#cuz... they're not drawing me they're drawing john homestuck

[ephemeralbreakpoint]

i think it's kind of interesting that the Awakening TM hasn't really changed the way i view homestuck or the fandom or anything like that. like, it's surprisingly easy to separate myself and what happened to me from silly blue guy from my comic. i don't get why i am this okay with engaging with a kinda-accurate-but-not-really simulacrum of my friends and my lived experiences but for some reason they just don't feel the same.

but at the same time... it's really depressing. it freaks me out that i'm so nonchalant talking about people i used to know like they're just characters in a story. i can't complain about how underutilized i feel like rose is in A5A2 without feeling really shitty about saying that about one of my best friends. i dunno.

most of the time i try not to think about that but sometimes it just hits me how fucked up it all is. i remember it hitting me like an 18 wheeler one day and saying to my RP group "isn't it creepy that we're playing with our old friends like puppets?" and yeah. yeah, it kind of is.

[sayakxmi]

Adult Dave that I've also forgot to post ages ago, but I'm doing it now. It's kind of a shame, bc I have 5/6 of the DaveJade fam, but my Jade is sadly still in sketch form. Similarly to Feferi, he also has some color-coding of his quadrants - Jade is the most obvious, but his shoelaces are teal and cerulean, bc I kinda vibed with pale Daverezi and pale Davevris, so I figured out why not both, and I ended up liking it a lot. He's wearing this camera just for the aesthetics, he holds his actual, proffesional one in his sylladex. He's an archeologist in the same team with Aradia, and they internally lose it every time the artifact is something they left behind for kicks. Also he totally chets at cooking with his time powers.