i was not ready to let go of the dojang. i was angry at the circumstances for taking away the one thing that i truly loved and kept me going all those months of less than ideal job situation and lost of existential questions. the dojang had been my challenge, my rock, my family. i was especially angry because i had to mourn the loss of it a lot earlier than i wanted; i was already supposed to leave in june of this year. the closer june came the more teary eyed i got when i thought of leaving the dojang, but after the news i had to stop going now... i broke down. i cried so hard and loudly, alone in my room. i realize now it was the first time in my life that i cried because of love. pure, unaltered love. i thought to myself ‘how lucky is it that i felt this amount of love for something and some people’. ive moved a lot in my life but rarely felt sad when leaving a place; i often had made my goodbyes and knew it was just time to go. there were few or no things keeping me back, or i knew i would find those things somewhere else. it was also the first time i had let myself fall in love with something and people only for me. i love studying and learning for example, but when i started doing it it was mostly to make my mom and family happy, not for me. i didn’t feel like i had had a passion that i completely gave in into, a truly ‘me’ thing no one asked me or expected me to do but i just did not to have a better resume or be perceived better by society. until tkd.

now, i am still following online classes but mostly have my own training routine because it’s still hard to deal with the emotional stuff; i dont really do to live classes cause it hurts. it probably sounds strange but ive already done the emotional work of distancing myself to make the leaving less difficult. i also didnt really like the the idea of practicing in my room in front of the camera. seeing the other students on zoom would also make me feel v sad. im slowly getting out of that state of mind though and might start taking online classes again in a bit when i can’t do my regular training routine. im not sure when things will go back to normal but before i leave i will definitely send them gifts and goodbye messages, probably by mail. but yeah as of now i mostly follow my dojang’s videos, do my practice routine, and scroll through tkd tricking videos on instagram to keep motivated.

it’s kind of a sad note to end on but my tkd story does not end here. wherever im headed next I will find another dojang where i will continue to practice. i can only hope it is half as good as the family i found here. and of course now I have this blog! and will continue nerding out about kicking endlessly hahaha.

thanks for reading if you made it this far! you can ask me questions if you��d like! also tell me your tkd story!! its so cool to hear how life lead people to kicking.

[cxnsigliere]

ALL THE QUESTIONS BINCH and no erica totally didnt send this to herself haha what r u talking about.

when u desperately send an ask meme to urself bc u just wanna talk about ur dumb oc for no reason whatsoever

1. What’s the maximum amount of time your character can sit still with nothing to do?

about 10 minutes for king! he really cannot stay still for very long tbh, blame it on ADHD for the most part. if he sits down for too long, he starts to get really antsy and squirms in his seat the whole entire time. also a big reason why he always be skippin class in his high school verses roijwoirjgaegogij

2. How easy is it for your character to laugh?

very easy! honestly king usually makes himself laugh more than anything else tho. hes the kind of person who laughs at his own jokes. but honestly all u gotta do is tell like even the world’s shittiest joke to him and he’ll probably start cryin from laughter

3. How do they put themselves to bed at night (reading, singing, thinking?)

usually he’s just out like a light, so he doesnt have to do very much to put himself to sleep. if theres ever a night where he cannot sleep tho, tHEN HE GETS OUT THE ALCOHOL UNTIL HE PASSES OUT DRUNK, KING NO THATS BAD,

4. How easy is it to earn their trust?

pretty easy tbh?? like as long as you dont scare him and ur nice to him, he’s probably gonna trust u right off the bat

5. How easy is it to earn their mistrust?

ALSO PRETTY EASY. it all just depends how you act towards him.

6. Do they consider laws flexible, or immovable?

i guess it depends idk. generally immovable tho, but then, when has king ever gave a single fuck about the law???????????

7. What triggers nostalgia for them, most often? Do they enjoy that feeling?

he doesnt usually like to think about his past very much and avoids thinking about it as much as possible. he’s not sure what necessarily triggers any nostalgia for him– but when he’s left alone in silence with nothing but his own thoughts, that’s when he starts to think about his childhood, his dad, basically everything, and he hates it. thats why he very much prefers loud environments and likes to be in the company of other people, no matter who it is. he just hates having to think. if he’s ever in a situation where he’s stuck thinking about his past, especially if it has to do with amber kennedy or veronica delgado, he quickly turns to alcohol to drown out all his thoughts.

8. What were they told to stop/start doing most often as a child

his mother absolutely hated his smoking habits. of course, that wasn’t just him tho, bc his dad was a pretty heavy smoker too, but king would often be scolded by his mom because of it– especially when he ever got caught by a teacher smoking in school.

his father would often tell him, “Think before you say or do anything.” (as u can tell, its a lesson that went in one ear, out the other for king. lol) it’s because seeing as his dad was raising him to be a soldato someday, king would need a lot of brains for it. after all, working in the mafia can be very dangerous, and if you piss of the wrong people, you can obviously wind up dead very fast. and needless to say, king has always been skilled at pissing people off.

9. Do they swear? Do they remember their first swear word?

DUDE king has the mouth of a SAILOR!!!!!!! in case u didnt notice in his thread with sam lmao. as for his first ever swear, he probably just said the classic ol’ “FUCK” but i highly doubt he remembers it, bc he’s been swearin literally since he was like 8. blame his parents for that, he picked it up from them from watching them shout swears at each other 24/7. ironically, he’d always smack his siblings on the back of the head if he ever heard either of them swear.

10. What lie do they most frequently remember telling? Does it haunt them?

the whole trial of Amber Kennedy’s murder tbh. that was basically nothing but lies, and how he first was able to get away with killing her for a while in the first place (until the case was reviewed ofc). it still haunts him, but not because he regrets killing Amber or anything, but more because that’s the whole reason his mother lost her job as a lawyer. he feels more bad about that than killing someone.

11. How do they cope with confusion (seek clarification, pretend they understand, etc)?

seek clarification! unless he’s trying to prove that he’s right about something.

12. Already answered!

13. What color do they think they look best in? Do they actually look best in that color?

brown, as u can tell by his design which has like 93850245 shades of brown in it. id say its probably his best color! that, or red.

14. What animal do they fear most?

bIG DOGS

15. How do they speak? Is what they say usually thought of on the spot, or do they rehearse it in their mind first?

he talks like fuckin LIGHTNING man. he talks so goddamn fast, someone slow him down pls. he also never thinks before he says anything (often making him say the most horrible things at the wrong time). he’s got a very small vocabulary and hates using or even hearing big words.

16. What makes their stomach turn?

anything that’s like dark or “””scary”””. basically goth aesthetic? scares the shit outta him. i know it’s such a weird thing, but listen, king is a pussy.

17. Are they easily embarrassed?

not really. dude has no shame when it comes to most things, but there probably are certain things that can embarrass him.

18. What embarrasses them?

his fear of water! he sees it as such a silly thing to be deathly afraid of, and never wants to admit it.

19. What is their favorite number?

69 UHHHH 28 bc thats his lucky number!

20. If they were asked to explain the difference between romantic and platonic or familial love, how would they do so?

he doesn’t really know how to put it into words, but there certainly is a big difference with them. someone he’s romantically attracted to is the kind of person that will make his heart skip a beat or make him easily flustered and be with all day every day!

for platonic, it depends on just how deep that friendship goes– like a simple friendly acquaintance he couldnt really give less of a fuck about, its just someone he can joke around with, but there does come a point where they feel like a second family to him, and he would go into harm’s way to protect that person, so long as it doesn’t put his life at risk.

for familial love, it’s a little complicated with him. King loves all of his family very much, but after all that he did to his parents in his earlier years, he knows that they don’t always feel the same way toward him, or most people in his family are just so disappointed with how he turned out, that he couldn’t handle it– it’s such a big reason why he faked his death and abandoned most of his family aside for a few. he wants to protect them, and to do so, he feels he should just stay away from them. (tbh tho hes probably right his family dont deserve him)

21. Why do they get up in the morning? 

mostly just bc he’s got that Elderly Person Sleep Schedule™ hONESTLY. he goes to sleep very early and wakes up early. for no reason in particular either, it’s just the way he likes. unless, of course, there comes a night where he blacks out drunk, in which case, his sleep schedule is all over the place.

22. How does jealousy manifest itself in them (they become possessive, they become aloof, etc)? 

SEEING SOMEONE HE WANTS THE ATTENTION OF HAVING FUN WITH SOMEONE ELSE….. it can be either a friend or a lover, but if they’re having fun without him and completely ignore him, hE’LL GET SO MAD LIKE JFC…… he’s been getting better about it, but it can become scary real fast at some point. he’s very, very possessive and gets jealous VERY easily. mostly just bc he wants all the attention 24/7

23. How does envy manifest itself in them (they take what they want, they become resentful, etc)?

he hates hates hates seeing people with their dads. he gets so jealous and remembers “oH HEY, MY DAD IS FUCKIN’ DEAD. HAHA!!!” he doesn’t actually do anything about it, but he does become very pouty and depressed. probably a great time for alcohol for him tbh

24. Is sex something that they’re comfortable speaking about? To whom?

absolutely!!!!!! he’ll talk about it with almost just about anyone bc he has no shame.

25. What are their thoughts on marriage? 

he’s not really sure, and he’s a little hesitant to think about marriage (at least rn anyway bc hes still p young). after his countless shitty experiences with relationships in the past, and witnessing how bad his mom and dad’s marriage was, it’s really not something he likes to think about.

26. What is their preferred mode of transportation?

any old-fashioned ass car tbh. any car from the 30s? hell yes.

27. What causes them to feel dread?

anything that makes him feel threatened in any way tbh

28. Would they prefer a lie over an unpleasant truth?

YES. ABSOLUTELY. he’d rather hear what he wants to hear than what he needs to hear.

29. Do they usually live up to their own ideals?

well his ideal self would be to be exactly like his dad, and so far, that is nOT THE CASE. SO NOPE.

30. Who do they most regret meeting?

AMBER

31. Already answered!

32. Do they have a go-to story in conversation? Or a joke?

not really. he forgets most of the shit he says bc he has a terrible memory.

33. Could they be considered lazy?

nah, i dont think so. he’s almost always outside wandering around and actually doing productive shit, and hates feeling lethargic.

34. How hard is it for them to shake a sense of guilt?

BINCH IT STAYS WITH HIM FOR THE REST OF HIS LIFE-

35. How do they treat the things their friends come to them excited about? Are they supportive?

sure! i mean it depends what it is tho

36. Do they actively seek romance, or do they wait for it to fall into their lap?

he actively seeks it– i mean he’s not gonna go around searching for some cute person, but if he just so happens to see someone he finds attractive, u bet ur ass he’s gonna go flirt with that person.

37. Do they have a system for remembering names, long lists of numbers, things that need to go in a certain order (like anagrams, putting things to melodies, etc)?

not really. if it’s something that’s really important, he’ll just write it down in a mini notepad he always has with him.

38. Already answered!

39. How easy is it for them to ignore flaws in other people?

it depends who it is. if it’s someone he likes, he usually just ignores all their flaws and holds them in a “theyre fucking perfect in every way omfg” viewpoint. if it’s someone that generally bugs him, basically every single thing they do annoys the shit out of him.

40. How sensitive are they to their own flaws?

very much so, especially when they’re pointed out at all! but he usually refuses to think about it, because he wants to believe he’s practically perfect (he knows deep down he isnt tho)

41. How do they feel about children?

king loves kids, and wants children when he’s older someday! which is ironic, bc he actually SUCKS with kids. dont let him have any. pls.

42. How badly do they want to reach their end goal?

he’s not really sure what his end goal is at the moment.

43. If someone asked them to explain their sexuality, how would they do so?

“girls are nice as FUCK, but also, who the hell gives a shit, ill fuck anyone”he doesnt even know what his sexuality is tbh, rip king

QUESTIONS FOR CREATORS

A) Why are you excited about this character?

GOD as infuriating as king can be, he’s just so exciting to write!!!!! like, it’s impossible to be in a bad mood when ur writing with king, its so fun.

B) What inspired you to create them?

i wanted to make an oc that looked kinda like Q from Street Fighter, and I also based him heavily on Al Capone! As to how I came up with the alias ‘King’, i literally got it from King from Tekken bc why not. except oc King himself thought of it bc he lived in Kings, New York

C) Did you have trouble figuring out where they fit in their own story?

not really! king is pretty unpredictable, even for me, but he’s so easy to fit into just about anything.

D) Have they always had the same physical appearance, or have you had to edit how they look?

ive edited how he looks a LOT tbh. when i first made him, his design was a lot more simple, and he was sKINNY….. and god let me tell u, looking back, seeing king as skinny is so unsettling. his scarred eye also changed a lot, i used to b a lazy ass and just draw a black line through his eye, but now its like FULL ON WIDE-OPEN SLASH THAT FUCKING DESTROYED HIS PUPIL AND IRIS YKNOW… idk just small things like that

E) Are they someone you would get along with? Would they get along with you?

HELL NO……… NOT AT ALL. im the type of person king would be afraid of, and he has a lot of personality traits in him that i dESPISE IN A PERSON……….. like if i met king irl id probably try to fight him honestly.

F) What do you feel when you think of your OC (pride, excitement, frustration, etc)?

UHHH A LOT OF EMOTIONS GOIN ON THERE MAN. im proud of him like ooc wise bc hes such a unique muse with a unique backstory that so many people actually enjoy and wanna hear about, and holy shit that makes me so happy?!?!?! but also ANGERY bc. well, i mean, its king. hes an aSSHOLE.

G) What trait of theirs bothers you the most?

BOY THERES A LOT, but if i had to go with one, probably the fact that king nEVER OWNS UP TO HIS MCFUCKING MISTAKES!!!!! like if u call him out on his bullshit he’ll be all like “UM I DID NOTHING WRONG, WHY AM I BEING BULLIED??” AND IT MAKES ME SO MAD, I WANNA SMACK HIM!!!!!!!

H) What trait do you admire most?

hes funny as hell, like, u gotta give him that. whether he means to be funny or not, hE CRACKS ME THE HELL UP

I) Do you prefer to keep them in their canon universe?

tbh yes, bc he kinda is meant to be a huge New Yorker dude, and he doesnt fit very well in any verse where he has like magic powers or shit like that bc i can only see him as a plain ass human being tbh??? idk if that makes any sense but. i mEAN I DONT REALLY CARE THO, ILL STILL THROW HIM IN LIKE 100000 VERSES ANYWAY.

J) Did you have to manipulate or exclude canon factors to allow them to create their character?

not really i think idk????? i mean ive had to revamp his backstory like a SHIT TON SO MANY TIMES, and even now i still sometimes get like huge realizations of his backstory that can definitely change every now and then. and back in the Olden Days™, i used to write him as like this huge moody crybaby, but also someone who had no fears whatsoever and overpowered as fuck and eventually i was like “ok i gotta buckle the fuck down and actually write him the way i see him, tf am i doing :/” and GOD i hate the way i used to write him when i first made him and shit, he had such an edgy backstory and his personality was like “LOL NO WEAKNESSES” but lOOK AT HIM NOW…….. he has come a long way as a character and im happy

[sttngfashion]

Yesterday’s Enterprise - 3.15

Now, you might be thinking, “haven’t you all done this one already?” And you would be right, TECHNICALLY we have “done” this one. But that post is from SEVEN YEARS AGO and it is QUITE UNDERWHELMING. It’s literally like the second post we ever did. So upon the recommendation of Friend of the Blog Grace M., I’m revisiting this one. 

It starts with a charming scene between Guinan and Worf in which Guinan is wearing one of her signature “teardrop” hats:

What’s the likelihood that there is a nail polish called Aubergine-ius out there somewhere

This is par for the Guinan course - a soft, drapey fabric in a jewel tone, a hat that looks like a knit cap with a shape in the top of it, a sensible neutral lip. Comforting and familiar, like your grandma’s noodles or the fact that the second guest star introduced in a Law and Order: SVU is almost certainly the culprit.

Guinan introduces Worf to prune juice, which he calls “a warrior’s drink,” which is hilarious because it makes you poop. She then tells him that he might want to seek some “companionship” with the human females, some of whom, she says, might find him “meek.” His reaction is like me when someone tells me I might want to stop wearing bold prints:

LOL FOREVER

Worf’s reasoning is that the human females are “too fragile” for “companionship,” but I think there are more than a few humans who would be DOWN to CLOWN with a KLINGOWN.

Their delightful repartee ends when some sort of anomaly is discovered near the Enterprise. Guinan, of course, senses something:

Enterprise, you in danger, girl

This shadowy shot will turn out to be a favorite in this episode. Anyway, here’s what the anomaly looks like, which is basically just a blue space cloud:

“THIS SPACE CLOUD HAS NO HONOR” - Worf

For a moment, the bridge is just normal, giving us a glimpse of Deanna’s asymmetrical turquoise dress and leggings combo (which was the only outfit Charlie addressed in our first take on this ep):

Regular degular bridge

BUT THEN something WEIRD happens!!!!

This is the camera they used for Sex and the City 2

There is a...flickering...or something, and SUDDENLY everything is ALL DIFFERENT:

Who approved this lighting? It makes my pores look huge

“That’s just Picard on the bridge,” you might be thinking. But in case it wasn’t clear that something weeeEEEEEeeeiiiirrRrddd is going on:

What the fuuuuuuuck

TASHA?!?!??! GIRL YOU DIED. Also where did you get that cute belt??

Just to reinforce that SOMETHING IS WRONG, we cut to Guinan, who is wearing both a different outfit and a very concerned face: 

The blue symbolizes how sad I am right now

Another Classic Guinan look, with some super interesting detail at the top there. I love this asymmetrical seam that keeps the collar area smooth and then billows out into a beautiful blue box-pleated curtain. This would look HILARIOUSLY BAD on me but if anyone would like me to attempt to make this top for you, please send me your measurements. 

So it turns out that what is wrong is that the Enterprise-C - the previous iteration of the Enterprise - came through the space cloud, which was apparently a time rift. Obviously. However, no one in THIS timeline KNOWS that the timeline is “wrong” except Guinan, who spends a lot of the episode with this face:

Props to Whoopi for that excellent brow furrow when she doesn’t even have any brows

When the Enterprise-C came through the rift, they were in the middle of a firefight with some Romulans, trying to defend a Klingon outpost. In the “real” timeline, they were successful and the Federation gained the trust of the Klingon Empire. In this “fake” timeline, the Enterprise-C failed to protect the outpost and the war has been going on for like 20 years. Which is why the Federation folks all have weapon belts, I guess? And apparently everyone gets to wear their weapon belts HOWEVER THEY WANT:

It’s how I express myself

If you were wondering what a crossing guard vest as designed by Jean-Paul Gaultier would look like, WONDER NO LONGER.

The crew of OUR Enterprise boards the OLD Enterprise and collects their captain, who’s been injured. She and her crew are all dressed in the old Federation uniforms, i.e., the ones from the TOS movies, which is fun! 

Even though I’m injured, my hair looks GREAT

For comparison purposes, here’s Kirk et al in the old unis:

Yep, pretty good

I actually really love these uniforms because I ALWAYS love an asymmetrical front opening. 

Also on board from the Old Enterprise is Lieutenant Shooter McGavin:

He eats pieces of shit for breakfast

He’s also clad in the old uniform, and if I’m not mistaken, they tried to give him a slightly “old-fashioned” hair look here to really hammer home the idea that he’s from “20 years ago.” His captain’s hair, however, is having a volume-off with Dr. Crusher:

I’m the goddamn captain and my hair looks great

You step to this wig, you best not miss

You’ll notice here that Crusher’s blue coat is not at all different in the alternate timeline because it is the platonic ideal of medical personnel wear. 

Some more fighting happens and eventually Guinan convinces Captain Picard that in order to restore the “real” timeline, the crew of the Old Enterprise must go back and sacrifice themselves to save the Klingon outpost. They take it...really well? The captain is like “mmmm...okay cool.” 

Tasha Yar has really been hitting it off with Shooter McGavin, so as he prepares to return to the Old Enterprise, we get this look:

Romance means boring a hole in each others’ faces with your eyes

Her hair looks really good and slick in this episode. Also note that Shooter has the Federation-standard pointy sideburns. 

Aw jeez, just kiss!!

It’s fine if you’re straight but why do you have to throw it in my face like that

Remember when I said earlier that the SHADOW SHOT was real popular in this ep? Now we get a scene between Yar and Picard that is like THE MOST DRAMATICALLY LIT SCENE OF ALL TIME:

Chiaroscuro in the house

MY TORTURED MIND

Tasha’s mind is a little bit tortured, though, because Guinan told her SHE WAS DEAD IN REAL LIFE. Like she just straight up told her that they were never supposed to meet and that Tasha died a meaningless death. Way harsh, Guinan!!!

We also get a taste of an old timey non-officer look when Shooter returns to the Old Enterprise:

Why does this look like a photo from a community theater production of The Wrath of Khan

It’s a flipsy-flopsy of what we have going on with the TNG uniforms, with the shoulder panel a horrible beige and the rest of the uniform in red. I know you all come here for the incisive costume analysis, so: I hate it. That beige looks stupid.

Meanwhile, shit is going wrong everywhere because the Klingons are attacking both Enterprises. Geordi gets stuck in a weird rave:

New York’s hottest club is: Warp Core

And then RIKER DIES:

Some excellent wound makeup work here

But don’t worry, because Old Enterprise goes into the rift and restores history to normal:

Byeeeeeeeeeee

Back in regular Enterprise land, Guinan and Geordi enjoy a drink in Ten-Forward, served by one of the waitstaff because I guess Guinan is on a break??

I call this look The Poodle

And because Guinan met Yar for the first time in the alternate timeline, she asks Geordi to tell her about her. Aw.

Here’s the flyer Geordi made to publicize his club:

Only Data showed up

And here, since you never know when you might need it:

[cosmicmoved]

𝐒𝐖𝐄𝐄𝐓𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐃'𝐒 𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐏𝐏𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐅𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄𝐒 (𝘴𝘰𝘳𝘵𝘢)

initial disclaimer that shipping is really not a super high priority for me --- i think it’s fun and i enjoy it decently enough --- and i’d be perfectly happy just to develop platonic bonds for most of my muses! i’d never push a ship on anybody! feel free to ignore this post if you’re not interested in keeping this info in mind. i’m really just posting this because i feel like i need to keep track of it. maybe some stuff written here will change. that’s the fun of character development! sorry if this is kind of a confusing and pointless post overall ASDSDFGHGFD (also i’m totally willing to write short-term ships where the characters eventually break up bc that’s just how life is & i’m also chill with plotlines that involve our muses being exes or smth?)

ANYWAY, this is mostly just in order of how they appear on my muses page. All muses are multiship unless I say otherwise. Also I don’t really like writing age gaps so, unless I say otherwise, I probably won’t write a ship with a gap bigger than like 3 or 4 years (so long as the other character is at least 20).

AKIMOTO MIO Mio would probably be the most straightforward of them all. She’s a total romantic and she LOVES love. Mio is a lesbian and, naturally, will ONLY date women. She doesn’t really think of herself as having a ‘type’ but she likes cool women. The definition of cool here is pretty broad but she’d like someone who seems like they could sweep her off her feet. She’s really into that idea of living life like a romance drama. She doesn’t mind if you’re a little aloof, even finds it a little attractive. There’s an intimacy in watching someone open up to you. Her biggest turn-off is a mean spirit.

TOMO KATSUMURA This probably needs its own in-depth post lmao...Tomo doesn’t date because he has serious hangups about it so it’d definitely need to be a bit of a slowburn (either he falls for a friend & or he falls for someone he’s been shagging). It’s just a very confusing area for him and he’s scared of heartbreak? But he’s also the type to fall HARD for someone when he does fall. Uhhhh, just read this post & all the tags so I don’t have to repeat myself rip!! He’s bi w/an overall masc preference. This is not public knowledge.

BAEK SUMI I actually haven’t really thought this one through. I guess shipping isn’t a huge concern for me with Sumi so I’ll say...if it happens, it happens! She’s got a flirty personality in general so please don’t mistake that for me trying to push a ship. If she feels like telling your muse they’re pretty, she will but that doesn’t mean she’s at all interested. However, she’s also the type to take initiative, I think! If she’s interested in someone, she’ll probably tell them but she won’t get too upset if it’s one-sided.

KIM MINWOO Minwoo is a little inconsistent, I guess. He dates people, he’ll sleep with people, but he has a hard time keeping things going very long. It’s sort of like he gets pulled in by the initial spark and then things fizzle out pretty quick, mostly because he doesn’t know what he’s really looking for. And that’s okay, it’s not a huge concern for him. Essentially, he doesn’t have the time to date properly and, if he was dating someone, they’d have to be understanding of his schedule being an Awful Fucking Hellzone. In any case, he does this shit because it’s the normal thing to do. He hasn’t really felt that emotionally invested. Maybe shipping with Min would be tricky because he has that wall up and he probably seems a little distant so, for that reason, he’d probably be better of with someone he knew beforehand. At least he’d care less about keeping up appearances. Also he’s bi. Slight preference for girls. This, like with Tomo, is not public knowledge.

HOSHINO RIKA I think this would have to be a natural development kind of deal. I can’t see myself agreeing to a ship with Rika based on nothing and going from there. It would have to be with a character she already knew, based on how they got on in existing threads. Rika’s very shy and there’s absolutely no chance of her dating someone unless she was used to them. You have to be a kind person!! Fun and lively but maybe in a gentle way! A romance that feels...warm like a sunset...full of reassurance! She’d probably like someone ‘braver’ than her, someone more confident and outgoing but wouldn’t force her to keep up with their pace. She’s bi without any particular preference. Ideally someone who wouldn’t be weirded about by the witch thing but also someone who isn’t bothered by her not having realised she was a witch until later on.

ACE KWONG With all due respect, I don’t want to ship this guy with anyone lmao? Ace isn’t like...evil...he’s not a villain but also...he’s just not really a character I want to ship off with anyone. He’s not a romantic character and tbh he’s kind of a jerk and a...little unhinged. I cannot see him maintaining a healthy romantic relationship.

JUN Annoying. ADFGHJHGFDFGHGFDH I haven’t actually written Jun properly in like....2 or 3 years so I’m not really thinking about this right now. What I WILL say, however, is that Jun is a shameless flirt. Not necessarily a good one but a shameless one for sure. He’ll hit on pretty girls and it’ll be awful. This is NOT me pushing a ship, PLEASE have your muse tell him where he can shove it.

KOJI KITAHARA, SEUNGJAE AHN, JISOO HADEN These three are kept off the table because I’ve already got in-process ship plotlines happening for them. Seungjae’s applies to his FFVIII verse plotline so idk about his main/modern verse but I’m not really interested in doing anything there right now. I’m quite happy to keep these two with what they’ve got.

[dragonsongs-reprise]

Ranpo, Kunikida, and Dazai for the ask meme?

Give Me A Character; And I’ll break their ass down:

Sorry in advance for the long response!

Ranpo:

How do I feel about this character:One of the more interesting characters of the series as he has no ability despite the series focusing almost solely on ability users. A good boy that made me emotional while reading his light novel (okay, I also cried at the Oda scene like the Oda fangirl I am but that’s besides the point). A small boy that I wanna protect.

All the people I ship romantic with this character:Poe: I just,, love how pure Ranpoe is. They are soft boys together.Also, I feel into Ranzai hell because I hate getting new content of the ships I like. Okay, but Dazai and Ranpo have the personalities and capability of having great chemistry together and I just,, I love them smart boys together,

My non-romantic OTP for this character:Yosano: They just have nights where they hang out talking shit about everyone else while also talking about their love life.Fukuzawa: Give me the father/son content that I need! Also: In AU’s where Oda survived, them being good friends, it A+ stuff

My unpopular opinion about this character:He’s not the gremlin man-child the fandom makes him out to be.

One thing i wish would happen/ had happened with this character in canon:More of the interactions Ranpo had with Fukuzawa and the ADA members between light novel 3 and the current story.

Let me put the rest under a read more cause I wrote so much!!

Kunikida:

How do I feel about this character:Uhh, besides the fact that he is one of two characters I’ll cry about for an hour about in this series? Okay, let me be serious here. Kunikida is the best written and developed character in the series besides Oda. He is such a good boy. The fact that he holds onto his ideals and the way of life he set out for himself even when these are constantly tested and pushed over and over again is just so awe-inspiring. Such a noble man and a person of virtue. He so selfless and he just wants to protect everyone he can. And the moment that he fails for whatever reason, the lose hits him hard. And even when he loses someone, he puts his heart out for people again and again. He just wants, no needs, to help people, the consequences to himself be damned. I just,,,, really love Kunikida and I can and will cry about him.Also, he’s a sharped dressed glasses boy with long hair, I was in love with his design before I even fell in love with his character

All the people I ship romantic with this character:Dazai: Since the very first episode of the anime. These two truly understand each other better then anyone else at the agency. Also, they care about each other so much!!! They have their fights sure, but they’re never malicious in nature. Please, just read light novel 1! It’s the good Kunikidazai content, and it shows just how quickly they get to understand and know each other.Katai: Ever since chapter.41 got translated, I fall in love with them. First off, childhood friends guys, the good stuff. But, they truly are such good friends that care about each other so much and would go to any length for each other!Oda: In AU’s where Oda lives. I think the two of them would get along so well, They’re similar in many ways, yet they have enough little differences in their view points and life experiences that they wouldn’t become stale togetherAngo: Glasses boys that deal with DazaiAlso, lowkey ship with Chuuya and Ranpo

My non-romantic OTP for this character: Anyone under 18 in the series are now his kids, no ifs or buts. He’s every child’s parent now. A family can be a 22 year old man and his many kidsFukuzawa: Father/son bonding over training together

My unpopular opinion about this character: Stop making Kunikida heartless and cold 2K17!!!

One thing i wish would happen/ had happened with this character in canon:“Slides Asagiri $20* Please, I beg you. Give me the forbidden Kunikida backstory on how he became the driven man he is nowKunikidazai team up in the manga, please!Also, Kunikatai going to school togetherWhat do you mean I was only supposed to list 1 thing??

Dazai:

How do I feel about this character: I hate this guy *starts sweating* Okay, I love Dazai a lot! But! I’m not gonna be a Dazai apologist, the boy has done MANY things wrong, Yet, I find myself so invested in him, even though he’s one of the biggest asshole in the entire series. Characters with grey morality and complex issues that aren’t explored to their full potential in canon are some of my favorite character types, and Dazai is like my top choice for both of these. Also, he’s so much fun to dissect and break down into meta writing and just trying to understand his thinking is fascinating to me.Also, the man is really fucking pretty. 10/10, no matter what he’s wearing or what era it is

All the people I ship romantic with this character: Kunikida: As I said before, I’m a HUGE Kunikidazai shipper. I love how Dazai actually respects Kunikida and the man’s dreams and ideals. Dazai himself may be a pragmatist, but he loves the fact that Kunikida can still be this idealistic person even when the world kicks him down over and over. They just,,, have a wonderful relationship built of mutual trust and respect for each otherRanpo: These two are the closest in intelligence out of the ADA and both of them have a talent of being able to read people. I think they would have an interesting dynamic together.Fyodor: Purely for the aesthetic and dynamic that a relationship could bring. It wouldn’t be a 100% healthy relationship, but,,, blame the Callme RP circle and my love for ships where both people are so similar in some ways that it’s terrifying for this.Chuuya: Lowkey, but let it be known. The only reason that I started to really like them together was because someone brought up a Yokai & hunter AU and they said they didn’t know anything about yokai lore so they couldn’t talk about it and my yokai loving ass went: Hey!!!! I can write that!!!

My non-romantic OTP for this character: Oda: Their platonic relationship is super important to me. I just,,, really love itFukuzawa: Give me Fukuzawa being a good boss to Dazai and trying to be a positive role of authority in Dazai’s life after he worked with Mori the cuck.Yosano: Give me these two being drinking buddies and going to bars and having competitions with each other over who can have the most people respond positively towards their flirting.Hirotsu: Mafia granddad who still cares about Dazai after he left the mafia, I just really love it

My unpopular opinion about this character: We gotta stop with the thing that people do where they say that Dazai’s past actions are okay because he’s gotten better. Cause that ain’t how redemption works.Also, he isn’t the best written character in the series currently. Even though I can see how he easily could be written better.

One thing i wish would happen/ had happened with this character in canon: Let! Him! Fail! He needs to fall down a peg and he neds to know that he can be wrong! I’m kinda tired of the “It was all part of my keikaku all along!” bullshit(Translator note: Keikaku means plan)Also, can we have more time dictated to show how these problems that Dazai clearly has affects his day-to-day life? Like, show us that sometimes he’s too depressed to even get out of bed for work in the morning.

[cassercole]

all of the odds for leah and all the evens for rachel please :)))

Send me a # (questions for OCs) or a letter (questions for creators) and I’ll answer

LEAH: 

1. What’s the maximum amount of time your character can sit still with nothing to do?

Maybe like two minutes? She gets antsy very easily and always finds herself tapping her fingers together or tapping her foot. Leah needs to keep busy or else she feels like she’s going insane. 

3. How do they put themselves to bed at night (reading, singing, thinking?)How easy is it to earn their trust?

Usually she just messes around on her phone until her eyes get heavy. Then she just rolls over and goes to sleep!  

5. How easy is it to earn their mistrust?

Oh very easy. Leah doesn’t trust a lot of people in general so when someone does something untrustworthy, she basically blacklists them and it takes a bit for them to get back on her list of trustworthy people.

7. What triggers nostalgia for them, most often? Do they enjoy that feeling?

The Hale house triggers a lot of nostalgia for Leah and it makes her uncomfortable because she doesn’t understand why.  

9. Do they swear? Do they remember their first swear word?

Ah fuck yes she swears! And she doesn’t remember it, but Connor does -- it was fuck and she was trying to say truck. 

11. How do they cope with confusion (seek clarification, pretend they understand, etc)?

Most times, Leah just pretends to understand; she doesn’t like feeling like she’s out of touch, but sometimes she does as for clarification -- very loudly.

13. What color do they think they look best in? Do they actually look best in that color?

She thinks she looks best in blue or black! And she does! 

15. How do they speak? Is what they say usually thought of on the spot, or do they rehearse it in their mind first?

It def depends on the person! When it comes to certain people, she just blurts out whatever’s on her mind, but sometimes she overanalyzes it and takes her time.  

17. Are they easily embarrassed?

Nah! 

19. What is their favorite number?

24! And she wanted it to be her lacrosse jersey number, but Stiles stole it from her. 

21. Why do they get up in the morning? 

Because she’s gotta help save the day from whatever supernatural creatures are hunting them down, duh

23. How does envy manifest itself in them (they take what they want, they become resentful, etc)? 

When Leah’s envious, she just bottles it up until it explodes in a sudden fit of rage. It’s not a great way, but she doesn’t like facing her feelings

25. What are their thoughts on marriage? 

She wants to get married! Her parents have a super healthy marriage and Leah just wants to be like that and be happy with someone who loves her like her dad loves her mom

27. What causes them to feel dread? 

Whenever her friends or family are in trouble!  Or about to get in trouble. 

29. Do they usually live up to their own ideals? 

She doesn’t think she does, but some of her friends do! For as much as Leah seems like she has a lot of confidence -- a lot of it is fake.  

31. Who are they the most glad to have met? 

Leah is most glad to have met Scott! They’re best friends and she trusts him more than anyone in the world. Plus, he sort of unknowingly helped her unlock a major part of her past that’s been hidden from her. 

33. Could they be considered lazy? 

I don’t think so! Leah’s always very go, go, go and sure, she’ll complain, but she’ll do it! 

35. How do they treat the things their friends come to them excited about? Are they supportive? 

When it’s Allison or Scott, she’s very supportive of the things they’re excited about like will support them 100%. But when it comes to Stiles, her first go to is to make fun of him, but that’s just her way of supporting him lol

37. Do they actively seek romance, or do they wait for it to fall into their lap? 

For a while, she just waited for it to fall into her lap/didn’t even want it. But then she realizes she actually has to put work into it (aka with Stiles) so she’s trying to be a little more proactive. 

39. What memory do they revisit the most often? 

Probably the one of what happened at the Hale house. Just because she wants to untangle it and make sense of it.  

41. How sensitive are they to their own flaws?

Very sensitive. She doesn’t like when people point them out and more often or not gets very, very defensive. 

43. If someone asked them to explain their sexuality, how would they do so?  

Very much into whoever catches her eye ;)

RACHEL: 

2. How easy is it for your character to laugh?

Oh it’s not. She doesn’t laugh often, or at all. Honestly, there’s probably two people in the world that can make her laugh and one of them is Connor.

4. How easy is it to earn their trust?

Not very easy. She pretends that she trusts them to get close to them, but in reality, she doesn’t trust anyone. 

6. Do they consider laws flexible, or immovable?

Rachel consider laws very flexible. They can be worked around and used to their advantage. 

8. What were they told to stop/start doing most often as a child?

As a kid, Rachel was told to start paying attention and taking things seriously. She was told to stop hiding and disappearing around the house. 

10. What lie do they most frequently remember telling? Does it haunt them?

Rachel’s told a lot of lies in her life so she loses track of how many she tells and when, but she remembers one lie that she told to someone -- that she didn’t love them when she did. And it haunts her all the time. 

12. How do they deal with an itch found in a place they can’t quite reach?

Usually she just grabs the nearest thing or person and uses it to itch it until it goes away. And it doesn’t matter when or where they are.

14. What animal do they fear most?

She doesn’t quite fear it but she hates spiders; they remind her of her childhood. 

16. What makes their stomach turn?

Not much! Rachel’s seen a lot of terrible, horrible, disgusting things in her life. She doesn’t get queasy easily. 

18.  What embarrasses them?

Nothing much! Again, her childhood/teen years made her very much immune to embarrassment.

20. If they were asked to explain the difference between romantic and platonic or familial love, how would they do so?

Romantic love is something Rachel hasn’t felt in a very long time. It was for a split second, but she never felt anything else like that. And she can only describe it as pure bliss --  a moment where she was truly herself in the arms of the man who was non judging, knew her secrets: all the good, the bad and the ugly and accepted her. 

Platonic love is what she feels whenever she’s around Connor. The trust and support of a friend, something that she hadn’t had in a long time. And whenever she’s around Connor, she feels almost normal. 

Familial love is unknown to Rachel. She knows what a family could be, but her familial love was controlling and manipulative, hard and cold. It was passive aggressive and could change at a moments notice. 

22. How does jealousy manifest itself in them (they become possessive, they become aloof, etc)?

Jealousy on Rachel is not a good color. She becomes extremely possessive and makes it very clear that what’s hers, is hers -- whether it was before or not. 

24.  Is sex something that they’re comfortable speaking about? To whom?

Oh yes. She doesn’t care who knows who she had sex with and when. 

26. What is their preferred mode of transportation?

A car! 

28. Would they prefer a lie over an unpleasant truth?

Obviously a lie. It’s what she knows

30. Who do they most regret meeting?

Her father lol. 

32. Do they have a go-to story in conversation? Or a joke?

She doesn’t have a go-to story or a joke! She usually just sits in the conversation, listening; she’s learned people reveal a lot more to a quiet person rather than one who talks a lot. 

34. How hard is it for them to shake a sense of guilt?

Not very hard! Rachel doesn’t feel guilt about anything she’s done; it was necessary. 

36. Do they have a system for remembering names, long lists of numbers, things that need to go in a certain order (like anagrams, putting things to melodies, etc)?

Nope! Basically, she’ll remember someone’s name if they’re important to her or if she needs them for something. If not, she’s most likely going to forget their name

38. How easy is it for them to ignore flaws in other people?

Not very easy. She notices a lot about people in the matter of a few seconds. And she can pick out people’s flaws in a few moments. That way she can use them against the person. 

40. How do they feel about children?

Hates em. 

[pastwinter]

there are some romantic plots below for each of my babes that i’m dying to write!! feel free to like this or shoot me a message if something catches your eye!

baek jinho | runaway manhwa artist | heterosexual | 24

a lil inspired by the truth untold by bts, i’d love!! a plot in which emotionally cautious jinho develops feelings for muse b ( a literal light! someone who really knows how to pull jinho out of her shell ) , and as is her habit, she keeps it all bottled in and hides it -- but! she’s awfully honest in her latest manhwa in which she depicts the protagonist finding the courage to admit her feelings, and it’s honestly so obvious!! that the love interest is a portrayal of muse b!! to everyone except muse b who has yet to read the manhwa ( or maybe they’re just oblivious ) . and maybe if we want to take it down the angsty route, muse b gets into a relationship with someone before jinho can confess her feelings?? 

ideally i’d like for muse b to have an outgoing personality seeing as jinho can lean towards reserved. age doesn’t matter so much really?? but she’s heterosexual, so muse b must be male.

jinho’s 24 and she has a little brother who’s 19, so anyone around that age she’ll label as a “ kid ” and dote on them like she would her brother so if anyone wants a classic “ i like you but you treat me like a child B(( ” plot, come at me!! and either gender could work here, but it’ll be angsty if your muse is a gal since jinho can’t return her feelings... and doesn’t that sound like fun : )))

“ you keep confessing your love for me and i keep turning you down bc i’m honestly scared out of my mind that i would ruin everything but good golly gosh you’re very persistent aren’t you?? and psh no this isn’t a date! i’m just humoring you bc i feel bad ( but we both know that’s a frikkin lie ) ”

lee gwangmin | youtuber | bisexual | 23

a second meeting with his first boyfriend!! bc while gwangmin cared for him deeply ( maybe even?? this guy was his first love?? ) , i can see the two having broken up bc gwangmin refused to acknowledge that his parents had an issue with his sexuality despite their uncomfortable words of support. he refused to talk about it and went to lengths to avoid having his parents and boyfriend around each other for extended periods of time, and that had to be frustrating!! and stressful considering this would have been around the time they’d be graduating/had just graduated high school. so maybe that’s why they broke up? 

the reason can always be discussed, but i’d love a second meeting in which both of them have grown up a little! and maybe confront the fact that gwangmin is STILL avoiding the problem.

also gimme a prickly pear who isn’t so prickly around gwangmin bc he’s such a wholesome sweetie pie and makes them feel so good about themselves and just!! happy in general!! and maybe they start to like him more than they should and gwangmin can tell but stays quiet bc... they’re so... CUTE when they’re trying to hide it!! and when it comes out on accident or they witness someone coming onto gwangmin and they get embarrassed and frightened of his reaction, he’s just grinning bc of course he likes them!!

y’all i’ll admit it right now -- i’m weak for cliche plots but who isn’t??

kim nari | professional dork singer | bisexual | 18-20

so my little ray of sunshine can be played during her time as a trainee or during her time as an idol 

so pretty pls gimme a sunbae-hoobae relationship that’s 90% platonic and mentor-like and 10% something more. but is that something more acknowledge?? not if you want to avoid scandals and secret relationships!!

but maybe... it DOES get acknowledged... and they gotta sneak around... but nari’s just debuted finally, and if it’s revealed she’s dating, that could be really bad for her... “ the timing might be bad but n o we’re not breaking up bc of a ‘ what if ’ ”

“ you’re that boy i ran away from back in middle school when you confessed to me and continued to avoid afterwards but now we’re older and dating isn’t so scary and you grew up to be incredibly handsome wow... also i’m so sorry ”

maybe said boy is a fellow idol?? a producer?? or she just runs into him by chance?? either way, it’ll be awkward for nari B ))

bc i’m weak for the idea ( and is it cliche?? MAYBE ) , consider your muse joining a show in which idols are paired with their “ ideal types, ” and nari just so happens to be on the show, too. now, this could go a few ways!

the producers are mistaken in pairing nari with your muse bc the two of them HATE each other!! but maybe not as much as they first thought.

they’re utterly smitten with each other... but they’re not paired together! they’re someone else’s ideal types, so do they pine and never act on their feelings or do some sneaking about without anyone knowing??

choi donghae | lost soul | bisexual | 20

you know what i’d love?? an angsty plot in which your muse assists donghae in moving on aka brings his murderer to justice before danbi has a chance to kill him and before he’s able to take another victim. and while it’s a happy moment bc he and his sister can finally be at peace, it’s bittersweet bc your muse sincerely cares for him

i’d also give my left shoe for a plot where donghae starts acting as your muse’s guardian angel bc he misses them and doesn’t know what else to do with his extra time and they eventually figure it out bc no one has THAT much good luck

and if we wanna go down the human!donghae route, gimme that classic “ bad boy/girl meets good boy ” but instead of corrupting donghae, he starts to rub off on them and that’s not good for their reputation, dude

choi danbi | bitter specter | bisexual | 20

" i’ve been pretending that i’m not dead by appearing to you when barely anyone is around but you ran into my mom and mentioned me and now you’re confused and shaking bc according to her, donghae and i are still missing, so i suppose i owe you some answers now ”

“ i saved you from getting mugged one time and it was very freaky and ghostly and now you’re purposely looking for me in random allies?? are you dumb??? and why is this so endearing to me?? ”

and for human!danbi, how about a rival athlete who she Hates but kissed one time when she was tipsy and now... now she hates them even MORE bc they won’t let her forget about it!!

son daehyun | grim reaper | heterosexual | o l d... but looks 28

before i even start, let me point out that daehyun is based upon the grim reapers from tvn’s goblin, but he’s part of a unit who specializes in finding the souls who were never allowed to move on

so... how about he's assigned to find a soul who was supposed to die YEARS ago, but narrowly avoided death through a miracle only a greater being could have caused and like... he’s gotta keep an eye on her bc she shouldn’t even exist but there’s no way that he can reap her when she’s living her life! but every time she find herself about to die, daehyun is there against his better judgement to save her until he’s too late 

but maybe... she finds their way back to him bc she refuses to let go of their memories :’ ))

and gimme senior reaper dae having to show this rookie reaper the ropes and he’s trying to act all tough and cool for her, and while it’s so obvious how soft he really is, the rookie lets dae do his thing bc it’s cute. and she tells him so -- and dae is flabbergasted 

“ cute?? me??? nO i’m not blushing shut up ” 

son soojin | old soul | pansexual | technically old as heck but 26 in this life

lil info before we begin -- soojin is a reincarnated soul who chose to keep her memories in hopes of being reunited with her lover one day

what if… her lover was actually an immortal being of some sort?? and they’ve been sad bc they’ve gone all this time thinking they’d never see her again but wait!! it’s her!! she just has a different face bc reincarnation is apparently a thing!!

or similarly – they were broken up about her death but it’s been centuries, dude… they’re Over It and have moved on and are in love without someone else. sucks to be soojin.

oR soojin’s fallen in love with someone in this life, maybe even contemplating marriage when who is that she stumbles upon?? her lover from her first life?? well fRIK

O R soojin finds her lover, they don’t recognize her bc she has a different face, and she withholds who she really is bc they seem so… happy with their s/o. happy without her. and maybe it’s time she lets them go bUT WAIT A SECOND THERE SHE SLIPS UP and says something only SHE would have known/said!! her cover’s blown!! uh oh : )))

and now just some general scenarios i’d love to see!!

polyships pls and thanks!! gwangmin and nari are one cute duo or could be paired separately with two other muses, as well as most of my other muses -- the only ones i don’t think would be up for it ( or at the very least be very difficult to convince ) would be jinho bc she's so wary of relationships to begin with and daehyun.

but give me the cute first date, the cuddling and kisses and before that, the proposition of dating each other. give me the angst where one thinks the other two don’t like them as much as they do each other. give me breaking up just to get back together bc it being just two of them doesn’t feel right anymore.

any sort of fan meets their idol plot! i’m Weak for them

also... baby plots. single parent starts dating again plots. gimme some kids and the difficulties and all the cute moments :’ )))

“ i’ve got a tough/cold image but i’m soft for you ” plots!!