#don't you fuckin tell me it's for education purposes. you KNOW what you're doing with those titles and thumbnails.

[southernbluebellereader]

I'm a sad lil bat today for so many reasons. I just feel stuck in my life, stuck trying to drive even though I get so anxious and scared when I do, stuck trying to get my education bc I didn't expect to live this long so I didn't properly do anything, stuck trying to make money bc my situation with driving and my education makes it so I can't go get a job and even if I could, it's so shitty trying to get hired currently. I feel like everybody in the world but me is able to progress but I'm just. Not able too. I feel like even my partner is gonna realize that I'm a fuckin loser and leave.

I have felt like this for so long and I'm trying to fix my situation but god damn it it is so hard bc I have hard times with certain things. I can't even go get a simple piercing bc I don't have money and I refuse to put myself into debt. I can't interact with people like a normal persona nd I get so fucking overwhelmed and overstimulated sometimes. I thought I'd have it figured out by now but I have no fucking clue.

I'm sorry for ranting so much but today isn't a good mental health day I think...-🦇

Hi Sweetheart,

I think a lot of people get stuck in life and feel the same way as you. I'm older than a lot of the other students in the college program I'm in because I started it like 3 years after everyone else and I didn't get my driver's license until I was 18.

You're still here for a reason. I can't tell you and your partner can't tell you what your purpose is - that's for you to figure out. But you are on track for what you're supposed to be doing in life.

It is never too late to try and better yourself and learn things - but please give try yourself some grace and forgive yourself - you're human.

There are so many people on your side, including myself. This is our first rodeo in this game of life: we can't expect things to be perfect the first time around.

Take it one day at a time. Get into a habit of doing things regularly. And there are a lot more people on your side and are willing to help you than you expect. It's hard to ask for help, but it's there if you know where to look.

I love you. I'm proud of you. And I'm happy you're here <3