#definitely can't make any art or fics or deep analysis

[ygodmyy20]

Opps this post got forgotten! But if I don't post it today when will I!?

Okay so, I've been thinking for awhile on the question: why do I like terumob and why did it take over my brain? What is it about it...what caught my interest. As someone who was very NOT into ships when i first got into mp100, why did I crashland into this one?

This post has been in progress for like....weeks now? Nearly a month? 3 months? Yea.

Okay so. Here we go. THOUGHTS! On terumob and why the fuck I like it. Below the cut.

Like I mentioned, when I first finished Mob Psycho 100 in June of this year I wasn't into any ship. I was actually REALLY NOT into ships. I really liked gen. I wanted to explore the characters and I loved the complex relationships between everyone but I didn't want it to be overshadowed by romance. I purposely steered clear of any and all ship art.

But then I started to see some TeruMob fanart and I was like "Aw man, they are so cute and squishy." And I started to like them....just a lil bit. ONLY A LITTLE BIT.

BUT then I read more Teru-centric fics, read Teru analysis' and then I was like. Oh shit, Teru is 100% so into Mob it's like....this kid has it bad. He has a major crush. And even on the rewatch I am like WOW yep, confirmed in my brain, Teru has it bad. The subtext of his pinning is JUST so there for me. I didn't even have to look hard for it. I suddenly was very in on the Teru-one-sidded part of the ship.

But here's the thing, I'm not a big fan of ships like that... feels too unrequited. Hard for me to really like it. I need to have some level of something from both sides. Just how I am.

So that still leaves the question.

When and how does Shiego liking Teru work? Is there any subtext for that or am I just making it all up because I want the ship to work for me?

(which also is fine ya'll, no judgement if you ship two characters that barely interact, thats the fun of fandom stuff!)

I mean, all things considered, Shigeo likes Tsubomi. Scratch that, he REALLY likes Tsubomi. Shiego loves very strongly, like all his emotions. And he definitely likes Teru, they are good friends, so I kept thinking: where and how does that cross into a crush to me, for these characters?

Teru cares a lot, he adores Shigeo—Shigeo is kind, he is powerful, he is everything Teru wants to be. But are there places where I see this same level of intensity from Shigeo?

Annnnnnnnd then I got to their fight in season 3.

Everything Shiego did to Teru was so pointed. So raw and angry. Like I said, I think Shigeo feels his feelings very strongly and, I don't know, just the fact that he PERSUED Teru to humiliate him EXACTLY in the same way again, tells me that their first meeting had an intense impact on him. We don't see a lot of his feelings on his meeting with Teru, besides the brief ??? in that episode. After meeting Teru, it's just...life goes on as normal for them. But deep down I don't think Shigeo ever really tackled his complex feelings about Teru and their first meeting.

So it all comes out, its all be stewing for AGES, and what comes out is mean. It's aggressive. It's almost sarcastic? It's what happens when we let things chew us up inside and comes out all twisted.

Teru evoked such a strong reaction from Shigeo, even if Shigeo didn't admit it or express it, that I can't help but think, after things have settled, after he has spent more time adjusting to his whole self...after they both take time to really examine themselves and grow....

....that Shigeo wouldn't develop stronger feelings for this boy who also turned his world upside down. Who made him feel such strong emotions, who changed his world too.

Teru was forever changed by meeting another esper his age.

I think Shiego was too.

And I think where I started to love them was after the finale, after Teru's acceptance of Shiego for who he was.

I don't want to pigeonhole any of the espers into only being able to date other espers. But I also....yes, Shiego is a normal kid, but he is also Shiego.

Teru is a person who understands the strength it takes to keep that power, who has seen Shiego at all sides. His best and his worst.

But gosh this scene....

OUGHGGH

JUST THROW ME IN A RIVER WHY DON"T YOU

Yeah this whole scene just.....just yea. OUGH.

But yeah I just feel like Teru's crush would only grow after that. He would see Shigeo as a person over an all powerful esper.

While I like to think Shigeo's would develop over time and them smack into him like a runaway freight train. Because Shigeo FEELS so strongly, for all his emotions. He feels sadness strongly, he feels love strongly, he feels anger strongly—he just feels everything SO strongly. That is why he is powerful, that is why he is who he is, that is why ??? became what it is.

Anyway. My thoughts have ended and that's all i got. Thanks for coming to my ted talk of rambling mess that has been in progress for months that I realized whelp with the anniversary of the end of S3 nearly here, mind as well post it.

[preacherboyd]

Hey hey hey again! Is Justified worth watching? I’m loving ur gifs and I’m looking for something good to watch.

asking me if justified is worth watching is so dangerous because i literally cannot engage with media like a normal person and i cannot shut up about this show when asked. i will endeavour to keep this as short as possible (and spoiler free!) aldkjfhasd im so sorry, friend. i can't be concise to save my life.

justified is many things. justified is cowboys and kin. its about class and the past. fathers and sons. quick draws, fisticuffs and stalemates. morbid humour and quiet tragedy. and more. if any of this interests you, i implore you to give it a try.

but what it boils down to is, what draws me into a book or a show, are its characters. and justified is chock full of some of the best. raylan givens, deputy us marshal, angriest man alive but so diametrically opposed to his own feelings he doesn't even know whats in his own heart. unmatched at the art of quickdraw, and a great shot, but not as good as his buddy and fellow marshal, tim "i don't miss" gutterson, former us army ranger & highly trained sniper. suffers from ptsd, underappreciated wit and self deprecating humour. not to mention, the rest of their team; competence thy name is rachel brooks, who always tells it like it is. and art mullen, chief and team dad, constantly tired of everyone's shit and drama, who will verbally flay raylan and perps alike without a moments hesitation and who'll make your sides split with laughter.

and those on the opposite side of the law. boyd crowder, my beloved. outlaw to raylan's lawman. they dug coal together when they were nineteen which makes them being on opposite sides of the law all kinds of compelling. speaks like the inside of an oxford dictionary deep fried in a kentucky accent. a chameleon in every respect. impossible to know yet so charming in his ways. and a whole gang of side characters whose flaws and eccentricities will draw you in, and leave you thinking for a longggg time.

and i would be remiss not to mention the fans of the show. lately, my favourite thing to do is hop on tumblr after work and scroll through my fellow justies content. vids, meta & analysis, fic, web weaving, playlists, memes. i can never get enough of ppl talking and discussing this show 'cause they've opened eyes to so many things i never noticed before that will definitely make any (inevitable) rewatches that much more engaging. (and i like to delude myself into thinking that there is a kind of justified renaissance happening with the announcement of the limited series spinoff aldkfjasf)

tl;dr: justified good, very worth watching. pls join me in justified hell the holler.