#don't think they marry or anything. but they would grow old together and Ed lives in the basement

[stuworbutwitheds]

This might be a hot take(?) but i do like how Eddy become more grumpy as the show went between seasons

Of course he is more mean and kinda more aggressive with his friends.

But i think it's a great way to show how trauma can affect your personality, especially when it comes to physical abuse. Not every child that suffers like that is quiet and shy, some of them can mirror the bad traits of their abuser and they're just as valid to get love and support.

[midnightstar-90]

Live Laugh Love~ Rockets, Communists, and the Dewey Decimal System

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Georgie Cooper x Reader

Summary: To appease his worried mother, Sheldon employs the techniques of a self-help book to try and make a friend.

Warnings: None

AN: I plan to write a new chapter once a week. It may change at the end of the school year. On the other hand, I tried to add more to the story. I hope you guys like it.

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Y/N's Pov

I am walking to lunch, and when I round the corner, I see Mary and George looking through the lunchroom window and talking to each other. I make a confused face while listening in on their conversation. "Look at him. It breaks my heart," Mary says sadly. "Poor little guy. Sitting all alone", George says sadly while responding to Mary's comment. "I don't know why his brother or even Y/N can't sit with him. Actually, Where is Y/N. I don't see her anywhere."

"I'm right here," I say, spooking Mary and George before continuing with, "Also, I tried to sit with Sheldon on his first day, and he said it would be best for me to sit with people who have the same intellect as me. I found that rude because he meant Georgie, and I am so much smarter than Georgie. Anyways, Georgie doesn't sit with him because he says In school, they don't know each other". I look between Georgie and Sheldon, then look at my godparents. "Yeah, come on Mary, when you were in high school would you have lunch with a nine-year-old," George asked Mary. "Yes, I would have," Mary responded.  "Well, there is something wrong with you." I took George's words as a sign to leave.

"Well, I'm... gonna... go," I told the married couple before heading into the lunchroom to sit with Georgie and our friends. I sat down to Georgie, trying to fit as many grapes as he can into his mouth. "Fourteen," he yelled out while all of Georgie's friends cheered him on. Georgie spits them all out before turning to me. "What did you think," Georgie asked me, trying to get my opinion on his 'cool' trick. "Georgie, if I wanted to see you stuff your mouth, I would just wait till dinner. In other words, not that interesting," I told my best friend. Georgie replied with a sad "oh" before going back to talking with his friends. I went back to finishing my newest sketch of a finch.

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Georgie and I walked into the house. "Georgie, would you do me a tiny little favor," Mary asked Georgie while he was getting a drink out of the fridge. I sat with the girl I thought of as a little sister before saying hi. Georgie responded back with a "like what" before Mary asked Georgie to sit with Sheldon. I already told Mary why I don't sit with Sheldon. Missy with her smart remarks told Georgie, "Don't do it. I ate with him in second grade, it really hurt my social life." Georgie walked off while replying to Mary with a "No thanks". I kicked Missy under the table, then gave her a 'seriously' look. I shook my head and followed Georgie to 'help' him with his homework, which was more like do his work.

I don't follow Georgie because I'm his lost puppy. I follow Georgie to help him. Without me, Georgie would grow up to be a homeless man with great hair. I am basically Georgie's Guardian angel.

"Georgie, why do I always end up doing your homework? At this point, I don't even think you know how to read. Those magazines are just for show, and you know it. You probably only look at the pictures," I said to Georgie while sitting on his bed doing our geometry homework. "Aw, come on Y/N, don't you know that you're the smartest out of both of us. Without you, I would probably still be in the 5th grade. You were right about something though, those books are for looking, but I can read you." I roll my eyes at Georgie's comment before looking down and smiling.

I admit I might have a bit of a crush on Georgie but we're best friends, and how could I ever compare those girls in his magazine. If I tell Georgie that I like him, that could ruin our friendship, and that would be weird because we live together. So, I just stick to being his best friend. That way our friendship isn't ruined and I can still be as close to him as I can.

"Well I finished your homework and it's 10 o'clock, so I guess this is it. Have a good night," I said before heading out.

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Georgie's POV

Y/N walked out of my room. I felt sad because she was gone. We talk all day, she does my homework, and we have practiced together, but I still miss her. "Maybe I like her," I mumble to myself while laying down staring at the ceiling. "Naw, that can't be," I said. I shut off my light and fell asleep.

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Y/N's POV

I was leaving my art class when I see Sheldon talking to one of the cheerleaders. It's weird to be seeing Sheldon interacting with people without them running off and crying. It interested me so much I decided to listen in.

"Go wolves," Sheldon said in a monotone voice. Jessica closed her locker confused. Sheldon responded back to Jessica with, "You're a cheerleader, and by saying "Go Wolves" I'm initiating a conversation about something that interests you." "Oh, are you one of those special ed kids," Jessica asked still trying to understand what was happening. The older sister part of me kinda felt angry that she said that, but on the other hand she was talking to Sheldon. "My mom says I'm special. Would you like to be friends" Sheldon asks. She tells him, no, but Sheldon keeps going, "Are you sure? What if I told you I admired your boldly-applied makeup?" Jessica walks off offended.

I walk up to Sheldon frantically and say, "Sheldon, you can't say mean things like that. I'm at the top of the pyramid today, and Jessica is right underneath me." "Oh, I didn't know what I said was offensive. I thought that I was complimenting her," Sheldon says. "Well, just try not to insult people. If you don't know what to say, don't say anything to them." Sheldon replies with an "alright" before walking away from me. I watch Sheldon go before heading to my next class.

I got to my next class and I sat down beside Georgie. "I just ran into Sheldon trying to make friends," I told Georgie while I get the stuff I need for class out of my backpack. "I feel bad for whoever had to put up with Sheldon. That boy is not one for making friends," Georgie responds to my comment. "Well, I think it's cute, but I feel bad because he didn't make one friend." "You sound like my mom," Georgie says. I glare at Georgie. The teacher walks in and starts the class.

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I hear Mary yelling about how Sheldon made a friend. I felt happy for him. I feel like Sheldon would really benefit from having a friend. I mean, I have Georgie, and we're inseparable.

I also heard Sheldon ask if he can start his rocketry hobby again with his new friend and I dipped. The last time he launched a rocket he killed a family of squirrels and my eyebrows. I wanted to bond with Sheldon so I helped him with his rocket.

I went downstairs to watch tv with Missy. She was watching DuckTales. "I'm surprised you're not with Georgie," Missy comments as I sit down with her. I roll my eyes and say, "Georgie isn't my whole life. I talked to Sheldon earlier, and now I just want to hang out with you. Sheldon has a new friend now, I have Georgie, but I feel like you don't have anyone to hang out with. So, what do you say tomorrow I take you to get your nails done." Missy's eyes go wide and she excitedly shouts, "Yes, I'm gonna go tell mom!"

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After school, Missy and I went to get our nails done.

(Missy's Nails)

(Y/N's Nails)

When Missy and I got home Mary told us that Sheldon's friend was coming over. Missy and I sat down to talk and watch tv. There was a knock at the door, and that set Mary off. "He's here," she yelled. "Everybody, stay calm! Just a normal day, just a normal dinner," she continued. Missy asks if she and I can eat in front of the TV, which obviously didn't end well.

We're all sitting at the dinner table, except for Mary, when George starts asking Tam, questions. George makes it weird when he asked Tam if his mom was named Kim-lee. Me and Georgie look at each other with a cringed look.

Georgie releases us from the weird vibes when he asks Tam, "So, Vietnam, like in Rambo." Tam responds with a "yes" and then Georgie continues with, "That's a cool movie." Georgie asks Tam if he's in Rambo and I look at him and elbow him in the ribs. Georgie says, "oww, what was that for" before Tam tells him "no". Sheldon brings the conversation back to George's comment, but it is cut off by Mary serving dinner.

We learned a lot about Tam's family and life. It was very interesting. Georgie said a couple more stupid things, which earned him a few more elbows to the ribs.

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I was in my room, getting ready for bed. Georgie walks in and sits on my bed.

(Y/N's Room)

(Y/N's PJ's)

"How was the day with my sister," Georgie asks me. I sign for Georgie to get off the bed and say, "We had fun. After our nails, we went to Dairy Queen and got a blizzard. I think Missy and I really needed today, you know." Georgie helps me make my bed and continues the conversation, "I missed you today." "Is Georgie Cooper jealous? Georgie Cooper didn't have someone to do his homework and now he's sad," I said mocking Georgie. Georgie grows a sad look on his face and says, "No, I missed my best friend. Not the girl that does my homework, or the girl that helps me clean my room. I miss the girl I talk to for hours. The girl that makes me feel special compared to the rest of my family. I miss that girl and that girl is you."

"Wow, that was deep for a kid that went a couple of hours without seeing me, but I know how you feel. Missy and Sheldon don't know how to do the things we do. I almost made Missy cry by insulting her earlier. I think I hang around boys too much," I say getting ready to lay down. Georgie climbs into the bed with me and we silently talk for the rest of the night.

[spidernerdsblog]

I forgot that you existed: Chapter Two

A/N: Chapter two is here. Tensed situation arising between our ex lovers. Hope you like it. Feedbacks and suggestions are always welcome.

Pairing : Tom Holland × Singer reader

Summary : It's been more than five years since you and Tom have gone their own ways after a heartbreaking breakup which had left both of you shattered. Both of you thought that you were finally over with each other and were happy in your respective lives until you meet again at a reunion trip planned by your best friend and you realise you are still not done with each other.

Warnings: none

Mini playlist: Endgame by Taylor Swift

Music playing from car stereo

I don't wanna touch you (I don't wanna be)

Just another ex-love (You don't wanna see)

I don't wanna miss you (I don't wanna miss you)

Like the other girls do

I don't wanna hurt you (I just wanna be)

Drinkin' on a beach with (You all over me)

I know what they all say

But I ain't tryna play

I wanna be your endgame

I wanna be your first string

I wanna be your A Team

I wanna be your endgame, endgame

 You leaned on Tom's shoulder as he drove the car. Your hot breath falling on his neck as you start kissing his sweet spot behind his ears as he lets out a soft moan. Your hand intertwining with his free hand resting on his thigh. "Stop it love" Tom mumbled softly.

"Tom" you said softly "Tom!" This time you called his name loudly and Tom suddenly broke out of his trance and was brought to reality it wasn't you but it was his beloved fiancee Eleanor . She straightened herself to look at him with concerned eyes "is anything wrong Tommy?"

 "No love everything is fine" he reassured her

 His attention went to the song playing. He frowned and said "just this song irks me, not a fan actually of such kind of songs."

 "Seriously Tom, how can you not be a fan of Y/N, her songs are too good." El started gushing over you.

 "Yeah I know you are a huge fan of hers but I prefer old school hip hop." Lies.

He was your biggest fan since childhood though he doesn't admit it now but he is very proud of you. Seeing you grow into such a big star makes him admire you more. After so many years he still adores you and your songs. He was nervous to meet you and be in close proximity to you for so many days. Yes he still had feelings for you and that is why your songs wreaked havoc in his mind making him feel your presence even if you were far away from his life. He sometimes feels guilty that he isn't being true to El as soon she is going to be his wife and you still reside in his heart. He can never love anyone as he did to you. El was a very humble, sweet, understanding and smart person whom he got to know through one of his friends. Soon both of them found they had a lot in common, small chats turned into dates and then to a full fledged relationship for 2 years. Dom and Nikki approved their relationship and wanted their son to settle down and finally see him happy. Tom wasn't much excited about the wedding so all the planning he left on El.

 It was around noon when you three finally arrived at the beach house. You were filled with nostalgia as you had lots of fond memories connected with this place. There were a total of  5 bedrooms in the house. 2 were reserved for the couples, one for Tom and another for Harrison's other two friends Ed and Chloe, the others had to share. You liked the sea facing rooms and there were only two on the first floor. You immediately ran upstairs. You suddenly stopped in front of the first room and glanced at the empty room which once belonged to only you.

 Sounds of laughter "Tom stop.. Please oh I can't breathe" you said giggling as Tom tickled you even more. You both laid on the bed and laughed. You took out your phone to take a selfie to capture this moment. Tom kissed your cheek as you clicked the photo. You threw the phone on the bed and climbed on top of him straddling him around the waist as you planted soft kisses on his forehead, his cheeks and lips. You sat back to admire him " I love you so much Tommy" . He rolled you over to be on top of you

" Love you too princess." As he connected his lips onto yours.

 You brushed aside your thoughts as you went to the adjacent room and placed your luggage on the floor. Zendaya came with her luggage afterwards. It was a nice room with a queen sized bed and thankfully an attached bathroom.

 "You don't snore right?" Zendaya chuckled

 "Don't know about snoring but I do kick in my sleep." You laughed.

 "Okay let's freshen up first then we can start unpacking our things." Z said

 "Yeah you go first I need to make a call to my second mom." you chuckled.

You had three missed calls from Alex which left you wondering what was the matter. You put your airpods on and called him. You came out of the room as you started strolling in the corridor.

 "Seriously you don't trust me do you? I have barely spent a day here and you have already called me three times."

 "It was important the company wants you to do a concert at the beach carnival there."

"What! Dude I'm on a vacation and they expect me to do a concert."

 "Yeah it will be nice for the promotion, kind of a tour actually and I think it's good only for you to keep you distracted from, you know what I mean"

 "I don't know I need time to think"

 "There is nothing to think the concert is on the last day of your stay so you will get to enjoy your vacation as well as do a little interaction with your fans good for your rep."

 "Still I need to think Alex . I have to go for rehearsals then I need to know the whole schedule of the event. It's a lot of work."

 "I'll handle those things and get you in touch with the event manager, don't worry."

 You were walking backwards through the corridor as you were talking, you suddenly bumped into a solid sturdy figure, you lost your balance letting out a light shriek as you thought you were about to fall, instead you felt two strong arms catch hold of you, one hand on your back and one wrapped around your waist. You fluttered opened your eyes and your eyes were met with those familiar hazel brown eyes and loose brown curls falling over his face. Tom looked at you with concerned eyes; he himself couldn't stop admiring you. This is the closest he has come to you in the past few years. Your familiar lavender scent was intoxicating for him, he also noticed that your hair is longer than before which made you look more beautiful. You two were so lost in the moment that the whole world hazed out for you. Both felt a warm feeling inside.

But you were brought to reality as Alex started talking.

 "Y/N are you there? what happened?"

 You pulled away from Tom's hold as you stood straight and stuttered

"yea…Yeah I'm fine can I…Can I talk to you later? I'll think and tell you okay"

 "Okay honey bye take care love you"

 "Yeah bye love you too Alex"

 As you turned back to Tom you both blurted out "I'm sorry"

 "No no it was totally my fault I wasn't looking where I was going" you said eagerly.

 "It's okay" Tom said

 You purse your lips and smiled as you were about to turn to go to your room he spoke again

 "By the way Hi! meeting you after a long time."

 You sheepishly looked at him "yeah Hi"

"So how have you been?"

 You were a little taken aback by his warm gesture because he had almost stopped talking to you after the whole breakup "I'm fine, how are you?"

 "I'm fine too" . Tom was about to say something but you were interrupted by a loud shriek

 "Oh My God!!! I can't believe this Y/N Y/L/N" excitement in her voice. "I'm such a huge fan of yours." She pulled you in a tight hug you didn't get the time to process what was happening as you looked wide eyed first to Tom and then to the girl.

 "Oh sorry Hi I'm Eleanor you can call me El I'm Tom's fiance nice to meet you." Your eyes immediately went to the big shining rock adorning her ring finger. A tinge of jealousy creeping inside you.

 "Hey! nice to meet to you too"

 She turned towards Tom and asked "you guys know her ? Why didn't you ever tell me?"

Tom fumbled at his words "umm.. Yeah we have been together since childhood." He looked at you as he continued speaking "then she left and we lost touch" the last line was obviously directed to you.

 "Uh ah correction it was you who lost contact because I was always in touch with the boys. By the way where are they? Can't wait to meet them."

 "They will be here in any second I guess" El said

"I can't believe you know each other since childhood, he always says that he doesn't like your songs"

 "Oh does he?" you looked at him quirking your eyebrow

 "No I didn't say that I don't like her songs I just said it's not my type"

 "Yeah yeah I know you're an old grandpa you prefer old school stuff." you said sarcastically

 "You are coming to our wedding right?" El asked

 You looked at Tom "umm I don't think I'm invited besides I may not have time to attend it. When is it by the way?"

 "Next year in March"

 "Great!! Wish you both a happy married life."

 "Uh ah.. I'm not accepting your bland wishes. You are invited to our wedding and you have to sing at our reception."

 "I would love to honey maybe I'll compose something specially for you guys but I don't think your husband will like that as he hates my songs" you looked at Tom

"Oh leave Tom anyways he has given me all the responsibility of planning the wedding so you are coming and that's final."

 "Okay dear as you wish" you placed a hand on her cheek and smiled.

 " Let's take a selfie. I really want to capture this moment," El insisted. You stood in the middle one hand on Tom's shoulder and the other on El's. You all smiled as she clicked the picture.

 Suddenly there was a lot of noise of people laughing and shouting and you immediately ran down the stairs. There stood Harry, Sam, Paddy, Tuwaine in the middle of the living room. As they saw you they ran towards you and circled around you for a giant hug.

 "Hey!! Y/N missed you so much so happy to see you again"

 "Me too guys"

 "We are going to have lots of fun this time gonna do everything we used to do when we were kids." Paddy said beaming with joy.

 You smiled and you all hugged again. Your eyes went up the stairs to find Tom staring at you. You looked away as you started chatting with them. Jacob, Ed and Chloe also came in later.

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Zendaya and Harrison were sitting on the couch as you kept pacing the room

 "Seriously Y/N it isn't a big deal. It was just an accident stop stressing out about it."

 "It is serious for me Z . The first day on my trip I fell into my ex's arms and had a moment don't know about him but it was definitely a moment for me. And then there is his fiance who is such a sweet and humble person who doesn't have any clue of what relation I share with her husband.Why did I give into your plan God only knows uggh!!!" You sat between them on the couch holding your head. 

 Harrison wrapped his hands around your shoulders and tried to comfort you.

 "I know it's a bit weird for you to be around El due to your past with him but please for my sake try to tolerate just for 10 days."

 "You have vodka right?" you asked

 "Uh yeah why?" Haz looked at you confused

 "I'm exclusively reserving it for me because I'm gonna need it for the next 10 days if I have to stay here." You smirked

 "Tom, are we there yet can I open my eyes?"

"Patience love patience" Tom said, covering your eyes as he led you towards the beach.

It was your 16th birthday and your families had decided to celebrate on the beach house. Tom had told you that he has a surprise planned for you and you were growing impatient to know what it is. You both finally reached the spot Tom removed his hand from your eyes and you slowly opened your eyes as you saw the sea in front of you, waves thrashing on the shore. You looked around to see that he had decorated candles around you in the shape of a heart.

 "Seriously this is your surprise?" you asked him confused.

 "No love, the best part is yet to come."

He kneeled on his right leg as he took out a box from his pocket. He opened it to reveal a sparkling ring. He took it in his hand. He took your left hand and slid it in your ring finger and said

"Y/N Y/L/N will you be my girlfriend forever?

I liked you since childhood but didn't have the courage to say because I thought you were just a passing crush and you are my best friend and didn't want to ruin our friendship. But now I know that I feel happy when you are around, I like to spend time with you, that I love you. You don't have to say yes but I really wanted to say this to you.

 Your eyes were filled with tears, you bent down and kissed him to stop him from talking anymore .Tom gets a little shocked at your sudden act but then he kisses you back. You pull back after sometime as you cup his face with your hands.

"I liked you too Tommy and yes I will be your girlfriend for lifetime.

You looked at the ring to admire it.

"I know this isn't a real diamond because I can't afford a real one right now" Tom said scratching his head

"Your love is worth more than a thousand diamonds." you said as you kissed him again

 You were standing at the porch leaning on a pillar as you sipped into your cola can. You looked at the ring on your finger that Tom gave you. Out of habit you used to wear it everyday but now it's time to let go of it you thought.

 "So you finally had the courage to come here." Tom said grinning.

 What?! You frowned

 You previously thought maybe he's over it and now you two can be on good terms but you were wrong as here he is in front of you again being all cocky.

 "I mean after all these years you finally came here"

 "Firstly, this is my best friend's 30th birthday so couldn't afford to miss it. Secondly stop prioritizing yourself Tom, not everybody's lives revolve around you, not mine, at least" you scoffed

 "Yeah because your life's current priority is Alex right?"

 Was he jealous after he heard you talking to Alex you thought in your mind.

"What? Seriously Tom" you smiled and shook your head. He is my manager and he's like an elder brother, a mentor to me. Why even am I clarifying to you? You don't owe me anything so just leave if you don't have anything else to say."

 "I just came to say that stay away from El. She is my fiance."

 "Yeah I know she is your fiance you posted it on Instagram dufus. I even congratulated you and I had expected a thank you from your side but never mind. "

 It was three months ago you were at your LA residence enjoying an off day. You were scrolling through your Instagram. When you saw the post with the caption she said yes❤️💍. Even after your breakup you guys followed each other to avoid any kind of gossip by the tabloids. You both were very private person so you never went official with your relationship but there were rumours of you two being together which eventually died down. For the first few minutes you didn't know how to react to the whole thing. The life you once imagined for yourselves he is living it but you are no more in it. Your eyes welled up but you overcame your emotions and felt happy that at least one of you is finally going to be happy in life. You liked the picture and commented congratulations🎊❤️❤️❤️.

  "And I also know that she doesn't know about me. Why didn't you tell her about me? Scared of the feelings you still have for me huh?" You smirked

 "Just shut up Y/N. I hate you and that's never gonna change. And you are not gonna tell her anything okay!"

 "But I love you Tommy." You grinned

 Tom scoffed, rolling his eyes and frustrated he started to walk away.

 You called him back "Oi!! Don't worry I'm not gonna tell her anything but I'll still advise you to go and tell her. It will be better and less awkward if she gets to know it from you rather than from anyone else. Trust is the foundation of a relationship, don't break it."

 "Look who is talking about trust and relationships. It's our matter, we can handle it, don't need your advice."

 "Okay cool" you gave a thumbs up

 You really felt exhausted after the whole conversation putting up a no care attitude was really hard as you were totally bothered by the whole ordeal.

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 After you and Zendaya finished unpacking your stuff she was exhausted and so decided to get some rest. You on the other hand decided to go for a stroll near the cliff. It was one of your favorite places to go. That place gave you peace and tranquility. You slid your sling bag around your shoulder and put your lyrics notebook inside it. You used to always carry that everywhere whenever you get an idea you note it down in it. You walked along the seashore feeling the cool sea breeze all over your body. You reached the cliff and took a deep breath standing on the edge. You looked over the sea the sun was setting with a golden and orange hue spread across the horizon. It was enchanting. Suddenly some ideas started coming in your head so you took out your notebook and started scribbling on it.

 "What'cha writing?" You were startled by the question you looked back to see Tom climbing the cliff towards you

 "What came to push me down the cliff?" You asked sarcastically

 He rolled his eyes "no seriously what are you writing?"

 "It's none of your business "

 "Come on you can tell me about your new song"

 "I can but first tell me what happens in Avengers 5?"

 Tom shook his head and laughed

 "What?! I'm serious I really can't wait for the movie. Are you bringing back Tony Stark or not. I still cry watching endgame."

"Marvel still doesn't trust me so can't say" he laughed as he took a deep breath and said "I really like this place".

 "Yeah me too"

 "I'm really happy that you came Y/N everyone missed you for the past years"

"And what about you?"

 "Yeah I also did a little." You both smiled.

 You are still confused at what Tom is trying to do. A few moments ago he was being all so mean and rude to you that you were almost about to have a breakdown and now he is here telling you that he missed you. What game are you trying to play with my mind Holland you thought.

You were looking away as Tom stole a glance of you. He really felt guilty, he wanted to apologize for his behavior but showing his anger towards you he thought was the only way to stay far from you. He had a lot of things to say to you but didn't know how to say he missed the time when he could say you everything without any hesitation but now things seemed very complicated for both of you.

 "By the way you look beautiful with long hair. It suits you. "

 You felt a warmth rising in your cheeks as you blushed. You tucked in the stray hair strands flying in the sea breeze behind your ear.

"Umm thanks you look handsome too as always." You smiled awkwardly

 Both looked at each other for a moment then you broke the silence "umm okay then I think I should get going see you around"

 "Yeah sure" Tom nodded

 You turned to go as Tom called you "Y/N! I'm really happy for you. I really am."

 You turned and smiled softly "the feeling is mutual Holland".

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[mochikeiji]

Next Time

↠ Pairing: Bokuto Koutarou x Akaashi Keiji

↠ Warning: TimeSkip AU! Slight fluff, angts, mention of death, songfic! SuperMarket Flowers by Ed Sheeran

↬ Word Count: 1,284

↣ a/n: this was originally a Bokuto x Reader (╥_╥) but since I was tired I made just a few adjustments. I hope you all enjoy!!

Summary: Creating a world with the love fo your life was something only you two could see and share. Reality didn't matter as long as you had each other. It was only heart wrenching when that small world two lovers have created had dark sides unknowingly to the other.

⇢ Day 7: Hurt/Illness

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(Oh I'm in pieces, it's tearing me up, but I know

A heart that's broke is a heart that's been loved)

Bokuto loved two things equally. Akaashi, and volleyball.

Having a relationship with him from the beginning of highschool til the end was a roller coaster ride. There are times where Akaashi would shut himelf out, and he'd be having trouble trying to help him out. And there were times where he wouldn't be enthusiastic, and Akaashi finding a list of ways to pick himself up. Nevertheless, their relationship was envied by a lot. And it was the most wonderful he has ever experienced. Like many people, the both of them planned so much ahead of their future. Where will be they staying after graduating college. How many kids they would plan to adopt along with pets if he wanted. Mostly talk about careers and passion together late at night.

He'd always go on and on about pursuing volleyball. Right now he was currently teamed up with an old friend, Hinata in the Black Jackals. Akaashi was proud of the little boy now growing into a fine man. Most of all he was happy that Bokuto was doing something he loves for his life long ahead. He had everything any person would have dreamed of.

But all good things must come to an end.

"W-what?"

"I'm breaking up with you."

The both of them stood in front of their apartment door, Akaashi's bags, and belongings already delivered back to his parents house. It was only a matter of time before he leaves as well.

Bokuto's face fell at his tone. What had caused this?

His arms began tremble, hands grabbing his, "Keiji, baby. Please, I don't know what's happening." sobbing, he doesn't know what he did wrong.

But it was him. All Akaashi.

"I'm sorry, Bokuto. I have to leave." his heart cracked when he said his last name than his nickname. Just a day ago Akaashi was hugging him all day, tighter than usual. He kept whispering how much he loved him, how much he means the world to him How proud he is of him for everything he's done.

That was just a day ago.

Why now?

He couldn't let more words slip from his mouth as his sobbing takes over. He can already hear the sound of his parents car tuning their horn.

It was time for him to go.

He placed his hands on his head, giving him one final kiss on his forehead. His arms slipping to his side as he cherishes his warm kiss.

"I'm sorry."

His heart breaks when he rushed out of the now empty apartment with ghosting memories. He went down on his knees— he wanted to chase Akaashi, he wanted to pull him back and explain why. He wanted to. But he was in an emotional wreck and let's himself wallow in pain.

I wish I could tell you.

(I hope that I see the world as you did cause I know

A life with love is a life that's been lived)

Akaashi loved Bokuto more than anything. More than himself. He was his sun to his darkest days, he was his anchor that kept him grounded. He was his everything.

Ever since Akaashi has been going out with him, his world has been nothing more than a colorful, bright one. Everything he hears from him is like a love song he will never be tired of. Every moment with him was like a movie that never has an ending. A love life with him that made Akaashi live his own life to the fullest.

Bokuto loved that about him. Everytime he was with Akaashi, it's like his already colorful life has gotten brighter. Not the bright that hurts your eyes, but the breathless kind of bright. It's like, having all the stars twinkle in the sky, but he was looking looking at him who couldn't compare to any of those.

Akaashi only wished that the grey clouds in his world wasn't permanent.

He wished he had more time to shower him with everything he has. Spend more moments in this bright world he has shared with him. Watch him play passionately. He wanted to watch him win, see that handsome smile on his face whenever he's gotten a victory.

He wanted to have so much with him in the future.

If only he didn't run out of time.

(Hallelujah)

Bokuto screams in pain the day his parents had revealed to him the truth about his sudden disappearance. His mother hugged him like he was a son she wished he had, as his father held back his own tears for the lost of his precious son. Bokuto cried harder— he wanted to yell out why he didn't tell him that he was suffering in silence.

He wanted to hold Akaashi through everything he has been going through.

All he did was give him the best years of his life.

And all those years, he's never known he was running out of time, yet still gave him all.

The buzzer rings in his ears, "BOKUTO!" he hears Hinata yell, like a robot, without emotion. He moves in for the final blow. Scoring for his team. He doesn't cheer.

"Bokuto! You can do it!"

Akaashi's parents. His solemn face looks up to the sidelines, he sees the two couple cheering him with a sad smiles.

His breath hitching with his heart pounding.

(You were an angel in the shape of my mum)

He thought he had just spotted some random stranger beside them.

But it was him.

Akaashi was smiling at him, laughing. His hands clapping, he sees his mouth move.

"Hey hey hey!"

His lips sighing out, and then smiling at him.

"Hey."

(You got to see the person that I have become)

Bokuto was standing proudly next to his teammates, ready to bow for the support of the people. His eyes never left Akaashi.

He has kept his promise.

"I'll watch you until you've achieved on being the best Ace!"

He can almost hear his voice beside him. He can feel tears well up in his eyes when he sees his figure becoming blurry.

(Spread your wings, And I know )

Like an angel, he was glowing, small wings behind his back fluttering. He was the only one who can see Akaashi. Hinata, and Atsumu glanced at eachother as they followed Bokuto's eyes to where he was staring. They had to stay strong for him.

"Keiji."

He whispered his name. He doesn't want him to go. He wants him to keep watching him, wait until he gets up there, and hold him. Tell him how much he meant to him like he did for him.

But he knows he was running out of time. So he just stares, his tears falling. People thinking it was from happiness.

But it was for him, Akaashi Keiji.

(that when God took you back he said Hallelujah )

"I love you."

He can see how his lips moved in those three words he's memorized.

He can only just wish he'd spent more time with him, given him more appreciation, gifts, love. He wished he could've made him stay longer in the world they've both made.

"I'm always watching over you, Kou."

He smiles sadly, raising his fist in the air as he watches him slowly blur away.

"I love you, Keiji. In another life. I'll find you again, and I'll never let you suffer in silence."

and I'll marry you. I'll make these list of dreams come true again. I promise. I'll make you the happiest than cry in silence. I'll make you stay, forever in happiness.

(You're home)

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Bisexual women married to men face zero homophobia and get to experience 100% straight passing privilege. I really don't feel sorry for bi women who never got to "explore" their love for women in college or whatever. Lesbians don't have a choice, and many have decided to be alone because they can't deal with the hate and violence. Maybe if bi women would have more sympathy for lesbians there would be less distrust of bi women from them.

Anony, not to be rude here but this is ridiculous and also internally contradictory. Your basic four points are:1) “Bi people (Ed note: but hey, sure, it’s only women) who are married to men face zero homophobia” - I mean, lots and lots and LOTS of people who later came out as gay or lesbian were previously married to a member of the opposite sex and straight passing because of internalized homophobia amongst other things. Do you really think homophobia didn’t impact their lives? 

2) “I really don’t feel sorry for bi women who never [experimented’ in college].” First, you dislike bisexuals because we sleep with men and can be straight passing, implying bisexuals should be out in public and dating women to get to stay in the queer community’s big tent. And then immediately follow up by essentially saying that since bisexuals *can* be straight passing, that we should. Gay men and lesbian women did his for literally generations - marrying members of the opposite sex because they felt guilty, were forced to, or chose to, - but then many of them come out very late in life and sometimes end up destroying their entire relationship with their family. Knowing that, the fact that you seem to think that not acting on your sexual orientation will make it just poof goes away when you marry a member of the opposite sex.

3) “Lesbians don’t have a choice [etc]”: Anony, you keep seesawing between two arguments - that bi people don’t belong in the queer community bc we could “choose” to pass as straight...while then promptly stating, (correctly), that lesbians have no choice. You either believe one’s sexuality is an essential part of one’s being or you’re saying a bi person could just wake up and set it aside. 

[Ed. Note]: in the post that I’m sure you’re replying to, I *specifically stated* that being a straight-passing white woman made life in society substantially easier. I even bolded that part. But the cost of that is being willing to stay in the closet for the rest.of.your.life.] 

4) “ Lesbians...have decided to be alone because they can't deal with the hate and violence. Maybe if bi women would have more sympathy for lesbians there would be less distrust of bi women from them.”: So, the first sentence here is the peak of your cognitive dissonance in this ask. Because if you are invested in lesbians having a larger dating pool, then trying to fight the stigma against bisexual women in the lesbian community first/too; perhaps if we felt more welcomed, we’d feel more comfortable participating in and with the community, including dating women. [Ed. Note: Friendly reminder that this is basically precisely what my first post was about - that many lesbians refuse to date bi-women, creating a smaller dating universe for themselves while reminding bisexuals that we do not belong in the straight community but also aren’t accepted in the queer community either.] And that doesn’t even only apply to getting dates; larger groups have safety in numbers - ending some of the hate and violence you mention is by convincing people that there isn’t anything wrong with wlw. Logically then, it seems like it would be in the lesbian community’s best interest to try to associate bisexuals with them. But instead we are still stuck butting heads together about who gets to be what before we can stand up to that hate and violence you mentioned. Plus, not for nothing, I specifically stated in the post you’re probably talking about (I bolded it and everything) that I wasn’t comparing my experience AT ALL to the dangers/issues that non-straight passing people in the queer community. I’m not sure what you mean exactly about having more sympathy for lesbians even means in this case - does sympathy require that we don’t try to respond when people are attacking our sexual orientation? Do we only get to show it by sleeping or dating a certain number of women before we can date a man?5) “ Maybe if bi women would have more sympathy for lesbians there would be less distrust of bi women from them.” And here we meet the pinnacle of this post. So far you have wobbled between how bisexuals in relationships with men are choosing men and therefore not queer and that sexuality isn’t a choice...but that lesbians have no choice because their sexuality is valid while a bisexual isn’t.  You’re coming awfully close to the territory our parents and grandparents visit[ed] so often when they assume that a bisexual in a relationship with a member of the opposite sex ”makes you straight and cures your deviancy”. 

So before I go on, just a quick f*ck you because I have a large group of queer friends and an 18-year-old trans mentee. I’ve been mentoring him since he was eleven. I will not accept anything in this country for less than total legal and societal protections the queer community, especially for kids like my mentee because I want him to grow up in a better world than people my age (or my parent’s age) did.So next you demand that we show more sympathy for lesbians and I’m just not sure what you mean by that. Do we show sympathy by not dating women or by dating women? At this point, I really not entirely sure anymore. And I can’t speak to all bisexual women in the world, but its partially due to reactions precisely like this one that keeps us from coming out - especially coming out and dating women. I suppose if we do start dating women, that we could also show our sympathy by never again sleeping with a man because we are lesbians now, because god-forbid we get marked as distrustful because we dated a man after we dated a woman (basically the converse of dating a man making you straight but that dating women makes us lesbians). Are those the sympathies you’re looking for?TL;DR - I never said bisexuals weren’t able to be straight passing and that we don’t face the same risks, which is true. But not being welcome in either community leaves us in a permanent state of limbo bc living openly, which many of us can’t or won’t do, means getting comments like the ones in this reply and the OP; if this is the way you treat bisexuals, I’m honestly not surprised none of them have wanted to date you or stay for a long time because you sound absolutely delightful.