#don't be such a queuewolf

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If anyone has texted me , I’m sorry but because of my finances it looks like my phone was shut off for a bit until I gather a little more money. 

This is going on my queue because I’m actually taking a break from some things. I’m kind of stressed, really feeling worn out and probably shouldn’t interact much lately.

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I’m so tired of trying . Because I’m just exhausted.  Of faking being excited for plans people think I should do versus the things I actually want to do and I have to beg or do things alone. 

I’m just done being so outgoing lately, it makes me feel more alone and I’m not feeling like I’m wanted or needed.  I feel so stupid, and I don’t want to plan anything with anyone. 

I don’t want to watch things..or get involved in groups. 

Because when I suggest something, or get excited about something people don’t join in it feels like. And I’m not very good with words so I’m sure they’re sick of me. 

Because I am so sick of me and this constant downward spiral I’m on . I don’t like going off about things I’m excited about or passionate about anymore. Because it doesn’t matter to anyone else. 

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Whelp off to le hospital I go for most do this week and probably next . It’s -13 out and I wanna cry