#esp today that i'm on my first day of period and my mood is so shittyyy

[keirahknightley]

Me trying to buy literally anything

[nofoodclub]

But of course my period is starting so i have tonight as a grey area to do it then a forced break over the weekend when he would most likely be avalible ahh fuck he's going with some chick probably wont happen tonight i would really like it to but uhg why do i even bother hes fuck boy now at the very least I'm a lot hotter than her lol wow I'm vain i just wish i could have someone i truly want in all ways and there's yet to be anyone like that avalible e was pretty damn close but then the personality got in the way t is not too bad but i think we're too similar and both of us lack the confidence to make it work but it's fun while it's happening at least. I need to get better at being alone. My amazon order came in today of all my sex toys so i should be able to satisfy my physical needs but not emotional. And there he goes. I hate how my mood can change so fucking fast over stupid shit like a meaningless hookup maybe some day I'll be able to deal with this. I guess ill text t I'm going back home if he wants to chill with me i need to make something of the night. I look damn good and don't want it to go to waste. The 30 second interaction with e almost qualified as something if only there wouldn't have been that girl. She had the confidence to make it fun for him that i def don't have esp on the first go. If tonight had worked out could have been better im manic enough today to be lots of fun i need to stop caring so much and just have a good time but it's that gonna happen probably not i should try harder at that and be less in my own head and worrying over things that don't matter And i can't change. I need to sign off gonna text t see where that goes and maybe just go home and see n. He bothers me rn mostly bc he can see through my bull shit and see the real me. Uhg ok w is out here keys do this normal me go