#didn't work for a long time bc I was so so so debilitated w medical problems. I mean I still am but I need income

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What is stopping you from getting a job? (asking in a genuine way not in a Republican way lmao)

if u live in an area that has a career center or job center or whatever they might even be able to hook u up with remote work! I know a couple ppl in my town who got jobs this way.

U got this I hope you find peace and income soon 🫶

lack of relevant work experience, no degree + being in an incredibly competitive city. and disabilities limit what jobs id be able to do

the city's job center is pretty much just another site like Indeed, Ziprecruiter

Ive been doing little things to get by (like pet-sitting) but I need to find something that I'll be able to afford rent with

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Ramblings on Modern AU Ogata

Modern AU Ogata has so much potential when it comes to the different ways his mental instability could be displayed, along with his living situation as well.. so I'll write down some thoughts I've had/collected below (& I'm well aware Noda mentioned he'd be a dentist but I wanna explore other possibilities)

^ to preface I've read a couple works on ao3 abt this as well so some ideas are heavily inspired

Work: I think a job as a photographer would translate over his sniper skills very well, links such as steady hands and a good eye, staying still in a required position, "shooting", and freelance of course.. Though I don't think this would pay well enough for him to maintain a decent living, so he would primarily work as a morgue attendant for a couple reasons; respect given when needed, no customer interactions (or if so, very few), most talking is between co-workers which I don't imagine there's plenty of, he wouldn't be opposed to being in the space w. all the corpses, it could worsen his mental state (🤤), to an extent links back to his "canon" modern job via medical field

As for the home life; small apartment, can't imagine him caring about upkeeping the place or getting "fashionable" furniture so most items inside are just necessities. while he was only doing photography he used to sleep on a mattress but after the attendant job he upgraded to a simple bed. Definitely has a computer setup that he saved up for, used for editing/organizing his pictures and doom scrolling. I like to think he has some interest that he researches in his spare time, could be really into the history & different types of guns, or if we want to be less on-the-nose he'd enjoy deep sea creatures - just reading up on them or watching videos, maybe those informational documentaries. Also has a small amount of fondness towards Hello Kitty (bc ofc I have to add this), though it's something he's embarrassed to admit (Usami found this out & never let him hear the end of it)

Relationship w. ppl

I think he'd be pretty good at coming off as collected while working (outside of home) but when he's not required to talk with others he's contrived in public, says the bare minimum and leaves. He'd keep in touch with Usami and Tsukishima - they always have to reach out first but in his better moods sometimes he starts talking w. Usami. He used to have some sort of relationship with Tsurumi (relationship not used in a romantic sense here) but they fell out and he doesn't have contact with him anymore. Yuusaku has his # and tries inviting him over for the holidays but he declines most of the time, another instance where you must catch him while he's prone to social gatherings..

Mental state 😻

Okay this is where I take a lot of liberty so I apologize if ppl don't like this… I think he would definitely be depressed to some extent, falling into episodes where he's more of an active suicide risk, but it's not often enough to become debilitating to carry on normally. He wouldn't reach out for help, and would over time get much worse before he ever gets better (I'd like to think in the modern world he'd have a real chance at reformation though). Usami would unintentionally worsen Ogata's mental state by affirming his negative thoughts, though as an avid Usao shipper I have to give myself a treat and pretend Usami would take care of him during his worst times… And wouldn't make fun of his attempt at getting better if he ever enters therapy (delusion works in mysterious ways). Ogata would engage in self-destructive behavior; taking light drugs at a younger age but as he got older he resorted to sh. The first step towards rehab however would be a holiday dinner with Yuu where he actually showed up, and they entered a genuine conversation over his issues after Yuu grilled him enough about his worries.

Anyway, sorry this was so long & I didn't include many other characters, & if you just don't really see this as plausible for him - I like to play with him like a Lalaloopsy in my head

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my least favorite thing about the US medical system is how long it takes to get a fucken appointment, so it's like. yeah, i have to wait a full month to pay $500+ dollars just to probably not get answers for whatever the fuck is wrong with me / no solutions to my problems. like i have crohns disease and it took like three months for them to go "oh your excruciating joint pain is CONNECTED to the crohns! you have arthritis because you have crohns! here's some drugs that don't work!" and when i took said drugs n they didn't work and i said "hey, these don't work." they proceed to make me wait another month just to go "ah, well, shucks, we'll get em next time chief. stay on the useless expensive drugs anyways tho, maybe itll work with time!" and so i do and they continue to not fucking work. and i see a new doctor after my crohns puts me in the ER and she goes "oh, you need to get back on the useless expensive drug even though you keep telling me it wasn't helping! you NEED to be on useless expensive not-working-drug." LIKE MY BROTHER IN CHRIST W HY??? if it isn't fucking working. why do i need it. it isn't stopping my joint pain. it isn't stopping the inflammation evidently bc i was in the hospital with severe inflammation in my gut. it is literally doing nothing. it is not helping. it isn't Fucking Helping. can you MAYBE try a new medication that will MAYBE help? like please, dude? im so fucking tired of being in pain. you do not understand how physically and emotionally draining it is to be in this much pain just to have doctors and family and etc. go "oh but ur young!!! too young to be in that much pain!!!! you must be over exaggerating it!!! there's no way a young person with a debilitating disease could POSSIBLY be in pain!!!!!!" like dude im gonna scream.