#do they genuinely not get on or is this Lucy's internalized misogyny at play again

[clonerightsagenda]

Lockwood: My beloved sister died several years ago which has haunted me ever since and provides my primary motivation as well as feeding my obvious death wish.

Lucy, who has 6 living sisters she just doesn't talk to: Bummer.

[petrichorbeach]

Nov. 13-14 

Trip to Eugene, OR. to see Hayley Heynderickx open for Lucy Dacus at the McDonald Theatre. 

Hayley Heynderickx may be one of the best openers I’ve seen - her completely solo act was funny and the music was warm. 

The crowd was high energy through both acts, which got frustrating toward the end of Lucy Dacus’ set because of the heckling. “Play this! Play this! Come on I came all this way!”

Lucy leans into the mic, “How about... I play what I originally wanted to play.” 

Hayley talks about connecting with her femininity - she writes down her dreams, she gardens, she worships her mother. I wish I had grown up with an appreciation for womanhood - my own mothers internalized misogyny I now realize wrecked any chance at a foundation for that, so I must build it up now. I wish I knew how. 

Lucy plays her own childhood home videos in the background of her set, and the lighting matches up with the theme. Discs spin behind the band as though reeling through tapes. 

Both worthwhile acts to see live - especially Hayley, who’s acoustic solo and spoken word kept the audience engaged and wanting more. I bought a sweater from Lucy, one of each of her albums to date; a tote bag from Hayley, and a CD of her only album so far, “I Need to Start a Garden.” I really hope she comes back to release more soon. 

The next morning, we went to Tailored Coffee Roasters for breakfast. We both got their avocado toast, then a hot ube latte for her and an iced hibiscus soda for me. 

Genuinely, best avocado toast I’ve had - it was simple but flavorful, I wish I’d gotten a photo. It had lemon juice, salt, pepper, tomatoes, didn’t skimp on the avocado at all, and on two slices of thick sourdough bread. 

The soda I got was, just ok. Really pretty color, just not into the flavor. Hibiscus is one flower flavor that is just hit or miss for me. The hot ube latte, however, was so good and subtly sweet. I ordered an iced one to go, added some cane syrup to it, and then we were on the road home. 

I decided that since we left so early, we had time to drive up the coast back home. I’m glad I did, just to see if I could do a drive so long, but I won’t do it again if it isn’t a must for the trip. 

That being said, we drove through numerous towns up the Oregon coast, on many winding cliffsides overlooking the crashing waves, This day was exceptionally cold and windy, and the water was a beautiful green and stark white. 

Eugene remains a favorite of mine to visit. We stayed in a very cute and charming little inn, which I cannot remember the name of. The rooms were named after classical musicians. 

The charm of Eugene for me lies in the walkable downtown, and the college town energy that it plays into - fills me with regret for not going anywhere myself, a nostalgia for an experience I didn’t get to have. 

But it’s a pleasure to pass through. 

[jt--snow]

Reblog that ask thing I did and answer all the questions you want (or just all of them idgaf)

Kenzie you doll, baiting my narcissism like this. (also loooong ass post)

2. what would you name your future kids? 

I have a few names picked out. Larry James, Kathryn Rosemary, Donald Daniel 

3. do you miss anyone?

Hell yeah I do and here are their initials: A.T., G.B., C.F., .O.C., M.S.

4. what are you looking forward to?

Going back to school, genuinely enjoying life again.

5. is there anyone who can always make you smile?

No. Sometimes the world is just so fucking cold for me that even the funniest people fail there.

6. is it hard for you to get over someone?

I spent six years of my life pining after a girl who was (and still is) in a serious relationship even though we never dated. Oh, and it took the better part of a year and a health scare to get me over my ex-girlfriend who I dated for all of two weeks.

7. what was your life like last year?

Say it with me kids: SHITTY SHITTY FUCK FUCK.

8. have you ever cried because you were so annoyed?

No but I did punch a concrete wall.

9. who did you last see in person?

Mi madre, my step padre.

10. are you good at hiding your feelings?

Apparently not good at all, especially when it comes to crushes.

11. are you listening to music right now?

I’m listening to this dope audiobook of the Call of Cthulhu.

12. what is something you want right now?

To have enough money so I can pay off my stupid tuition so I can apply for a university transfer.

13. how do you feel right now?

Ambivalent. 

14. when was the last time someone of the opposite sex hugged you?

A few weeks ago, when me and Kenzie saw a play together.

15. personality description

Excruciatingly boring when not completely insufferable. Whiny, hotheaded, anxious, melancholic, stubborn, eldritch abomination, too straight for my own good.

16. have you ever wanted to tell someone something but you didn’t?

That seems to be a recurring theme in my life, but the someone’s life is absolutely not affected by it.

17. opinion on insecurities.

They are, essentially, all that I am.

18. do you miss how things were a year ago?

I miss feeling like my life was actually progressing. Also Game of Thrones was on and it was dope.

19. have you ever been to New York?

I have, a long time ago. I’d like to go back, definitely.

20. what is your favourite song at the moment?

Dan Bilzerian by T-Pain (feat. guy my fucking age who is famous and making art for a living). Shit’s dope.

21. age and birthday?

20, March 29th.

22. description of crush.

I don’t really have one at the moment.

23. fear(s)

Small spaces, the complete and utter pointless of humankind, not becoming successful or published and living a pathetically small life (which I suppose is a form of existential claustrophobia)

24. height

5″9? 5″8? 5″10? The results are never consistent, so I claim 5″9 as a compromise.

25. role model

Never really had one, just did shit on my own.

26. idol(s)

George R.R. Martin, Charles Schulz, Wes Anderson, Quentin Tarantino, Bill Watterson, Hideo Kojima

27. things i hate

Myself, poverty, war, Nazis, terfs, anybody in general who spreads hate and pain willingly and consistently, abusive partners and parents, the economic gap, racists, xenophobes, stupid people, small talk, not being able to write for a living, my internalized misogyny and racism, the nuclear capabilities of Metal Gear

28. i’ll love you if…

You read my work, and I’ll love love LOVE it if you provide constructive feedback.

29. favourite film(s)

Pulp Fiction, Inglourious Basterds, The Grand Budapest Hotel, Casablanca, Citizen Kane, Breakfast at Tiffany’s, Annie Hall, Pan’s Labyrinth, 500 Days of Summer

30. favourite tv show(s)

Game of Thrones, Arrested Development, Scrubs

32. are your friends mainly girls or guys?

I’m friends with exactly one guy and two and a half girls.

33. something you want to learn

I’m teaching myself French at the moment.

35. favourite subject

I like learning about languages, English literature, and film, but the world of academia makes them all boring as shit.

36. 3 dreams you want to fulfill?

1. Be a professional writer 2. Live in Europe 3. Buy my mom a beach house

37. favourite actor/actress

I get really excited when John C. Reilly and Paul Giamatti are in stuff. Same for Greta Gerwig and Sophie Turner.

38. favourite comedian(s)

Louis C.K., John Mulaney, Brian Regan, Mike Birbiglia, Bo Burnham, Wyatt Cenac

39. favourite sport(s)

Swimming, baseball

41. relationship status

Single and loving/hating it.

42. favourite book(s)

A Song of Ice and Fire, The Great Gatsby, The Sun Also Rises, The Amazing Adventures of Kavalier and Clay 

43. favourite song ever

It’ll probably change later, but The Man Who Sold the World by David Bowie is really fucking resonating with me right now.

45. how you found out about your idol

My best friend from high school recommended A Song of Ice and Fire to me, and after realizing I’d have to get HBO to watch the show, I settled for the books and my life was genuinely and irreversibly changed.

47. turn ons

Big eyes, round faces, rosy cheeks, ambition, autonomy, independence, being down-to-earth, lower, huskier voices (all regarding women)

48. turn offs

Piercings (really anywhere besides lower earlobe and I find myself not really like that all the time either), stupidity, ignorance, being manipulative, poor communication, having a general lack of empathy (Autistic folks are exempt from this one)

49. where i want to be right now

California

50. favourite picture of your idol

51. starsign

Aries with the traditional zodiac, Pisces with the one with 13 signs. 

52. something i’m talented at

Lol literally nothing

53. 5 things that make me happy

1. Game of Thrones/A Song of Ice and Fire 2. Being alone in nature 3. Feeling like my writing is getting somewhere and is not complete shit, 4. Animals (cats and dogs usually) 5. Lol tricked you that’s it

54. something thats worrying me at the moment

Everything associated with my job. Also having to mow the lawn tomorrow morning

55. tumblr friends

@classychris (Chris), @katischuo (Kenzie), @onthefrits (Kalie). I love every one of my followers but these are my homeboys who I crack cold ones with. (And @blackcatsandbootycalls (Dana)!)

56. favourite food(s)

Spaghetti with meat sauce, the Jucy Lucy, doughnuts, Chex Mix, watermelon, yogurt-covered pretzels, oatmeal cookies, banana bread

57. favourite animal(s)

Dogs, cats, wolves, turtles (tortoises), penguins, horses

58. description of my best friend

1. short, kind, gentle, wise 2. unbelievably intelligent, genuine, cute 3. funny, friendly, jolly

60. ask me anything you want

Do it, cowards.