#drawing cater so much sure was worth it!!

[yan-lorkai]

Hi!! I loved your hcs of the Octotrio with a yuu that seems to only have a talent in art. I related to it a lot because sometimes I feel like I’m not good at anything else other than drawing.

I was wondering if you could do the same prompt with Riddle, Ace, Deuce, Cater, Leona, Malleus & the Scarabia boys please? If that’s too many you can just do Leona, Malleus, & Scarabia. Thank you 😊

.⁠｡⁠*⁠♡ A/N: I guess everyone has one of those episodes, huh? I've been writing for more than 8 years now and sometimes I get hit by the "aa but I'm only good at writing, I should totally try something" and then I try something new and hate it bcs I really love to write and nothing can compare lmao. Anyway, I hope you like this darling, I did all the characters requested too btw ~

.⁠｡⁠*⁠♡ Ace would be playful and encouraging, but his competitive nature would lead him to manipulate situations to keep you close. He’d play little tricks to make sure you stay dependent on him, offering "helpful" critiques that subtly undermine your confidence in anything but your art. His lighthearted facade would hide a deeper need to be the center of your attention, he is your muse, the one you use to practice, the who inspires you, making sure that you see him as the only one who truly understands and supports you, all while ensuring you don't realize how he’s subtly sabotaging any other talents you might want to try to explore, for he fears you will not want to spend more time with him anymore if that was the case.

.⁠｡⁠*⁠♡ Cater would use his social media prowess to make you art the talk of the school, ensuring your work — and by extension, his support — is always in the spotlight. However, his validation would come with a price, as he subtly isolates you from others, creating an environment where you feel your art is only appreciated by him and his curated audience. Cater’s charming persona would hide his darker intentions, as he manipulates your into believing that your worth is tied to the art you create under his influence, all while keeping you emotionally dependent on his constant praise. You're already good at other things, so surely you don't need to have another hobby, right?

.⁠｡⁠*⁠♡ Deuce, unlike Ace, would be fiercely protective of your artistic talent. He’d encourage your art with an almost desperate intensity, pushing you to try different brushes and pens, different scenarios and things, but he'd also pressure you to stay focused on what your good at, ensuring you don’t waste time on things you never tried before. His possessiveness would manifest in his need to be your protector, to the point where he'd become intimidating towards anyone who tries to steer you away from your art, that does not apply to yourself, while he think your drawings / paintings are very beautiful, he would not force you to make it more if you're having an episode where you doubt your skills and think you are good only on the art field. If you want to explore new things, Deuce will be by your side the entire time.

.⁠｡⁠*⁠♡ Riddle would be intensely supportive yet controlling, pushing you to perfect your craft while ensuring you don't stray too far from his strict rules, even more if you are already his lover. His obsession with your success would become borderline suffocating, as he constantly monitors your progress and enforces discipline to keep you on the right path, nurturing your already beautiful talent. To Riddle, your art is flawless, it's personal and have a touch of you in every drawing, be it digital or traditional. When you come to tell him about your doubts, about how you're only good at art, Riddle promptly sooth you with gentle words, albeit he is a little awkward while talking. He offer to teach you about whatever you want to learn but be prepared because he is somewhat a strict teacher.

.⁠｡⁠*⁠♡ Leona would admire your dedication to your art, and he would ask questions about it too, learning as much as your interest as possible. However, his possessiveness would be almost primal, keeping you close under the guise of protection, ensuring you don’t waste time on anything — or anyone — else. Leona would be dismissive of your attempts to explore other talents, reinforcing that your art is the only thing that matters. His control would be subtle yet overpowering, as he ensures your world revolves around him and your art, leaving you with little room for anything else.

.⁠｡⁠*⁠♡ Malleus would shower you with endless admiration, captivated by your artistic talent, even more if you were influenced by an artistic movement. He'll notice all the little details, the subtle way the traces converge, how the color scheme is perfect, the way the shadows and the light reflect. He is your number 1 fan, so supportive of you. However, his intense fascination would drag you into his lonely world, where your art becomes your only outlet and he is your audience - though he has your drawings framed and hung on the walls of the castles, so everyone can look at it and admire. Malleus may not understand your struggles and why would you want to pursue another hobby, but he can arrange anything you may want to try at least once, from singing and dancing to sewing and knitting, even the art of potion making, archery or fencing. He just know you're going to find something you like as much as your art, and if you are happy so is he.

.⁠｡⁠*⁠♡ Jamil would secretly nurture your talent, subtly guiding your creativity while undermining any attempts you make to excel elsewhere, he sees your art as something free and with many meanings - it makes him relaxed in some sort of way and Jamil wants to be a little greedy here, he wants you to continue creating more pieces, always keeping you under his watchful eye as you started drawing / painting. There's just something so intimate, so calming about it he can't wrap his head around. He loves watching you creating your art, feeling is guard lowering just a little. If you ever approach him with your doubts, Jamil take you to the kitchen so he can teach you a few things about cooking. It's a different kind of art but when all is said and done, it's just as good as when you're creating and make you feeling accomplished.

.⁠｡⁠*⁠♡ Kalim would be so overwhelmingly supportive and enthusiastic about it, showering you with gifts and opportunities to nurture your artistic talent, buying everything you may need to create your art, a new software? Sure, no problem, he brought the most expensive one too. A few new pencils and pens? Right away. You need more frames and paints? It will be here in a couple of hours. However, his naivety mixed with possessiveness would lead to unintentional control over your life, as he tries to keep you happy and close by his side. Kalim’s well-meaning gestures would create a gilded cage, where your art flourishes but your freedom is slowly stripped away. He would be oblivious to the suffocating effect of his love, believing that as long as you're happy creating art with him, nothing else matters, leaving you feeling trapped and not knowing how to communicate with him. He have done so much for you already!

[ryuichirou]

I love how you draw the tweels and Azul. They look so imposing in your art style! I know you love drawing Ignihyde, Octavinelle and Scarabia boys a lot, but I'm curious if you have drawings of the rest of the twst cast as well. I'd love to see everyone in your art style!

Anon! Thank you so much for your kind words. I’m glad you like how I draw the Octa-boys. I’m not even sure which dorm I draw most often, but it has to be either them or Ignihyde haha. But in all honesty, I really love drawing all the characters; even if we don’t care much about them, they are usually still quite pleasant to draw at least once.

Which is why I can actually compile my drawings of pretty much every character in this reply! It’s honestly surprising lol but also not really. I can’t believe it’s been a year since we started drawing and posting twst…

Alright, here we go!

Heartslabyul – wow, I can’t believe I don’t have any coloured Aces that are relatively new… We like Ace a lot, I should probably draw him. And Cater too, to be honest, this is my only coloured sketch with him. I never expected to enjoy drawing these boys as much as I do, to be honest.

Savanaclaw – Leona is the only character I don’t have a proper sketch that is not a commission with lol I’m sorry. But I actually quite like the comms of Leona that I got to draw, so here is one of them! I also really enjoyed drawing Ruggie, I should do it again… And Jack too…

Octavinelle – aw yis yakuza fishies babyyyyyyyyyyyyy. Come on, you know I love these guys lol Whenever I look at them I feel at home. It’s a shame I don’t draw them wearing fedoras (for some reason I’m still intimidated by fedoras), because I love everything about their dorm uniforms.

Scarabia – I also don’t feel like I draw these two often enough, but their uniform is probably the most difficult one to draw, simply because of all the details and prints and gold and accessories. But it’s so worth it!... I also think that Jamil is the prettiest snake in the world.

Pomefiore – it’s stupid how long it took me to find a Rook that doesn’t look creepy in my drawings lol I really love this side of him. I also really enjoy drawing Vil, but whenever I do, I feel intimidated. I just can’t mess him up..! But if the Vil that I drew ends up looking good, I get so emotional that I cry (not a 100% lie)

Ignihyde – picking an Idia and an Ortho out of hundreds of sketches of Idia and Ortho was more challenging that I thought it would be, so I picked these because I still really like their faces and think they’re cute! I also can’t get enough of them… to this day… Their hair, their teeth, everything.

Diasomnia – I feel like whenever I draw these guys we have an urge to make it into an art, this is why we have a lot of finished rendered artworks with them. Their aesthetic is just… super fitting for all kinds of dark and gothic stuff. I also adore drawing their eyes!!! All of them have such pretty eyes.

The teachers – if you feel the urge to laugh at Crowley for only getting a black and white sketch, I encourage you to also laugh at Vargas for not being here at all… I think he is the only character that I’m missing, huh.

Others – bonus round! I actually also have a sketch of Fellow Honest and Gidel but by the time I remembered them I got tired of making this thing lol, and we haven’t watched the event yet anyway, so they’ll get their chance to shine some other time (you can find it on my ko-fi though). Meleanor is also here, and I honestly I would be happy to draw every twst mom at some point… And other minor characters too…

But not the dwarves; screw them (just kidding I might draw them too at some point).

[cannedpickledpeaches]

Cater Thoughts

Cater Diamond x Reader

Maybe it’s just the stuff that I come across, but a lot of Cater fics focus on his character flaws and personal issues. Which is great, and often a good read! But I was thinking about Cater who is doing the healing instead of being the one who is healed.

Let’s say you just came out of a relationship that wasn’t working for you. Your ex wasn’t a bad person. But none of his interests aligned with yours. Furthermore, while you put an ocean’s worth of effort into learning about his interests, his efforts were more like a single drop of water. When you started talking about something you liked, he often brushed it off and changed the topic to something that suited him. It was such a common occurrence that you kept quiet and let it happen.

Ironically, one day during your relationship, he asked you about your hobbies. Instead of feeling happy, your first thought was: “What’s the point of telling him?”

A few months after your breakup, you meet Cater Diamond. He’s fun, sweet, and as much as he likes to talk, he also listens. You don’t realize it at first. You continue on with your habits from your previous relationship—always nodding along to his hobbies, interests, problems, gossip, and whatever else he feels like saying. Everything goes smoothly. Cater never runs out of things to say. The conversation is always lively and you’re enjoying yourself.

One evening, the two of you lay beneath a tapestry of stars in the night sky while Cater points out various constellations. There’s a lull in the conversation while he snaps a picture of the dazzling display. Just as you’re about to ask him to elaborate on something, he asks you a simple question.

“Am I talking too much?”

You blink up at the stars. They blink back at you.

“No,” you say, somewhat confused. “I like hearing you talk. It’s fun.”

“Oh, that’s good.” He laughs and sets his camera on the grass, laying beside you. “I was worried that I was boring you. You don’t really say much about what you like, so I thought maybe you aren’t that into me.”

That wasn’t the impression you were trying to give at all. You roll to your side, facing him, and frantically try to assure him of your attraction.

“No, that’s not it! I just . . . I’m not sure if you’d be interested in the things I like.”

“Well, we can’t be sure until you tell me, right?” He reaches over and gently touches your cheek. Beneath this blanket of pinprick diamonds in the sky, Cater Diamond is the most dazzling in your eyes as he utters the words you wanted to hear this whole time. “Tell me anything you want. Cay-Cay’s listening.”

You’d think that it would all gush out like you opened invisible floodgates, but that’s far from what happens. You have absolutely no idea how to start. What do you say? You’re drawing a blank, and he can tell.

“How about listing a bunch of your favourite things?”

You try that. Luckily, Cater is an excellent conversationalist, and you end up saying a lot more than you thought you could. His reactions vary from subject to subject. For some, he’s just as passionate and knowledgeable as you. For others, he’s never even heard of them. But he’s more than happy to listen and learn.

After your stargazing date, he often sends you posts on Magicam related to what you said. You’re surprised he even remembers. The act of remembrance indicates importance, prioritization. The fact that he remembers what you like makes you feel loved. Like you’re important to him. It’s a non-verbal confirmation of your mutual affection, and you’re more determined than ever to show that affection to him ten-fold in return.

[wr0wn]

do u ever get discouraged and unmotivated to make art if a drawing that u worked rly hard on ends up not getting as much attention as you hoped it would? if so how do u counter that?

It happens constantly. Sometimes, you spend 30 minutes on one sketch, and it gets 22 thousand likes, and the work you spend drawing 2 days got only 2 or 4 thousand, for example.

It can be upsetting, especially if your previous works got so much attention before, and now it's not even close to that high.

With time, I just got used to it.

I usually cater to myself. I draw what I like, and my art isn't shaped by trends or art challenges or what is relevant now.

Yes, maybe a smaller group of people liked my art. But this small group of people liked it so much and left such a positive loving response that it made my effort worth it.

I still get a little upset over the number of likes/notes, but at the end of the day, I draw to show my love :)

Also! Little notice.

I'm not sure if I can qualify as a bigger account. And of course, I'm not complaining about 'lack of attention'

I truly am grateful for the support and love I receive. Thank you :)

[honeyuuyuu]

any art blog recommendations?

Art blog recommends you say? 👀

I have plenty of them! I’ll try giving as much of a summary of some of their main themes are! These are TWST art blogs tho ^^

Most of these people are older than me and I- errr- I look up to them 👉👈

@bunnwich -> They are a huge Leona simp, and their Yuusona is Yuuta, a green-haired bunny who is also very cool ✨

@beats-7979 -> Tweel simp with incredible art! She had commissions before but I’m not sure if she’s opened shop now but if she does, please do support her! Her OC is really pretty, too!

@leonakingscholarship -> A Leona, Vil and now a Cater simp! Best themes I’ve seen and she loves the Pomefiore aesthetic. She also has really aesthetic and unique OCs!

@loneliness-of-spring -> Another amazing artist who can also fill your dash with the most funniest reblogs accompanied by the most funniest tags. Super cute Yuusona and also met them before irl and they’re really cool!

@daily-trey -> They don’t know me but errrr- hey- love how- it’s just- T*ey- yeah- and your art is very cool, and very funny it makes my day- NONE OF YOU SAY A WORD- I KNOW WHAT YOU’RE GONNA SAY MOVE YOUR HANDS AWAY FROM THE KEYBOARD I AM NOT A T*EY SIMP- i think-

@evilcokito -> Incredible art and OCs (Sandra-), and they draw Sam a lot and give a lot of limelight for the staff which is very neat. Also they’re very funny ✨

@comingyourlugubriousness -> Precious Idia simp, with cute art and they are vibing. Very nice and wholesome art, support their commissions too if you can!

@twixxsted -> I HAVEN’T SEEN THEM FOR A LONG TIME BUT TRULY, TRULY, TRULY THEY HAVE INCREDIBLE ART AND A BEAUTIFUL DIVA OC CALLED MUNA PLEASE SUPPORT EVEN THOUGH THEY AREN’T HERE AS OFTEN

@vaporvipermedia -> They have amazing art, a big Rook simp, and they colour so nicely it scratches your brain in all good ways ✨

@tunabesimpin -> Funniest artist I’ve ever met- cute art style and even cuter Yuusona. Need I say more? And they’re a Floyd stan-

@moomoomooing -> Another super cute art style with an even cuter OC! A Leona simp who is very wholesome and I love talking to them they are amazing 💕

@oseathepebble -> A Jack simp with funky OCs and funny memes drawn by them, they are slay ✨

@paporuii -> They have the cutest, comforting art I’ve seen and I always feel very happy when they post something. Not always TWST but it’s always so beautiful and adorable 💕

@cleumuu -> I’m pretty sure you know them they’re like pretty famous but I will reiterate myself: JAMIL (yes they are a Jamil simp) X CUTEST YUUSONA CREATED BY THEM- also they have really cute art of Grim and their overal art style is pretty!

@forgwater -> While they do make a lot of funny meme edits, they have pretty cool art. Most of them are cursed but it really is worth it- it’s funny af- makes me hysterical laugh in a good way-✨

@nicoliharu -> Another pretty famous artist but I will reiterate: Ruggie simp with a Diva OC, they are a power couple but also very cute together. And their art is gorgeous!

@akaipepo -> Not as active but that’s okay. They have beautiful art when you see them absolutely gorgeous 💕

@raix-lv -> Mostly a writer but they make pretty pencil sketch art when they post their own drawings I love them 💕💕

@the-trinket-witch -> Funny Octavinelle simp, funky skeleton OC and they’re art is very cute, but also cool. Idk how to describe it well it’s just very unique and I love it 💕

@thetwstwildcard -> They have very pretty OCs, and one time they drew Aepper’s chibi Sprite as a surprise gift and that was very nice of them! But besides that, very cute and pretty art and I hope they’re doing well!

There’s many more artist, but like goddamnit all of them are talented 💕💕

[cheeriecherrymain]

Incorrigible Flirts And Besweatered Men [Chapter 9]

Pairing: TA!Viktor x fem!Reader Rating: M Warnings: Some suggestive content, a brief mention of maggots Proofread: nahhhh Chapter Summary: You and Viktor finally go on a date together, after waiting for so long.

His lips are soft against yours, barely a whisper. Your heart flutters in your chest, so loud that you’re positive he can hear it - or feel it. You pull back ever so slightly, far enough to catch your breath, before tilting back into another kiss.

You’re not sure how long you stay like that - wrapped up in each others’ embrace, basking in the warmth of fingertips wandering across exposed curves of skin. In a moment of boldness, you nip at his bottom lip - a playful action that he answers by abandoning your mouth altogether, instead opting to trail kisses across your jaw and down your neck.

You draw in sharply when you feel the dull pressure of his teeth on your throat, and it’s then that you realize how far you’ve gone: disheveled and mussed hair, clothes askew, unbuttoned, and pushed up - the undeniable heat gathering in between your legs.

“Viktor,” you sigh, carding your fingers through his hair. 

He hums softly, pulling away from you just enough so that he can peek up at you through thick, dark lashes. His pupils are blown wide, and you know that he’s feeling the same way you are - aching with desire, after having to yearn for so long.

“We need to stop,” you croak, pouting miserably at the idea. 

Viktor doesn’t say anything, simply wraps his arms tightly around your middle and draws you into a hug so he can bury his face against the curve of your neck. You think maybe he’s off-put at first, or upset because you’ve turned him away during the only time you’re allowed to be together - until he presses his lips against your skin and blows.

The action shocks you so much that you can’t help your shriek of laughter.

A raspberry, of all things.

And when you hear him taking another breath, you start squirming in his grasp, giggling incessantly while you try to escape his ticklish intentions.

The pair of you end up in a sideways heap on the couch, your laughs turning breathless as they slow, until Viktor is left staring at you, with a tenderness you’ve never experienced and a soft smile. He traces the edges of your face with the tips of his fingers, slowly smoothing over your brow and down across your cheekbone, towards your jaw.

It makes your throat tighten, to receive such a gentle and loving touch - something so simple, yet so absent in your life.

“Shall we head upstairs?” Viktor asks quietly, and presses a kiss to the tip of your nose when you nod.

—

The journey up to the hotel’s restaurant is pleasant - much like when you had arrived to the establishment earlier that day, you walk hand in hand with Viktor the entire way.

“Oh wow,” you mutter, when the elevator dings and the doors slide open. The top floor is spacious - a combined lounge and dining area, with an open bar for anyone of age. The ceilings are high and ornate, with what looks like hand painted murals stretching across them. They’re even lined with, what you assume is, gold.

Despite the casual clothing policy stated in the pamphlet you’d read, you suddenly feel very underdressed.

“I’m surprised there isn’t a line,” Viktor says quietly, looking as uncomfortable as you feel.

“It’s still early,” you reply in a whisper. “Most people are probably holed up in their rooms.” But when you come to a stop in front of the hosts’ station, you begin to question if that’s really the case.

Despite the intricate and expensive decor, the restaurant seems rather…sparse. The tables are small and spaced far apart - and perhaps privacy is something to brag about, yes, but you can’t help wondering how so few seating options could possibly cater to an entire hotel’s worth of people.

You keep your confusion to yourself, though, until you and Viktor are settled down with your menus, and free from the prying ears of the staff.

“This place makes me feel weird,” you admit, unfolding the velvet-coated menu in front of you. “The view of the city from here is great, but everything else just feels…I dunno. Weird.”

Viktor’s posture visibly relaxes, and he lets out a deep sigh. “I thought it may have been just me,” he says, leaning back in his seat. “I have been to a few events with the university, but never anything as extravagant as this. I am…entirely out of place.”

The two of you share a quiet laugh, and the tension in the air begins to dissipate.

Until your waiter comes to get you started with your drinks.

The woman is friendly enough, and diligently answers your questions about the available wines, when you ask - by all accounts, an attentive server.

But there’s something about the way she stares through you, with wide, pale, unblinking eyes. 

All at once, her smile seems a little too wide to be real, and her teeth are too white, and her hair is too perfect. She almost doesn’t feel real, or like she’s…entirely there.

Don’t be an ass, you think, softly scolding yourself for being judgemental. She could just be having an off day. No one is obligated to look or act a certain way, even at work.

But when she turns to Viktor after you place your order for a bottle of wine, you can see that he’s just as shocked as you are.

You subtly watch her leave with your orders, neither of you saying a word until you’re sure she’s out of earshot.

“If one more weird thing happens, can we go somewhere else for dinner?” you ask, nearly pleading.

Viktor nods silently, and you finally glance down at the menu.

You’re not sure what most of the food is, even with the descriptions beneath the listing. The pictures help a little bit, but you still find yourself squinting and puzzling over every option. You’re really trying not to be negative or judgmental, especially towards a restaurant that was advertised as experimental, but with each passing moment, you grow hungrier, and your patience grows thinner.

Part of you is guilty, as if you’re upsetting the mood of the night. Viktor is uncharacteristically quiet, his gaze set hard as he reads, and you can’t help but feel as if he’s annoyed with you; even in other uncomfortable situations, he’d still managed to talk to you…

You don’t realize you’re staring, until his eyes flick towards you and a small smile tugs at the corners of his lips.

“Something on my face?” he inquires lightheartedly, and you -as per usual- are quick to fluster.

“Sorry!” you squeak, immediately turning your attention back to the menu. “You just looked kind of mad, is all.”

There are a few beats of silence, before you feel the familiar warmth of his hand, wrapping around yours, atop the table. “I’m not angry,” he reassures softly, “not even slightly, and least of all with you.”

Of course he’d know what you were thinking.

“I just…want tonight to be nice,” you sigh, pouting. “It’s the only dinner we’re going to have together for a while, and I want us to have a good time.”

Viktor quirks a brow. “I’m sensing a ‘but’?”

“But,” you continue, “this place is creeping me out, and the only food I know on the menu is something that has maggots in it.”

You can practically see the colour drain from your boyfriend’s face, and you wince.

“That is an…odd thing to cook,” he finally says, “but to each their own.”

You can tell he’s trying to convince himself that it’s alright.

“They’re not cooked,” you inform him. “It’s casu martzu. It’s like…cheese, digested by worms, served with said worms still inside it- are you okay?”

He looks positively ill, growing more and more pallid as you speak. He swallows thickly, and you can feel the way his hand shakes atop yours - as well as how sticky his palm has become.

“Viktor?”

“Perhaps we can count this as ‘one more weird thing’?” he manages to suggest.

You glance around quickly, making sure your server isn’t returning to you, before standing and gesturing your partner out of his seat. You’re fairly certain that you’re spotted during your departure, but none of the staff on duty approach you as you sneak away.

–

You finally start relaxing once you’re on your way down to the lobby - mostly because Viktor pulls you into a deep kiss when you’re alone on the elevator.

“What?” you ask him, growing shy when you notice him staring at you.

He leans a little closer to you, cupping your jaw with his free hand, and tenderly presses his lips to yours. 

All at once, your heart leaps into your throat and your fingers find purchase in the lapels of his jacket. You don’t even care that there’s probably a camera in the elevator; all your thoughts are consumed by him. How gentle he is when he touches you, contrasted by the barely contained hunger behind the kiss - the way his lips are slow and purposeful against yours, sending warmth oozing through your body.

He pulls away when the elevator dings, leaving you breathless and hazy, and stupidly turned on - though you can’t possibly be mad at him, not even when a knowing little smirk passes across his face.

“If I wasn’t as hungry as I am…” you grumble, following him across the lobby, and out into the street.

—

Even in the gathering night, you expect to be bombarded by noise the moment you step outside; it’s the city, after all. Even with less traffic, the engines of vehicles and other din should have been reverberating off the highrises surrounding you.

But it’s…quiet.

Not completely silent, but muffled.

Above you, the lights of the metropolis reflect off the thick clouds and paint the sky a burnt orange. A perfect backsplash to watch the fat snowflakes tumble downwards, where they’ve gathered in abundance across the sidewalks, roads, and nearly everything else in sight.

The two of you stop for a moment, away from the doorway, to admire the scene.

“Are you gonna be okay to walk in this?” you ask Viktor, who is still looking around at the pleasant scenery.

“I’ve made my way around in worse,” he tells you, dusting some of the snow out of his hair. “But if you’re still worried, the cane I use is meant for this. See?”

He pulls the object up and twirls it around, showing you the base.

It’s laden with little metal spikes, you realize, meant to find a grip in the ice and snow and prevent slipping.

Your face heats up slightly, and you try to shrug off your embarrassment without alerting your partner. Of course he knew how to handle himself, you think, feeling kind of dumb for worrying so much about him, despite the fact that he’d been living his entire life with his disability.

“Do not make such a sad face, Zlatíčko,” he says, leaving a quick kiss on your temple. “Your concern for my wellbeing comes from a place of care.”

—

You wander slowly around the block, hand in hand. There are a couple places you spot where you could sit down and eat, drawing your attention with bright flashy signs. One thing you notice about those places, though, is the sheer number of people inside - not just sitting and dining, but crowded around in the entryway, waiting.

The only places that aren’t overly crowded are the select few spots too expensive for your budget; and coincidentally the places that likely wouldn’t allow you or Viktor in, dressed for comfort like you are.

With each restaurant you pass, you grow more and more hopeless and despairing. Even with your boyfriend’s hand wrapped warmly around yours, your mood is plummeting - you know you’re just hungry, and that you’ll feel infinitely better once you get something in your stomach, but…

You’re cold. You’re cold, and you’re tired, and you just want to eat.

Then, carried on the wind like some kind of divine signal, comes the smell of spices. Rich and heady, with undertones of smoke and oil and meat.

“Viktor,” you sigh, inhaling deeply.

He pauses at your side, and copies your action.

It takes the two of you a couple minutes to pinpoint the exact location of the smell, but when you do, excitement bubbles up in your chest. 

The little restaurant doesn’t have more than six tables, one of them being a booth by the window. The floors are scuffed and dated, but the walls are decorated with photographs, most of which look to have been taken by a polaroid camera. It’s charming and cozy, and the distant sizzling of food is delightful.

You decide to take the booth by the window, quickly shrugging your coats off to get comfortable. The menus are already on the table, and neither you nor Viktor waste any time in opening them.

“Now this is what I’m talking about,” you cheer softly, scanning through the list of dishes. “Look at how many curries there are! And butter chicken - Viktor look, they make aloo gobi!”

You wiggle in your seat with a childish sort of glee, earning a smile from the man across you.

Eventually a waiter comes out to meet you, and you’re immediately more comfortable than you had been in the previous restaurant. He’s warm and amicable, and happily gives his opinion when you ask about what dishes the place makes best. 

By the time he departs from your table, you and Viktor have already placed your food and drink orders.

You sigh deeply then, the tension from the day finally seeping out of your bones, and you melt back into the booth. You can feel the arms of exhaustion beginning to creep in as well, and you’re certain your boyfriend can see it - and you’re positive he feels the same.

You share a sleepy smile from across the table, taking a couple moments to just sit quietly together. It’s pleasant and comforting, and it’s something you enjoy about being with Viktor; you never have to fill the silence. Both of you are content to take the time to just Be, even if you’re not actively engaging with each other. His presence…feels like home.

“Hey Vik, can I tell you something?” you ask, and when he nods, you continue, “I’m looking forward to sleeping next to you tonight.”

His cheeks darken to a lovely rosy hue, and your heart flutters happily.

“I’m serious,” you say, “I…don’t usually feel this good around other people. I’m always on edge, like I’m about to say something wrong or like I don’t quite belong. But with you…”

You huff a soft laugh, averting your gaze. “With you, I just feel content. Like I’ve known you for my whole life. You’re easy to talk to, and you make me happy, and I like being near you, and-” you cut yourself off, your own cheeks beginning to heat up. “What I mean is, I’m happy I get to be here. With you.”

Viktor’s hand creeps slowly over the table, and without thinking, you reach for him, sliding your fingers around his - a perfect fit. He just holds you for a couple seconds, stroking his thumb over your skin. It’s tender and sweet, and when you finally gain the courage to look back up at him, his eyes shine with intense affection.

“I am glad you have a terrible sense of direction,” he admits. “If you had not gotten lost at the beginning of the semester, I would not have met you in the same way - we would not be where we are now.”

It’s too early for a declaration of love, you think, but such words certainly feel like a promise. A promise that it might one day happen - that one day you might find yourself wrapped up in another quiet moment with him, with sweet nothings falling off your tongue. And you’ll feel the same sense of wholeness as you always do with him.

And perhaps those words will slip, or perhaps they will be spoken with purpose.

But for now, you’re tucked away in the corner of a quiet little shop, with your hands linked together, sharing quiet conversation.

Unknowingly, the calm before the storm.

[neetily]

꣑୧ ⋅ ⋅ ⋅ ── MATCHUP EVENT: Date #12

♡ cupid's victim number twelve!! ♡

i got to your one!! i really hope it was worth the wait and that you enjoy reading why i picked your specific matchup <3 tysm for taking part!

─ you have one new message from...

Alex . . . (DoL)

think u should move in soon, actually. so that we can have more nights like last night x thinking of you x

Why? oh... y'know... tbh, the first thing that made me side with alex is that you two have opposite aesthetics, which is think would work so well and cute together! the tall and buff farmer boy dating the small and cute coquette city girl? the stuff dreams are made of, if you ask me! also as a fellow infp pisces, im here to tell you that you deserve alex !!! he'd be so attentive and soft and warm with you, would sit and daydream with you all day when he has time off from the farm, making sure your emotions and creative side is well catered for <3! something about him just screams doll usage too, like you're his pretty doll, y'know? he takes pride in you, thinks you're the prettiest thing the walk the earth, and he enjoys showing you off! makes sure you're well protected too though, thanks to his big muscles (scary dog privilege) and he's more than happy to be the extrovert when you're feeling more introverted! he's got that big personality that just draws attention, but only has eyes for you, y'know? you're always his main priority! he thinks you look so cute when wearing glasses, and i have a small headcanon that he needs to wear em when reading too <3

he'd appreciate how slow you can take things at times too. help him learn how to relax and appreciate the small things in life! he's simply obsessed with you, and enjoys doing literally anything he can with you because it's you, y'know? even if he's not so good at it (like with many things...) he'll always put in some enthusiastic effort for you!

No Escape . . .

out of all the dates alex has been on with you, perhaps his most favourite just has to be game nights at home. all alone with you, on his secluded farm, where no one else but him can hear the way you squeal and squeak on the end of his fat cock as it pulses inside of you. throbbing with pleasure, his back straightening with a shiver when it's his turn to roll the dice.

not that it matters much to the game itself, he hasn't been paying attention to the last few rolls, too busy getting you appropriately undressed unprompted; nothing as much as a word escaping him as his big hands tear clothing item after clothing item off of your pretty body, wordlessly helping you sit on his cock like any other normal tuesday. it's expected, of course, that he'd use you at some point.

practiced movements, shaking the dice in one hand before setting it free, hastily moving his piece an unknown number of spaces unrelated to the dice roll before both hands come back to your underside, spreading your ass cheeks apart as he helps lift you up on his cock, enough to allow him room to thrust up from under you.

try as you might, he knows that his cock is too big and too fat for you to really pay attention too, and nothing feels better than fucking his free use perfect pussy when he knows that you can't escape his tight grip, stuck on his lap on a whim. he's far stronger than you, and there's no chance that you could ever fight him back. and why would you ever want to? doesn't he fuck you just so good, enough to leave you a trembling, sopping mess on his cock? unable to reach the dice you're supposed to roll for your turn, instead clawing at his tense arms and whining his name all broken and fuckin pretty like that for him.

and he'd stop if you really wanted him too, but he can tell by the tight squeeze of your cunt choking his tip that you'd rather he continued bouncing you on his lap, fucking you so full of cock that you're left breathless, quite literally speechless from the sheer weight behind his every thrust. and he's not doing any better either, grunting and groaning against the crook of your neck from how easy you are. how he could do quite literally anything to his pretty little free use doll, and you wouldn't complain. the power he feels coursing through him, pooling in his cock as he fucks into you unfairly; a little test to see how much he can stretch his toy before she breaks.

just for him to kiss you all better again, because he loves you. and he's thankful that you put so much trust into him.

— you like to... listen to music when alone! here is a playlist that i think fits your matchup!

For the First Time - Mac DeMarco

505 - Arctic Monkeys

Light of Love - Florence And The Machine

[charlybird]

that photograph drawing has me thinking more about bill and alden's wedding/proposal. brown jack was the ringbearer ofc, but who do you think popped the question? did their parents walk them down the aisle? where did they go for their honeymoon? i have lots of ideas hehehe

yes I think about this sometimes and if we keep Alden's first relationship/marriage similar to the game, a really bad one that he felt trapped in, then I don't see Alden wanting to rush off and get married again. Not even with how comfortable he might be with Bill, and Bill isn't really the wedding type. So I feel like it was less of a proposal and more of a conversation over time. Discussing Alden's previous relationship/marriage, how he feels about the future, what he wants etc. Then eventually the "question" would be more of a "do you want to?" But I don't know who would ask. Also the wedding would probably be kind of chill, not very traditional, but I would guess Alden's first wedding had nothing that he wanted so I feel like Bill would suggest the wedding to be catered just towards Alden, and while Alden is touched by the idea he insists it be more 50/50. I had a HC for their early relationship being great to start with but then dipping a bit as Bill didn't have enough self worth and kind of had Alden on a pedestal too much. (so always trying to please Alden as he loves the attention he gets from it. Being too much of a simp basically haha) But I think Bill's depression would eventually hit back kind of hard because doing this doesn't give him proper self worth. So eventually Alden realises this and tries to make sure Bill knows he's worth something too. Again this ship, in my HCs at least, is self healing and two damaged people fixing each other. It's not without bumps but it's overall a good and strong one. And yes Brown Jack is the ringbearer absolutely :3

[egenvs3000f23]

Week 2 My role as an environmental interpreter

Describe your ideal role of environmental interpreter. What might it entail? Where might it be? What skills might you need? (Keep these all-in mind as you begin to work on your assignments – tailor these to that ideal job!)

Blog Response:

When I call it a day and am off to sleep, I think about the events, choices and attitudes of the day just passed. The most fulfilling days always involve time spent in the outdoors, having used my mind, my body, learned something new, and having had the opportunity to get to know or spend time with the people around me. I love speaking with others, learning their world views, and the differences and similarities between myself and the given person, or group of people. 

This being said, my ideal job, or role in an environmental interpretation position is one where I am outside, working as a discovery facilitator, and one where I am active throughout the day. It is a dream job of mine to work as a hiking guide or a bikepacking tour guide in a national park! I’m graduating this year and am applying to jobs with these roles involved in them! I am so nervous but cannot wait to see how things go! 

Based on my previous experience, as mentioned in the last post, I had the chance to work in a nature interpretation role with BC parks! It gave me a lot of insight into how differently people learn, and how what works really well for some people, makes no sense to others. Age is also a big factor, I was better at working with the adults at the interpretation events than kids. However I must say, that the enthusiasm of kids discovering and learning in the outdoors cannot be beat! It was really helpful, as noted in the readings, to build a sense of rapport between you and those being communicated with, it really makes people listen to what you say because they know where your credibility lies, and how it fits within theirs. It develops a sense of trust and friendship which can make learning what otherwise could be dry information, interesting, digestible and meaningful.

I need to do some more research on how to appeal to different learning styles, but I think it is hard to make plans without having a good understanding of the audience first. How one actually intends to play to different learning styles is very context specific. I suppose the solution, to this, and the best quality, most accessible nature interpretation is to always play to different learning styles and just be adaptable as the audience makes their ways known. There could be visual learners so always having maps, diagrams images, paper and pencils on hand could be good ideas. For those who tend towards kinesthetic learning, making sure there is a physical component to the information, a game, a hike, or bike while learning about different species for example. Understanding that there are active and reflexive listeners, sensing and intuitive listeners, sequential and global learners, and then just playing to the needs of individuals in the given group is I think the best way to go. This is something I’ve learned that I need to make sure to focus on when doing nature interpretation in the future.

I think that its worth mentioning that even if someone is a specific type of learner they still have much to gain from learning in other ways as well. There are simply some things that cannot be learned through one type of learning. One cannot learn how to ride a bike by drawing it out, the drawing could help demonstrate the information, but learning to ride a bike will always be a kinesthetic task.  I would expect that everyone has a different balance of the types of learning, but that everyone makes some use of them all at some point. This is a viewpoint I plan to take with me into any nature interpreting career. Always include all the learning styles, but don’t focus too hard to cater to one specific type while neglecting the others. Catering to the individuals, and crowd but still being realistic!

A fun aside (an app I really enjoy using myself):

An app that could be relevant to readers! i-naturalist is a great app for learning about species in the outdoors. You can upload a photo, make a guess as to what you think it is, and you then find out if you are correct on the app. It is also super fascinating because it catalogs and records all the sightings of species and keeps the data for science and the public to use!

Another gif! Go adventure in the outdoors!

[04tenno]

Well goddamn, Daigo. I can only guess that was a part of his all-around terrible behavior that emerged when his world felt like it was crumbling. Of course, though, that’s still an awful way to act. It reminds me of the substory for him in 0 when he’s being a much more toned down kind of awful to that lady, and Kiryu points out that it’s not normal for him to act that way. It’d be interesting to see how he’d be with woman when he’s more levelheaded.

If you don’t mind me asking, what are your thoughts on Daigo and possibly being gay, anyway? It’s an area of intrigue for me in a way I can’t properly explain 🫠 Maybe due to being queer myself I wind up thinking about stuff like that.

Choosing a heartthrob type actor who doesn’t seem to do a lot of stuff like Yakuza and has a multitude of suggestive photo shoots makes me wonder so much. He’s not the usual choice compared to a lot of the other actors here. And what they used him for in the original version of Ishin is also just ???? There’s too much stuff in this series that my brain hooks onto and rotates endlessly. Even when it’s a character that doesn’t get thought about much 💀

Sorry I’ve been rambling so much. I really appreciate what you’ve shared with and done for the fandom, and it really gets my curiosity going.

How Daigo acts in Y0 is definitely in line with him ending up that way, because he's clearly begun to internalize certain beliefs about how he should act and what what he should want. It's very much not normal for a kid his age even if he doesn't fully understand it.

So, you know, there's stuff to chew on, but at the same time constantly showing that a character's hit his "lowest point" by having him victimize a female character gets old, and I'm glad Yokoyama stopped relying on that as shorthand.

I'm queer as well, so I think it'd be pretty cool! A huge draw to the series for women and queer people is the homoerotic subtext (which is, on occasion, text). And the subtext with Daigo really is intriguing, of course in terms of what we've talked about with Mine and with women, but also with Shinada and with Nick, for example.

When I've got the time I'd like to talk about it in a separate post (or in an ask to Snap in all likelihood lmao) but I'm like, 98% sure Mine just assumes he's gay and it's incredibly funny to me. Mine is certainly not Free of Projection, but still.

I honestly think Daito fits the casting pattern, though! There's at least one standout "heartthrob" in the cast of most of the games since faceclaims were introduced. Out of the actors I'm familiar with, Shota Matsuda (Kenzan), Hiroki Narimiya (Y4), Daito (Y5 and Ishin), Arata Iura (Y0), and of course Takuya Kimura, Shosuke Tanihara, and Hiroshi Tamaki (J1 and LJ) all had that reputation; even Tsutsumi did in the past. I think there's an understanding that the female fans are here to stay and are worth catering to.

Uhhhhh only tangentially related on the topic of queerness and faceclaims, honorable mention to Peter (Dead Souls) who is just straight-up one of Japan's most well known gay and GNC performers. Honestly. Slay. I love that he got to work with RGGS (even if, as usual, he plays a villain...)

With Ishin, it's definitely an interesting case, because with how Takeda and Todo are portrayed, it carries implications for whoever is "cast as" those characters. Because there's the acknowledgment Hayashi and Awano are, y'know, fruity, and there's also the acknowledgment Baba and Zhao could believably be desirable to gay men.

I suppose it kind of had to happen though. While Ishin does a LOT of original things with its concept, Takeda has to be Takeda, and Todo has to be Todo. In real life, Takeda did prey on younger members of the Shinsengumi (some believe Hijikata had Saito assassinate him after receiving complaints of this), and if one wanted to acknowledge that within the main story, well, Todo is the youngest captain.

In terms of casting, I think it's a mix of being dead-set on having an "all-star" cast (for the time) and needing the cast to fit "the image" of who the historical figures were. So Todo would naturally need to be someone who's boyishly handsome (even though Baba is 30 lmao). And hey, turns out we've got a really well-liked character that fits the bill right there in Y5, which was the best-selling RGG game by far in Japan until (I think) YLAD.

[teenagetastemakerfury]

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[ryuichirou]

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One reply + suddenly a hc list today! About the animals.

Anonymous asked:

Normally I rather dislike ace and duece as a couple but something about your art makes it ok... or at least more so than normal

lol thank you Anon!

I’m glad the way I draw them makes it more appealing to you.

thestarlightfae asked:

If the twst cast were animals, which animals do you think they would be?

Hehe, I’m coming back to your last question!

I feel like we talked about similar topics every now and then, so for this post to not sound very repetitive I thought that I’m going to make it more difficult for myself and actually give everyone a couple of animals. I also tried not to be too obvious, but I’m not going to not call the Leeches eels…

Also there is no equality there, some guys have more animals than others :( Sorry!!

Riddle –  a hedgehog, a mouse, a house finch… he just feels like a loud little bird sometimes lol He’s small but he could bite or prick or peck you. Of course, he is also a goldfishie..!

Ace – a fox, a red panda, a red cat. Always getting in trouble, but still pretty independent and sly, but also ekekek’ing happily when fed and spoiled. Capricious but also an idiot.

Deuce – a jack rabbit, a dog (a mutt), a rat… I don’t know he just feels like someone who could be a great and dear friend if you let him into your life <3 He is a little bit wild, but also easily tamable.

Cater – a ferret, a parrot (not sure which one), a husky-golden retriever mix. Kind of obnoxious and loud at times, but so incredibly magicammable! At the first glance at least, but he really needs an owner that understands him.

Trey – a bear, a badger, a turtle. Once again, Floyd’s nickname feels like it works perfectly for how chill he is… but he could still somewhat dangerous, even if he looks cute and cuddly.

Leona – a lion (shocking), a maine coon (is this cheating?), a panda. I don’t know man, he’s just here to relax, even if it bites him in the ass sometimes… but maine coons are supposed to be good hunters, so!

Ruggie – a hyena, a magpie, a raccoon. One man’s trash is another man’s treasure – he is excellent at finding stuff that he wants and taking it without anyone noticing.

Jack – a wolf, a kangaroo, an irbis.  Sorry, he is such a pup it’s very difficult to think about anything else, but… don’t provoke this guy!! He’ll fuck you up!

Azul – an octopus, a Turkish angora cat, a ram. Very careful and anxious, but also gracious and smart… and super stubborn and scary when angry!!! Also, angoras love to swim! And have the most gorgeous blue eyes.

Jade – an eel, a scorpion... But I also want to acknowledge dolphins because of…certain shenanigans that they do… anyways, this one is a huge DANGER sign. Anything venomous feels pretty much like him.

Floyd – an eel, a shark, a husky-wolf mix. Once again, the first two are pretty obvious, but he is also a wild fluffy beast running around and yelling… when he feels like it. When he doesn’t, he is super lazy and gets very angry when bothered.

Kalim – a mongoose, a puppy (can’t even give you a breed, just a puppy, something super expensive though), a parakeet parrot. A mongoose is just too ironic not to pick, but he is also super friendly, excited and sociable! And colourful, of course. Always the center of all the attention.

Jamil – a snake (viper/cobra), a chameleon and a caracal cat. Once again, cautious, independent, ready to attack but very sneaky about it. Also very gorgeous looking, it’s difficult to look away even if you know it’s dangerous…

Vil – a peacock, a show dog with tons of medals and awards, a horse. Speaking of gorgeous… Truly a magnificent creature that knows his own worth. Perfectly fit, perfectly pampered and groomed, but also has quite the temper.

Rook – an eagle, a fox, a hound. I feel like it describes Rook pretty much perfectly… An excellent hunter, but also there is something so sneaky about him. But then you look at him and see someone who is very friendly and open-minded, just like a dog! Weirdo…

Epel – a bunny, a chinchilla, a Pomeranian. He would be so mad, but let’s be honest, am I wrong? The last one especially feels like a no-brainer to me: so small and oh so fierce.

Idia – a skittish cat, an anxious borzoi dog, a fallow deer. Somehow both a loner and enjoyer of good company… he is cute and long and kind of both gracious and clumsy at the same time.

Ortho – a dog (Cerberus!), a clione (sorry it’s too cute Floyd is right again), a tiger cub. The last one is probably kind of sudden, maybe I should’ve went with something flying instead, but he does feel like a little pouncing hunter sometimes…

Lilia – a bat, a sugar glider, a shrike. Small, adorable, but oh god how fucking deadly. The more I think about it, the more I think of how much of a shrike he is…

Silver – a jackalope, a unicorn, a hippogriff. All fictional animals because he is just that otherworldly lol Probably isn’t fair to everyone else, so I’ll make it even more unfair and give him three normal animals: a swan, a hare, a deer.

Sebek – a crocodile, a bull, a dog (Doberman or Rottweiler?). He is a such well-disciplined dog, but also stubborn and kind of easy to provoke. Still, he is such a pup sometimes.

Malleus – a monitor lizard, a crow, a panther. The first two are pretty explanatory, but I just couldn’t resist the last one – had to give him a big gorgeous black kitty.

[likeapray3r]

I got a random itch to go for a walk mid day and I thought why not since it was beautiful out. As I walked down my back hallway stairs I see someone who looks like the downstairs neighbor that just moved in last week and I saw they were holding what looked like pretty heavy things so I try to go to the door to open it for them, but then they disappeared. I didn’t think much of it since it really wasn’t any of my business so I just continued on like normal and made sure the door behind me locked. BUT as I leave, from the corner of my eyes, I see my ex’s friend taking out what seemed to be the drawing easel I had in their basement. From pure astonishment I just smiled because I genuinely couldn’t believe these people who claim to know what a boundary is showed up unannounced to throw all of my things into my backyard, which I had already made peace with never seeing any of these things again… I have no more emotion or feeling or even an ounce of sympathy left for these people so I didn’t make a big deal about it. I think the most hilarious part of it all was I got a lot of my things back, but not all, because of course that’s what a narcissist would do. They’d keep what they want to keep because in some way they still find it useful for themselves and don’t want to part ways with it, since they only care about themselves. I’m honestly pretty glad to have gotten back some of my things though, usually this person wouldn’t take the time to give me back anything and instead I’d be the one on my hands and knees giving everything back. Thank god I got my keys back to my place and the ring that I made her (it coincidentally fits my ring finger perfectly) so that’s great. Once I assessed the damage and saw what I got back and placed everything away I decided it was time to let go of a few things: her keys, her baby blanket, 2 random articles of clothing, a shirt I made her many moons ago which she should have THROWN OUT instead of giving to me (but, hey that’s what manipulative people do) and a ripped up picture of us from years ago on a road trip I remembered I had in my car. All thrown out into the trash where they belong. I refuse to make any effort to cater to this person who strung me along and made me feel so awful and isolated. I have nothing left to give to the situation, it emptied me. Once I finally talked about everything that happened with multiple people we’ve all come to the conclusion that I’m not dealing with a good person, and part of me knew this for the 4 years I knew her, but I wanted to be wrong so bad. That’s why I kept going back. I know now going back only hurt me. The symbolism of throwing this persons things out felt amazing. I don’t care. She picked and prodded through her home to decide what was worth giving back to me which I find to be one of the most hilarious additions to the book. An outdoor chair I bought, my Wii, my bedroom fan I brought over, a blender, a small garbage container I secretly always wanted to take back, my food containers, the blanket my mom gave her for Xmas one year, the new grill brush I bought, all of the clothes I’ve ever given her, and most likely a bunch of other things I can’t even remember. How about the fridge full of things I had just bought before it all ended? It’s funny now. In the past something like this would’ve torn my insides apart. Now all I have is a score to keep because that’s unfortunately what you have to do with people like this. I spent weeks crying over this before I ran out of tears. Crying over the constant pain and constant apathy this person gave me. The bare minimum. The shutting me up. Well, I don’t have it in me to shut up anymore. I guess that’s why it’s funny. I kind of had a feeling she would do something like this, but I wanted to just make peace with the fact that I had to cut my losses. How did I know to leave the house at that exact time? How did I not realize that was her, not my neighbor? I guess when I said I will never see her again the universe really followed through with that one. Because to me, that was just anybody. I’m free.

[sweeterthanmydreams]

I can never tell which platform I have more visibility on, but I have rambling power here so I’ll put my rant here.

tl;dr I’m trying to open commissions so I can buy glasses & get my hair dyed but can’t decide what to offer/how to best advertise myself.

My first thought was a Barbie themed YCH but that was on like, Wendsday & the hype is likely to be gone by the time I get everything set up. On the other hand, cute little chibis in doll packaging is just universally appealing so I could do bases for a variety of doll brands like Monster High or Rainbow High as well. It’s not a bad idea (I think) since I like drawing packaging & could recycle the doll bases across the packaging options but I’m not sure I could pull in enough customers to justify the effort; There’s a minimum amount of commissions you need to sell before creating a base becomes worth the effort.

Second thought was OC design update commissions, which is something I’ve wanted to try for awhile. I love doing it for my own characters, and think it’d be fun to do for others. Really tough to make an info graphic for that & tough to break it down into price categories.

Last thought is just the standard custom commissions but more catered to what I find easier to draw i.e. pretty much anything but human/humanoid anime characters. So mushrooms, objects from games, graphical elements, character symbols, that sort of thing. Even like, Object Head or Cookie Run or what Art Fight refers to as “simple shaped” characters would be good; Sanrio type little guys. Just any characters that don’t require me drawing a human/anthro head shape. =.= Really REALLY hard to quantify & describe that though. :/

My current approach is just to sort my references into categories, slap a price on the category, and just label it “Stuff Like That: 25$” or whatever. (Don’t get me started on pricing.) I just want my first glasses to be cute & useful but I don’t want to have to draw character* commissions to get there. I also totally want to splurge and get multiple glasses frames since they’re relatively cheap (>30$ each with default Rx lenses).

*Disclaimer: YCH get a pass because I only have to draw the head right ONCE.

[pot12horn]

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[skeletonmob]

I think the ultimate source of my frustration is a bunch of external factors that I have little to no control over.

There's been this push in the publishing industry for writers to self advertise. The writers get more creative control over their work, and the publisher spends less money on advertising. I've heard that publishers won't sign you on unless you have already have a large audience, large enough to ensure a return on their 'investment'. I'm sure this is also happening with music, movies, videos games and so on. Companies won't hire you unless you're an internet celebrity. The thing is, that's bullshit. This doesn't create better art, it just gate keeps people like me, who do not have a single advertising bone in their body. Also, I've spent hours of my life drawing or writing, why do I have to spend even more time advertising? Why do I have to learn a bunch of business skills when I could be perfecting my craft?

There's also no sense of discovery or curiosity on part of the audience. Algorithms keep you in this bubble that's hard to get out of. If you watch a chocolate cake recipe on YouTube, the site will recommend more cake and dessert recipes. Rarely will you get videos like, 'the history of chocolate cake' or the 'how chocolate's made'. There's also these booktok reviewers who're like, 'why does this novel have so many words?' or 'i only read dialogue!' which I take as an indication of the overall public perception on art. Unless something's trendy, easily digestible, similar to another thing they like, or caters to their exact interests, then it's not worth their time. Doesn't matter how much effort you put into it.

So yeah, I think the ultimate point I'm trying to say is: trying to build an audience online is a huge fucking mountain to climb, and knowing that fact doesn't make it any easier or less bullshit.

There are days where I feel like giving up on art entirely.

I turned 30 this year, and I created my DeviantArt account back when I was 14, shortly after I started high school. So for just over half my life, I've been putting my art out into the world, and I have nothing to show for it. I have a handful of posts that get the occasional reblog or like here, but beyond that, nothing. The majority of the art I've posted here barely has any notes. The games I've made have only been downloaded a few dozen times. My social media accounts barely have any followers, despite that from a pure time standpoint, I should have at least a few hundred or a few thousand.

So it is a bit demoralizing to see artists younger than me with 500k followers on Twitter, or getting their dream job in animation. Then there's news articles about 'The Top 25 Entrepreneurs Under 25!' which don't help either. I am a bit jealous, but mostly demoralized like I said. It feels like I'm doing something wrong. It feels like I'm falling behind. It feel's like everything was a fool's errand and I was just wasting my time.

I know people will say not to compare yourself to others, but that's basically impossible. All this stuff is everywhere. And the most frustrating part is that the only solution to all this is just to keep going. I don't always have the time to jump onto every single art trend that pops up. I don't have the time, energy, or skill to manage and optimize my social media to get maximum engagement. Blazing every piece of art I post here would get expensive real fast. I've even thought about starting drama with random people, but decided against it. Making yourself look like an asshole for clout isn't great in the long run.

So the only solution I can think of is to just keep going. To keep doing what I'm doing. To keep banging pots and pans in the vain hope that someone will notice. But I've been doing that for 16 years of my life, and nobody has noticed me. In the back of my head I think, 'Maybe's it's better to just give up.'

And every time I'm feeling down on my art, I get a little bit closer to actually doing so.