#feel free to ask us questions about how our headspace works because we'll be more than happy to answer and explain

[je-suis-problematique]

Yes, I'm aware I sound insane when I talk about the Otherworld, thank you.

– Chris

[catboytenya]

Just asking out of curiosity, but what's it like being a system?

it's different for everyone but for me it has its ups and downs, a lot of headaches, a lot of gaps in memory

(rest under a readmore! i rambled!)

but i appreciate the people in my system a lot, my headmates do things i can't do for me, like cleaning my room or dealing with intense emotions!

i don't really have a "headspace" like other systems (i think this is because i lack the ability to really visualize at all)

i don't have really great system communication, like i can't go "i want to talk to Rusty lemme go sit and chat with the guy" and go have a conversation with him, but sometimes i hear like. bits of conversation in the far back of my brain? once heard something like "sounds like a nosebleed" "*inaudible*" "THAT CAN BLEED?" with ZERO context at ALL and i never ever got the context or know anything about it or who it was having the conversation

it's a lot of leaving notes for each other and forgetting anyway 😭 i have a whiteboard above my bed for reminders, and i have a notebook that i keep things like feeding dates and shedding dates for my snake otherwise we'll over or under feed him thinking someone else didn't feed him yet or has already fed him

sometimes, i doubt myself and the validity of my own system, because that just kinda comes with mental disorders in general, y'know? and then i remember that time Eijiro had a full blown sobbing mental breakdown once because he convinced himself that he's our partner's least favorite in the system just out of his own self consciousness and paranoia, the next day someone else was fronting, completely fine, unbothered, in his own lane, ect ect, and it's like, moments like that you're like. there is not singlet explanation for this.

ALSO something that's not talked about much is that sometimes. you don't know who the FUCK you are. you're going through the list in your head like do any of these fit?? who am i?? and you genuinely Don't Know Who You Are and you have to rely on things like likes and dislikes and things to narrow it down (or phantom limbs, if you get them, and if they apply)

SPEAKING of likes and dislikes?? to this day i don't know how it works but foods will taste completely differently when other people are fronting. Oboro HATES snacky cakes and will literally gag over trying to eat them. i (katsuki) can't stand most chocolate unless it's really good milk or white or has almonds in it. things like that. i really don't know how that works but it's really weird??? if anyone knows how that works i'd love an explanation or perhaps an article or study to read

also due to the nature of systems (developing to help the host with things they can't do or handle on their own) a lot of the people in my system don't have phobias that the host or rest of the system does, and some of them formed explicitly to deal with things like that. we have a Himiko and she's the only one in the system who can stand looking at blood/gore/injuries, the rest of us can't stand any form of those and will react viscerally to it

also i have learned from experience to be careful getting into a new media/interest because there is a nonzero chance someone will move into your brain and they will not leave or pay rent. i had a fever, binge watched the bendy games, like, 7 play throughs of each. and guess fucking what! ink demon in the brain. standing there. menacingly. (he's polite tho and actually really helpful at keeping the system somewhat in order)

also on the topic of fictives it's really funny seeing the variety in them especially compared to their sources because they're very rarely carbon copies of their source characters. our shadow (the hedgehog) and tenko are littles, for example! and we technically have two katsukis that are completely different, only thing we share are our source and name

i hope that kinda answered your question?? feel free to ask more specific ones if you'd like i kinda rambled