#dude i feel FANTASTIC i need to limit how and when i do this so i don't build up a massive tolerance/go into withdrawal
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Am I placebo effecting myself or is the caffeine actually working
#i just cleaned my snake's tank holy SHIT i have been putting that off for longer than I'd care to admit#i also managed to just get up and shower so i could wash my hair#i need to know if it is or isn't the caffeine itself bc i don't wanna like. give myself an addiction for funsies#but i mean. i do always say that going for a walk cleans the gunk out of my brain and. walking ups norepinephrine#so does the coffee so it all kind of tracks now that it's been brought up with me#oughhhhh cecil immediately dove into the bedding to burrow and it made me so happy#he likes tunnels but he hadn't been doing it lately with how compacted the bedding got and I'm so glad he's back to normal#dude i feel FANTASTIC i need to limit how and when i do this so i don't build up a massive tolerance/go into withdrawal#bc i went into caffeine withdrawl in college (got little coffees bc they tasted good) and had a massive headache after 3 days#and I'm not wanting to repeat that but man. it feels like time has slowed down#might get a few of these for days off đł fuck work i wanna feel like i can do hobbies on my days off!!!#i DO need to see a doc still bc I'm gonna run out of my trazodone in a month or two anyways and was. actually looking at docs#earlier which is. also insane behavior for me#holy shit holy shit this is amazing and i hope i can keep seeing it#placebo or not i am getting things DONE and it feels really good#shai speaks
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Dude⌠are you ok? Cause youâre kind of interpreting this whole thing as something deep when it really isnât.
Hello, welcome to my blog.
I interpret things deeply when they shouldn't be, FOR FUN how are you doing?
loooool.
Like, It is a silly little youtube show, and the writers are on a time crunch and everything is likely half improv half written in a day. And they've done this for two years going on three.
So I don't expect expert writing. And I have nothing but the MASSIVE respect for the voice actors, writers and everyone involved.
I was even disappointed by how KC and Bloodmoon were handled too. So it's not the first time I've been disappointed by which direction the show takes.
But the over-analysis is literally for fun.
I am legit having fun.
But honestly? At the same time I don't think I'm okay.
I get super emotional when Robots replace other Robots with something with different memories with the same face. I was pretty much the same way when OldMoon died too.
I could go into a trauma dump on why this whole thing upsets me so much, but no one on tumblr needs to hear that. I honestly do understand the other side of the fandom that do take the Celestial Family's side in this whole thing (which I don't think there should be sides to begin with. lol) For me, personally, the whole thing happened way too quickly for me to understand how people are behaving in the way they did.
It's a conflict of me being unable to buy into the narrative because of how quick everything transpires.
And I can run here and chase my tail and do the "You are not me and I am not you" thing all day so ofc we have different thoughts on things but I think that is part of what makes the Sun and Moon show so special to me and a lot of other people
So? I overreact and relate to a character because I find their situation extremely relatable?
GOOD. FANTASTIC even.
It means that the Youtube Channel that makes content for shock value got me to FEEL something.
They are doing their job as intended, and the show will move on.
Nothing but respect and the highest regards they've been able to keep the show going for so long.
If things get stale for them, a new villain shows up, someone dies, or something in the status quo changes. They have to keep it fresh. This is nothing new. It's another evolution.
And honestly, I'll leave when I want to leave. I know my limits, and for now, Color me intrigued to see where all this is going...
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when people say wwx is not truly good because he rightfully sought revenge (justice!!!??!!) against those who wronged him and his former sect... dude some of them are so silly it upsets me
I have said it before but I think when people read, they don't want to draw a line between the conventions of what are considered everyday expectations of what is considered justifiable morals in our very monotonous domestic lives, to that of what is presented as wild and fantastical for fantasy.
The best accompaniment I can think of to compare to what we see from MDZS in a well-known English work is The Hunger Games. We have a protagonist that is very proud and independent in their own talents, they know what their limitations are yet still are able to go above even those when they are pushed to do it, every time this is out of a sense of duty but also devotion to what they love. They are not naive of the cruelty of life and at times can even come off as rather jaded about the reality of their worlds for good reason as both essentially are made caretakers and keepers of children their own age because of the incompetence of the adults in their lives and needing to learn how to survive themselves, but still offer love and hope for the best for the ones they care about.
They are also both thrust into continuous life and death situations, not because of any fault of their own, but because they didn't want others to be hurt needlessly. Neither Katniss or Wei Wuxian WANT to be self-sacrificial, they actually fight tooth and nail to live, they want to live because it is very human, but they also disavow real cruelty, not justifiable vengeance. They kill themselves to survive and partake in gruesome ones, yet the thing is that even in their own settings these are not condemned as them having ever been wrong for that by the narratives, one is in first person perspective and the other is from an omniscient other perspective.
This also reflects in the traits of their respective love interest that they both admittedly knew little about but were unconsciously taken by in their younger days and continued to have that admiration grow partly in due to the kindness within the love interest that is focused on heavily as a point of draw. And ironically both are called "oblivious" in their feelings of love when no, they rationalize it as friendship each time throughout the novels until they can and do safely admit they cannot be or it would always be the other for them.
Morality is a very fine line to argue when what is not my every day expectations of it are defied by the themes meant for novels and plots. In not one instance would I try to say Wei Wuxian or Katniss are "morally grey" or not justified in their actions when they continued to stick to their own ideals as much as possible without compromising what they believed to be right. They themselves do not ever try to deny their part in hurt or harm caused but do not take more and do not want more blame then they realistically are due. Maybe people see that as selfish and callous, I for one do not when they decide to take responsibility for what is theirs all the while being unapologetic about wanting to survive and happiness as what they deem is happiness.
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Let Go (Chapter 3)
Pairing: Jxdn x Landon
Tags/warnings: internalized homophobia, homophobia, discussions on limits and boundaries, cum tasting/eating .
Jaden
âHowâd therapy go?â Landon asks, when I return from the studio. Heâs already in bed, clad in just his boxers and I let my eyes linger. âDo you wanna talk about it?â
âPretty good, actually. I know Iâve got a long journey of self acceptance ahead of me, but I feel like Iâm off to a good start.â I say as I strip off today's clothes and climb into bed in my boxers as well.
âThatâs awesome, J, Iâm so happy for you! And fuck, dude Iâm so proud of you!â He pulls me into a bear hug, and Iâm very aware of his skin against mine.âI know how scared you were!â
âThanks, man.â I pat his leg. âMy therapist said when I got home she wanted me to practice saying my sexuality out loud, even if just to myself, but Iâd like to do it with you.
âOf course!â He takes my hand.
âOk here goes nothing âŚ.I umm, I guess Iâm bisexual? No uhhh um I thinkâ oh fuck it â Iâm bisexual!â I exhale loudly. God, that felt surprisingly good to say out loud.
âGreat job, man! I know that must have been tough, but you did it!â He tightens his grip on my hand. âActually, thereâs something I wanna share with you. As if itâs not blatantly obvious by now, Iâm also bisexual. And thatâs the first time Iâve ever said that aloud as well, even though Iâve known for quite a while.â
âWait, really?â Iâm completely taken by surprise. âHow long have you known?â
âI dunno,â He shrugs. âAs long as I can remember? I just kept it to myself. It wasnât due to shame or anything, it was just more of a guilty pleasure I guess. I never had the desire to really be with another man in real life, but I definitely found both men and woman attractive and watched A LOT of gay porn.â He laughs at his admittance.
âSo what changed? What made you want to act on it?
âHonestly?,â Landon took a deep breathâŚâYou.â
âMe?!â
âYes, you! And I donât want you to get the wrong idea. Itâs not like this was my plan all along. Our friendship, everything Iâve ever shared or said , it was all one hundred percent genuine. In fact my ummm⌠my crush on you didnât even start until more recently.â
âYour crush?â I tease with a smirk.
âOh, stop!â Landon gives my shoulder a playful shove. âYouâre sexy as fuck and you know it!â
âYouâre -uhhhmâ Youâre not so bad yourself.â I shove him back.
For a moment we just sit there looking at eachother, basking in the hue of our blushed cheeks.
âSo what else did she have to say?â Landon asks.
âShe said since I had been conditioned for so long to think homosexuality was wrong, that even though Iâve changed my way of thinking about others, and rationally I now realize itâs okay to be gay, subconsciously my mind still harbors the shame and guilt that Iâve been conditioned to think I should feel about it. She also said that over time, and working through it in therapy and with life expirences, the conditioning can be undone.â
âThatâs fantastic, Iâm willing to help you in any way you need, J.â
âThank you, I really appreciate it. I talked about you a lot today actually.â I feel myself start to blush again.
âReally?â He smiles at me, and I swear my heart skips a beat.
âReally. So first obviously I told her about whatâs been happening between us, and how thatâs actually why I started questioning my sexuality in the first place. And later she asked me if I had any kind of support system, and I said just you, and I started telling her about what a great friend you are, and how you comforted me during my freak out last night. She said Iâm lucky to have a friend like you⌠and umm maybe I could see if youâre interested in helping me explore my sexuality more?
âAbsolutely. Even though Iâve accepted my sexuality, Iâve never really explored mine either, outside of porn. Iâm down for whatever, but I donât wanna cross any boundaries for you. Is there anything you know you're not comfortable with right now? Or anything you know you definitely wanna try? Landon asks.
âSo Iâm okay with still doing what weâve been doing. But I donât think Iâd be comfortable with any kind of like assplay or anal sex right now⌠maybe eventually but right now it still feels like - I dunno .. too ââ
âGay?â Landon offers
âI was trying to think of a better way to say it,â I laugh âBut yeah, basically.â
âI understand, and respect your boundaries completely,â he places a hand on my thigh and my bodyâs doing that thing where I get all warm again. âAnything you wanna try?â
âActuallyââ I pause, nervously running my hand through my bleach blonde hair. âIâve actually been thinking about kissing you⌠like a lot.â
Landon
âSo do it!â I insist. I could easily just kiss him first, and lead the kiss for him. As much as I want to, I want him to gain the confidence and I want him to explore what power dynamic he enjoys more; does he enjoy taking control or would he rather submit to it.
He leans his whole body forward, and with his hands gently pushing on my chest, he connects our lips. Guided by his hands, I let myself fall back on the bed as he climbs on top of me. His hands find mine and interlock, softly pinning them down as our mouths open and close against eachother. Just as Iâm wondering how far heâs willing to take the kissing I feel his tongue slide against mine. His hungry mouth swallows down my involuntary moan at the long awaited sensation. And fuck, I canât take it anymore, I need control. With our hands still interlocked, I quickly flip us so that Iâm on top and start moving my kisses to other places: along his jawline , down his neck, over his clavicleâ-pausing only to unabashedly bury my nose in his underarms breathing him inâ-and down his chest and sternum. I fall in love with the way he says my name in soft whispered breaths and the way his body writhes as I kiss down his stomach and over his happy trail. I start to slide his boxers down to take him into my mouth when I feel him tense.
âYou okay? I check in with him
âDamn at least take me on a proper date first,â Jaden jokes. The message is loud and clear; heâs not ready for that yet. But also did he just say date?
âWait, you really want me to take you on a date? Like a boyfriends date?â Maybe Iâm reading into this too much.
âYeah, I umm I was doing a lot of thinking today after therapy and I-I like that title for us, feels right, ya know?â Oh god do I know!
âWell boyfriend,â I tease. âWe canât just leave you like this.â I motion to his barely concealed hard on. âI want you to tell me what you want?â
âYour hand.â
We both completely strip out of boxers â fully nude in front of eachother for the first timeâ and sit side-by-side at the head of the bed. Sure itâs the same thing weâve been doing every night but I donât mind, especially since weâre not hiding in the dark this time. And good lord his cock is beautiful; on the higher end of average, and veiny with a defined, bell shaped, pink tip. I love being able to not only feelâ but actually see how hard he is for me. I can only hope heâs enjoying the new view as well, but if his dick is anything to go by, Iâd say heâs loving it.
Jaden
Fuck! Landonâs hugeâboth length and girth, itâs almost embarrassing being naked next to him. I mean I could tell he was somewhat big from how how heâs felt in my hand at night but I didnât expect this big. It feels so fucking goodâup and down, up and downâ this sensual rhythmic routine of ours. Itâs so hott being able to watch him stroke me, and see myself stroking him in return. And just when I think it canât get any hotter, Landon cums, his white seed spilling out so forcefully it clears my hand completely, and lands on his stomach and chest. The site makes me bust instantly, my eyes rolling so far back in my head I swear they do a three sixty before Landon comes back into focus. Heâs looking at me with mischievous eyes and the next thing I know Iâm watching in complete awe as he laps my cum off the back of his hand like cat grooming itself.
âWhat?, you think I havenât tasted your cum before.â Landon smirks, âNothings changed besides the lights being on,â he winks as he licks the rest off.
I donât think my dicks ever twitched as hard as it just didâ in fact Iâm pretty sure if Landon hadnât just emptied my balls , Iâm be cumming again. Suddenly, Iâm finding myself wanting to taste him too. I look down at my hand to see if thereâs at least a drop that made it onto my skin, but thereâs not. But as if Landon can read my mind, he promptly sweeps two fingers across his stomach and feeds me his cum.
âSuck,â he instructs, and I do, albeit a little timid and awkwardly, but I do. Iâm nervous about the taste and texture but itâs surprisingly better than I expected; salty and warm as it slips down my throat. The experience kinda makes me wish I didnât just put off blow jobs until the first date, but my therapist said that while Iâm exploring my sexuality, I should set limits based on my comfort, and never push past them in the heat of the moment or off the high of an orgasm, because I might regret it later. But the only thing I regret right now is setting that limit in the first place.
#jaden x landon#Jaden Hossler#landon barker smut#Landon barker#Jaden Hossler smut#jxdn smut#Jaden Hossler x Landon barker smut#Jxdn x Landon smut
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NAME : dan!!
PRONOUNS : he/him
PREFERENCE OF COMMUNICATION : tumblr im. discord. passenger pigeon. I'm very slow sometimes but you should plot with me!!
NAME OF MUSE(s) : clair, cynthia, barry, jupiter/eris + so many mooore (how did it come to this? LMAO)
BEST EXPERIENCE(S) : dedicating this section to both ash (@analuein) and aya (@distortsverity)! ash and I have been writing together for infinity years right here on tumblr. no matter the muse, it's always a blast spinning up plots and watching the magic unfold from there with her. from thorton to violet, to noland and clair. from wildencounters to indie. it's been a fantastic ride. day one. đ
I transitioned from group rp to indie a few years ago and--at the time--I was all alone. I had no connections, just a lonely barry blog to my name. I wrote drabbles by myself in the dark for two weeks until aya came across my blog with her hikari, and everything just clicked. aya made me feel included, reached out with ideas, plots and feedback, and showed love to barry and all of my muse(s)--and to this day, I still feel TREMENDOUSLY grateful for the helping hand when I felt so isolated. I definitely would not still be writing here without her.
since then, I've had an amazing time here. writing with so many different people, muses, and groups--it's all so good. my best experiences happen when I'm writing (or even plotting) with someone, and everything just works, flows, and fits together and I can just feel that shared excitement. that feeling that we're building a great story together. that's magical. that's why I'm still around, trying new muses, diving headlong into amazing plots/dynamics, letting my imagination run wild, and--as always--writing a lot. much love to EVERYONE who has helped keep that fire burning over the years, but especially ash and aya for giving that flame a chance in the first place. tysm. â¤ď¸
RP PET PEEVES / DEALBREAKERS : it's been said, but--on a personal level--I wish private communication would happen more, specifically when it comes to interest levels. my time is becoming more and more limited here (sad as that is) and I have always written at a slower, longer pace. so, given how fast this place moves, I would appreciate knowing if a thread has grown stale, or if something's off.
I'm flexible. I'd like to think that I'm pretty laid-back. I want you to have fun, and you need to drop or backburner our thread because life, interest, etc. that's okay. I promise. I also don't mind reminders about cold threads or overdue replies on my end. if that's the case, please let me know right away, and I'll pick it back up or let you know my thoughts. we can try new things, or not. just let me know what you'd like to do, and we can adjust from there. that being said, lack of time or muse =/= lack of interest. I get that. you never need to rush a reply with me, and I will always (for better or worse) assume interest is still there unless told otherwise by you. I'm no herlock sholmes. (I wish I was...)
so, as a courtesy, I'd ask to please talk to me if something's wrong. if you feel the need to drop our thread or aren't interested in an interaction and/or want to start fresh. I won't be upset (quote me on that.) I just want to make sure that the writing vibes are still good, and I want to spend my time here writing things that you (and others) are still into. and in the end, it's not really a big deal--this place is great and I adore my past/present/future thread partners--but it's something that I would appreciate!
(also since I haven't made it clear before: no AI with me, please. let's meet at the same level.)
MUSE PREFERENCES: strong women and brash, sunshiney dudes. (I'll really try anyone, but I certainly have types đ)
PLOTS OR MEMES : whatever's easier for you to get in the door with--c'mon in!! I don't find myself with the time to reblog many memes lately, but my inbox/IMs are always open for spot interactions, and I'll do a lil' starter call here and there!!
LONG OR SHORT REPLIES : I don't mind receiving either, but I always tend to lose myself in the sauce and write a lot oops. you never have to match my length. as long as we're writing together, that's chill enough for me!
BEST TIME TO WRITE : my healthcare job is killing me. I'll try to sneak on for some stuff here and there, but I'm most active during evening/nighttime CST US. confirmed night time scrawler. đŚ
ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE(S) : some common threads linking all of my muses to me is the fact that we always want to be active, we have (too) high expectations of ourselves, we grew up and are still growing up, and we spend too much time working (and loathe it LMAO)
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Delight and Declamation: Play Contest Winners ~
Our winners this week are @hypexion, @just--a--penguin, and @spooky-bard!
@hypexion â Witherbloom Janitor
Thereâs a certain silliness to a world of real influence and the magical sphere. Out of all the cards this week, I found myself drawn to this as a subtle example, something where the humor is both present in-world (as the skeletons being subservient or animated homunculi-figures) and with a reference to the figure of speech which may become reality. Quite lovely to see the question there as well. There are minor wording possibilities, like, âAt the end of a term/end of termâ being something that rolls off the tongue more than the current wording, but thatâs my English side and doesnât take from the overall strength of your structure.
Lorehold is probably the place where this is a bigger hoser. Discarding and drawing means that there are some other considerations to be made, but thatâs merely one limited possibility. What if this card wants to see constructed play as a body-to-Tormodâs-Crypt effect? Simple and reasonable; seems like every set needs a graveyard hoser, donât it. Nothing complicated, but nothing that isnât necessary, either. The effectâs permeability is what makes it stand out for me alongside the fact that it made me laugh, so there you go!
@just--a--penguin â Expose Fraudulence
This time, I want to talk about the meta and the gameplay first. Even if you donât have Citizens, youâre gonna get some, and the semi-Fog-to-two-creatures-thatâs-probably-a-card effect (and tbh I donât have the time to look up the card Iâm thinking of) is only stronger if you have yourself some Citizens to kill whateverâs coming at you. Wham, a big Rhino or Raccoon or Elf Guy is gonna do what he has to do. Wham bam the plan is to live. But, thatâs a given, and itâs a pretty fun effect that can also just serve to aggressively whack out the opponent who doesnât have their Citizens in a row and win.
But holy cannoli that flavor text and world. Three-raccoons-in-a-trenchcoat is such a vibe, honestly. And the callback to the weirdness of Witness Protection makes that dramatic little edge all the more endearing. How honestâno, whatâs the wordâgenuine! Itâs a genuine nature that makes the drama connect with the heart. The chase is on! Iâm invested in these little dudes and the people exposing them! Magic canât really have the story for a heist, but frankly, I like that much better than whatever Rankle had going on in MOM, so that bar is cleared. Iâll be wary of any fur-faced salesfolk coming by from now on.
@spooky-bard â Speedy Delivery
âOr else.â Whatâs it about Capenna that had people so interested in Food? Or, no, it was also this contest, there was a LOT of food. âOr else.â Man, Iâm sorry, Iâm bouncing around a lot, but I want that little turn to just stick for a little bit. In the middle of a busy week, Iâm reading over all the entries, thinking about the commentary I have to do and when the hell Iâll have time to do it, I reread it thinking about how good the card is, and I laugh. I just start letting myself laugh, letting that come into this space, and itâs all I need for a second. Itâs a fantastic card as-is, but itâs what I needed, and thatâs why itâs here.
On the boring gameplay side of thing, Iâm going to smack someone with a double-striking Raccoonâagainâand Iâm gonna have me some pizza to go with it. Actually, there was a really fun Heroic-ish uncommon from SNC draft I remember, so thatâs very fun to think about with this card. Ach, what does it matter? Maybe in a Food-matters world itâll be all the better and a token-matters one, too. What if the new world of Capennaâs rebuilding is a Masterchef-style contest and we have some espionage with the different families, having come together, succumbing to their old tricks and murders because of the prize? I donât know, but itâs something where I can feel the levity coming to me. So thank you.
Runners if I can get to them before class! Whew. @abelzumi
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Discussing your desire can be embarrassing. Exposing your ambitious passion can often times make you feel as if youâve mutated into cringe incarnate. The dream that accompanies every waking thought - which essentially dominates your brain to the point where itâs difficult to talk about anything other than your creative goals - is the same concept you suppress from casual conversation. If these fantasies and lofty career aspirations make up such large portions of our gray matter (and can even feel physically beyond, seemingly flowing within our whole bodyâs bloodstream), then why is it sometimes awkward to publicly display?
The reason for me (most of the time) is to not sound pretentious. Who am I to boast of any ideas? Have I sold a bajillion copies of anything? Compare and despair plays a big part in my hesitancy to share my deepest daydreams of making it big as an author. I donât want to sound like the middle-aged dude in a go-nowhere band, or the man-child all-day gamer. Even writing that makes me feel like I should apologize and that I donât have anything against late-in-life goals or hobbies. Heck, I fit the bill when it comes to both, though Iâm not much of a gamer, and a lot of my extracurricular activities are brainless time-wasters. A large chunk of my hobbies, though, are ultimately contributing to an even huger target. Still, the creative pursuit can at least look like a frivolous endeavor that friends and family humor. Writing fiction is, of course, a passion of mine, but itâs also a frustrating one when there isnât much in the way of instant gratifications.
A lot of the time I resist the urge to indulge in my author-related projects unless the topic of conversation is initiated by someone else. Despite having a legitimately intrigued audience, I will still attempt to limit the info-dump Iâm avalanching upon the well-meaning yet unsuspecting person. The self-censor is partially out of politeness but mainly for myself to not sound like an utter weirdo. Recently, however, I had the gift of a certain kind of freedom - a liberating moment where I could fully immerse myself in inspiration.
This flow of exciting ideas was a silent, internalized experience - and brief - but it was a welcome release of fretting over any outward appearances. No, there wasnât an opportunity to shout these story ideas from the rooftops, but my mindâs unraveling of characters and their fantastical actions didnât need to be anything other than an interior wandering. Normally, taking a trip into my âmind palaceâ would be reserved for spare moments throughout the day or perhaps a random idea would manifest itself within my brain and Iâd follow for however long I could before resuming whatever daily work or routine Iâd be doing at the time. This particular instance from only a few days ago at the time of this writing occurred at a time where it was appropriate and okay to mentally lose myself in a sequence of scenes for a piece of fiction Iâve been developing. My muse in this case was none other than the ocean.
Beach vacations are known for the relaxing times of peaceful meandering and/or serene introspection. My recent trip provided these things, sure, but like with many excursions, there are planning elements, as well as the stress of navigating through a different environment. My sandy getaway may not have offered as many thought-clearing states as I may have liked, but the idyllic moments the vacay did offer were priceless gifts.
I stood knee-deep in cool seawater, enjoying the mercifully mild weather, and permitting myself to know that at that very moment, my situation was a safe and acceptable one. I had achieved the stress-free comfort that soothing shorelines are capable of giving. It was during a time where few others occupied the beach, so the atmosphere was even more freeing. Even the stronger wavesâ crashing carried dulcet tones, and the soft breezes blew around my body, reminding me of how wonderfully insignificant I am in the grand scheme of things - while simultaneously assuring the importance of me and everyone and everything else. Itâs a good place to be.
The moment evaporated as it reached what was apparently its natural conclusion, but I was gifted the time of mental exploration. Undisturbed yet swirling with activity like the ocean itself, I allowed for some unadulterated imagining. I believe what made this experience more noteworthy than any other time I happen to think of soothing that would be cool to throw into a story is that this was fully acknowledged and embraced. At the risk of coming off as strange or humiliating myself with âgee whizâ naĂŻvetĂŠ, I am publicly posting this blog that may or may not get read. Cringe or no cringe.
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SPOILERS FOR SEASON 2 EPISODE 17 OF DUNGEONS AND DADDIES
Damn I feel bad for Risky Click now....
That intro was dark, okay
"Hobby you get paid for" wait so does that mean that his mom doesn't like her job???
I love Link so much, all of his facts are just so.... Him
THIS PODCAST DUNGEONS AND DRAGONS- DEJA VUUUUU
*screech* is my new favorite character.
Them gasping at Scary's intro is one of my favorite things. The little things in life....
2050s??????? IT ISN'T 2050 IN CANON- WHERE'D THE TIMELINE GO?!? THEY SAID 25 YEARS LATER AFTER SEASON 1, SEASON 1 WAS AROUND 2020, SO WOULDNT IT BE THE 2040S???
pleassssseeee not the goofy taken impression
THE MITOCHONDRIA IS THE POWERHOUSE OF THE CELLLLLLL PLEASE WE WERE TALKING ABOUT CELL ORGANELLES IN MY ANATOMY & PHYSIOLOGY CLASS TODAY
Scary has limits??? (/hj) Wowwwwwwww
Okay I'm starting to like Hermie.
DORITO DEVITO THAT'S THE BEST NAME EVER
Lark>>>> PLEASE GIVE US MOMMA LARK.
oh dorito has a horrifying voice
Lincoln.... Why.... đđđ we're never gonna get out of this papa johns arc
Don't you dare let my second favorite character die-
lArK you- I love him đ
HERMIEEEEEEEEEEE SHITTT OKAY I LOVE HIM NOW
ALL FOUR CAN FIT IN THE BOX?!? đđđđ SeVeN pEoPlE iN bOxEs-
120 boxes of pizza đđđđ this is insane
"Can you order calzone people? Like is that an item on the menu?" I'M DONE- "They have like the big subs-" MHDYDKYDKGDKYXKYFKYX PLEASE STOP /j
~ad break~
Matt having a conversation with himself đđđđ I'M CRYING- THIS IS SO FUNNY STOPPPPPP
WHY'D HE USE HIS OWN NAMEEEEEEEE MATT COME ON
"IT'S EARTH DUDE, THEY GOT *69" I love this cast so much
70 ORDERS OF BREADSTICKS WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING!!! đđđ
YOU'LL SEE THE PRICE ON THE RECEIPT đđđđđđ PLEASEEEEEEEE
LARK IS THE FUNNIEST OF THE "DADS" LIKE HE'S A "DILF", HE'S A MEME, HE'S ACTUALLY SOMEWHAT SANE, BUT HE ISN'T EVEN A DAD! He just wants to eat the calzones. Me too bestie.
You can just HEAR Lark grinning when he said "I did~" he's gotta be very proud of that.
LARK REGRESSING OH MY GOD PLEASE LET HIM BECOME THE LORD OF CHAOS AGAIN
Link/Matt totally wants to get rid of Hermie.
Risky "Rick" Click
Hermie alreAdy looks like Risky- I love this podcast so much y'all.
~ad break~ (Beth "our feet are touching" May)
"Here's a tip, get a new job!" That little bit- okay every bit is fantastic, I should stop.
YOU BUILT THE WRONG ROOM MOTHERFUCKER. Taylor needs to meet Glenn. This needs to happen. Make it happen.
This is gonna be a common occurrence isn't it. Trapping themselves in a room with Click.
4 EPISODES IN A ROW FOR INITIATIVE. *Scary groan style* OHHHH MY GODDDDDDDD.
SCARY NO-
"Just a polite concussion."
EXPLODES- HOLY SHIT SCARY-
What the fuck Hermie- this man is not normal. It has to be a likely, I mean he just automatically transforms into lookalikes of people đ
AWWWWWWW HE PULLED HIM IN A HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG THAT'S SO CUTEEEEEE (I was kinda enjoying the almost childlike Lark and Sparrow, but that's fine)
"I'm sorry I said it" euhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh see this is why Lark is the better twin-
"Too old to share a calzone with your pop pop?" đđđ
CHILD LARK! YOU'RE A VERY STRONG BOY!
Calzone- "Nothings fine; everything's fucked up. That's right, I said it: the f-word."
I love how Hermie went from loving Scary, to Normal, to Taylor.
The wombussy- please stop đ
"You just hear them staring at each other" You HEAR their stares.
The ~purr~ of the engine of the đąwagon
Awwwwww this has gotten really sad really quickly... I just want to join the Norm + Sparrow hug. They both need it. More so Normal but whatever.
"We're gonna have to do it again" DON'T TELL ME IT'S CODE PURPLE. BITCH I'LL FUCKING LOSE IT IF WE GOTTA GET RID OF THE HELL BOIS. DON'T YOU DARE.
also Will's characters are always the main characters. you can't convince me otherwise.
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A Knight and a Dragon Talk it Out
By Quijibo
Yang: Hey Vomit Boy
Jaune: You're never going to let that go, are you?
Yang: You puked on my shoes.
Jaune: Air sickness is a common problem for people!
Yang: Yeah, at least I grossed Ruby out with it.
Jaune: Ugh... so what did you want?
Yang: Just to say thank you for sticking up for Weiss. I know she hasn't always been the nicest to you. I'm glad you're proving to be a decent guy. Unlike a little blue haired twit...
Jaune: What did you do?
Yang (shows a video on her scroll): Just posted the go pro video of when he was riding Bumblebee.
Jaune: Wow, the camera is amazing, you can see really see the fearful tears as he prays...
Yang: Yeah the dude hit on two girls that night too. Weiss is better off. So you made Pyrrha's night! Good work there.
Jaune: She's my partner and best friend. I'd do anything for her.
Yang: You two a thing?
Jaune: A thing? How do you mean.... No, Nonono. Me and Pyr aren't like that!
Yang: You sure?
Jaune: Absolutely.
Yang: Good to know.
Jaune (smiles): How about you and Blake? You seemed to enjoy your dance?
Yang: Ha! Blake wishes!
Jaune: She does?
Yang: Well probably not. Blake is Blake though, I pity whoever opens that can of worms. I love her, she's basically family, but she's not someone I could ever rely on.
Jaune: But your partners.
Yang: Yes we are.
Jaune (sighs): Pyrrha probably feels the same way...
Yang: Maybe, but you showed up in this dress specifically to help her. Blake, well Blake would never do that. Sure she could kick your ass in Professor G's class, but who couldn't?
Jaune (smiles sheepishly): Nice to know my limitations are common knowledge.
Yang: You put your team and your friends first. Trust me than makes up for most of it.
Jaune: Thanks I guess
Yang: You're welcome. Now comes the moment where you compliment my dress.
Jaune (Laughs): I've been meaning to. I love The Seven Year Itch!
Yang: You recognized it! Damn, I thought I'd need to stand on a steam grate for someone to realize!
Jaune: ...
Yang: You're picturing it now, aren't you?
Jaune: Sorry.
Yang (waits a second): You know what, you looked out for my teammate and your own. Feel free to fantasize a little.
Jaune (laughs): I don't think that's a good idea. Hey Yang?
Yang: Yeah?
Jaune: Thanks for coming over. I know Ruby and I are friends more than you and I, but it's nice to talk with you.
Yang: No problem Vomit Boy. Anytime.
Jaune: ... How about lunch tomorrow?
Yang: I'd like that.
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Alrighty, hereâs a story written by my dear friend, Quijibo. Several of his short story prompts will be appearing on here. Iâll take âem, By Quijibo in the tags to keep it separate from everything else.
And, hereâs a link to his Fanfiction Account, he has a fantastic Winter Knight story there, and a bunch of others as well. I do hope you enjoy it all. Till Later then.
Quijibo7609 Fanfiction
#rwby#jaune arc#pyrrha nikos#yang xiao long#ruby rose#blake bellodona#neptune vasilias#jaune x yang#yang x jaune#rwby dragonslayer#weiss schnee#by Quijibo
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just finished the animated harley quinn series and BOY do i have lots of love and lots of thoughts:
first off, wowâthank god production companies are investing in making adult animated series, its such a godsend medium and far superior to live action when it comes to action fantasy
harley is one of my favorite CB characters ever, in nearly all her incarnationsâher character backstory just offers this amazing platform for true growth, both in her relationships with others and her relationship with herself
also while there was an overarching story, i adore how much more episodic and low-stake this feels than majority limited series these days, itâs so refreshing to watch
okay, now to really dig in: harleyâs growth was so fantastic here. what i loved about the live action birds of prey movie was that it was both a break-up movie and a movie about healing and being there for your friends (a very non-cheesy and genuine female narrative). as origin stories go, this animated show took that theme and shot it into the starsânot only redefining harleyâs âoriginâ with that brilliant repressed memory episode, but also granting her an identity of a villain who is a good person still. both seasons had clear, distinct arcs without running out of room to run (usually season 2s lose steam after origin stories)
god ivy x harley was SO well set up here. rather than a typical formula of a romance being tested by trials, we saw a love that was healthy from the startâa friendship that pushed each woman to grow and to be the best version of themselves. it wasnât a love defined by superficial attraction or burning infatuation, it was a partnership built by trust, love, and generosity. they wanted each other to be happy, rather than wanting the other person just for themselves. i love kite manâs character, heâs a great dude whose love is true. but even though his love was definitely true, it ran a bit superficial, and while that is okay it simply doesnât compare with how deep harley and ivyâs love runs for each other.
harlivy was so great i bc this show because it wasnât just written as a classic romanceâit was written as two individual character arcs that were well-intertwined. it about two people who needed some form of change in their lives, and found someone to âdo lifeâ with, rather than be at odds with each other. they certainly challenge each other, and are by no means perfect to one another, but their love is true and deep . and FUCK MEN!!
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Nah, dude. That's all fair. You do you.
And, you're right. It does kinda make the ghosts seem stuck, but at the same time... they're ghosts...
I guess that I just feel like... ghosts have always been portrayed as being stuck in one way or another. Whether stuck on a passion they had in life. Stuck on unfinished business. Or routines that they had when alive. Or literally stuck in the moment that they died.
While not necessarily canon to DP, it is actual ghost lore for ghosts to have habits or routines that they repeat ad nauseum even if they no longer need to. That's part of the tragedy of their existence.
If you ever play the Blackwell series (which I absolutely recommend, fantastic games), you'll see that one way to actively get ghosts to move on to whatever's next is to break them from their stucked-ness & be willing to do something else or make peace with something that happened.
I've always seen the whole ghost thing as being people not being ready to move on for one reason or another & that Obsessions are partially a manifestation of this.
I also think that it can kinda be likened somewhat to an addiction in a way. In that, you choose the start drugs & you choose to continue them because they make you feel good. At the same time, it narrows your life down & makes you miserable, which just causes you to pursue more drugs to make you feel better.
And in order to stop, you have to get to a point where you realize that it's not good for you & that it's not making you happy to a point where you WANT to stop. Sometimes even then, some part of you wants to cling to that comforting habit because it's familiar & comforting. Which makes quitting difficult. Because, somewhere inside, you still like it. It takes some people a herculean effort to stop.
So, I guess that I just see the Obsessions thing as more of an opportunity for complexity than a true limiter.
In this way, I've always seen the whole ghost existence in DP to be a temporary stop while the ghosts finish what's keeping them ghosts. Like, the goal of being a ghost is to get to a point where you can move on to what's next, whether that be the End or reincarnation or whatever.
This would also naturally make it very difficult for ghosts to grow as people because they are innately stagnant individuals. Because the thing about being a ghost is that it isn't supposed to be fun.
I literally have an entire long post with a Ted Talk on my hc of the mechanics of the ghost zone & how ghosts work & how the GZ is basically Purgatory. So, this is something that I'm innately interested in.
But, again. It is entirely in your right to think this way. I just enjoy ghost lore & theory.
Like, the whole point of me giving Danny a protection Obsession is to link him to a category of ghost/spirit called a Tutelary, which is a literal spirit of protection or hero ghosts known for protecting people & areas. Specifically, I liken him to a Greco-Roman Lar Praestite which are a specific kind of Lar that protects cities & city-states. Which Danny does. I also tend to make him a Psychopomp, which are spirits that guide souls to the afterlife & a specific type of something I call a Gatekeeper Ghost.
Gatekeeper Ghosts being the spirits of people who died in the creation of portals to other planes that now guard said portals in death. Psychopomps specifically having died in the creation of portals to the afterlife & guard the boundary between life & death. So, like ghostly boarder patrol.
I find the whole thing unessecarily interesting! :D
Maybe kinda weird but there is One (1) thing i really dislike in the Danny Phantom fandom.
The Obsession Fanon.
Because I believe it takes away some very important characteristic from Danny.
If you make his so-called 'obsession' protection you take away something very important.
The fact that he choose to do it.
He choose to help people. He continues to choose it no matter what. He still helps the people who bully him.
Why? Because as he said in an episode. No one else will.
He is a good person and by just saying he has to because of an "obsession" I feel like you destroy that part of his character.
If you make his 'obsession' space you also take something away. As he mentioned he wanted to be an astronaut. By making it an obsession you take away this thing he loved. Because you end up 'forcing' him to love it because he has to to survive because of 'obsession'
Sure. The ghosts have a theme but they are more than that. Sure Ember has her music thing but she still dates and does other stuff. Youngblood plays games but he is a young kid.
What would you even give Johnny and Kitty? Love? With all the arguements they have?
I dont like the Obsession thing that Fanon seems to be convinced about is Canon and I will die on this hill.
And no. It isnt Canon. As far as I remember (and I watched the show three times but i may misremember some stuff) it was never truly mentioned as obsession. You have ghosts who have goals but the humans also have goals and you dont call that obsessions.
These ghosts are just bored out of their minds and decide to do ghost stuff and cause trouble because of that or to gain more power.
Ember doesnt sing because she wants to be a popstar. She straight up is a popstar because she gained more power from people knowing her name. (An example I know of the top of my head)
Just. Really dislike the fandoms obsession with Obsessions.
Okay that is all. 1am rant over.
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BnHA Chapter 324: Is There a Force Field Around Him??
Previously on BnHA: Flashback!Rat Principal was all âplease tell Midoriya that I spent a concerningly small amount of money upgrading U.A. into a wacky physics-defying funtime grid so as to make the final battle much more confusing for everyone.â Present Day!Mic (or Present!Mic, if you will) and Jeanist were all âif only somebody could deescalate this dangerously unhinged mob, weâve tried nothing and weâre all out of ideas.â Ochako was all âLISTEN UP PEOPLE.â The mob was all, âgod??â Ochako was all, âNO, ITâS ME, OCHAKO. IâM REALLY HIGH UP ON THIS BUILDING AND THE VISIBILITY IS LOW DUE TO THE RAIN, SO I CAN SEE HOW YOU MIGHT MAKE THAT MISTAKE. ANYWAYS, DEKU WAS OUT THERE RISKING HIS LIFE FOR YOU CLOWNS EVEN THOUGH HEâS JUST A KID, SO I WOULD REALLY APPRECIATE IF YOU COULD ALL REMEMBER HOW TO BE DECENT HUMAN BEINGS, THANKS.â Letâs see if her Big Scolding Energy has any impact.
Today on BnHA: Horikoshi is all âso I have this speech planned out, and itâs really good, but it also only really needs about 6 to 8 pages, but Iâm gonna see if I can stretch it out to 17 pages so I can kill time before we get to the next volume cliffhanger two weeks from now.â Anyway but it really is a good speech though. There are feels, and tears, and more talk about how Deku is so in need of a shower that just looking at him requires a tetanus booster, and more feels, and more tears, and bonus ship drama, and an iconic callback to the very first chapter which reframes the entire series in a new context in a totally epic and moving way, and itâs all very good. Except that Horikoshi is determined to never let anyone actually give this kid a hug. Who hurt you, dude.
omg we are opening on a callback to chapter 212, a.k.a. the chapter with by far the cutest flashback that doesnât involve any baby Todorokis
baby Ochako is lethally cute. she could literally murder someone with her cuteness. I just want to scoop her up and play airplane with her until she accidentally activates her quirk while weâre spinning around and we both helicopter up into the air never to be seen again
âa childâs insistenceâ huh well thatâs all well and good, but I sure hope this doesnât mean weâre going to drag out the whole âsternly lecture the obnoxious citizensâ plot for another whole chapter. no offense but I think weâre good
so page 2 is just continuing the whole happy/worried faces monologue, which of course is very important to Ochakoâs character as it provides the context for why âwho protects the heroesâ ended up becoming her thing. and this is making me think we actually are in for a whole second chapter of this sob. when will my boy finally get to rest
OH MY GOD SUDDENLY THESE PEOPLE HAVE EYES IMAGINE THAT

HORIKOSHI:Â [reaches for a box of tissues while tearfully penning an homage to his beloved Spider-Man 2, specifically the train scene where the crowd sees Peter without his mask and they suddenly realize just how young he is]
HORIKOSHIâS HOMAGE SCENE: âCOME TO THINK OF IT, I GUESS IT WAS KIND OF MEAN FOR US TO PICK ON THIS TEN YEAR OLD KID WHO WEIGHS 75 POUNDS AND LOOKS LIKE HE LOST A FIGHT WITH SATANâS MOLDY OLD BASEMENTâ
lol at this one guy who can feel the mood of the crowd shifting and is all âWAIT, NO, I WANTED TO KEEP BEING AN ASSHOLE DAMMITâ

as many pointed out last week, this man is wearing an All Might shirt. thatâs some fantastic irony there
-- SDKFJWIGKS

âLITTLE GIRL, I HOPE YOUâRE NOT SUGGESTING THAT WE SHOULD ALLÂ BE WALKING AROUND DRESSED LIKE A SOVIET-ERA BUS STOP.â heh. last week I said I was ashamed of BnHA being my favorite manga. that was a lie, actually
(ETA: in the original Japanese Ochakoâs next two lines are basically âthe only ones covered in mud will be us heroes!â followed by âplease give us some time to get rid of the mudâ, with that second line basically being the single funniest thing Iâve ever read rdslkjl. Ochako thank you so much for supporting my running gags. âYEAH WE KNOW HEâS DIRTY. WE ARE GONNA TRY AND CLEAN HIM UP, BUT IT MAY TAKE A WHILE, IâM JUST SAYING. I MEAN LOOK AT HIM. HE LOOKS LIKE AN ASBESTOS COSPLAY.â)
doesnât the megaphone kind of look ever so slightly like an axe that sheâs wielding maniacally here

easy there Lizzie Borden
also thatâs a really bold claim to make there. and not one she necessarily should have to make, either. but as we all know, thereâs nothing that shounen manga likes more than having its heroes bravely hoist heavy burdens of responsibility like good self-sacrificing citizens
p.s. lowkey loving how Kacchan is positioned here standing slightly behind Deku. not presuming to stand in front of him all overprotectively (because he would hate if anyone ever did that to him), and kind of being unobtrusive and letting others take center stage -- but still being close enough to Deku that he can catch him if he stumbles or passes out again
(ETA: or maybe not lmao.
DEKU: [falls to his knees]
KACCHAN: [glancing up from his phone a few minutes later]Â âsomeone just sent me the stupidest meme about milk crates -- oh. uh. you good...?â
really, son. âthe burdens you canât carry, weâll carry them for you. ...later, I mean. right now itâs late, and weâre all cold and wet.â)
also lowkey loving this OchaTsu moment here

I was going back and binging Ochako chapters this past week for reasons, and I gotta say it really stuck out to me just how often these two are paired with each other. they do everything together. itâs a really sweet friendship that often goes unappreciated but itâs very cute
meanwhile, not to be outdone by the OchaTsu, Iida is staring at Ochako with open admiration talking about how sheâs fighting too. itâs been so long since weâve had any IidaRaka you guys. I was starving and I didnât even know it
oh my lord ITâS FINALLY HAPPENING

THE LIGHT IS BACK. he finally looks like him again. what a cathartic fucking moment omg
ffklkdw

âI KNOW YOU ARE ALL SCARED, BUT THE GOOD NEWS IS, WE DEFINITELY CANNOT GUARANTEE YOUR SAFETY AND WE ARE ALL SCARED TOO!â good pep talk there kiddo
BUT, jokes aside, truth be told this is the exact right approach to take imo, and something thatâs long overdue. Iâve said this before, but this new generation of heroes is shaping up to be much more transparent than the All Might generation. theyâre basically abandoning the almighty, untouchable Superman âheroes as godsâ concept in favor of the more nuanced âheroes as peopleâ concept instead. and thatâs a good thing. seeing their heroes as humans, with human limitations and weaknesses and flaws, will hopefully not only lead to more scrutiny and accountability, but also more awareness of how hard some of them are working and how much theyâre sacrificing. thatâs something All Might never quite grasped back at the start of the series -- that the weak, vulnerable, injured him could be just as inspiring as the mighty, invincible him -- perhaps even more so. thereâs a power in seeing otherwise ordinary people show extraordinary bravery and compassion. it inspires others to try and do the same
SSDLHK AIZAWA SIGHTING AAHHHHHH

so he was still back at the hospital this whole time?? smdh at this disrespect. that feeling when your sexy self-insert characterâs powers of rationality are too strong, and so you have to nerf him so that he doesnât ruin your Deku Angst arc twice over by (1) immediately talking some sense into Deku and making him come home Right This Instant Young Man, and (2) not allowing him to leave U.A. in the first fucking place. excuse me, you want to do WHAT now, Midoriya?? thatâs it, go to your room
also living for Katsuki and Hawksâs soft expressions. Shoutoâs too, although his is tinier and harder to see. and Jeanistâs 12-foot-long neck. imagine Jeanistâs head with Micâs hair. maybe Jeanist had a mohawk back in the day and thatâs why U.A.âs doors are so big now
speaking of soft faces, Enjiâs is also excellent

what could this random close-up possibly imply?? hell if I know. but Horikoshi truly fears no discourse and thatâs what I love about him
OMGGGG

âsmh my child is so dumb.â poor Ochadad. your child is cute af count your blessings
SDOFFHSMH

Iâm telling you guys. lethally, catastrophically cute
this speech is still ongoing lol. Horikoshi youâre doing so good but I think we get the point now my dude. you gotta learn how to transition out of these things
UNEXPECTED TOGA WHAT

âthere we goâ Horikoshi says, crossing off the last line on his list of Ochako ships. âthatâs all of âemâ
poor Ochako is just repeating the same âLET HIM REST, PLEASE, WITH EVERYONEâS COOPERATION, IF YOU DONâT MIND, WE APPRECIATE ITâ talking points over and over again hoping someone will throw her a bone and acknowledge her already. SOMEONE PLEASE HELP HER
literally theyâre all just staring up at her silently omg. work with me people!!
now sheâs saying it for the 56th time but more dramatically all of a sudden
they got so dramatic that for a minute I thought she had suddenly leaped off the building or something
look, not to rush you or anything Horikoshi, but Iâm starting to get the feeling that this is yet another one of those âthe volume is ending soon so I need to either hurry things up or slow things down in order to make sure we end it on my perfect cliffhanger endingâ chapters where you go to ridiculous lengths to drag things out much to the exasperation of your week-to-week readers
(ETA: ftr, volume 31 ended on chapter 306, and Iâm predicting that vol. 32 will end with chapter 316 (a.k.a. âyouâre next!â [explodes]). Iâm guessing vol. 33 will follow suit and likely end on chapter 326, so keep your eyes peeled for a big cliffhanger in two weeksâ time. Dekuâs dad?? All Might in peril?? U.A. traitor at long fucking last?? we shall see.)
is Deku straight up falling in love with Ochako right on the spot lol what is happening
I know I just said that I enjoy when Horikoshi gives zero fucks about discourse, but shipping discourse is a whole different beast lol. I hope heâs prepared
(ETA: and for the record, I have no interest in shipping discourse either, as always. and I think this scene can be interpreted as platonic, tbh, with the context being that Ochako was literally introduced as someone who was willing to help him so casually without a second thought, and now here she is saving him again.
I donât think it really fully hit Deku until this moment how much he needed saving. like I said in another meta somewhere, selflessness is basically just selfishness on behalf of others. and Deku is selfless to a fault, but thatâs okay, and it doesnât mean he needs to change -- he just needs friends who are willing to be be selfish on his behalf in turn. and I think the full emotion of what it means to have friends like that just hit him at last. everything his friends have done for him, how much he needed it and didnât even realize, and how grateful he is. anyways what a terrible day for rain.)
-- son of a --
is he apologizing?? or pleading?? please tell me thatâs not the case, because what the actual fuck. Deku you beautiful precious radiant selfless child, this is the exact opposite of how this should be. all these motherfuckers should be on their knees apologizing to you
DEKU WHY
I DIDNâT ASK FOR THIS FREAKING BOMBARDMENT OF EMOTIONS GODDAMIT. OUT HERE ARMED WITH YOUR FREAKING TREBUCHET OF FEELS TO LAUNCH AT ME UNPROVOKED. WHATâS WITH THAT
FREAKING CHRIST. THIS BOY IS CRYING HIS EYES OUT AND HORIKOSHI IS JUST ZOOMING IN WITH THE CAMERA, LIKE CAN WE JUST CUT HIM A BREAK ALREADY. ENOUGH OF THIS. HEâS SO YOUNG AND HE TRIES SO HARD AND I JUST NEED HIM TO FEEL SAFE, HORIKOSHI PLEASE CAN YOU JUST GIVE ME THAT ALREADY WHAT IS THE FREAKING HOLD UP!!
GIGANTIC FOX LADY!!!
GIGANTIC FOX LADY PLEASE BE MY HUGGER BY PROXY!! SERIOUSLY GIRL IF YOU JUST HOLD YOUR UMBRELLA OVER HIM OR SOMETHING AND DONâT GO THE EXTRA MILE IâM ABOUT TO LODGE AN OFFICIAL COMPLAINT. THIS IS GETTING RIDICULOUS NOW
!!!!
A KOUTA IS GOOD TOO!!! oh my god if Kouta hugs him I will seriously 100% straight up cry. go on and test me
FOR THE LOVE OF --
is this man expressly forbidden from drawing hugs in his contract or something. DO YOU DO IT JUST TO SPITE ME?? this is tyranny, sir
AND I KNOW, THIS PAGE ACTUALLY CHALLENGED THE VERY PREMISE OF THE SERIES ITSELF, AND HERE I AM COMPLAINING ABOUT HUGS, OR THE LACK THEREOF. âthis is the story of how we all became the greatest heroes.â and just like that, he waves a polite middle finger at all of the Strongest Greatest Chosen One shounen protags of old, in favor of something much less conventional, much more interesting, and much more suited to Dekuâs character. because if that one sentence doesnât just sum up Deku to a T. he gladly relinquishes his Greatest Hero status in favor of acknowledging the hero in everyone. what a class act. thatâs my protagonist
I love this kid so fucking much I swear. only just PLEASE. FOR THE LOVE OF GOD. GIVE HIM HIS HUG
#bnha 324#uraraka ochako#midoriya izuku#bnha#boku no hero academia#bnha spoilers#mha spoilers#bnha manga spoilers#makeste reads bnha
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I'm seeing a lot of complaints about the dragon designs in TNR, but I actually liked them. (With the exception of Wu and WeiĘźs wings, which look awkward). What do you think about the dragon designs?
I have more fun talking in an upbeat way about the latest media myself! Iâll be honest about my opinions of the dragon designs below, including the good, the bad, and the ugly, but I hope you wonât think I descend into complaints, because I have no intention of complaining for a second. And thereâs lots I enjoy and will highlight. TNR honestly does give us some great dragon design material.
I've said it before and I'll say it again: Feathers and Plowhorn's designs are fantastic, a perfect reflection of the DreamWorks Dragons universe: taking unique inspirations from unexpected creatures and combining them with lovable, whimsical designs. The limitations to their appearance is the animation budget, not the design itself. Imagine how stupendous theyâd look with the budget of a movie theatrical release: theyâre just that good theyâd deserve to be on the big screen!
Feathers is beautiful, long, and lithe, the forms Iâve gravitated to since I was a kid drawing my own serpentine creatures. With Plowhorn, the combination of the gem horn and the beetle wings was a stroke of ingenuity. Give the artists my applause for creating such uniqueness!
Now weâre getting into the polite constructive criticism territory. I donât think Webmaster is a good design for a rider dragon. For a single episode enemy, thatâd be fine. But I donât think the shape is conceptually graspable enough to imprint on viewers in the way a main characterâs dragon should.
I think Wu and Wei looks clunky and unappealing. In theory the colors should work together, but they donât. And the dragonâs shape does not work. I hope youâre not upset at my personal opinion, but for those interested into what I really think, I admit I find the design ugly. Which is a shame, because I love the notion of expanding HTTYD dragons beyond Vikingdom into other culturesâ understandings, like Chinese dragons.
Iâm not a fan of Thunderâs look. It could be worse but it could be improved. The blaze on the face, for whatever reason, doesnât come off looking appealing. Mostly, though, itâs the proportions with Thunder that feel âoff.â I get that they gave him a lanky, young cat sort of look, but the result is his whole body feels âoff.â The flatness of his head combined with the skinniness of his neck is the start of the awkwardness.
Granted, I'd prefer he werenât a Night Light at all, and I have my bias in that I didnât like the original trio of Night Lights introduced in Homecoming (in that case, itâs because of how they were babyified). So that needs to be taken into account when I say I donât care for Thunderâs appearance: the whole premise isnât catering to someone like me. Chances are youâd be hard pressed to make any Fury-adjacent creature appeal to me in a modern show.
As far as the rest of the dragon designs in the show, I want to make a post where I glibly rate everyone! Go through every dragon, old and new, that TNR shows. I appreciate that we see some but not all of the old species and that the high majority of the screen time is on new dragons. Off the top of my head, the vomiting pus bag is the best thing I have seen in my thirty years on earth. I. Love. It. I would buy merchandise of that dude! The Sky Torcher is a cool concept, though needs more budget and a few tweaks, but it certainly stuck with me among the many new dragons weâve seen. I hate how the Bubblehorn looks with an utter passion. But overall, I have fun seeing how the new dragons look! And I think there are way more positives than negatives when it comes to the designs of background, non-rider dragons! Definitely canât complain to MORE DRAGONS!
#TNR#The Nine Realms#great convo topic#dragon#dragons#httyd#How to Train Your Dragon#analysis#my analysis#ask#ask me#dang I forgot how easy it was to write meta when it was on something I'd actually seen recently#DreamWorks Dragons#anonymous#awesome anonymous friend
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Hello! This is anon #2, back with another essay, LOL. I figured Iâd try to submit a post instead because tumblr asks have a character limit and itâs such a pain trying to avoid blowing up your notifications. xD
only got a few friends to talk about it that I wonât spoil or bore after half an hour and is nice to have a way to discuss it.
Same here! I donât know anyone else whoâs just as invested so Iâve been doing my best to pretend like Iâm having a normal amount of thoughts about this which, HA. HAHAHA. I really wish there was a Discord server, but I get the feeling itâd just get lumped in with all the other RE things and my brain is just like NO, ETHAN AND ROSE. xD
Also you two are really good at making Roseâs childhood even more tragic and I both thank you for that and am in a ;_; mood of my own
Misery loves company. I need someone to suffer with me because Iâve just been completely plagued with thoughts of what kind of life Rose has had and how heartbroken Ethan would be to learn about it.
Though, if I have any gripe with SoR itâs that I wish they spent a little more time with âMichaelâ and Rose before the big reveal. Just have some scenes where theyâre just trading stories about who they are! Give Rose a chance to piece together who Michael really is and Ethan to learn who his daughter is now. (On the other hand, I do love how Rose has known Ethan for all of a few hours and sheâs still ready to to completely put down a smackdown when something happens to him. Ethan being like that for Rose is a given, but it was amazing to see Rose turn around and do the same. She threw away a normal life to protect him and didnât even regret it! MY HEART.)
[âŚ] Which is why Iâm afraid she kept her mindset of 'scientist first, mother/wife secondâ after Rose was born. Plus the trauma. Even if she was stone cold cruel like some fans believe (think they might be mixing her up with Miranda tho -_-â) she would have had some trauma from it still.
Yeah, sadly, Iâm feeling this as well. RE8 never made her seem like a bad parent, but they definitely planted the seed for being a secretive, distant one. Especially considering Mia is still keeping secrets and who knows if she ever told Ethan about her involvement with The Connection.
SoR just kept hitting me over the head with that too. Itâs possible itâs just because SoR was about Ethan-Rose, but I kept noticing that Mia was completely absent from all of the memories he shows Rose. It makes me think that Ethan was the one usually the one doing the childcare and the memories were of Ethan maybe telling Mia about their day.
On top of that, the Mia mannequin was in an area where Eveline was preying on Roseâs fears so wtf happened to cause Rose to have anxiety about her mother catching her? W H A T.
Also Rose was⌠way too trusting of what 'Kâ wanted her to do. Going about it in secret like that? Was just odd from the start.
Oh yeah, I think it was a combo of Miranda preying on Roseâs desperation and also using someone Rose would trust completely to lure her in. I also side eye Chris here because it wasnât him either so jfc, everyone Rose was left with failed her.
Yes Ethan justice!
He really is just a guy. A random dude. A dad. But he is a good dad. Man him cradling baby Rose at the end of RE8 plus saving her in the DLC made me cry so much (first part more but man would it have been very emotionally effective if both came out at the same time)
Oh my fucking god, yes. I was exposed to things a bit backwards because I saw SoR before I watched the ending of RE8. Even knowing what would happen, it completely broke me. Ethanâs voice throughout the entire thing as he struggled to keep going just a little longer and the "Goodbye, Rosemaryâ just akgjhajf. ;__;
They did such a fantastic job with him - Ethan is my absolute favorite now Rose in second and it absolutely cracks me up that all it took to wreck everyoneâs shit was one very upset father-daughter duo (and how it kept going even beyond the grave.) Miranda really messed with the wrong people. I seriously wish RE7 could have given him the same depth and didnât just have him as a placeholder for the player.
Knowing what I know about his personality now, I can fill in the gaps on how he would have reacted to things like, idk, killing his wife repeatedly, but his character really could have used some love back then. :( I donât think people would have thought he was boring if he had been given the same treatment.
But yeah, the DLC really does hit you in the feels with the what ifs of Ethan taking care of Rose. Saw a⌠comic? Animatic? Not sure which; of Ethan taking care of Rose through her life, being there for her. Man. Really gets you feeling ;_;
;_; It does. Both of them deserve to have a family with unconditional love and support. Though, I absolutely adore how self-confident Rose is by the end of the DLC knowing that her dad is proud of her no matter what.
Thereâs a little easter egg at the very end of RE8/SoR with Ethanâs character model and Iâm really hoping itâs a hint heâll be back (maybe as just a side character to cheer on his daughter or give her ammunition). Like, ffs, Capcom. Theyâve both been through enough, let Ethan stay with his daughter! Though⌠if this happens, it will still make me sad knowing he missed 16 years of her life. You know thatâs going to hurt for him.
#RE 8#re 8 village#ethan winters#rosemary winters#tumblr submission#never posted one of those before#will reply after#I guess??#Loved this tho
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â¨Book of Boba Fett Ch.1 Spoilersâ¨
SCREAMING AND CRYING OMG Y'ALL
For those of you who weren't here for my Bad Batch episode reactions, I have a lot of feelings about a lot of things any time we are blessed with more SW content so I write them down as I go through each episode.
There will be emotions, chaos, some less than elegant language, and definitely a lot of character/production analysis because I live for that shit.
So, without further ado, let's get into my brain going bonkers!
- Right of the bat, visuals combined with the suspenseful, almost daunting score is absolutely immaculate
- AHHHHHHHHHH KAMINO GOD NO WHY ITS BEEN LIKE 2 SECONDS I CAN'T HAVE A BREAK DOWN ALREADY
- Wait hold on....if I squint can I see Obi Wan by any chance? Please. Jon. Dave. I just need to see him already.
- Bacta tank? BOBA SIR WHAT'S HAPPENING
- OHHHHHHHH its trauma. Trauma is what's happening.
- Oh dear the ATOC flashback really isn't helping my mental stability.
- HOLY SHIT WE GET TO SEE HOW HE GOT OUT OF THE SARLACC PIT
- Ok not to jinx anything but this is fantastic. Look I've been a SW fan since I was a toddler, but I never fully understood all the hype about Boba until recently ya know...now that he has dialogue and more character development. I am honestly so glad that they didn't just immediately pick up where the end credit scene left off. Seeing Boba fend for himself and using his skills to survive is so fascinating.
- Eek the Tusken Raiders really said "lets swack this barely conscious man we found in the middle of nowhere like a piĂąata"
- Boba stopping to help someone who has also been captured is really interesting to me for some reason. Like I said before, Boba didn't really have much characterization in the OG trilogy other than being a hardcore bounty hunter and he was kind of a lil bitch during TCW. The reason why I find this to be so interesting is because bounty hunters are often characterized as greedy, selfish people who never go out of their way to do something for someone else unless credits are involved. We got to see a little bit of Boba's personality in the Mandalorian, but what I'm excited to see during this show is his individual characterization, beliefs, and morals. He didn't have to offer to help the Rodian, if anything he would have had a better chance at escaping without having to worry about another being, but he did it anyways. His caring side to his nature is something I'm dying to see and I honestly wonder if he attributes that side of him to how Jango was with him. AGHHHH COMPLEX CHARACTERIZATION! FINALLY SOME GOOD FUCKING FOOD!
- Mans got eaten by a Sarlacc, dragged through the desert, beaten like a dusty rug, and yet he was still ready to throw hands even when he was outnumbered. Iconic.
- AHHHH FENNEC
- Boba: "Fennec I had a bad dream." Fennec: "Bitch put a shirt on we gotta be fancy for the people."
- Can someone inform the wonderful hosts of the podcast RuPalp's Podrace that "Confused Boba" is my gender of the week? Please and thank you.
- I...don't know how I feel about the use of CGI over makeup and prosthetics for the Trandoshan
- Bobaâs love language is gift receiving
- The Mayor's Majordomo sounds like he would try to mansplain politics to me
- Somehow this man made addressing someone as "milady" sound derogatory. Fuck this dude I am very pro let-Fennec-beat-his-ass-up
- The limited concern the Majordomo shows pisses me off, but I understand it. Jabba ran this joint for years and even if, hypothetically, he was only there for a short time, he had the support of the Hutt clan. Boba is starting from scratch, so while the disrespect oozing from this man is upsetting, it make sense.
- "I'm confused." "He wants you to pay him." "What? I'm the crime lord he's supposed to pay me." stars if that isn't some shit I could totally hear coming out of Fives' mouth
- I absolutely live for Fennec being the left brain and Boba being the right brain
- MAX REBO!!!!!!! CANTINA THEME REMIX!!!!!!!!
- Boba's dry sense of humor is fucking hilarious
- Ooooooo fancy Twi'lek lady....I don't trust her
- I love Fennec and Boba's friendship
- 10/10 fight scene like goddamn Tem go off
- I would let Fennec run me over with a speeder and I would apologise to her for even breathing within 100 miles of her
- YALL SEE THAT FLIP SHE DID TO DODGE THE KNIFE????? Stunning. Showstopping. Brilliant. Inspiring.
- Boba...you good bestie?
- What was happening at that house? Like why did the Tusken Raider bring them there just to watch?
- "No hard feelings mate" I love him. I understand the hype now.
- Ok wtf was Godzilla doing in the middle of the desert?
- The intricacies of the costume designs for literally everyone in this show, like how they distinguished the ranks of the Tusken Raiders based of the beads and weapons (yes I know that's technically a prop but it's included with the costume because it is constantly with the character...just stage crew things don't worry about it) , is breathtaking
OK FINAL THOUGHTS FOR THIS EPISODE:
- First thing I noticed is how visually stunning this show is so far. While the writers did not have to go through the processes of world building since Tatooine has already been pretty well established, the style that they have chosen to display the already known atmosphere, especially in the opening shots, makes it seem new. Along with this, one of my favorite things to look for is how they use camera angles and focal points to show the dynamics between each of the characters in the given scene. I feel like it just adds an extra touch and even contributes to the characterization in a way that might not be covered directly in the dialogue
- Speaking of characterization, I am in love with Boba and Fennec. Their interactions and differences in personality are so fun to watch and I can't wait to see more
- I don't trust that Twi'lek lady...she just seems extra shifty even for someone on Tatooine
- I am not emotionally prepared for when they get into Boba's trauma and him talking about Jango
I think that about sums it up. I really liked it and I can't wait to see where the story goes!
(PS do y'all want me to make a taglist for these episode brain vomit posts? If that's something you would be interested in lmk!)
#the book of boba fett#the book of boba fett spoilers#book of boba fett#book of boba fett spoilers#bobf#bobf spoilers#boba fett#fennec shand#episode reactions
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off limits: tom holland one-shot
a/n | this is my submission for @chloecreatesfictionsâ 1k writing challenge! iâve never done the âbrotherâs best friendâ trope and i def got a little too excited and carried away! real talk, this might be the cutest thing iâve ever written
summary | as harrison osterfieldâs younger sister, youâd always just seen his best friend tom as an annoying older brother. until, one day, you didnât.
cw | tom x osterfield!reader. contains language, alcohol, recreational use of weeeed, teenage angst, sexual tension, fluff nâ stuff. 5k words.
For as long as you could remember, Tom Holland had been a stitch in your side that you could never get rid of.
Growing up as your older brotherâs best friend, he was always at your house when you were childrenâ and his favorite pastime when Harrison was boring him was to break into your room and mess with you, stealing your toys or running his hands across the piano keys when you were trying to practice in peace. No matter how many locks you put on your door just to keep Tom out, he was always able to pick them.
As you all got older, he grew to annoy you in a different way, blasting loud, grungy music through Harrisonâs bedroom walls late at night or eating things out of the fridge that clearly had your name on them. Once heâd started to garner some attention as an actor, his ego skyrocketed, and somehow he became an even bigger nuisance. He dragged Harrison away from you and took him all over the world while you had to sit idly by and love your brother from a distance.
When Tom would come over now, he would talk of nothing but hollywood parties and getting drunk with the biggest a-listers when he knew you were listening. He would ignore you when he breezed past you in the hallway, and even had the audacity to go into your bedroom when you were out and smoke a blunt on your bed so your whole room smelled like a music festival when you got home; and worst of all, it was your weed.
It was sufficient to say you were Tom Hollandâs least enthusiastic fan. And it was rather unfortunate, because you were a big stan of the MCUâand secretly loved getting high and watching and re-watching the spider-man movies the most. Okay, donât make that face. They have a good storyline.
It was a regular Friday night, you were aimlessly scrolling through your phone while Harrison and Tom were getting ready to go pub hopping. Harrison always invited you, but you never took him up on his offer because you knew how flirty you got with alcohol in your system and wouldnât dare feel that way around Tom. He was notorious for taking anything nice you said about him and rubbing it in your face for at least a week after.Â
âYou know you secretly love me, babe.â
You hated when he called you babe, and he knew it. But since youâd both grown up, time had done you both a favor, and there was always an air of something you couldnât quite place your finger on whenever you interacted...the pet name just made it more interesting.
âHey, y/n, are you sure you donât want to come out with us?â Harrison yelled from outside your bedroom door, and you peeked your head out to respond.
âNah, itâs fine, Haz, go have fun. I have enough uni work to keep me busy.â
âItâs a Friday night, nerd.â
You stuck your tongue out at him and smiled. âSorry Iâm not a budding alcoholic like you, big bro.â
He laughed, blew you a kiss, and he and Tom were off.
Only about an hour later, you decided to take a break from studying and light up a joint, turning on your go-to movie for background noise- but were snapped out of your vibey trance when you heard the front door swing open, and your brotherâs loud, drunk voice.
âW-why are we h-home, you div,â he slurred, as his heavy footsteps start to climb the stairs. After a long moment, you heard him collapse on his bed through your thin walls, still stammering out his words. âThomas, I promise you, I am fineeee...â
âMate, youâre sloshed. Go to bed.â
You decided to leave them be. This was a typical occurrence- one of the boys went too hard too early, and the other had to babysit until they made it home to pass out cold, usually on the bed, or the couch, or on a good day, the floor.
A few minutes passed while you hotboxed your room, feeling amazingly relaxed, until you saw your doorknob wriggling out of the corner of your eye. Your door was locked, so you ignored it. But the knob kept twisting and falling back in place, making the whole frame shake. After a long while of witnessing a ghost try to make its way into your room, you watched your lock turn slowly and click out of place, the door creaking opened to reveal Tom, swatting at the air when a cloud of smoke greeted him.
You snapped your laptop closed before he could hear his own voice flowing out of your speakers. âTom, for the last time, stop picking my fucking lock!â You beamed your nearest pillow at himâwhich he caught before it struck himâand he threw it back, hitting you square in the face. Of course.
He flashed a cocky smile. âWhy? Itâs so easy.â
You rolled your eyes. âIâm serious! I couldâve been naked or something!â
He just stood in the doorframe, giving you a once-over in your thin cotton t-shirt and yoga pants, and kept that smug expression locked on his face.Â
âEw, Tom, youâre disgusting. Get out.â
He decidedly did not get out, instead closing the door behind him and hopping up next to you on your bed, the divot in your mattress leaving your bodies pressed much too close together. You were met with a strong whiff of his cologne and the gin he mustâve been drinking earlier. âIâll take that,â he muttered as he lifted your joint out of your fingers and took a puff, sucking his breath in as his lungs filled.Â
Your stomach filled with a dull fire and you narrowed your eyes. âDo you mind?â
He turned to face you and blew a big puff of smoke directly into your face, the notorious smirk making its reappearance. âNot at all, thanks for asking though.â
You groaned aloud. âWhat are you doing in here?â he took another draw and handed you back what was rightfully yours, smoke dissipating from his mouth as he spoke.
âHaz is pissed and Iâm bored.â
You relit the bud and inhaled for a long while, figuring youâd need to be pretty intoxicated to not smack him in the face if he tried to talk again. âWell, go be bored somewhere else. I was busy.â
He cocked an eyebrow at you and reached across your lap for your computer. âDoing what?âÂ
Oh shit. âDude, can you not-?!â you yelped, but he had swiped it too quickly out of your grasp, and opened it up to find himself paused on your screen. You laid back on your bed so he couldnât see your cheeks now flushed with embarrassment and grabbed your lighter from your nightstand. It was going to be a long evening.
He leaned himself over to catch your eye and had the stupidest, most prideful look plastered across his face. âGotcha.â
You punched him in the arm as he erupted into laughterâbut the anger inside you had been dulled by the weed and replaced with a childlike sillinessâand you started to giggle, too. You looked up into his eyes, pupils now wildly dilated and tinted red around the edges.
âShut up, Tom, youâre high,â you said in between chuckles.
âYeah? Well so are you!â
You poked fun at each other for a while, suddenly in a mutually fantastic mood. You knew in the back of your mind that none of this would be happening if you hadnât gotten stoned together, but you enjoyed the warm company anyway.Â
âWell, you gotta finish it, donât you?â he said, settling back down and fixating the computer on his lap so you could both see it.
âYou really want to watch your own movie?â
âDoll, itâs my favorite thing to do.â he smiled at you.
âGod, youâre the worst.â you felt some butterflies make an entrance in your chest that had never been there before.
He pressed play and cozied up on your bed, lying back against the wall with his arm lazily draped behind you. You pulled a blanket up onto your lap and had really no choice but to lean on him for support, neither of you admitting out loud that you were full on cuddling and not angry about it.
âHey, arenât you gonna share?â he whined, pulling at the corner of your blanket.
âGet your own,â you responded, internally high-fiving yourself for finally getting the chance to sass him back. Sure, you had your head comfortably resting on his shoulder, but that didnât mean you were suddenly friends.
You let the movie play, the two of you blowing through the joint until it was a dwindling nub. The scene where Peter has his big kiss with MJ started, and you stifled a snigger as their lips met on the screen.
Tom had clear offense laced through his words. âWhatâs so funny?â
âNothing,â you shrugged.
He sat up to look at you, eyebrows knit together in an angry pout. âTell me.â
âI just...feel bad for Zendaya, thatâs all.â you covered your mouth to keep from laughing, and his eyes rolled so far back into his head you were sure theyâd be stuck that way forever.
âYouâre such a brat,â he started, his ego finding its old place back in his voice. âIâm an amazing kisser. She told me herself.â
You looked away from him, taking a heavy exhale. âYeah, whatever, dude.â
He sat even more upright and paused the movie, taking hold of your shoulder to make you turn to him. âWhat, you donât believe me?â
You realized then how physically close you had gotten, as you could feel the syllables of his words in his breath hitting your face. He was doing that thing boys do, when theyâre thinking about kissing you but donât- their stares going back and forth between your lips and your eyes in a not so subtle way. It freaked you out to see him that close and personal, and you whispered back exactly what you knew would irk him the most.
âNope.â
He moved his face impossibly closer to yours, and you felt his soft lips lightly brush over your own. You werenât sure if this was real, or just a high hallucination, but you didnât move away. This was entirely uncharted territory.
âTooommmm!â you heard Harrison yell out from the other side of the wall. âWhere are yooouuu?! Iâm so thirsty!â Tom immediately jerked his head away from you and shook himself out of the moment. You brought your hand up to your cheek and shuddered at how hot it had become- your own body was betraying you.
âGod, heâs gonna be the death of me,â Tom said, shoving himself off the bed and walking out of your room, glancing back at you for a moment and then closing the door behind him. Just like that, he was gone, and you were left trapped in your own psyche wondering what the hell had just happened.
Over the course of the next week, things has become exponentially weirder between you and Tom. He seemed to be spending much more time at your house than he normally did, even sleeping a few nights there instead of driving the five minutes back to be in his own bed. One unsuspecting morning, you knocked on your bathroom door, annoyed that it had been shut for such a long time.Â
âHaz, if you use up all the hot water again, Iâm gonna kill you,â you said in between knocks. You were taken by surprise when it swung open, steam billowing out into the cool air.
âWhoops,â you heard a voice say, immediately realizing it wasnât your brother. You took a step backward to see Tom emerge, wearing nothing but a towel loosely wrapped around his waist. His hair was damp and clinging to his forehead, and he looked like some glowing magazine model.Â
âUh, sorry,â you stammered, accidentally inhaling the yummy smell of his soap and shampoo emanating off of his skin.
He noticed you eyeing him and a sly grin appeared as he rolled his bottom lip under his teeth. âShowerâs all yours, babe,â he said, bumping your shoulder with his own as he walked away. You were stuck in place and didnât see him glancing back at you as he wandered down the hallway.Â
Another day after that, Tom and Harrison were looking for a certain record to play, but it was nowhere to be found. âIt might be in y/nâs room,â Harrison said, sitting back in his lounge chair. âWanna go grab it?â
Tom coughed. âWhy do I have to get it?â
âBecause Iâm comfortable.â
Tom felt a mix of annoyance and nerves in his chest as he walked the short distance down the hallway to your room where the door was already cracked open. He invited himself inâexcitement faltering a little when he saw you werenât in your usual spot on your bedâand started to sift through your bookshelves.
You had been in the bathroom getting dressed after your shower, but realized you left your shirt in your closet- and seeing that Harrisonâs bedroom door was still shut, you figured it was safe to run across the landing into your room without anyone seeing you. In just a bra and spandex shorts that left little to the imagination, you swiftly made your way across the hall and walked through your door that was still open a crack to see Tom kneeled down as he shuffled through your record collection.
He heard your small gasp when you entered to find him, and swiveled around to you standing only a few feet away from him in the least amount of clothing heâd ever seen on you. He abruptly stood up but didnât move, eyes sparkling as they rolled down your body.
âWhat the fuck! Why are you always in my room?!â You were too shocked to think about finding something to cover yourself with, and put your hands over your face, trying not to die of embarrassment. Tom remained glued to his place on your carpet, clearly at a loss for words.
âTom, can you leave please-â
âRight, yeah, okay, uh, bye-â he hurried out of your room, swinging the door almost shut but leaving just a crack so he could speak into it.
â...I like your shorts.â
âTOM!â
He chuckled and closed the door, and you slumped against the wall, still holding your head in your hands. What was this sudden hold he had over you? And why did you love the way that he was staring at you?
That night, you had a big paper to complete, and you were perched in your bed typing away as it got dark. In between two songs on your playlist, you heard the familiar jiggle of a doorknob. Looking up over your screen, you watched as the metal turned in its socket, and heard a soft âcrushed itâ as the lock undid itself. Your door opened steadily and slowly, a familiar face peeking in at you.
âHi.â
âOh sweet jesus,â you mumbled.
âYou busy?â
âClearly.â
âCool.â Tom let himself into your room, shutting the door behind him and sauntering over to your bed, sitting down next to you, bouncing like a little kid and singing his words. âWhatcha doooinâ?â
âHomework,â you said, continuing to type and trying your best to ignore the way the sound of his voice was waking up something electric inside of you. He leaned into your body to peer at your computer screen, pretending to be interested in whatever you were writing about. His elbow got in the way of your hands, and you had to stop typing.
âThomas, is there something I can help you with?â
âHaz is asleep,â he said, resting his head on your shoulder like it hadnât been a week since your almost-kiss and you hadnât been actively avoiding bringing it up.
You felt jittery. âAnd?â
He gently pushed your hands away from the keyboard and closed your laptop shut, giving you a sheepish smile. âWanna get high?â
Honestly, you did.
You turned on your lamp and turned off the overhead light, put on that record he finally found, lighting a candle and then another hand-rolled blunt. This time, Tom sat upright with you perpendicular to him, your legs swung over his lap. When he made a joke, heâd give your leg a little squeeze- and whether it was purposeful or not, you were filled with schoolgirl nerves every time it happened.
All the angsty barriers built up over years of a sibling-like rivalry had come down between the two of you as you smoked together; you suddenly found all of his bad jokes funny, and he couldnât peel his eyes away from the cute way you scrunched your nose when you laughed. Every time you exchanged the blunt, you couldnât help but think about how his lips had just been on it a moment before yours. The night came and went, and you ended up falling asleep wrapped in his arms as he dozed off with his chin pressed to your forehead.
You both woke up at the same time in the dead of night, unsure of how late it had gotten. Still nestled into each other, you exchanged sleepy glances and no words, taking a moment to realize the position you had put yourselves in.Â
Tom grazed your jawline with the back of his hand and lifted up your chin with his thumb. You let your eyes flutter shut and he kissed you in the dark for one long, everlasting moment. He pulled back from you hesitantly, leaving you breathless. Did that really just happen?
âWe...we canât,â he whispered, his words tinged with sadness.
Your heart broke for him just hearing his voice. âWhy not?â
âYouâre my best friendâs little sister, y/n.â
âAnd youâre my brotherâs best friend. So what?â you were almost upset with yourself for being so vulnerable; so visibly pining after him.
âSo, youâre off limits,â he said, resting his forehead against yours.Â
âSays who?âÂ
That prompted Tom to meet your gaze again, and this time you took initiative, moving your face to his and taking his bottom lip in between yours. He took a sharp inhale as you kissed him and seemed to let all inhibition go as he put his arms around your back and pressed you into him hard, all of his pent up feelings for you suddenly flowing out of him. He kissed you in a needy, desperate kind of way, and you loved every second of it. You ran your fingers through his hair, traced his jawline, using your hands to feel every bit of him that you couldnât before. The strangest part of it all was how natural it felt- like you had been practicing for this very moment all your lives.Â
Your record had stopped spinning a while ago, the room now filled with just the breathy noises of your kisses, your contented hums and his tiny mews when you bit his lips. You were both still barely lucid, and after countless minutes of nothing but innocent kisses, you were on the brink of falling asleep again, serotonin whisking you away into dreams. Tom sighed into you, and clasped his hand around yours.
âI have to go.â
âWhat? Why?â you felt your heart preeminently sink in your chest; like you shouldâve known this was too good to last.
âI donât want him to wake up and find us here,â he trailed off, staring down at your intertwined fingers fiddling together.
âSo thatâs it?â you tried to swallow back the sudden upwell of feelings inside you.
âNo, no...â his eyes filled with some type of emotional strain youâd never seen. âI- I donât want this to be it. But I donât want things to get...messy.â
Unfortunately, you couldnât blame him, because you understood.
âCan you come back tomorrow night?â you whispered, very not ready to let his spot next to you grow cold.
âI donât know...â
You looked up at him doe-eyed, cooing. âPlease?â
He nodded, looking away from you before he completely caved and stayed there forever. âIâll come back.â
He pressed one last kiss onto your lips and slowly got up, reluctantly letting go of your hand as he left your room. âGoodnight, babe.â
Hearing him call you babe, finally free of demeaning sarcasm, made your heart soar.Â
âGoodnight, Tom.â
The door shut and you were left alone, the stillness of your room sticking out in sharp contrast with how quickly your heart was racing.
For the next few nights, Tom spent the evenings at your house with Harrison, waiting until he fell asleep to make his way next door to you. Youâd smoke together, watch his moviesâand in heated moments got a little handsyâbut you never went past kissing, though you both desperately wanted to. It was too risky having your brother right next door; and you knew all too well how paper thin your walls were. But in those secretive hours after solar midnight, just being able to exist next to Tom and letting him hold you, you were the happiest you could ever remember being. The second night he left your room to let you sleep, he placed a light kiss on your forehead after he stood up that made the whole thing feel a little too...real.
The next day, you walked into the kitchen and found Harrison at the fridge. You were in a great mood for obvious reasons but couldnât let it show. âHey, got any fun plans today?â
He turned around after shoving a handful of grapes in his mouth. âNope, got some admin stuff to do and gonna turn in early.â
âOh, Tom isnât coming over?â
âNo, I told him to take a night off. Heâs been smothering me, yâknow?â he laughed and ate a few more grapes, but then turned to you, confused. âSince when do you care if heâs coming over?â
You swallowed, unsure of what to say. âJust want to know if I need to stay out of the way,â you faked a laugh and blinked hard, hoping he wasnât paying too much attention to your facial expressions.
âUh, alright then. You two are always so fuckinâ weird around each other.â He seemed to feel that was a good way to end your exchange and walked out of the kitchen, throwing a grape at you.
You rolled your eyes at your brother, but then felt the sadness bubble up upon registering that you werenât going to see Tom tonight. But really, how long did you think you could keep this up? The feelings you were developing for him scared you, you didnât know what to make of them; all you knew was that your days suddenly seemed much grayer without him.
Nighttime came around, and you couldnât sleep, so you did the unthinkable and sent Tom a text. Your thumb shook as you hit send, knowing that there was now tangible evidence of the connection youâd developed, that it wasnât just some invention of your mind.
hey, are you awake?
T: yeah, canât sleep. you?
obviously, i just texted you.
T: shut it.
A minute passed...
T: got room for one more over there?
You smiled like an idiot at your phone.
maybe.
Less than 10 minutes later, you heard the familiar wriggle of your doorknob. You donât know why you even bothered locking it anymore.
âHey you,â he whispered, carefully shutting the door behind him.
âTom, you know you couldâve just knocked and I wouldâve let you in- you donât have to keep picking the lock.â
âOld habits die hard.â
You chuckled and stood up to greet him at your door as he unexpectedly wrapped you in an amazingly tight hug. He rested his chin on top of your head and started to sway your bodies back and forth. You laid your head on his chest and said hello to his heartbeat.
âI canât believe Iâm saying this, but it was almost hard to fall asleep without you,â he murmured, placing another one of those domestic kisses on your scalp.
âWell, now you donât have to.â you smiled. He waddled you backwards to your bed and you sat down as your legs hit the bedframe, prompting Tom to fall onto you as you giggled into his body that was now covering your face.
âOkay, goodniiight,â he said, refusing to move. You poked at his sides making him jump, and he grabbed your waist and rolled you on top of him. You instinctively leaned down so your lips could clash together in the way you were so used to, trying hard to not confess that youâd completely fallen in love with him when you finally had the breath to speak. He pushed your hair to cascade to one side of his face, and nuzzled your nose with his own, closing his eyes and humming with a smile. âMmm.â
âHmm?â
âJust happy.â
You rested your sleepy head on his warm chest, and fell into a deep sleep, letting the steady drumming in his chest be a metronome to breathe to.
~
âOh, shit. Shit shit shit.â
You woke up abruptly, the bright light of day blinding you as you tried to open your eyes to the string of expletives youâd just heard come from a familiar voice. Once youâd opened them, though, you wish you had kept them shut so you hadnât seen who had spoken.
âHarrison?!â
He was standing in your room, peering at you with hands half covering his eyes when you realized that there was a sleeping Tom underneath you.
Your brother paced in a circle and exhaled loudly. âTell me Iâm not seeing what Iâm seeing.â
You nudged Tom awake with your elbow and immediately rolled off of him, trying to hide the very obvious fact that you had slept together all night. You never let him stay the full night for this exact reason, but he had been so ridiculously happy holding you in his arms that he forgot to set an alarm to wake him at the crack of dawn and leave. You sat up straight in your bed, twisting your hair in your hands, bracing yourself for the inevitable tirade.
Tom picked his head up to see Harrison standing there with his arms crossed, and flopped his head back on the pillow. âFuck. Hey, mate.â He tried to play it off like this was the most normal thing that could happen on a Thursday morning.
âIs this why youâre always such bumbling fools around one another? Youâve been, what, fucking each other when Iâm not around?â Harrison looked like he wanted to throw up at the thought.
âHaz, no, itâs not like that,â you said, but he didnât seem convinced. âItâs just been smoking together and cuddling, really, thatâs it,â you were torn between wanting to console your brother and admitting to both him and Tom that this was more to you than that. But Tom already knew that, because it was for him, too.
Tom looked like a deer in headlights. âIâm so sorry, dude-â
Harrison walked out of the room, and the two of you were left sitting in your bed, worry filling your eyes. Only a moment later, your brother reappeared in the doorway.
âLook, you idiots, I donât care that youâre snuggling off the clockâyouâre my two favorite people in the world, and to see you together, honestly, itâs about damn time,â he started, making both your and Tomâs jaws fall slightly agape. You exchanged a knowing look. Wait, is he not mad? Wait, about damn time??
âBut I wish you wouldâve told me so we could all hang out together. I donât appreciate the sneaking around.âÂ
You cocked your head at him, sending him a loving gaze for always just wanting whatâs best for you.Â
âIâm just mad you arenât including me in your hotbox sessions, really.â He laughed and ran his hands through his hair, pulling his face back to make a wild expression.
All three of you started to chuckle out of sheer awkwardness and relief.
âCome here.â Harrison held his hands out and you both gave a mutual aww as you ran into your brotherâs arms, squeezing him tight.
âI love you, big bro.â
âI know. Now Iâm gonna get out of here before you start kissing in front of me, or worse,â he moaned, swiftly exiting your room. âThis is gonna be the grossest thing Iâve ever seen...â you heard him say to himself as he left.
You turned to Tom, still shocked at how well that had gone considering what he was assuming would happen. You swallowed the butterflies that youâd welcomed as friends and stepped back to him still sitting on the bed, putting your arms around his neck.
âAnd you,â you started, swinging your legs over his lap to straddle him. âI have to confess something.â
Tom placed his hands back on your hips where they rightfully belonged and smiled at you. âIâm listening.â
âI donât mind you calling me babe anymore.â you grinned at his face drop, obviously assuming that you were going to say something else.
âOh, and whyâs that?â he prodded.
You looked up and off to the side as you squeezed his shoulders. âMaybe because Iâm just a tad bit in love with you,â you trailed off, stiff as a board at what he could possibly say next.
âWell, babe,â he put emphasis on the pet name, âThatâs a relief, because I was worried I might be the only one falling here.â
You grabbed his face and kissed him, kneading his soft cheeks under your thumbs, whispering exactly what you knew would get him the most.
âNope.â
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