#do NOT argue with a political science major on human morality they will piss you the fuck off

[ryukoishida]

TGCF/HOB Quiz: Which martial art god are you most similar to?

Want to know which martial art god you are most similar to? Complete the questionnaire and calculate your total points according to the following system:

A - 1 point B - 2 points C - 3 points D - 4 points E - 5 points

Specific range of points will correspond to each of the seven martial god!

*Side note: To celebrate the release of the TGCF donghua, I’ll be posting tid-bits of some writing I was doing for a fashion-themed fanzine that never came to be. I forgot they existed in my GoogleDrive but now that I DO remember, I figure I might as well share the silly fun! 

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Why are you doing this quiz? A. I’m genuinely curious. B. Bored as heck. C. None of your damn business!

If you can choose to excel at one type of weapon, what would it be? A. My fists B. Swords C. Archery D. This is too violent. Can we not resolve problems in a more peaceful manner?

On a day with free time in your hands, what are you most likely to be doing? A. Laze around at home. B. Do chores. C. Hang out with friends. D. Go on a date. E. Catch up on work. There’s never enough time and there’s always so much work.

You have a crush on someone. What is your next step of action? A. Wait. This doki-doki feeling… this is love?! B. Hide your feelings as best as you could. C. Flirt with them. D. Observe that person some more first, before taking further action. E. I don’t have crushes. Romance is for the weak!

You run into two groups of people who are arguing heatedly, you will… A. Walk away. It’s none of your business. B. Get in between them and try to convince both parties to calm down. C. Take the side of the group that you agree with, and join in the argument. D. Instigate from the sidelines until a fight breaks out.

You get rudely cut off while driving on a highway, you will… A. Swear a storm but still drive safely. B. Drive as usual. It’s fine. At least nobody’s hurt. C. Chase that car down and honk at them while rolling the windows down to shout profanities.

What’s the type of fashion you enjoy wearing? A. No one can label my style! I wear what I want! I am my own style! B. Meh. Does it even matter? C. Simple and comfortable. D. Mature and professional. E. Cool and sophisticated.

Your friend is 30 minutes late for an outing, and you haven’t heard a peep from them. Your first reaction is… A. Wait another 15 minutes to see if they’ll show up. B.Text or phone them to lecture them because you’re annoyed. C. Text or phone them because you’re worried. D. Leave without notifying them.

What would you do if someone criticizes your cooking? A. Tch. You just don’t appreciate my ‘special’ talents, that’s all. B. Ask for constructive criticism, and try again. C. Upset by it. Probably won’t try again. D. **** you! I spent a lot of time making these dishes. You better finish them all!

How do you feel about doing chores? A. I won’t do them until it gets filthy enough that I have no choice but to do them. B. It’s a necessity. I’ll do it. C. It gives me a sense of calm and comfort afterwards. D. I-is that a broom I see?! [breaks it in half]

You see someone injured on the side of the road, you will… A. Stop and help them out as best as you can. B. Call emergency and let them handle it. C. Eh, somebody will probably come along and help them. I’m not needed here. D. Walk away without a second glance.

Which of the following best describes you? A. Depends on the situation. B. Follower. C. Leader.

When you meet someone for the first time, you… A. Avoid eye contact at all costs. B. Hope they’ll talk to you first because you’re too awkward. C. Compliment them to make a good first impression. D. Immediately start a conversation with them. It’s always nice to make new friends.

If you are going to pray in a temple, what would you pray for? A. Finding true love. B. World peace. C. Financial success. D. Success in career. E. I only believe in myself!

What is/was your best subject in school? A. Art/Music B. Language/Literature/Humanities C. Math/Sciences D. Physical Education E. How dare you underestimate me!? I’m a straight A student!

You’re running late for an important event, you… A. Eh, they can go on without me. It’s fine. B. Call to let someone know you’ll be late. C. Panick! D. I’m never late. Are you kidding me?

There’s only a three-day-old mantou at home for dinner, you… A. Eat it cold. I’m starving! B. Eat it with some questionable condiments you find in the fridge. C. Heat it up and eat it. D. Give up and go out to buy actual food. E. Give up and call up your friends, hoping they will pay for dinner.

Do you feel insecure? A. Sometimes. B. Always. C. Why should I?

What is the most important thing to you when looking for a romantic partner? A. Loyalty B. Appearance C. Kindness D. Social / financial status

When you catch someone in your class cheating during a test, you… A. Leave it be. B. Privately talk to that classmate about it. Maybe they have a reason for doing it? C. Immediately notify the teacher. It’s just not right!

Which direction do you feel brings you the most luck? A. West B. East C. North D. South E. I don’t care. I make my own luck.

What kind of genre do you enjoy reading? A. Comic books B. Trashy novels C. Hardcore literature D. Magazines E. Newspaper

What’s your favourite colour? A. Purple B. Blue C. Green D. Black E. Red

Which of the following do you enjoy more? A. Spending time by yourself. B. Hanging out with a group of friends. C. You enjoy both equally.

You find out someone has been talking trash about you behind your back, you… A. Confront them face to face. B. Forgive and forget. C. Curse them with a voodoo doll. D. Hide your anger for now, and plan your vengeance at a better time.

Which of the following animals best describe your personality? A. Bird B. Dog C. Butterfly D. Bear E. Lion

How do you want to impact the world? A. Too much responsibility. No thanks. B. Invent something. C. Doing good for society. D. Bringing justice. E. Building an empire.

How quickly will you respond to a text message? A. Immediately. B. You keep thinking you’ll reply later. And then you forget. C. Too busy. You’ll get back to them when you have time.

On your social media, you’ll most likely post… A. I don’t use social media. B. Photos of yourself. C. Memes D. Photos of everything and anything except yourself E. Personal thoughts and opinions

What is your favourite amusement park ride? A. Bumper cars B. Ferris wheel C. Carousel D. Rollercoaster E. Amusement park is for kids. I’m too mature for this.

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RESULTS:

[1] Quan YiZhen (30 to 43) Content to be left alone most of the time and inclined to do things at your own pace, you are most like the young, curly-haired martial god of the west, Quan YiZhen. Though you might be seen as immature and spoiled at first glance, with your occasional bursts of temper, a tendency to stay in your own lane and averse to interacting with others, and a wild streak to your personality, you are also well-liked by friends for your genuine, straightforward attitude, as well as your utter devotion to the people and things that you care deeply about. You keep being your awesome self, but don’t forget to connect with those around you once in awhile too!

[2] Lang QianQiu (44 to 57) With your heart filled with idealistic and noble intents, you are most similar to the martial god of the east, Lang QianQiu. While some may value your honorable virtues as assets and a positive personality trait, others find that your strict and rigid view of the world as only black and white somewhat troubling, too naive, and simplistic. Your reluctance to let go of grudges might be holding you back from growing as a person and amending important relationships. While it’s great to have ideals that drive your life, remember that the world and the people around you are not that clear-cut!

[3] Xie Lian (58 to 72) Kind, gentle, and always put utmost effort into everything you do, you are very much like the prince of Xian Le, Xie Lian. You are very loyal to your loved ones, yet are sometimes seen as dangerously optimistic, as you believe in the best of humanity to the point where people might take advantage of you. With things you’re passionate about, you might be terrible at it, but failures have never stopped you from trying to improve again and again. Keep on pursuing your dreams, but learn to take breaks in between as well; know that you’ll always have the support of your friends and family!

[4] Pei Ming (73 to 86) Charming, gregarious, and unafraid to show your preferences and dislikes, you are very similar to the heroic and capable general, the admired martial god of the north, Pei Ming. You excel at what you do, and you make damn sure everyone knows it. However, your overconfidence and propensity to flirt might also be a few of your major shortcomings. Undeniably, you are at the heart of any good parties, but your occasional insensitivity might unknowingly offend some people. There’s nothing wrong with being confident, but be aware of others’ feelings too!

[5] Feng Xin (87 to 101) Loyal, courteous, polite, and willing to take on responsibilities without any complaints, you are most similar to the martial god of the southeast, Feng Xin. When you’re nervous or pissed, you tend to swear up a storm, which might give others the false impression of you being a rough, crude individual. You have a strong sense of morality and always strive to do the right thing, even during difficult circumstances; however, having unrealistic and romanticized expectations from others can be your undoing. Shouldering on responsibilities is good as long as you’re not overdoing it!

[6] Mu Qing (102 to 115) Incredibly hardworking, studious, and always aiming for the top, you share many similar traits with the martial god of the southwest, Mu Qing. Despite your diligence and your attempts to do good deeds in your own way, your cold and moody exterior, as well as your mean-though-not-necessarily-malicious streak tend to repel others and keep people from wanting to get close to you. There are times when you get into a vicious cycle of comparing yourself against others; remember that as long as you carry on with a clear conscience, there’s nothing you can’t achieve!

[7] Jun Wu (116 to 127) You are well-respected; you are feared; most of all, you are a revered leader who watches over the others and wants to do everything you can for the wellbeing of the greater good, all of which makes you the most similar to the great Martial God Heavenly Emperor, Jun Wu. Though reserved and gentle most of the time, you can also turn violently self-destructive, especially when things don’t go the way you expect; those who don’t know you well would even go so far as calling you two-faced. Your aspirations and competence are what drive you forward in life, and people willingly follow your lead, but be aware of how you make use of your influences, too!                                                                                                                                                                                    

[aquarianlights]

Hear me out. Maybe I’m a bad person for this. You know what, okay.

But...this is who I’ve decided to be now. I’m not aiming for being a genuinely, good person in every aspect of my overall being anymore which is what I’ve been trying to do for the past...oh, year and a half or so. I started trying to change my overall character 3 years ago and genuinely started gearing towards becoming what I considered to be a moral/ethical/good person 1 1/2 years ago ish.

I’ve always, always, ALWAYS been environmentally and animal friendly ever since I was little. But...everything else was just... whatever and sometimes even stuff for me to manipulate in negative ways for fun. Especially with human beings. I was a very negative, manipulative, abusive person for majority of my younger years. I grew the fuck up.

I’m not trying for “good” anymore; I’m trying for “happy”.

I’ve decide the happiness of my dog is paramount to everything and my own happiness is immediately below his.

There is an excess of “political correctness”, ableism, neurotypical/neurodivergent, appropriation, and all of that....arguments going around. What is “right” and what is “wrong”. And you know what? I’m a fucking white person. I am a white american. I am an extremely neurodivergent, hopefully not becoming physically disabled (we’ll see.....if you’ve been following me, you know what I mean sigh), fucking white, unfortunately american 25 year old transboy. I have no say in any of this. I know nothing unless I have experienced it myself. It pisses me off when psychiatrists try to talk about borderline like they know what they’re talking about because they’ve gone to school for it. No, you have no fucking idea what you’re talking about. You comprehend, you don’t understand. There’s a huge difference.

I may comprehend a lot of what is being argued and debated through research....I don’t understand a lot of it because you know what? I don’t go through a lot of it. So issues that are specific to me? I can speak on. Issues that aren’t? I can’t. Even if I have researched them or have friends that have gone through it, I can’t. I fucking can’t.

So this is my new fucking lifestyle:

If it’s not hurting me, it’s not hurting you, if it’s not hurting animals, if it’s not hurting the environment, if it’s not hurting others, if it’s advancing medical science and science in general. . .and everyone is chill? Then everything is cool.

If something is not making me happy, I take it out of my life. Immediately.

Ie; I found that caring about all the things just makes me fucking unhappy. So I took it away. Takes me about a week to a month to fully integrate things into my lifestyle usually. . .but I’ve decided I do not fucking care about anything or anyone except select people, all animals, and select circumstances (with select people in said select circumstances). Because caring is too exhausting and draining.

And in the profession I’m going into? I don’t have time for that level of “care” as an emergency medical physician. Abso-fucking-lutely not. Detachment and compartmentalization are a way of life for ER docs. I’m not there yet, obvs. I know nothing. I am merely an amoeba with a baseline of knowledge. But I am aiming for the stars and, frankly, caring is just not a thing I need in my skillset, nor is it a thing I want. Also, it has turned out to be detrimental. So I have eliminated it to the degree I need.

My entire life was emotionless until I turned 18 and got into the real world and then there was an influx of emotions and now I believe I have finally found the balance. I never totally will because I am BPD. But. . .I have found enough balance to delete what I need from my skillsets in order to progress forward to become a “happy” person.

Some of the things that make me “happy” are not societal norms and they are not necessarily “good” or things that “good people” would do or say. And, honestly, I just don’t care. I have found a LOT of what makes soon-to-be 26-year-old Killian happy IS what “good” or “ethical/moral” people would say/do. But a bit of it isn’t. And that’s fine. With me. May not be fine with whomever is reading this. May not be fine with society. But it’s fine with me and that’s all that matters because at the end of the day I am alone with my own head and I am the only one that matters. ...other than my dog. So.

Yeah. Complete fucking overhaul of my personality coming.

Killian new patch: Loading. . . . 87% complete. . .Loading. . . . . . . . . .

Be prepared.

...or don’t. I don’t care either way, actually. Whatever makes you happy is chill with me. Just...try to be happy for yourself. Whatever makes you happy....you do you, fam. You do you.