#everything is awful but it's the mundane inconvenience that sends you into the true tailspin

[queerpontmercy]

god even if the count weren't a literally bloodthirsty centuries-undead tyrant imagine that you are brand new to your job that's been the focus of your daily life for years and your boss (who's also pretty much your dad) says "here's your first client, he's rich powerful and particular, i specifically endorsed you for the job and said you'd be there in my stead" and then when you finally do meet the client in question he psychologically abuses, isolates and manipulates you to the point that you are in fear for your life at times. and then you have to confront the fact that your boss/basically dad/connection to your future employment is either aware of this or not and either way, whether it's complicity ignorance or neglect he doesn't have your back and you're probably going to have to tell people this powerful person abused you and who knows how they'll react. you think/hope your fiancee will get it cause she's always been ride or die and reminds you to respect yourself but like...she's also kinda dependent on this salary since she doesn't have family to lean on and schoolteaching pays way less than soliciting, and a part of you just doesn't know who you can trust at all after this.

that's hard enough modern day where we acknowledge abuse as a thing, let alone in Victorian times without the language. and drac is also very much a vampire. blorbo ultimate harker jonathan i love you hang in there baby