#don't perceive me i'm in my big sister feels tonight

[lale-txt]

˚₊·͟͟͞͞➳❥ older Miya sister who is the calm between two storms. who picks her brothers up from preschool because their mother is working double shifts at the hospital and their father fucked off shortly after the twins were born. who is there when they loose their baby teeth and puts rainbow bandaids on their bruised knees. who wakes up in the morning finding the two of them curled up next to her after another nightmare. who teaches them how to ride a bike and tie their shoes. who gets asked the "who is your favorite brother?" question a dozen times a day and ends every argument by peppering their chubby little cheeks with kisses till they forget what they argued about to begin with. who never has a hand free when they go outside because they insist on holding hers. who can tell from the sound of nee-san alone what kind of mood they're in. who always finds the right words as they grow older and their sorrows grow bigger, too. who is riddled with guilt and anxiety when she moves out to go after her dream, feeling like she's leaving them behind. who knows it was all worth it once she sees them chasing their own dreams, too. who now has to tip her head back when she wants to look them in the eyes and who still gets asked who her favorite brother is; and the answer is always both. i love you both so, so much.

[lunavadash-creates]

My speed with responding today is quicker than the speed of the light! I hope it will be a nice surprise for you and it will make you feel a little bit better! 💕 <sending you loads of hugs>

What do you mean she didn’t take it well? How is she perceived by the others? Do they think about her like you or she is masking herself too good to be perceived as fake and toxic by the others? I am happy that you decided to cut her off. It was a really good move. And I guess a very hard one. But it means that you started to think about your well being more seriously and you understood that you are worthy of a good and healthy relationship with others. I am proud of you! 💕

I’m.. good. I’m making a gift for my sister, because she has birthday tomorrow. And since I’m the greatest of all the procrastinators this world has seen, I guess I won’t be sleeping a lot tonight. I am taking two days off at work and I am taking my grandma for a trip. Nothing big, we are going to see her family which lives on the other side of the country. We haven’t seen each other for two years, so I am excited. I lived with them for nearly three years, so we grew really close to each other. My grandma’s cousin turned 72 a few years ago, but she looks like 60 at most and everyone thought she was my mom the time I’ve been living with her. And she always introduced me as her daughter. She is full of life and crazy, so I always have a fantastic time with her. She is like my third mom. Unfortunately she wants to make party and I just thinking of it made me have two anxiety attacks already. So I have just two days of work ahead. And so many things to do that I have to take extra hours and probably work at night. It will be a busy week!

Luna’s condition is a bit worse, but the vet told me that such setbacks can happen sometimes. But we had a lovely weekend together, so she is a happy doggo and the best girl!

I AM FREEZING.

Btw. I was reading about your OC Viola and right now when I write to you about my family.. I have a cousin who is called Viola. And she is drug addicted. I know you make your OC’s rather goodhearted, but I am wondering if you ever had an idea about creating an OC who is rather bad. I know that Ian is not that good, but you said he is more morally grey and it’s quite different.

🔪

I need hugs. And love. Desperately.

How was your sis birthday? Did you finish the gift? And how was party with Grandma? I hope you had lots of fun because you deserve it! I'm really happy you have such a close and unique relationship with your grandma 💜

I'm sorry about Luna. I hope she will be alright ;; I'm still so curious to see her one day!

Please don't freeze! Stay warm, drink tea, use a warm, fluffy blanket ;; and lots of hugs!

Tbh Ian is still a WIP so idk。 Maybe he will eventually turn bad? I'm not sure. Who knows. So many questions, so little answers :c

Also viola isn't really a sweet girl I think. And I'm sorry you have a cousin like this ;;

When it comes to ideas. Then yes. I generally have an OC that is truly evil. In all means evil. He wants power, doesn't hesitate to kill even his family. He thinks he was understimated and deserve much more so... Yeah. Evil bastard. But he is part of my original story, not ac related :c

How are you Knifey? Sorry for responding so late my social (being alive) batteries are really low rn

Ps. I didn't manage to find drink Olivia story. I really forgot about it 😂