#especially because that's what allows him as a sweater-wearing cherub-haired 5'8'' soft-spoken vaguely gnc-presenting being

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also i am very much a big fan of em evolving from a unsettling predatory seeming type [it was the unblinking eyes and headaches he was giving people by staring too intensely, pre yeshua times] to him genuinely handling himself so well that he hasn't messed up & accidentally hurt anyone besides himself in decades. he really patiently sanded his own edges until there's nothing but the round and soft and non-threatening

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#i dont think its undoubtedly the best decision he could have made in the act of becoming himself. but i do find it fascinating#especially because that's what allows him as a sweater-wearing cherub-haired 5'8'' soft-spoken vaguely gnc-presenting being#to step up against things that appear much bigger or scarier than him and he doesnt have to do any of that mortal dancing around#he doesnt need to prove himself to be the bigger scarier older thing. it's just that unshakeable calm that usually does this for him?#the absolute confidence with which he carries himself? in spite of the humility the awkwardness. just this. rock-solid antiquity of his.#i think it has to do also with the clay body. you look at him and you can't shake the feeling that he's just as indivisible from the earth#as the mountains on the horizon

also i am very much a big fan of em evolving from a unsettling predatory seeming type [it was the unblinking eyes and headaches he was giving people by staring too intensely] to him genuinely handling himself so well that he hasn't messed up & accidentally hurt anyone besides himself in decades. he really sanded his own edges until there's nothing but the round and soft and non-threatening