#didn't mean to vomit out words but ya know uwu

[celestialvexation]

ig the reason why i'm having trouble writing nowadays is cause i haven't rlly used my emotions for it. like...when i write something, i do it with all of my soul poured into it. sure, i have ideas that'd be good to write down, but i'm an emotionally driven guy. i want to pour whatever strong emotion into it -- that's why i like to write in so many details, put in symbolism and imagery and metaphors, rlly put into what the characters are feeling and how certain events affect them

the state of the world has me feeling kinda numb. beyond exhausted that i can only say "eh" while everyone's panicking and fearful for their lives ( and rightfully so ). i hate that i'm just...put down by such a numbness. whatever characters being put on the spot helps what i'm feeling. how they can weep and sob about failing those you love, perhaps even yourself, even if the events taking place are generally out of your hands or just happened regardless because fate / life / god / whatever said so

i also want to show that they aren't alone. that they can be happy in spite of it all...

idk i'm just rambling on my lunch ahsjsj and that's not getting into writing cause i'm fucking horny for a trope or concept but that's for another time