#doesn't stop me from feeling frothing jealousy and pitted emptiness when i see girls go through a 2 year tf sequence in front of my eyes | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

janederscore · 16 days ago

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*voice of the complainer* not to be that bitch but its exceptionally hard not to feel alienated constantly by internet-centric trans culture, in particular bc the loudest voices in the room typically have the easiest access to life-changing medical care. like i dunno its just all pretty bleak and depressing when you're getting close to the two decade mark of being out and only having been able to scrape together hrt for a couple of short periods ever

#.jtxt #sort of small potatoes in the grand scale of things obviously but i get to complain in my little hovel if i want #and of course the caveat exists that even i speak from a place of unbelievable privilege to have ever gotten to take any hormones at all #doesn't stop me from feeling frothing jealousy and pitted emptiness when i see girls go through a 2 year tf sequence in front of my eyes #not the healthiest way of processing that obviously. but the feelings persist nonetheless #its all just a bit rough when you watch yourself aging in the mirror in increasingly unflattering/uncomfortable ways #knowing full well that many of those features now carved in stone didnt have to be there #alas. such is life

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