#epic groveling on Tommy's part

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I need BuckTommy fanfics where Tommy does some epic groveling

No "I miss you, let's get back together" fanfics

Nor "We kissed, so let's get back together" fanfics

NO

Tommy ended things and revealed that he never planned for the relationship to get serious because he was scared of getting hurt.

Buck was planning their future while Tommy was waiting for the day he was going to end things.

That requires more than one conversation to fix that relationship.

Yes Buck did move too fast, but based on what we've seen in the show, we all thought Tommy was on the same page as him.

There's no quick fixes to that type of heartbreak.

Tommy gave Buck a second chance only to end things over something he knew from the beginning of their relationship.

Buck was blindsided by that breakup. They had just celebrated their six month anniversary. By the way, I'll never forgive Tim Minear for the half ass way he wrote that episode. The basketball tickets, Abby, and the reason behind the breakup was so fucking stupid.

Tommy needs to put in some serious work if he ever wants to get back with Buck. Because Buck is always going to question if Tommy will leave him again if it gets too serious. He's going to second guess everything he does with Tommy because he was led on before.

At the very least, Tommy should have been up front and honest with him about just having a casual relationship. He listened to Buck's whole speech during the coffee date, gave him a second chance knowing that he'd be Buck's first boyfriend, just for him to blame Buck's inexperience with men and his own fears of being left as the reason for the breakup.

I blame mostly Tim MInear for that whole ass shitty retcon storyline that episode, but I'm going to need Tommy to suffer a lot more from his decision before Buck takes him back.

There's that one book from Booktok that was not good, but the male character groveled for an entire year before his ex-girlfriend would take him back. He groveled for an entire year and did something he considered embarrassing to prove that he wasn't going to leave her this time.

Now you might say, write the groveling Tommy fanfic yourself, well I am.

But I also want to read it from other people. What Tommy did was shitty, and I need him to wallow in that pain for a little longer. He needs to earn Buck's trust and forgiveness.

Yes, Tommy panicked and ran, his feelings are valid, however, he pursued Buck then ended things twice. This time, he needs to be the one to ask for a second chance.

As much I kinda want Buck to fight for Tommy, I do respect him for not reaching out and respecting Tommy's choice to end things. But I also want him to have closure. "You're going to break up with me in the future, so I'm ending things now" is not a great way to breakup with someone and give them closure.

If Buck does reach out, I hope it's to gain clarity from the situation. And yes, I want him to tell Tommy how much he misses him and wants to get back together, but he's done that before, so I now I need to see Tommy make a big speech and follow it up with actions to prove that he means what he says. That's what Buck did, asked him out for coffee, told him what he wanted, and invited him to his sister's wedding and the bachelor party.

And the sad part is that I don't trust Tim Minear or the writers to give us that kind of depth after the switcheroo they pulled on us.

I need some deep angst from my fellow fanfic writers. I want Tommy to know just how much he hurt Buck. Because one conversation is not gonna fix the trust that was broken.

They need to figure out how they want their relationship to proceed if they decide to get back together. They skipped building the right foundation, and what do you know, the house collapsed. So now I need them to double and triple check everything to make sure that the universe itself cannot bring that new house down.

Am I analyzing this too much?

Yes, I've had a very shitty year, and this ship was my escape. I'm dealing with a lot of legal shit that was caused by someone else and I was the victim yet I have to prove that I'm actually the victim because the motherfuckers lied to avoid responsibility. I am not in the mood for quick fix-it fanfics. I need retribution and closure in my fiction right now. It can still be a happy ending, but it needs to be earned.

That's just how I'm feeling right now. You don't get to cause someone long lasting pain and then expect everything to be fine with a quick apology. There's trauma there that needs to be addressed.

So if any of you have any recommendations of fanfics where Tommy puts in some serious work to mend things, then I'm all ears.

I really hate Tim Minear, Donald Trump, the online leftists who demanded perfection from Kamala Harris while letting Trump slide on all the things he did to harm the country over some other country that we've been allied with since my grandparents were born, my mom for always treating me like I was never what she wanted in a daughter, and the two people who did something that I can't legally talk about but am getting blamed for because people like to lie.

Like I said, it's been a shitty year full of pain and liars that like to bring down the people they hurt. Which reminds me, I'm a witch, so I need to go take care of some things metaphysically because everything else is out of my control.