#even tho the whole reason i've been sticking with XR is bc my brain hates the idea of taking meds multiple times a day | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

bonestrouslingbones · 12 days ago

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had to go without my adderall for a lil over a week because cvs hates me but i finally just got my rx after also raising the dosage from what it was before bc that shit wasn't working and i KNOWWW it's just because i've been off of it for a while and this will wear off after i've readjusted in like 3 days but i'm baffled rn at how much better i feel already. like for the first time in several months i actually feel AWAKE and like i have control over my own brain and its crazy. i'm finally doing my christmas shopping after putting it off for several weeks & i'm making plans to do other chores today that don't feel like the fake-adhd-hopeful-denial-plans and instead feel like they might actually get done. the stimulant is stimulating me and to be fully honest im a little mad about it

#geniunely having to keep reminding myself it's bc i haven't had any stimulant medication since last tuesday and not to get my hopes up #but mannn its so nice to not be weighed down by fatigue for once. god damn. why can't it be like this all the time it pisses me off !!!!!!#like i've accepted my brain is never gonna work by itself at this point but whyy can't the meds that MAKE it work be CONSISTENT!!!!!!!!#WHY DO THEY ONLY WORK BEST AT THE START!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#sigh. maybe if/when this dosage stops working i'll look into immediate release and see how that treats me #even tho the whole reason i've been sticking with XR is bc my brain hates the idea of taking meds multiple times a day #if i can at least have like an On Button or smth in the form of a pill for when i wanna get shit done i might be able to suck it up idkkkkk

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