#eventually he comes to realize that william's cruelty wasn't Fair and it doesn't improve his belief that | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

bravevolunteer · 2 years

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thinking about how before everything— before evan's death, charlie, elizabeth, the missing kids, all michael wanted was for william to love him. yes he acted out because of frustration but it was always rooted in the fact that he just wanted his dad to be proud of him, convinced that if he mimicked him enough, if he were strong and intimidating enough, that he could finally deserve and be given ANY recognition. he did not start out hating william, he craved his approval more than anything. it just ended up that he went too far with it, turning his father's words and actions towards him from dismissive to downright horrible

#it shifts from him believing he could earn that love if he were a good enough son to being utterly convinced he was born terrible and he #will always be doomed to be terrible. that he deserves every berating word and all the pain #eventually he comes to realize that william's cruelty wasn't Fair and it doesn't improve his belief that #he's an inherently bad person but he isn't fooled by william's act of innocence either #just . he wanted to be LOVED and he did not go about it in good ways but the point is he shouldn't have had to i'm so upset #⁂ ･ﾟ: none of us belong‚ everything i do is wrong‚ and soon there will be nobody left around ➛ headcanons #abuse tw #ok i need to get off my ass now and stop thinking about blorbo... Unfortunately

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