#either...at first they'd make me actually Sleepy much earlier but now im back to making it to 5 am not tired at all...wagh | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

skunkes · 4 months ago

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antidepressants have saved my life but in the way that my dad was put on them earlier this year before i was and he's an entirely different person neow. several years of it being a coin toss as to whether the house was going to have a sinister energy on any given day, undone in a few weeks and once again resembling the person i was most attached to as a child

#it hassss brought up some additional struggles. like how He's really the parent i can trust and my realization that #my nonstop death phobia spirals ive had since age 6 have not really ever centered around my mom at all lmao #how he keeps recounting his life to me now and it is not helping my anticipatory grief. its only made it worse #alas....#i wish they worked as well for me. i kind of just feel normal now which is the point but it doesn't really feel like it did at the beginnin #either...at first they'd make me actually Sleepy much earlier but now im back to making it to 5 am not tired at all...wagh #at least now i dont feel like im about to die when i wake up from my 6 hours of sleep. i guess #i know this is the ''dont stop taking them bc you feel normal bc theyre whats making u feel normal'' part #but idk i cant really notice da difference anymore other than the Lacking Sleep Doesn't Feel Like Death Anymore

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