#experiencing dis right now because im hella anxious

[tenpercentsugar]

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1. What is you middle name?jeezus, its a strong middle name to match my strong first name
2. How old are you?20 but im bout to be twenty fun in a month and two days mf
3. When is your birthday?september 8th!!!
4. What is your zodiac sign?virgang 🤙
5. What is your favorite color?pink af
6. What’s your lucky number?i don’t have a “lucky” number but i fuck w the number 6 pretty heavy
7. Do you have any pets?a rat lookin dog named sophie who hates me
8. Where are you from?good ol indiana
9. How tall are you?5'5", 5'4" somewhere in there
10. What shoe size are you?8.5 in women’s if anyone wants to buy me nice expensive shoes
11. How many pairs of shoes do you own?prolly like 7 hahaha
12. What was your last dream about?better question, when was the last time i had a dream? 
13. What talents do you have?i can wiggle my nose like the witch in bewitched, i can smoke a pack and a half in a day, i can drum on my steering wheel pretty good
14. Are you psychic in any way?i dont think so some situations are j painfully predictable
15. Favorite song?perth x bon iver, easy
16. Favorite movie?tarzan bitch i havent watched it in a long time tho
17. Who would be your ideal partner?anyone that doesn’t get angry w me when i’m too anxious 
18. Do you want children?YES so fucking bad
19. Do you want a church wedding?nope that would make no sense
20. Are you religious?no i really tried to be, like i went to many different churches and youth groups and those camp things but it always j felt like i was trying to integrate myself into a fantasy like i think i was j trying too hard to feel something that i don’t think i can
21. Have you ever been to the hospital?4 times in the psychiatric ward, once in the er, once for surgery
22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law?yeah fuck that im never doing that shit again
23. Have you ever met any celebrities?just a lot of bands hahaha
24. Baths or showers?showers because baths are boring and gross and you usually gotta shower along w a bath if youre tryna get clean so thas a waste of water
25. What color socks are you wearing?im barefoot rn its summertime g
26. Have you ever been famous?nope and i am grateful for that bc i can still say whatever i want on the internet and no sjws come at me all nutty
27. Would you like to be a big celebrity?no way i love privacy and freedom
28. What type of music do you like?i like a lot of different shit including rap and country but lately ive only really been vibing to bryson tiller and frank ocean
29. Have you ever been skinny dipping?nope that would be a big mistake
30. How many pillows do you sleep with?two!
31. What position do you usually sleep in?on my stomach, one leg bent upwards, both arms under the pillows
32. How big is your house?its small af it has no basement but its cozy
33. What do you typically have for breakfast?four camel crush menthols and whatever drink is on my side table
34. Have you ever fired a gun?not an actual gun but a bb gun for sure
35. Have you ever tried archery?yeah once on a field trip in like….4th grade
36. Favorite clean word?i dont think i have one anymore
37. Favorite swear word?shit
38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep?very close to 48 hours and it fucking sucked
39. Do you have any scars?tons but the ones on my hands are fading so shouts out to that
40. Have you ever had a secret admirer?if i did it really was a secret cuz i didnt know
41. Are you a good liar?im really good at hiding things but dont ask me abt them bc then i’ll have to tell you
42. Are you a good judge of character?my track record says no
43. Can you do any other accents other than your own?i do accents all the fucking time its damn near annoying
44. Do you have a strong accent?uhhh probably to people not from this area hahaha
45. What is your favorite accent?spanish or indian
46. What is your personality type?enfj which is crazy cuz when i took the myers briggs in high school i was an istj
47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing?my gold superstars
48. Can you curl your tongue?yep i got them good genes
49. Are you an innie or an outie?innie bye
50. Left or right handed?right handed boi
51. Are you scared of spiders?i dont want them to touch me under any circumstances but i dont go out of my way to hurt them
52. Favorite food?mac and cheese but only when its made in specific ways alright creamy mac and cheese is fucked up
53. Favorite foreign food?do tacos count
54. Are you a clean or messy person?messy even when i wanna be clean
55. Most used phrased?right now its probably “damn near”, “deadass”, or “by any means”
56. Most used word?you gotta ask like dani or tori or sum 
57. How long does it take for you to get ready?15 minutes
58. Do you have much of an ego?lowkey kind of. sometimes i really think im the best
59. Do you suck or bite lollipops?suck for a lil, then bite bc suckers take forever to eat and theyre boring
60. Do you talk to yourself?all day everyday no matter where i am
61. Do you sing to yourself?no but i do hum a lot
62. Are you a good singer?no i probably was like semi decent before i started smoking a bunch of shit all the time and lost my lung capacity
63. Biggest Fear?dying. i never understood that fear until i felt it
64. Are you a gossip?yeah i love talking abt what people are doing 
65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen?american beauty
66. Do you like long or short hair?on who? long on me, short on my rat dog sophie
67. Can you name all 50 states of America?yeah b my middle school choir teacher didnt teach us the song for nothin
68. Favorite school subject?english always
69. Extrovert or Introvert?extrovert i need social interaction to function like a human
70. Have you ever been scuba diving?nope and i never will bc i am afraid
71. What makes you nervous?whatever you can think of. thats what makes me nervous
72. Are you scared of the dark?yes if i cant be 100% aware of whats around me im losing my shit
73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes?
i used to do it allll the fuckin time like to the point where my friends were getting really upset abt it and then i grew up

74. Are you ticklish?nope thank god
75. Have you ever started a rumor?uh no but one time a gurl i was half friends w was telling ppl i was spreading rumors saying her grandpa died? which is really nutty 
76. Have you ever been in a position of authority?everyday i go to work! 
77. Have you ever drank underage?just last night, in fact. but im barely underage at this point
78. Have you ever done drugs?no? that doesnt sound like something i would do
79. Who was your first real crush?real crush?? uhhhh im not sure ive like experienced that like ive thought i liked a LOT of dudes
80. How many piercings do you have?9, 3 in each ear, both nostrils, and my septum
81. Can you roll your Rs?“no :-(
82. How fast can you type?pretty fast, prolly not as fast as i used to though
83. How fast can you run?hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah
84. What color is your hair?like four different shades of blonde
85. What color is your eyes?blue/grey
86. What are you allergic to?nothing that i’m aware of!!!
87. Do you keep a journal?no and i really fucking wish i did
88. What do your parents do?like as far as work? my dad works at a factory, my mom works at a place that sells pumps
89. Do you like your age?i dont care abt it 
90. What makes you angry?wasting time!!! nothing in this whole world makes me angrier than feeling like im not using my time to its full potential
91. Do you like your own name?hell no
92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they?yes i have but only for girls bc boy names are ugly and im not sharing them bc i dont want anybody finessin
93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child?id be ecstatic w either but i always imagine a girl
94. What are you strengths?im really empathetic, im funny asf to myself, i know some big words
95. What are your weaknesses?im really empathetic, when im not on lithium im hella obsessive and angry
96. How did you get your name?mom found it in a baby book
97. Were your ancestors royalty?no but they all tell me im related to president zachary taylor
98. Do you have any scars?uh yah i already told you
99. Color of your bedspread?rn its j grey
100. Color of your room?pink/purple!!

thank u kind stranger

[sh-lan]

OMFG LAST QUARTER EVER + some spring break stuff???

Took a weekend off of life Retail therapy at its finest today Even though new jeans were overdue

It’s crazy how it still came I guess it’s a force of nature But omg it’s gonna be here on the concert T^T

This nerd would have mitsuha’s theme on his playlist smh #nochu

April 2nd, 2017 BTS Wings Tour I still can’t believe it happened I’ve been awake since 8am lol and it’s like 1:54am and i’m still trying to process and remember everything that happened today It felt like a dream! I can’t believe I saw them in real life. ohmygod Hands down, easily one of the best day of this week - if not this entire year so far holy shit will continue this tomorrow as i reminisce ok but one thing i noticed is that jungkook’s thighs are actually so real like wtf? shookt EDIT: lol i never finished this but oh well

oop i just bought more rings goodbye money

my charger broke gg time to get another one

I have a newfound appreciation for the color pink or more like my appreciation for pink is coming back

When you get anxious because bts hasnt posted on twitter for 3 days but then you also know they’re resting and that they deserve this break

SPRING QUARTER LEGGO tu/th schedule let’s hope this all works well keke

week 1 recap tuesday - sees everybody in freaking AB LOL sees harry after walking out of my tdpw sees alana and dylan outside my global health class which alana is also taking, and becca and tanya lOL goes to cogs 122 to find chen screaming my name - also vania and stella <3 last class is normal - with nobody in management BUT LOL LEIGHTON ADDED THE CLASS ON THURSDAY HAHA there’s also this girl in my tdpw class who looks like lindsay lohan and her name is also lindsey but with an e cause i saw it on the email lol not a stalker

Decided to gel nails it out friday of week 1 whut whut

First attempt at 양념치킨~

been using the soundtrack of your name this past week to get over pcd it’s been a week and i still haven’t recovered T^T

went to kbbq with harry! lol week 1 sunday started at manna….having an adventure in between at manna keke “started here and ending it here?” LOL

currently craving anything strawberry

don’t understand why i need to have my email as a send&receive in order to sms to work on my laptop bb why are you being stubborn when you’ve been working fine all this time

under yuri’s recommendation, i microwaved my coffee because it was lukewarm and she called me extra LOL

i’m getting nervous about a presentation when i shouldn’t be because ?? my AB service leader self is like completely gone i wanna crawl into a hole

i just finished season 2 and 3 of htgawm in less than a week… how they gonna do season 4 i wonder

Week 2 thursday I was actually really looking forward to class today Also my rings came! Though were they worth the $50….not so sure Were they cute? Yes But not as cute as the other one T^T So i mustnt give in to temptations nowww

I found out what matcha powder mom uses to make their matcha latte Cappuccine frappe mix But it’s sadly not on amazon ):

This new tumblr function is really inconvenient cause i cant tell how many thing i have on queue brcause i have to keep switching blogs -_-

Han came to visit! Friday Papa johns Saturday Snooze brunch Infinitea Abeh hangout In n out Sunday Aquarium! Koon thai Ramen yamadaya Boba bar and then i drove him to irvine where we got coco curry! and then i drove back and he bought me milk tea with pudding

Had an epiphany It’s not anenome It’s anemone

Omg but like why dont people call spoiler alerts “spoilerts”

Started 13 reasons why with Han Finished it, tuesday week 3 Hmmm How to feel

finished strong woman park hyung sik is so…adorable? IT’S SO WEIRD. HIS AEGYO LEVEL IS INSANE

When you realize that 둘! 셋! is probably the title of the fan song because that’s what BTS always say when they introduce themselves And that BTS + ARMY forever ㅠㅠㅠㅠ I’m not crying r u crying ;___;

어떻게

Omg when you wake up for reorientation and jungkook does lives <3

highkey need to crawl into a hole tbh

You know what i want to do? Go to an olive garden Even though i know it’ll taste bad lol

Not really sure what i want… But i dont want my 4 years to be a waste ):

i….skipped out on an interview today was it the right choice i may never know

most recent ep of snk got me fucked up SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT YMIR AND CHRISTA’S RELATIONSHIP IS WHO IS CHRISTA

Lol i hella bombed my quiz GOODBYE GONNA P/NP HAHA

Week 4 weekend Fuck me in the ass i twisted my ankle and i am in irvine had to pop an advil and cruise control all the way back thank god there weren’t many cars lol 0/10 do not recommend

Slept on the couch the past two days to elevate my ankle Glad to be back in bed But i think i might be a little…sick? Fuck Need to grocery shop

Dammit i got called for jury duty

Ok but i twisted my ankle and two recruiters emailed me back the next day so was it really a loss

Week 5 i’m sick…

just watched 5 centimeters per second a little sadder than i was an hour ago

fuck i forgot that my jeans are new and i washed it and my pink shirt is ruined fml triggered

thursday after rolling over ma ankle i can finally see that it is a lil swollen and there is bruising LOL also saw an owl at school today and a bunny while leaving to go to meeting

week 5 tuesday saw two bunnies on my way out to school

I just saw two hummingbirds! 😍

I cant believe yuri and i finished twenty SMH

ABCD today Some qualitee photos were taken Im tired now

Really debating the 4th term

third day of back pain flexibility dying wow what is happening???

…..army 4th term is $75 cries EDIT: it’s $66 because i forgot exchange rate but still cri EDIT EDIT: it’s $45 if i ship it to taiwan - seriously really highkey considering that now oh dear

bro i think i just experienced katawaredoki whut

i keep thinking that my ankle is ok but i always end up doing something that ends up hurting it like hella im

Week 6 thursday last leadership meeting one of my favorite meetings because whoa INFORMATION!? it was nice wanted to discuss and add in my two cents but i honestly just wasn’t able to wrap my head around everything loool then…we decided to go to PB LOL chen, jeong, yuri, justin and his friends (including nicole, nicole, sandy) and then more people. we also met leslie, brett, dexter, allison, kenny, peter, abby, ben…and more? at pb lolol and also we saw miguel and anthony - it was like a freshman year flashback tbh lOL went to vallartas after and then came home to shower and finally sleep at 3:30am wot is life NEXT DAY ADVENTURES - leighton and i finally pulled out the weeds and now we’re tired

salty that i wasnt invited to the birthday celebration, not that i would really make the trip per say but wtf gurl

I just had this really sad thought that i’m probably never gonna ever get to know bts like friends y i do dis to meself

Wait so like i got sick while at clew’s and it didnt happen until week 5 and so i was sick from week 5 through week 6 and at this one point i couldnt taste my food it was terribad

May 12th I bought the membership LOL Hopefully it mails it correctly back to Taiwan ☺️

im dumb i didn’t save the color i wanted for my hair

omg the song vania recommended to me a few days ago was recommended by jungkook like a year or so ago on twitter lOOOOL

Just tryna level up here :<

Struggles when places are in the east coast and phone calls are early in the fckin morning

Note to self: Ridge cut potato chips with sea salt is good for stuff with dip Ridge cut salt and pepper is good for regular eating, but gets salty at the bottom LOL EDIT: per vania’s suggestion, i salted and peppered my chips

watching jungkook’s vlive AND HE JUST HARMONIZED WITH HIMSELF IM DED

Just woke up from a dream where someone hurt my brother/nade him fall and i was so angry? Was about to go ape shit on that person im ded lol who is rhis angry me

Rewatched and finished reply 1997 Wow what is life when yoon jae is life But also what is life when your idols are life Daily reminder to not be as obsessed as shiwon LOLOL

i can’t go to giraffage and elephante anymore im on the otherhand i get to go to virginia???

lol but like i haven’t been writing drafts because i often write in my notebook now but here are some updates - my nails are constantly chipping - forgot about grad photos that clashed with the weekend han is coming - im ded because i probs won’t have a weekend to myself until week 10 - struggles to figure out graduation things - paid my $54 to walk #mostexpensivewalkever

LAST LEADERSHIP MEETING (turnover) what am i going to do with my thursday nights now? it’s been a good run

Jealous of the staff that holds and records the camera during vlives? LOL who am i

When you forget that jeon jungkook did taekwondo before Hnnnngh

i just reaffirmed? or discovered? that i don’t like fruity pebbles o_o

Trying to think of a thing to put on my grad cap Tis hard Let’s make a list: 花樣年華 Strong power thank you You never walk alone Ireumeun deborah LOL Lol omg but why is yoongi’s “cheater never win but i just graduated” quote so appropriate for grad EXTRA + ORDINARY* Lost my way/found my way* Click clack to the bang Smile with me, cry with me, fly with me (you make me begin, you made me again) Ctrl+c, ctrl+v do you know “____” (hci? annyeonghasaeyo) To lose your path, Is the way to find that path* 꽃길만 걷자* Let’s fly with our beautiful wings in 2017 EDIT: i’m too lazy, i didn’t do anything to my cap lOL

Im shookt cause namjoon doesnt say 이제 feelin the vibe. HE SAYS IF YOU FEELIN THE VIBE. I feel…betrayed

Non whitewashed bangtan gives me life

May 21st My first haircut since… Since i got it cut over the summer?????

Bought me stole and tassel today Smh that i cant grab my muir tickets?? Cause i ordered all commencwment tickets SMH

Lowkey afraid of not passing mgt LOL

Omfg i knew we were going to have a pop quiz. It really happened

nicole and evelyn commented that they liked my hair and audrey and malia agreed i gotta say i’m so glad people remember me in my tdpw class LOOL

Cant get the seventeen song outta my head Shookt by the choreography

Y'all im so fckin shookt First the chainsmokers post on twitter like “see you in the summer” Then they win the BBMAs like a boss Then you see them on halsey + steve aoki’s snapchat Next things you know steve aoki is postin shit like “BTS x AOKI COMING SOON” Im SCREAMING

Yo my lyft driver dropped some knowledge again and told me his life story lmao he was a police officer in chicago and he was forced to retired and then ?? after chasing down a rapist and getting into a fight, he was seriously injured. but his dad (a judge or someone powerful idk) forced him out of retirement by telling everyone to not give him his benefits and shit and i was like. whoa bro. slow down? “embrace the unknown”

I finally tried the coconut black tie at peet’s 10/10 a mistake

Okay but can we talk about how on point everybody looked in the comeback Esp wonwoo and dk But also vernon 👌🏼

First time in virginia/ being so close to washington dc! Whoa Also gonna pass by texas too :O Knocking some states off my list

I WITNESSED MY FIRST CIRCLE RAINBOW THINGY ON THE PLANE FROM VIRGINIA TO DALLAS TODAY HOLY IT WAS V COOL

i don’t know why i never realized this about myself before but i need to be/live by a body of water at all times or i won’t feel comfortable this is weird

i told han i joined the fanclub and he like died for like 2 seconds lOL

ok but like i bought a carton of eggs and 6 or 7 of them were double yolks and i have 2 more eggs left im starting to think i’m eating some weird hybrid chickens EDIT: those last two eggs were both double yolks. this was a wild adventure

omg i knew that the TA MOST LIKELY RYAN WOULDNT UNDERSTAND OUR IDEA JUST LIKE HOW HE ALWAYS MISINTERPRETS THEM??? like what kind of constructive feedback is that if he doesn’t understand what we’re trying to do im… sigh

Already excited about the festa But like omfg they released the schedule today And just WE DONT TALK ANYMORE PT 2?? SO FAR AWAY FEATURING JIN AND JUNGKOOK? Im IM SCREAMING also sad but the radio show is right before my finals gotta prioritize, no bts fo me ;__;

after waiting two weeks, my application to get leveled up was rejected *cries* time to try again! *^*

okay but really feeling seventeen’s song as well as suran’s song like hIGHKEY

i finally got my commencement tickets the third time that i went to the bookstore third time’s the charm right? also whytf is the parking pass for all campus commencement so huge -_-

hnngh omg that feel when you have hella shit to do TPDW1 final play due week 9 friday because we won’t have class at all on week 10 then there’s the presentation (elevator pitch) that happened today week 9 thursday but also just hauling ass on things for A5 tbh what is this what is everything wot is the meaning of life when vania and i stay up till 3:30am lol… and then there’s me. tired af but didn’t sleep til 4:30 anyways cause i’m a dumbass l e l let’s not be a potato this last week k?

burger king in pc has its own free wifi called WhopperWifi and it’s so much faster than school wifi this is revolutionary

week 9 weekend to irvine irritated on the way over irritated on the way back lol wot is life i should’ve just turned around to go back home

NO TDPW1 WEEK 10 WOOT wow that means i won’t have class until 2pm whoa

“why are you reading math formulas” - yuri i was actually reading bts profiles lOLOL she just dissed their handwritings

Just spent the past hour or so looking at kakao friends merchandise And discovering that apeach is a genetically modified peach lol

that moment when you ask for a png file but get a jpg

dyed my hurr twice today for a darker shade still not what i was going for but this will do for now

Omfg i slept through my alarm until 1pm Goodbye study time?? Also omg i like it pt 2 video SHIT SHIT SHIT THEY KNOW WE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS. HAD IT SINCE BAEPSAE DAYS. BUT DIDNT RELEASE IT. Freakin bighit

My request to level up on the fancafe has once again been rejected ); EDIT: oMFG IT’S BECAUSE I DIDN’T CHANGE THE SETTING TO SOMETHING im screaming, what a first world problem THIRD TIME’S THE CHARM AMIRITE

Doesnt feel like it… But thursday was my last time going to class…pretty much like ever unless i go to more school Holy shit

Oh man I didnt think i’d have THAT much shit. But…i think i have A LOT of shit….

saw bts MBIT and i was like omfg! knew that i was INFJ but took the test again yesterday and ended up INFP….but just barely P so i think i’ll stick with INFJ lol EDIT: i took the test again today because vania and yuri were talking about it again and i am still INFP…and more P this time. SO LOST. WHO AM I

put my things up for sale i forgot that i might need my light el oh el crying on the inside cause i want to keep my desk but then i’m selling it off because i don’t think i’ll have space for it and i just CRYING ON THE INSIDE BECAUSE IT’S BEEN WITH ME FOR SO LONG T^T

ON ANOTHER NOTE. THIRD TIME IS THE CHARM LEVELED UP ON JUNE 12TH AT ONE SOMETHING AM

JUNE 12TH FINISHED MY FIRST AND LAST FINAL I AM OFFICIALLY DONE WITH MY UNDERGRADUATE CAREER??? also lmao i spent 45 min on the final wot

i dyed my hair darker but now it’s become lighter? wait wtf wait no go back EDIT: wait no it went back to being dark? is this a thing? when i get exposed to the sun it gets lighter and when i sleep it gets darker??? smh at light for fckin with me

so i set an alarm to watch the bts home party last night for like 3:57am and i didn’t hear it but i guess i kinda did cause i woke up at 4:05am and was like ??? i decided to watch a bit of it but ended up streaming the whole thing until 5:45am looooool also watched the numbers grow from the 500,000 all the way to 2,000,000 and then 3,000,000? it was nuts

omfg all these years of rereading chapters and only now do i realize that i could save bookmarks on mangahere *slaps forehead*

Moment of silence cause i sold my desk that’s accompanied me for almost 10 years It even has battlescars (aka X marks by Jacky, 3 of them) LOL memories ;___; Oh and i guess my chair too

lol was gonna sell that yamaha guitar for $45 but it’s going for like $190 on ebay?? so ima just bring it home

finals week hangout list: tuesday: fud with kimberly, peyton, harry wednesday: more fud with stephanie and ellius thursday: KBBQ FOR LUNCH with jeong, justin, yuri, harry LOOOOL

and so...that’s the end of the quarter. my last quarter of school ever (unless i decide to go to more school...which seems unlikely as of right now) it feels weird.................................. but! onto graduation~ looking forward to being reunited with family and whatever’s gonna hit me in the face LOL

and with that goodbye undergrad, hello world ㅇㅅㅇ