#darkening anon

[skunkes]

meow

[penofwildfire]

LOVED the deepseaenergy! (I'm the anon who asked for it lol) noww... what about combining it with greenflower? >:3 (spreading my agenda of the three of them in a poly relationship /hj)

@kelpshippingceo they're such a cute throuple actually 🥺

[rottengurlz]

Hiiii wcif her lipstick/overlay ?? She’s so pretty

https://www.tumblr.com/rottengurlz/722429647094153216/obsessed-with-her

lips / lip overlay / skin details

[uncanny-tranny]

hAPPY TRANSSEXUAL THURSDAY im a little over 3 months on t and im finally growing a tiny bit of facial hair !!!!!!

No way!!!!!!💛💛

[cestacruz]

I am obsessed with your human/lb6 tametomo and would love to see more of him on god

Thank u sm!! Sorry for the last reply, i'll try to draw him again... i get too distracted with different fandoms and works to do<//3 im sorry!!

Ive been thinking about the lore logistics of LB6 Tametomo but my only struggle is how to Actually get him in the lostbelt lmao

He cant replace tristan...because he wouldnt lose against Barghest at all(? And i loved the tristan and barghest interaction

[narcissarina]

Ақ футболка мен жынды очки

Менің Приорам как с фильма “Тачки”

Қалтамда бар “Two lesbian”

MP3 плеер, сағыз “Frutti”

Біз жылжимыз, қаңғырамыз

Қарасам тұр алдымда қыз

Вашей маме взять не нужен?

Приглашу в “донерку” тебя на ужин

А Так та мен простой емеспін

Конкретно к тебе выкатил как Элвис Пресли

Ооууу, кім екенін білмеймін

Ағылшын тілге миым жетпейді

Эй, түріне қарап алайын

Бүйтіп қарасам – қарапайым

- Атың кім болады?

- Айым

- Онда саған спо��тивкам дайын

Менің ішімде көбелек

Жұрмін индийский фильмдегідей билеп

Өз түрім қара домалақ пақ пақ пақ

Баклажан қазақша – жертатақ

- Эй что там қайдан боласын?

- Шымкент

Шымкенттің қыздары зың зың зың…

Ал Мика болса вообще дын дын дын…

Көздері оның дәу дәу дәу…

Uhm... 😭😭 is this russian?

If so, I'm sorry:( I don't ynderstand nor speak russian😭😭

Can someone plz translate for me

[kali-lamb]

kali dear~ Dont act like you arent wondering what i have to offer~ -Dorina

do NOT call me "dear"... and no im not wondering Much

[butmakeitgayblog]

Imagine Clarke and Lexa dropping off Madi at school and yelling the same embarrassing goodbye to her 🥺

First day off to college 👀

Finn and Clarke and, of course, Lexa are there. She's not exactly a stepmom figure but she is important in Madi's life by then. It a chaotic day; a rag tag team effort to move Madi out of Clarke's old house that's mostly sat empty now and into her dorm.

Lexa being the only one of the 3 who went away to college in her youth really enjoys experiencing everything from the other perspective. The whole dropping someone off on the beginning of this news chapter of their life. Madi may not be her kid but she loves her, and wants to help her get settled, but God, more than anything she absolutely 110% enjoys helping her girlfriend embarrass the living shit out of that kid 💕🥰

[shad0wsofcha0s]

What's a lesson you learned in an unlikely place? And do you believe harsh lessons are better learned through experience or through guidance from a more experienced person?

"...well...there was one place. This particular little trio of towns, and the people I met from them. The lesson I learned from them was...simple, but it's one I think I needed more than anything else."

"...no matter what...I can change. I can get better, and I can grow. I don't...have to be the 'villain' or 'monster' that I constantly thought I had to be...and I will forever, wholeheartedly, genuinely be thankful for those people, no matter how much time passes."

"as for the other part, I am not equipped to answer that."

// @starmuscd @musesofthesun @musesofthemoon mentioned!

[horce-divorce]

I think that anon belied a common misconception among many well-meaning people, too, that is actually worth addressing, wrt my donation posts: I DONT usually get money from strangers, and I DONT put those posts up with any expectations at all! Sometimes they don't work! Sometimes we get nothing for weeks on end, or just $5 here and there, and we go a month without everything that we need, and we make do with what we can find anyway.

But the thing is, when I do put up a post and I ask for money, I'm NOT asking strangers. I have a TON of connections near & far that I talk to online. I'm putting out a call to all of my friends, giving them an update, and saying, "hey if any of you is better off right now, we could use a hand!" often my friends are no better off than me, and they can't help. that's fine! Its hard times for everyone! that's why I know they don't begrudge me for asking.

In fact, a lot of my friends send me money WITHOUT me asking!! one of my IRL friends has learned to recognize when I need more help and I'm playing it down. They gave me $60 just recently, after I waffled for hours about taking their money, and finally told them I could get by the rest of the week on $30-50. Another friend, someone I've known since we were toddlers, sent me $80 out of the blue several months ago just bc she missed us and was thinking of us, and she had a little extra. Last time we talked to her, I mentioned how our food stamps got cut, & we'd be out for another week. She venmo'd me $30 labeled "pizza tears" before we even got off the phone (which I think was hilarious fwiw). A different friend recently heard that Bel and I wanted to go on a date to taco bell, and when I said we could do it for under $20, she gave me $50 and said "make sure you get the cinnabons!!!" Another friend bought me winter boots and socks this year as soon as i said i didnt have any- THE best, warmest, cosiest socks I've ever owned. Last year, one (1) of my tumblr mutuals covered my ENTIRE cost of post-op care for top surgery. I said "I'll probably need $$$" and they covered all of it! That same person has bought me groceries, meds, and gas on many other occasions, too. All of these people are folks I've known for years either thru tumblr or IRL.

Very occasionally, it's a newer mutual or even a stranger. One time, when I was still on Twitter and very early in my transition, I said something about how gender affirming my old high school Chuck Taylor's were and how I missed them so. My mutual from another COUNTRY immediately sent me $60 for gender affirming Chuck Taylor's. I haven't spoken to that person since Twitter went south, sadly. If youre still out there, I named my shoes after you, Bergamot & Jones, and I think of you every time I step outside. Another time, a guy who wasn't even my mutual sent me a bunch of binders and boxers for free. Sometimes even my old coworkers from my mall days pop up out of the woodwork and send me 20 bucks or something.

I have more stories like this. Not even just about money. Like that guy who saw me pop a flat tire in the mall parking lot and insisted on changing it for me.

I actually also never feel guilty about asking for what I need, or accepting it, and you shouldn't either. I don't like this idea that you need to grovel and be exactly This self-flagellating and full of hatred and remorse to ride and earn one (1) morsel of kindness. What do I look like, a Catholic? You dont have to apologize for wanting to stay alive. You didn't ask to be born, and you weren't the one that put a price on living!

You know what I do instead? Pay it forward. Yes, I ebeg often, yet I, too, will sometimes send $5, $10, $30 to people I care about whenever we wind up with a little extra. You can't save money as a poor person anyway, it doesn't work, so why cling to my last few pennies when someone else could use it right now? I've watched Bel give away his last $5 to a different homeless person twice since we've been living in the car. One time we stayed and had dinner with the guy and his dog. He was a hitchhiker named Ray and he was SO interesting to talk to.

There are studies that show that the most generous people when it comes to donating are NOT the people with the most money. It's the poorest ppl in the community who have been or are in your shoes, and who know how you feel, who pitch in when you need it most. Hence the community $20. The idea that panhandlers are expecting something from well-off strangers who can't empathize with us is like... kinda silly lmao, we know most of those ppl hate our fucking guts and want us dead, actually. (Are rich ppl really just that threatened by the idea of sharing that they see someone going "help please (generally speaking)!" And they immediately go "ugh, ME????? How dare you ask ME specifically for MY hard earned money?????" Idk it kinda tracks.)

I also use a jovial tone in a lot of my posts because I have to ask for help a lot, and it gets tiring to everyone to constantly hear "I'm soooo sorry for being such a needy piece of GARBAGE, AGAIN, I really hate that i have to do this, but..." because that's just The Friend Who Is Apogizing For Breathing. That doesn't feel good to hear any more than it does to say, no one likes that. And yes SOME people DO want you to feel that way about needing help- but its not going to be the people who will help you, I promise you that. Also, think about what you're saying when you talk about yourself like that. Why are you garbage? Because the cost of living is too high? Because your boss doesn't pay you a living wage? Because your landlord wrings you dry? Because you can't afford your meds or food? How is any of that actually about you at all? How does being hungry and wanting to live make you garbage???

Deeply unfortunately, you also tend to get more attention with a chipper tone and a preemtive "thank you" instead of an "oh God oh God oh God I'm so sorry I'm so fucking sorry, fuck!!!!" I also won't imply urgency where there isn't any. Sometimes we DO need money asap and it's like, we'll literally be stranded in the woods with no food if we don't get it. But other times, we need money, but like, we have time to figure it out. I save the urgency for the times I really need it.

Instead I focus on the positive: I DO have a lot of friends who care about me, all over, and even strangers who care about me, too! Those people have been keeping my ass alive for YEARS! They shouldn't have to do that! I shoudlnt have to beg to continue to use my own organs! But also, how cool are my friends for being the realest commies I know??? They're not going to just let me die out here. Why would I be sad about that? Why would I feel bad about people caring about me and wanting to see me pull through? Why would I apologize for proving that the human loving spirit is in fact alive and well? In the times when there IS less urgency, I think it's just nicer to my friends to make a lighter hearted post once in a while- you know, for the ones constantly seeing this stuff and helping me out. I think it's nice to acknowledge them in a positive way, instead of always being like "god im do sorry that im STILL BREATHING, i know you guys HATE that!!!"

Like. Idk if this is making sense. Remember that post where the person was telling their partner, "I'm just so worried that you'll think I'm stupid and want me to shut up," and their partner said, "Thats kind of mean, I wish you wouldn't think of me that way"? It's like that. If your friends and mutuals wanted you to shut up and die and feel guilty for living, they wouldn't be sharing your posts or donating to you, and it's kind of... mean? To get off on that foot. It's like we expect people to only help us begrudgingly. Thats not true at all! Donation posts are optional. Most people who reply to them do so because they're in a position to help and they WANT to, because it makes them feel good.

It's thanks to my friends that I am still alive to make all these delightful posts for them to read. They want me to stay alive because they like having me around. So i try to continue to be that presence in exchange for their love and suppport, and yes, i will incorporate that into my posts asking for help, especially if its a less time-sensitive ask. Idk like, re-framing a situation and focusing on the positive is a basic coping skill from many types of therapy and I hate to say this but it really is good for you. (Also fwiw I try to always say "thank you" to every individual who sends me money, each and every time. Sometimes they don't let me send messages back thru the pay apps, and sometimes I forget, but I try to every time.)

Plus, damn near EVERYONE needs help right now! Poverty and income inequality and chronic houslessness and chronic ILLNESS are all at ALL TIME HIGHS. Pre-covid 25% of the population was disabled. I wonder what it will look like next time we get a handle on those numbers?

So just to be clear, again: I don't expect donations to pull us out of poverty! If that were realistic, it would have already happened, ive been doing this for a decade. I don't expect strangers to have a stake in our situation, either. All either of us want is to be able to keep living our lives as best as we can for as long as we can- and a lot of our friends, and other people, DO sympathize with that. That's a point of pride for the community I've chosen for myself. I refuse to feel guilty about surrounding myself with caring, wonderful people who actually read my posts. That sounds like a pretty big win for me actually lmao.

AND I refuse to feel guilty and self-deprecating over circumstances that are out of my control and don't actually weigh on my character whatsoever. Being disabled isn't a character flaw. Being unemployable bc of my symptoms isn't something that's "wrong" with ME. Being homeless during an ALL TIME RECORD HIGH of homelessness ISNT something thats "wrong" with "me," and it's not something I would want anyone else to feel guilty over, either! These things don't determine who I am as a person or the impact I have on the people around me. Clearly I continue to have a positive impact and be a good friend, or asking my friends for help wouldnt be keeping me alive. I simply don't have enough followers to get that much money from strangers lol. And I have more followers than a lot of people (around 1500 currently).

So yeah, this is to everyone else who's ever felt horrifically guilty for asking for help online or otherwise: even if you dont have a lot of connections and you ARE asking for help from strangers, needing one another isnt a character flaw! The people who care will WANT to help anyway, period. It makes people feel good to know they can help. And yes it does make people feel better to hear a "thank you! we are still alive and happy to be here!" Over a "fuck God I'm so sorry I'm still alive and burdening you all so with my high cost of breathing!!!!" I'm so sorry that you have to have a body! Me, too, bud. It's rough, but it's gonna be ok.

Anyway needing help is morally neutral. Now im just thinking about the way the upper class has poor people at each other's throats for the perceived "selfishness" of needing help- because in a world where you are constantly burnt out from work, and the value of a dollar is so horribly out of proportion to the effort it takes to earn, sharing that hard-won effort with anyone else does sometimes feel like too much. Im thinking about the way hoarding wealth & resources & keeping them behind paywalls is seen not only as morally superior but a sign of objective intelligence and life skills, vs how the way sharing is construed as foolishness, the way needing help to stay alive is construed as greed, while the upper class that literally stays healthy and youthful and thrives on the blood, sweat and tears of the lower class gets to pat themselves on the back for being morally superior, individualist, and "not needing anyone." Kinda makes me sick when I put it like that!

Anyway. Again, needing help is morally neutral, especially in this economy, and I refuse to hate myself for circumstances that aren't my fault and for having people in my life who are invested in me and want to see me pull through. Everyone deserves friends like that, and I hope you find them.

[mouthlessmaiden]

wow. so this is what it’s come to. minor character fans are really oppressed huh :/ is this the price of being an asoiaf neutral? hateful hate from major character stans? i bet anon is a hag btw

[katierosefun]

ngl kinda would have liked a scene with juwon and dongsik in a club (juwon quite visibly ruffled and doneTM dongsik just cocky and vibing and like a fish in water) I kNOW we got ds in a club situation (and ds with a poledance situation) bUT imagine these two disasters doing the inspector thing (we're here for workkk ds) and kinda being sidetracked BE style (dancing crowd - ds in slow motion from jw's point of view take 2) that's all (they bicker in a back alley before leaving ofc)

yoooo actually i think that would have been such a fun sequence (imagine them being separated in a crowd , , , joo won's looking for dong sik, and he finds dong sik at the other side, and he's very briefly lit up and joo won has his slow motion gay panic moment 364243432 until someone elbows joo won right into dong sik)

(on second thought: maybe that just intensifies joo won's gay panic moment . . . couple that with dong sik grabbing joo won's arm to steady him, and i just know it would have been legendary)

[movedtodykedvonte]

"Spam, being the product most cyber darkners want"

Why is it so? Before the phone, I mean

Spamton is a unique and odd little fella in terms of addisons and general cyber society. Even though it didn't make him famous, he was still sort of a spectacle, like people intrigued cause "off" cyber citizens usually don't last but here's this anomaly who is persisting.

It's not like he was crazy sought after and stalked before the bigshotification but I can imagine he'd get a lot of unwanted attention in the dark web parts of the cyber world. He's like a novelty item that just kept gaining value.

[embersofhope-if]

Hello- arena anon here, I lowkey looked at your profile banner/background and thought it was a haunted house 😭 I'm a bit slow with thing like that as well

Lmao Mc and the other tributes end up being too busy running from killer clowns to kill each other

heres the full photo without the title on it and it looks less like a haunted house:

[tealeavesandthorns]

//Off to bed because I'm old it's cold, the puppo and other half want bed and I can read in peace 🤣

Loving the little Bond family forming, absolutely brilliant writers and am very lucky to write with you all!

[g1deonthefirst]

Are you a pessimist or an optimist?

well that depends. who wants to know