#drabbles for silva siblings as they're born

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Other Anon’s hc description about how Acier may have been sad and resigned herself to royal duties, not really expecting love… she was sad but it is what it is. THAT POST

I loved it so much because it was a prime example of something I’ve always believed.

For the record, this is my opinion, and I’m sharing it because of how much this hc reminded me of it. I am in no shape or form telling anyone who has an opposing opinion that they’re wrong. If you agree, yay! If you don’t, that’s fine - you do you. To each his/her/they’re own.

Warning: long, rambling:

I’ve always believed love at first site is BS. Attraction at first sight? 100% real, I couldn’t tell you how BC characters (or manga/anime characters in general) I saw at first glance and was like Yup, he attractive or how many real life guys I’ve seen or caught a passing glance of and thought the same thing… but that’s not love. Chemistry at first sight? A little less common that just physical attraction but still plausible. You can definitely be attracted to someone’s presence, mannerisms, aura/energy/vibe, you could both notice and find it cool when it feels like you both have a nice flow going together seemingly in-sync without trying to… but that’s not love. Love takes time. It requires you to at least believe you’ve gotten to know the person. Time to understand and accept their good and their bad. You need to know more than a basic description about them to even get started on the path that leads to falling in love. It takes time. It’s almost never instantaneous. Did you catch the almost? I believe love is never instantaneous when it comes to romantic Eros love. But familial agape love? That’s the one where I’m 100% convinced love at first sight exists. But even that is controversial on the mother’s end because you could also say it was love at first kick, love at first sonogram image, love at first sound of the heartbeat,… love at first knowledge of their existence… but if all else fails love at first sight when you first get to hold that new baby in your arms. Ask any (good) parent (I emphasize good because there are unfortunately shitty neglectful bad horrible abusive excuses of sperm/egg donors parents that don’t deserve the title of mom or dad, like Papa Silva. from the bottom of my heart: F*ck you🖕Papa Silva) ask any (good) parent what they felt the first time they held their first child in their arms (every child is important but I say first because you’re going in blind the first time not knowing what to expect) and tell me their response wasn’t something like an overflow of love and fear. I’ve always believed that the love a parent feels for their child (and vice versa even if the baby may not understand it) is the closest thing in the world to genuine love at first sight. Anon hit the Silver nail on the Silva head. I can completely see Acier break into tears alone in her bed after giving birth to Nozel, overwhelmed with joy and love at the little boy in her arms. The little baby that nobody can convince me didn’t come out with a little bouncy silver strand/bang on his head. What are your thoughts on the subject Laura-Senpai? Oh!& btw: Please Please Please write a little scenario drabble of this Laura-Senpai! Acier and how she felt when she first gave birth to Nozel and how Nozel felt when mother first gave birth to his remaining 3 siblings and what he felt the first time he held them?!?!?!?!?

Hmmm 🤔

I'm not sure what to think. Because I think a part of the topic is how different people perceive love. As in, there is discussion about what is different people's love language, because it can, and does, vary from person to person. So, even the Eros type of love can be experienced differently between people. (I'm including a cut here, because this'll be rather lengthy.)

But also: love changes over time. As in, I've been with my fiancé for 5 years now, and in the beginning our love was... really intense. It was a burning, pulling, hesitating, tranquil, restless, consuming desire to be with the other, in more than one sense of the word. It was a rollercoaster. And it came out of nowhere. We had known of each other's existence for 3 years, but we had barely spoken 3 words. Until... one summer it just... clicked. It took a week of watching each other from the other side of the room, again, exchanging barely 3 words during the week. But at the end of the week, and after the request to have that first date, there was no turning back.

And it was incredibly intense. I've experienced the "hey, that person looks really nice" kind of attraction before, but this was x10 000 that much.

But it's not that anymore. It's no longer a rollercoaster, but it's more like a... gentle stream that carries forward. It's in no way lesser now than what it was before, it's just different. I do still, at times, cry about how lucky and in love I am.

So, though my love doesn't exactly count as "love at first sight" because I had seen him before, it's almost such, because I had paid no attention to him before. He had been just another face in the crowd, until that... one week, when it clicked for no discernable reason. It was like someone had looped a rubber band around us, that "forced" us together. But that's just me, and my experience.

Some people first grow to be in love. There's no instant connection, but building towards it. And that's just as valid. It's also something I expected for myself, to have to first build a relationship and grow to love a person.

I'm also not sure about how I feel the connection between a parent and a child, because my only mother-child connection comes from my own mother, and she was quite proud to tell me that she didn't hold me in her arms for long right after I was born, but rather told the nurses to take me from her. She also told me that I wasn't breastfed for long (which means that I didn't "bond" with her for as long and as intently as I could have). But she also told me that she loved me. And after a lot of thought and pondering, I think that she did, in fact, love me. But she didn't love me in the way that I would perceive the to be loved. I still don't think I know what mother's love is, but I can list things that it is not, in my opinion. Unfortunately I can't talk about this anymore with her, because she passed a year ago (pretty much to a day, actually). And even if there was a chance for us to talk about this, which we superficially did once upon a time, I think all that could be concluded, would be: we experience love differently.

So... I suppose that in my opinion love, in any of it's shapes, can happen differently for each person. For some it can be instantaneous, and for some it's the kind they have to grow to do and feel.