#cops are state sanctioned murderers; brain differences aren't always bad; if we applied the ADHD criteria completely neutrally and the DSM | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

anendoandfriendo · 26 days ago

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Also, related to this thing but not quite, uhmmm. We meant it as a side note but examples of "this is definitely an us (Rusanya) thing" is. We had a whole Heated Conversation surrounding this awhile back:

Unfortunately we cannot project ideas into someone else's brain and even if it was possible we'd probably fucking break their brain lolsob. Someone wholeass just went "pretty please please tell me people would actually download information into their brain" and it turns out they misinterpreted that "you wouldn't download a car" meme but nooooo brainbuddy nooo people need the little flesh heaps in their skulls to function.

#Surely we would know that with the number of times one of us has beaten their head against a metaphorical brick wall #trying to end either their CPTSD triggers or their dysphoria???#This also means we have an assortment of other problems that aren't really problems if we could stop being emotional over them.#Example: we keep going back to that one “friend” because we very rarely actually find anyone who can even keep up with more than #half of the shit we say.#It's only circa 2020 we think that we did find someone else whos on the same page and same paragraph as we are.#<- if we can kindly steal your phrasing and repurpose it friend #Example: we get bouts of “people maybe actually ARE fucking horrible and our exes/ex-partner-system were right” and we have to literally #have to tell ourselves “no. just because YOU realized stuff in fuucking *middle school* like: representation matters; shrinks are also cops #cops are state sanctioned murderers; brain differences aren't always bad; if we applied the ADHD criteria completely neutrally and the DSM #was not informed by a place of privilege than almost all of the american football fan population would have ADHD because of their obsession #with the NFL; and other such shit — does NOT mean everyone else is stupid or mean or inherently out to get you. These things are not pet #projects to everyone else in the entire world. Most people don't even think like this. Be kind. Please. Don't become someone you hate."#Example: the contradiction of both wanting to help people AND despising them.#Example: do we think it's better or worse that people don't think about these things? and choosing to believe in people anyways #just to constantly be stabbed over and over and over and over --#Example: the contradiction of only now having the words to use when we needed those words back then - not that we would've been any safer.#It seems unrelated but: Is it poetry if its just a list?#How many times do we need to rip our heart open before we decide what's an acceptable sacrifice (one way or another)?#What exactly is the limits to our own moral code and integrity?#<- and even so: even all of the tags have gone through several filtering sessions even as we type and save them.#The dyseuphoria of it all. Damnit

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