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hineinihineini · 4 days ago

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every year the temperature drops and that terrible dark wild lake inside me freezes over, goes still; the world becomes clear and mysterious and divine again, cold rendering even any warmth truer, a flush of good blood under skin I'm glad to live in. darkness with spots of light, g-d presses close; the window between me and my life fogs over, my body always touching the chilled glass. I mourn the end of winter before winter arrives.

#tldr every year i convince myself i don't actually have reverse seasonal depression as that seems so on-brand for me as to be cringe-worthy #and then autumn comes and I go ohh right. true. I left the better part of my soul in november and december I just forgot that part existed #rinse and repeat #anyway #going to make a quick dinner and then watch suspiria 2018 before going to sleep #hiver #noa.txt #edit: dinner was not quick and suspiria is postponed because it just. didn't play.

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