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july-19th-club · 5 months ago

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i love talking to Religious People but i dont love it so i called my mom earlier and my brother stopped by and to both of them i talked about my 8am religious thing and i was like - well, the UU thing sounded *fun* - it kind of felt like that was cheating - and my brother (practicing dirtbag catholic electrician who goes to mass and sits there having intrusive thoughts about the crusades) goes "yeah, well, it's not supposed to be fun, it's supposed to be reflective" . ok mister 500 years ago i would have chopped peoples heads off. first of all probably not they didn't send tater farmers on those kinds of things . second of all my mother goes "not supposed to be fun? where'd you get that idea?" like.........why didn't YOU get that idea? like. you grew up in the same religion i did and you don't have weird issues about it. unfair

#my dad's weird issues are the same as mine #except that instead of seeing them as a reason that perhaps catholicism is not good. he doubles down and sees church as Work #like church for him is a responsibility that proves he has initiative and is not a lazy shirker #for me the fact that i have these guilty thoughts at all is proof that i need to be very far away from that shit #like. i actively want to try and experience someone else's spiritual fun in a way that clicks with me #everyone i know believes SOMEthing and i don't. but i want to see if there's a way i could make it work without that #dad's answer would be to just keep going to mass until it does work (hasn't happened yet for either of us but that won't stop him)#mom's answer would be to pick and choose the elements of one of the world's strictest ritual faiths (a thing they tell you not to do)#my answer? i dont know yet #but i do know it's not the one i grew up with

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