#don't make it harder on me ⋮ with jinah

[salutarem]

⏤ don't make it harder on me

@magdvlene | in the end, jihoon always finds himself coming back to her.

or at least, that's what he concludes when his eyes fall upon her after over a year since their separation. he doesn't think of himself as particularly religious, not the type to think there is a plan that everyone needs to follow, but he's open to believing that things do happen for a reason, falls into place a certain way.

he also isn't a familiar face within the club scene, feeling stilted amongst the obscure lighting and hedonistic proclivities. but what coaxes him is the potential building of camaraderie with his fellow models, an invitation that extends to him after a shoot wraps up for the day. fifteen minutes after their entrance and already halfway down his manhattan, jihoon still feels like a fish out of water, hesitant of what to do or how to even appear natural in this environment; something that he's chided about from his peers but ends up laughing off. it's about an hour in that his eyes pick up on the sight of jinah ⏤ not only him, but his peers and probably half of the patrons of the establishment as well. it's obvious to almost everyone that she's strung out, the echoes of an argument intermingling within the reverberations of music. however, the man she's being reckless with is almost twice her size, and the sight of that alone has his spine straightening in his seat, gaze direct at the altercation but not moving. not just yet. with the expiration of their relationship jihoon isn't sure if his presence would only engender a worse outcome than what's transpiring at the moment. the friend next to him says some smart comment that doesn't even make it to his ears, falling to the wayside.

when things seem to escalate to the point that the burly men in black start making their way over, he finds himself almost springing over without a second thought; elongated legs allowing him to stride over in hopes of turning down the temperature and taking her away from the commotion. and it's only whenever he comes into full view of jinah that his breath hitches, that same constriction within his lungs that he used to sustain when she would show up to dates or important in the same state, especially after she would state that it was the last time. it's also that same idea of it's a disease that reiterates within his mind that, something that also gives him a sense of tunnel vision, doesn't allow him to give up on her, always kept him coming back. it's what courses through him as he wedges his way between the men and jinah, energizing him enough to enunciate back the fuck up and what the hell is wrong with you? at the man bucking up to a small woman, and assuring the bouncers that she's going to leave. it's then that he turns to his ex-girlfriend, an ambivalent grin blooming upon his features as he takes her by the wrist, leading her away for a bit, "jinah, hey," tone tender as it was a year ago, "this is a lot, let me take you home. can you make it to the car or should i carry you?" he questions, hoping that she will acquiesce his request just this once. he swallows, bending at the waist to level with her as he drinks in every feature, heart drooping at the sight, "let me help you. you don't have to see me again after this if you want."

[creambunnie]

Jaemin - 2 Lives

chapters : masterlist , 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 ..

8 ;

a few weeks after making up with Jaemin, y/n and Jaemin decided to put a pause on their tutoring sessions to focus on their club performance.

only two groups will be chosen to perform at the school event anyways, so it was understandable that they wanted to do their best during the audition .

y/n and her boyfriend/partner, Seungmin, had already chosen a song to perform. it was 'For Now' originally by Kwon Jinah and Sam Kim .

it was a soothing and calm song with strong vocals. just about right for the couple. the two of them even planned to play the guitar together like how the artists did.

they thougt it would be a great experience for the audience to listen to a totally live performance.

y/n wouldn't say that their practice sessions were very enjoyable but she understood that they had to be serious to be given the opportunity to showcase their talent.

Jaemin on the other hand and his partner, Haechan, were still searching for the perfect song. they were still experimenting some songs and rearranging them to suit their style.

in contrast of their simple personalities, choosing a song was actually hard for the bestfriends.

it was a weekend, y/n and Seungmin decided to rehearse for a bit at Seungmin's place in the morning as the both of them had their own plans in the afternoon.

practise was unfortunately awful. it didn't really end well. it kind of ruined y/n's mood for the whole day.

y/n was sitting in front of her mirror, trying to find a way to conceal her swollen eyes. her usual light make up can't cover up her red eye bags and she was not in the mood to apply thick make up.

after contemplating for a few minutes, y/n decided to just go with her usual style, ignoring her uneven eyes.

she was meeting up with Jeno in an hour and she knew if she was to stare at her pale face for a few more minutes, she would be late for their plan.

Jeno was at the cafe they decided to meet at with Jaemin. it was supposed to be Jeno and y/n only but Jaemin was nearby so Jeno asked him to join too.

the two boys already ordered some drinks for the three of them as y/n was a bit late, just like she predicted. she did text Jeno to inform about her being late.

after a few minutes of waiting, Jaemin immediately sat up when he saw y/n entering the cafe.

Jaemin didn't know why but when he saw her tired face as she walked towards their table, he quickly stood up and went to y/n.

Jeno raised an eyebrow at his cousin's actions and just smirked. *oh how obvious, Jaemin.* .

"hey y/n, are you feeling okay?". Jaemin asked worriedly as he welcomed her with a carress on her arm.

y/n patted his hand back and smiled tiredly. "i'm just a bit worn out...". she replied weakly.

Jaemin frowned and quickly led her to her seat.

"you just finished rehearsing with Seungmin right? did anything happen?". Jeno asked straightforwardly.

knowing the boy from little, Jeno was aware of Seungmin's demanding attitude . a toxic trait of his.

y/n really didn't want to talk about it but she broke down right after Jeno asked. Jaemin panicked as her tears flowed non-stop.

Jaemin who was initially sitting opposite of y/n quickly sat on the empty seat next to her and wrapped his arm around her shoulders to comfort her.

"you can tell us anything y/n.. we are here for you.". Jaemin said softly as he carressed her arm. Jeno nodded, agreeing with his cousin. he was glad they picked a table at the corner.

y/n sniffed before starting her explanation.

" i don't know what is wrong with Seungmin. he has been cranky these past few days during practice , especially after Mark told the music club that companies representatives might be at the school event for scouting.

i understand that he wants everything to be perfect. i know he wants to be picked to perform, to have the opportunity to showcase his talents. a chance to be scouted and reach his dreams of being a singer...".

y/n sniffed again as she paused. Jeno passed her a napkin to blow her nose. y/n took a deep breath before continuing.

"i understand all of that but... he didn't have to hurt my feelings just because he wants to achieve his goals. maybe i'm just a bit sensitive but it hurt me when he started criticising my vocals and say hurtful words to me while raising his voice at me.

he told me that my vocals just won't reach his standard. and that if only he didn't have feelings for me, he would've chosen another partner. a partner that could bring him to his goals.". y/n broke down harder after that.

Jaemin's hands curled into fists as he heard the whole bullshit y/n had to go through. Jeno only managed to sigh and massage his forehead.

"Seungmin you shithead. why are you like this.". Jeno mumbled under his breath before facing y/n, whose face was now buried into Jaemin's shoulder. Jaemin side-hugged her as he continued carressing her back to console her.

"i-i'm try--ying. i-i'm trying my be-best.". y/n mumbled in the middle of hiccups.

Jeno sighed and raked his brain to help his bestfriends. he didn't like it when friendships are broken in order for one to reach success. Jeno hated that.

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a/n : ik ik , today's update is a bittttt late. it's cos i was kind of busy (being a lazybum). but hope you guys enjoyed the angst! ik it kind of escalated quickly but that's life ! anw, stay healthy everyone!