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I just want to finish my cuppa.

Hi I'm Deb I'm a first time Mam to Isaac Who is now 13 weeks and 2 days. I love him with all my heart. My partner is called Stewart and he loves all things techy and gadgety. He is also a great dad. Isaac is a little bundle of energy I love and do not love this. Love because that's what a little boy should be like: on the go, discovering his ability to grip my hair and not let go and also nutting my jaw. So many fun things. On the not so love side of it, I'm knackered and in desperate need of a cup of tea or coffee anything hot and warm with caffeine. I just want to finish a cup not have to abandon it half way through to go back to it 3 hours later disappointed it's cold when it felt like 6 minutes ago I had just started drinking it. I'm tired I smell of baby spit up and spend most of my day in stewy's PJ bottoms. They are comfy and baggy so they hide a multitude of sins. So I get Isaac to sleep he has been asleep about 15 minutes. I go to the kettle and think this is it this time I will enjoy this drink. I will take my time and drink this cup dry. I sit down I look over he is asleep. I take a sip I look over and he is staring directly at me. He knows! He gives me a few seconds to drink in his stare as let's face it it's all I will be drinking! His face screws up he starts going red then WAH WAH WAAAAH!! I put my cup down and say to the cup I will be back. When I do go back it's too late it's cold it's lost it's appeal and I have lost my caffeine shot. I think to myself how would you feel if I interrupted your feed or take my time in the formula preparation. I dream of revenge but I know I will never go through with it. I'm weak! I fall for this throughout the day and only get to enjoy a cuppa when dad or his nana's are there as a buffer. I miss you caffeine!!! I need you!! Is there a drip option?? This is just one of the many many maaaaannny things that has changed in my life since becoming a Mam this being the smallest change but let's start light and see where we go. I wrote this in 10 minute increments over the space of 8 hours! Wish me luck I'm now going to the kettle... I will be back! #zenaidasshop #newmam #tiredmammy #lovemyson #familylifeisthebest