#except i love talking about chiyo and the way her mind works!!! i'm just mad i haven't written replies unu

[quietlyblooms]

listening to chiyo's playlist to help my brain a lil bit, and nine by sleeping at last feels like it was written for chiyo :' )) there's truly so many lines from that song that relate to her as a person, but the lines " but i'm just trying to find myself / through someone else's eyes / so show me what to do to restart this heart of mine / how do i forgive myself / for losing so much time? " really take the cake.

chiyo's story is about connection. she cannot remain the same if she wants to be happy, if she wants to stop " sleepwalking " through her life, yet she cannot change without help. truthfully, chiyo doesn't hold a great opinion of herself. she has her merits, but she overall believes she isn't worth the trouble she causes -- the ugly parts, those thorns and weeds that have gotten out of control, shouldn't be anyone's responsibility but her own. but that's not the way life works. sometimes we need help.

so it's really important that there is someone in her life that helps her see herself " through someone else's eyes. " those ugly parts of herself that she hates aren't as terrible as she thinks. it's okay that she's scared to get hurt; she just can't allow that fear to control her.

that's why consistency and insistency are so important when growing close to chiyo. she's watching for the signs that she's right, that she really isn't worth the effort. she's questioning her place beside you, wondering if it'd matter if she suddenly wasn't there. and even when she's getting comfortable with you, there's still that thought, that fear, and it just!! takes time for her to finally believe yes, she's important to this person despite everything. and only then can she start to believe she's worth something. she's worth the love she's given -- she deserves it, every bit.