#either mad about it containing kink or mad that it's about manipulative relationships instead of ~pure~ and healthy ones

[anodymalion]

Please expand upon your rant about things have gotten worse since we last spoke if you feel like it! I was so disappointed by that book!!

I absolutely do feel like it! I'm putting it under the cut because this will be long. (includes many spoilers for Things Have Gotten Worse Since We Last Spoke)

There are a lot of things about this novella that disappointed me and I don't know how to organize them, so I'm just going to throw them all in. Part of the problem was that I saw it being realllly hyped up by people claiming it was fantastic extreme horror and I went in with high hopes, which I shouldn't have done because I always expect too much... but I wouldn't have liked it anyway, so whatever.

A big part of horror is about tension and anticipation and in my opinion the story did a terrible job of using those effectively. There was one solid gut-punch moment for me (the bit with the salamander) but then the story immediately released all of the tension by having the characters break up over it and it never got any of that tension back. And there was SO MUCH opportunity for it! Like, why make it a point that Zoe took control of Agnes's financial accounts and then never use that again? The story kept promising that it was about to get super dark and twisted and then every time it started to get close it immediately backed off. Like how every time Zoe asked Agnes to do something fucked up, and then Agnes did it, instead of doubling down on the fucked-up-ness Zoe would go "oh wait I didn't actually want you to do that I thought it was a joke". Then the story tried to correct that in the last, like, 5 pages by going off the rails but by that point it was totally unsatisfying because there had been no actual build up to the moment.

It was also hard for me to get a sense of the characters or really care about them in any way. That was in part because of the stylistic choice - it's harder to get in the mind of a character when the entire format is emails/texts/IMs, but dang it I've seen other books do this format effectively! Maybe it just needed to be longer - a slower build up with more time for character development would have benefited the story a lot. If a character is going to make nonsense choices (like, idk, infecting themselves with tapeworms to simulate being pregnant) I at least want feel like it's a believable choice for that character to make even if it's ridiculous. Instead the story just went the lazy route with Agnes instantly descending into madness because she couldn't have children or whatever the fuck that was. It's lazy writing and it's boring to read.

I got the feeling that the author wanted the twist to be subverting the expectation that the "master" in an unhealthy master/slave kink relationship has to be the malicious one, and so purposefully made Zoe be reasonable and normal about things... but frankly it just didn't land for me. Even if it would have been a less original choice for Zoe to be manipulative and abusive, at least that route had a lot more potential for story development and horror. There's a version of this story that lives in my mind where, instead, Agnes becomes slowly isolated from her friends and family as Zoe convinces her they are bad, where Agnes becomes increasingly financially dependent on Zoe, where eventually she tries to log into her bank accounts to change the passwords only to find that Zoe has already changed them, where she realizes that Zoe has been following her around IRL despite never having given Zoe her address, where she finds out that Zoe has been logging into her accounts to send hateful messages to her friends pretending to be her... there is so much opportunity there for actual narrative tension! And, yeah, maybe it would be a more stereotypical financial abuse story but at least it would have some god damn horror in it. I genuinely want to spite-write that story for the hell of it, but I can't convince myself that it wouldn't be considered plagiarism or that I wouldn't get sued to hell and back, so instead I'll just be mad about it on tumblr. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[fyrapartnersearch]

Looking for partners that will allow me to write some pre-made character ideas that I have!

Hello! My name's Rain, and I'm a 21-year-old who has been roleplaying for approximately 6 years (but only in the most recent 4 or 5 have I really been "serious"). After being dragged by the ankles (although not without a struggle) into a hellish chasm of personal issues that has kept me from writing, I’ve finally managed to work everything out and am now itching to get back into the roleplaying-game! I'm hoping that I can find some good partners to satiate my cravings, and hopefully I can satiate some of yours too. I'm particularly looking to write some ideas that I have for characters. If you emailed me in the past and I didn’t respond, shoot me another email! Like I said, I had some things get in the way, so I’d be up for rekindling a past roleplay or picking up planning where we left off.

I can write replies ranging anywhere from 500-1200 words average - I know that's a rather big window to call my "average", but I don't want to make it sound like that's my strict length. This equates to around 3-8 paragraphs, but that obviously will vary depending on the size of the paragraph. I can certainly go upwards from 1200 and have gone on to posts with 2000+, however that's usually too much for most people. Essentially, I'll write the same amount you write so that it's not over or underwhelming. Let me know your range and I'll adapt! Although, if you would be willing to write 1500+/2000+ words a post, then you’d earn quite a bit on bonus points from me.

In terms of writing style, I write third person, past tense, multi-paragraph to novella. HERE are some samples of my writing! The first was an intro so it’s quite long, and the second is from the same roleplay as the first. The third is from a separate one.

I'm also putting this up front - my schedule's a bit wonky. There will be some days where we can go back and forth multiple times with multiple posts each and there will be some days where I can't reply at all. I'll try my best to let you know in advance if there will be a period of 2+ days where I can't reply, but things happen. My activity rate is partially dependent on interest level as well - if I'm really into and excited about our roleplay, I'll be able to reply more often!

On a similar note, I'm on the east coast (EST) if that's an important factor for you.

I'm open to playing multiple characters if that suits your fancy, or, if you'd rather just play one each, that's fine by me as well.

For relationship pairings, I do all different kinds: romantic/sexual, platonic, familial, and antagonistic. I think it's fine to mix and match all these different kids because they can make for some interesting character interaction! As for the gender pairings of the characters, I'm mostly looking for m/f, but depending on the idea/character I may do m/m (but please, make sure you ask first!).

Regarding the above, I very much��prefer the female role in m/f pairings but of course in m/m pairings I will play a male. I also find it interesting to write against more dominant male characters for heterosexual pairings, but that's certainly not required. I can totally get behind a shy sweetheart of a guy as well! In the end, it’s your character, so it’s up to you! I don't usually double in terms of each partner playing one male and one female, either - I know that is a deal-breaker for many, so I apologize for that. I may be willing to double in certain cases, but I’m not easily convinced - however, if you think you have mastered the arts of persuasion, then by all means, try to persuade me. I’m open to it.

I'm smut friendly as well and don’t mind including it in my roleplays, but it's really dependent on the content of the story itself. I don't necessarily want a story that is focused solely on smut, but I wouldn’t mind having it play a part (whether it’s small or large, that’s for you to decide). Going along with the NSFW theme, I'm all for most kinks - you name it, and more likely than not I'll be willing to write it, but I would still rather you check with me first. The only ones that I won't do and can't be convinced to do are pedophilia, necrophilia, bestiality, anything with body fluids, feet, pregnancy/lactation, vore, and gore. Everything else is fair game. Note that of those, gore and only gore is fine when not employed sexually (i.e. if the characters are fighting or in battle or are doing something violent of the sort, then it is totally fine). If you’d like to include smut, ask me for my list of kinks and share yours with me as well!

I use face-claims for all of my characters and only use realistic images.

I'm only interested in roleplaying over email at the moment. My email is ofliliesandfoxgloves@gmail.com.

What I'm Looking for in a Partner

Now that we've got those basics out of the way, there are certain things that I would like out of a partner that hopefully someone can provide!

Be 18+, please. I know I'm technically on the younger end of the adult spectrum but I still feel uncomfortable roleplaying with minors (especially because some of my plots can contain smut).

I would prefer if you were female, just because I am more comfortable roleplaying and writing with someone who is the same gender as I am, but that isn’t a requirement, as I don't want to totally limit the partners that reach out to me and potentially miss out on a fantastic male, nonbinary, etc. partner just because they aren't female.

I'm looking for someone who can at least mirror or match my minimum post length, so no fewer than 3-4 paragraphs or 500 or so words. Again, if you want to write longer replies that span the 1500+ word range, than that would be even better!

I would like if you wrote in the third person. Tense doesn't matter - write present or past, that's up to you. But I won't roleplay with anyone who writes in the first or second person, as it is a little weird to me.

If you can get me at least one post every other day, I'd be happy! If you can get me more than that, even better! Also, let me know if you're not going to be able to reply for a prolonged period of time so that I'm not sitting on my hands wondering where you went.

Likewise, if you want to drop the roleplay for any reason, just let me know! I won't be mad if it's not working out, I just don't want to be ghosted by someone who doesn't want to continue and instead never replies again.

If you can play multiple characters, that would be wonderful, but again, it's certainly not a requirement.

Use realistic face claims for characters, please! No anime or cartoons, but if you are an artist that has a more realistic style and would like to use your own art, then that is fine by me!

When you email me, let me know which things listed below interest you/you would want to include! Tell me a little about yourself and the way you write as well (including whether or not you would like to include smut in the roleplay as well as your limits if it's the latter).

Also, if you have an idea that I haven't listed, ask/tell me! I'm very open to suggestions!

Roleplay Information/Characters

On to the part that you've actually wanted to see! I’m not quite sure what to call this section, but it’s essentially a summary (more like bullets) of some characters that I already have ideas for that can be used in various different scenarios and plot-lines. They are in no particular order. If you are willing to let me use one of these, that will earn you major bonus points with me! Let me know if you are interested in any and I can elaborate. Most of them don’t have names yet (and the ones that do are subject to change) because I am very picky with names, aha, but I’ll think of those later. There obviously aren’t many of these at the moment, but there will likely be more of these added in the future. Anything with a plus (+) is one I am really dying to use! If you have an idea for/an already made character that you think would pair well with any of these, please describe them to me! Or, alternatively, if you have any characters you’ve been dying to use, let me know! Perhaps I can create a character to write opposite them. I'll note what type of relationship I would be interested in writing for a particular character (romantic/sexual, platonic, familial, or antagonistic) as well; we can also combine some of the four (like a romantic/sexual and antagonistic would be fun). I’m up for fluff or action or anything in between, so let me know what you want!

i. anny // female // early to mid twenties // heterosexual // asian // american // laid-back; quiet; passive-aggressive; collected, sly; manipulative; understanding; charming; grew up wealthy, still is wealthy, doesn’t bring up financial situation much; has danced in various genres since she was little, still does; english major, cognitive science minor; plays the violin; dislikes uncleanliness; editor.

ii. olson // male // mid twenties // bisexual, prefers men // caucasian // american // + // bitter; sarcastic; serious; aloof; intelligent; private; defensive; lost hearing in his early childhood, received cochlear implants in late adolescence, speech still sounds “different” from a hearing person’s; knows American Sign Language (ASL) and English; film/television production and mathematics double major, art history minor; likes maps; doesn’t particularly like physical contact; photographer [note: would prefer to write him against a character who is hearing and able to talk rather than another character on the mute/hard-of-hearing spectrum].

Contact

That's all I can think of at the moment! Again, if there's anything else not listed that you've been dying to try out, let me know! More likely than not, I'll say yes and jump right on board. Shoot me an email at ofliliesandfoxgloves@gmail.com with your interests and a little information about yourself (ex: average post length, activity, etc.). If you shoot me a message just saying a pairing you were interested in without telling me about yourself, then I won't be as inclined to reply since I don't know if our styles would match up! So please, tell me about yourself - I promise I won't bite!