#even though the ONLY things I've actually SELF DIAGNOSED with are depression and anorexia (which like.

[transmasc-wizard]

throwing myself at the foot of a therapist's chair saying Please pretty please explain to me what these symptoms are caused by

[jefferoni-quotes]

As you should be. You know what fuck it. This changes all the damn time but I'm gonna write out the current backstory we have. Beware, this uses so many headcannons y'all have sent so it's extra sad! Some of this is drawn from history, however this is a work of fiction. Keep that in mind.

Also! This is just his childhood, the time up until he turns 18. I'll be here all damn day trying to describe his entire life I've written out.

TW for// attempted suicide, death, mentions of self harm, mentions of eating disorders, homophobia, mentions of abuse and neglect (strap in, it's a sad ride)

He was born in Charlottesville, Virginia in 1985, April 13th to Peter and Jane Jefferson. When he turned one, his brother Peter Feild Jefferson was born.

From this point on, he recieved less and less attention from his parents. Allowed free roam of his home and its large grounds. It was just before he turned one when James Madison was born, whom he would grow to be good friends with from a very early age.

In fact, from one, his parents regularly dropped him off at the Madison's, while they did whatever they were doing. The two of them argued relentlessly, often in front of their children.

At age two, the twins were born, Elizabeth and Randolph were born, once again, leaving Thomas neglected in favour of "the newer models"

It was now, that he met George Washington, even though he didn't know it yet. The teen at the time, babysat for the Madison's, and one day was left with a Thomas too. Lots of things go on there, and Washington is the first to learn of the verbal abuse happening within the household. He doesn't report it, in fear of what the Jefferson's may do.

Skip a couple of years, with each year a new child being born. By the time he turns five, his parents have deduced there's something "wrong with him" and take him to the doctor to check him over. The doctor diagnosed him with autism. The abuse only gets worse. It turns physical. He is now being regularly neglected, put down and hit.

At age eight, his youngest sister is born.

When he turns ten, he meets Dolley, Martha and John Adams. James is still his best friend. Martha has a prostetic arm, she was born without an arm and has had a prosthetic since she can remember.

At eleven, the self harm starts. Starts off by scratching at skin, which turns worse as months go by until he's actively cutting. Keeping it hidden by wearing jeans and long sleeves.

Twelve years old, his father dies of unforeseen circumstances, and his mother needs someone to blame. She blames Thomas. His first suicide attempt happens here, he fails in swallowing a large enough quantity of pills.

By age thirteen, he's starting to hit rock bottom. At first he used makeup to cover up bruises and cuts, and now it's used to cover up. To try and impress and just have his mother be proud of him for once. She accuses him of being gay, this is his first real encounter with the word. It will not be his last.

If he thought thirteen was bad, fourteen is the worst. He loses his leg, the left one, from the knee down. His second suicide attempt, again, unsuccessful, where he attempts to jump off a bridge. His leg gets caught on rocks at the bottom and he is dragged to safety.

He spents two years in a wheelchair, during this time he doesn't eat frequently. All Thomas wants is approval from his mother, and to be in control of something.

At 16 he is finally formally diagnosed with depression, along with social anxiety, and is given medication to help with it. At around this time, shortly before he turns 17, he gets a prostetic from his friends after they raised the money for it. He starts to date Martha. He also starts getting frequent migraines.

At age 17, his mother dies. She had actually left him a large sum of money in her will. He is surprised by this. Alas, he is not as upset by this as he should be. He's finally on the road to recovery, and his abuser no longer lives.

By age eighteen, Thomas has recovered from his anorexia. However, he will live with trauma which will really come back to bite him in the ass.

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I could make this longer and sadder but its 3 am. Theres a lot more to it, but this is a brief synopsis.

READING THIS BACK I ALREADY SPOT SO MUCH I MISSED HNNNG WHATEVER IM TOO LAZY TO FILL IN THE GAPS UH REALISES HES BI AT 16 UH YEAH

For whatever reason I HC Martha Jr as a Marvel fan and she makes all her friends call her MJ

I feel like she doesn't make all her friends do it, I just feel like they do because it makes her smile real wide when they do.

But also yes good headcannon I likey 🥺🥺💖