#don't have a costume bc i don't have plans + i'm busy w work + busy gETTING A KITTY WITHIN THE NEXT FEW DAYS

[softgothbabe]

"What are you gonna be for Halloween?"

Idk probably annoying

[anxietywriter]

A Bucket List

The wishes of a mentally unstable high school senior (for non-Americans that's like 17/18, before college). I added commentary and swearing to my list so hope you're ok with that. There's some references to mental illness in there and mentions of family drama so consider that before continuing.

Have a picnic with friends

Own a pet (probably a cat first but i do want like a dog or two later in life)

Get diagnosed (a fuck you to my parents)

Go to therapy (kind of goes with the other one but still)

Cook a dish that I have saved in a youtube playlist

Get my first paycheck (I don't work currently but I expect to in college)

Buy a bike? (Depends if my campus will let me use it to go to lectures, also I hate driving with a fiery passion atm)

Buy a bubble machine

Join a club in college

Start my webcomic (I've been thinking about it for a while and am planning to post it under a different alias and like I've outlined some scenes but I need fuckin PLOT)

Start doing art stuff on the side like commissions!!

Start a workout routine or something to get healthier

Make those diy hoodies that I've been thinking about

Buy a bunch of jewelry, like those mystery boxes with just a mess of jewelry in them

Smol tattoo? (maybe i'll start out w something temporary and see if i like it)

Finish my little clay statues (i need to finish painting a c!George from dsmp one and finish sculpting a monty mole one. don't ask)

Be more comfortable w myself

Make a shadow box/book nook cuz they look cool

Get a messenger bag and one of those tiny bags

Buy a pronoun pin and an ace pride pin also maybe a mini ace flag that'd be cool

Get into cosplay (it's like halloween, but like you can do it whenever you want and don't have to be anxious abt people knowing what your costume is)

Read all the books that I bought

continue watching Loki

i saw this on teacher tiktok but like a bubble gum machine with clear capsules (it looks super cool and i wanna fill the capsules with all sorts of trinkets)

I want to try the small business thing. a lot, it would go hand in hand with a lot of the art stuff that i want to do

be more honest with others (bc i'm too fucking scared all the time)

stick a bunch of patches on a jacket/hoodie

buy boots (idk why but i had a pair of heeled black boots that just fucking disappeared AND a pair of heeled black ankle boots that ALSO went missing)

Learn another language (idk if i want to reconnect with my parent's language or not lots of disconnect rn,,, bad feels big sad)

MAKE A FLOWER CROWN BC THEY LOOK CUTE OKKK

vibe to mixed playlist with a friend

gosh i keep seeing it on tiktok but like drawing where we switch sketchbooks/canvases every like 5 minutes i want to do that

play on a minecraft server with friends (it's fun to play with a bunch of ppl but idk if they'd be down for that)

Figure out who I want to keep and cut from my life (i have a lot of ppl i plan to keep but i struggle cutting them off when ik they're toxic for me)

get a drawing tablet or a pad bc i will go mental if i keep having to work with my mobile (it keeps fucking crashing like bitch i just want awesome resolution)

buy grocery store sushi like the heathen i am and eat it with ramune (again)

fall in love

get more plain long sleeve shirts bc i keep trying to see what long sleeves i can wear under my short sleeves and i literally have nothing

on a similar vein, buy fake collars or get more collared shirts to pair with my graphic tees

get a pleated skirt bc i want it (and i mean fully pleated bc i have a half pleated skirt which looks hella cute btw but i would like to see one fully pleated)

go to college and realize that my fears of not fitting in or not being good enough were silly

again, similar vein, get my bachelor's like a;lsdkf

try out a rage room

try out an escape room (with friends)

make my own custom tarot cards (tarot admittedly isn't something i'm super into, but i do want to try my hand at making them and having the same meaning. maybe give them to a friend?? maybe)

finish off my portfolio for college (yikes i should've done that earlier)

finish the financial aid form (also should've done that earlier, i've been putting it off)

finish AT LEAST 2 of my 20 something unfinished works (because i got a massive flood of ideas and they're all awesome)

figure out what i want to keep for college and what to leave (i def can't bring everything, so i'll have to pick out my favorite plushies, art works/works in general, books, art supplies, and misc.)

tell my parents what college i want to go to + advantages & disadvantages (for some reason they just... never talk to me about college. like they harassed my brother about it 24/7 when he was a senior but like... i don't think my parents even know what i want to major in)

maybe (strong maybe) also tell my parents about the deposit fee (my brother went to community so they didn't have to pay deposit and my parents know nothing about college so :p)

win at least one (1) scholarship from a scholarship site (i haven't yet but i will! I WILL! THERE'S ONLY SO MANY TIMES I CAN LOSE)

be able to make my next bucket list shorter, because i've already done what i figure would make me a little happier