#don't be afraid nonnie maddie will be fine

[ellelans]

Hi, I know this is so random but your thoughts are much appreciated. I think Maddie is depressed after having the baby and having second thoughts. What do you think is gonna happen with her? The synopsis for the next ep said she will make a big decision... I'm afraid...

I very much agree with you nonnie-I do believe Maddie is dealing with postpartum depression and its heartbreaking to see her like that.I don't know if you saw some of my tags,but I have personal experience with PPD as I know several women who went through it including one of my best friends after she had her oldest daughter.Her case was pretty severe so it kinda hits home a bit.Anyways back to Maddie-does she have second thoughts?Not about having a child imo,but I am sure she is struggling with fears and self-worth issues on top of being absolutely exhausted both physically and mentally.And rn she is still probably thinking that its all fine and she just needs Jee to stop crying so she can rest a bit and also trying to handle it on her own.Chim already noticed that something is going on with her and we will see more of that next week.

Maddie's big decision should be seeking professional medical help asap and imo that is exactly what will happen on the show.911 is excellent when it comes to showing rl solutions to problems and they are big fans of therapy so I won't be surprised to see Maddie in group therapy,for example.I am sure she will be fine,she went through so much in her life and she made it through and now Maddie has a loving partner who will do anything to help her-Chim will be there for her while she is getting better.

[stagefoureddiediaz]

I think eddie will discussed the shooting probably with leaving chris as one of fears in therapy but I dont know he and buck will yet or they're gonna keep ignoring, because I think buck has kinda just pushed it away(like he has maddie/chimn leaving). Eddie doesn talk about so he doesn't, buck hiding true feelings alot this season. Almost ignoring things hoping theyll go make to normal if he acts normal.

Hey Nonnie

The thing with Eddie discussing any aspect of the shooting in any depth other than mentioning it is that it will mean he gets pushed to talk about it more, so I think (at least for a bit) he's going to push to not talk about it other than to say its made his 'kid afraid he's going to lose another parent.' We also don't know if Eddie has gone to therapy willingly or if its department mandated - possibly as a part of his transfer to dispatch, or because something happens that means he's required to go to it and that will play a part in how his therapy unfolds!

The Buck hiding his true feelings from others line from the beginning of season 4 is really playing a blinder so far - we have literally no idea what Buck is thinking and feeling about so much because he's always been so good at playing the part of being someone who shares everything but in reality sharing nothing - Maddie summed it up pretty well when she said that she thinks he's better at seeming fine than people think in 4x04. its a self preservation tactic and Buck is definitely taking his cues from those around him - Eddie in not talking about the shooting, it why he trusted Maddie when she asked him not to tell Chim that she'd been in touch after leaving and why he was prepared to let his relationship just end when Taylor was being evasive. I

think Maddie's return and making up with Chim is going to be really important for Buck - he can't address everything else thats going on while that is hanging over him - he's clinging to Taylor because he's feeling like he doesn't have any family right now and so until they are back in his life he is literally blocked from dealing with anything else because she is the one who has always supported him, believed in him and encouraged him to be more and better (even when she wasn't physically in his life - the postcards he sent were all about him trying to show her he was trying to find his way to being somebody and something worthwhile)

We did see him push Eddie - but it was during the Blackout - at a time when he still had Maddie and Chim and when Eddie wasn't as distant as we saw him increasingly become throughout 5a (the fact he chose to talk to Carla rather than Buck is so important in this - yes she is Chris's caregiver, but Buck is the guy he put in the will, the co-parent who has a really strong fatherlike bond wit hChris and might have some insight into how Chris is feeling because Chris open up to him).

I think thinks will develop for Buck pretty quickly once he is able to set himself on the right path - I think we'll see him leave Taylor, head back to therapy and double down on Chris and Eddie - he will show them they have his support and that he is there for them beyond that - I even think he will start to push Eddie again - whether thats to talk about the shooting and the will remains to be seen, but I can definitely see him pushing him in other ways especially if its in support of Chris and I can't wait1

Sorry this got a bit rambly and long 😂💜💜💜