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[kiyomitakada]

do you think first love/late spring is kinda misa coded

i’ve been staring at this ask for the last two hours because. oh god, is it?

…wait scratch everything i just typed you’re a genius. first love / late spring is exactly audio drama misa. “but i find lately i’ve been crying like a tall child” with the odd detachment because ad!misa has lost much more of her memories post-timeskip and doesn’t know why her entire life with light feels so off, why she feels so goddamn sad all the time. “please hurry leave me i can’t breathe” because she tells light to go away because talking to him is the catalyst for her death in the notebook. “one word from you and i would jump off of this ledge i’m on baby / tell me don’t so i can crawl back in” is. exactly what happens in the audio drama down to the letter. jesus christ. audio drama enjoyers are you seeing this shit

but anyway i originally had manga misa in mind so talk below:

first love / late spring is one of my favorite songs ever in general, but i usually associate it with repressing romantic feelings, like ‘if you tell me you love me i don’t know how i would react and that terrifies me, i am terrified by how much i love you,’ which are generally not sentiments misa has. misa’s obsessed with impossibly large love, she’d be delighted if she ever felt that way (and has convinced herself she does feel that way, arguably)

BUT. but. there is an entirely different way to interpret this song and you’ve got me thinking about it now:

this post by comput3rage posits that misa is subconsciously comforted by light being the only person around who isn’t attracted (or pretending to be attracted) to her. misa wants to be a devotee. “i’ll work hard to make you love me” and so on and so forth. she wants, so very badly, to be in love. but she doesn’t know what to do when someone else is devoted to her: she’s perfectly fine with rem dying, gelus dying, her friend dying (she offers to kill her for light’s sake!). she is desperately lonely, she wants light’s affection more than anyone’s in the world, but post-timeskip we see that she’s incredibly comfortable in this dynamic where they visit his family separately and they don’t really talk to each other and he leans away from her when she loops his arm around him. because he says he loves her, and that’s enough. it doesn’t matter that he proposed to her saying “quit your job, let’s get married, okay ryuk this is the next part of my plan—” she’s just over the moon that he proposed to her at all.

if light were to be actually romantically attracted to her. something beyond lip service and bringing her to functions and saying he’s in love. i don’t think she’d know what to do with that.

which brings us back to mitski! because “please hurry leave me i can’t breathe / please don’t say you love me” is at first glance antithetical to misa who wants people to stay more than anything. and yet it works perfectly. she’s terrified of devotion. everyone who loves her dies.

(i’m on mobile right now but pretend that i put screencaps of misa and rem in the bathroom here. i am thinking about how misa says “i don’t really want to be loved by this ugly monster” and rem reassures her by saying that it’s not love because she’s female [insert unrelated rant about how misa taught rem internalized homophobia] and it works.)

plus beside romantic love — misa has faced so much harassment and stalking, it’s horrific. to the point where (referring back to comput3rage’s post) i think she genuinely has intrusive thoughts about people being attracted to her. but that’s tangential headcanon territory lmao

“and i was so young when i behaved twenty-five / yet now i find i’ve grown into a tall child” because misa lost her parents when she was eighteen! and she drops the goth gyaru look to look more “mature” during the timeskip but as soon as she loses her memories she goes back to that old style! and she doesn’t know why! she doesn’t even notice the hole in her life because how could she!

“one word from you and i would jump off of this ledge i’m on baby” i think applies to every version of misa ever. she’s suicidal. in every universe she’s suicidal. she tells light “i would gladly die for you” preparing to infiltrate a company that has demonstrated the power to kill anyone anywhere. she wants to die for love, always has.

“tell me don’t so i can crawl back in” because. because despite this she wants to be stopped. some part of her desperately wants someone to hold her and say no, misa, i care about you as a person and you can’t do this to yourself. and light sort of does say that, though out of his own moral code instead of affection for her. but she’ll take it. she is so used to the pale shadow of love that she would rather it over the sun, the sun, the sun.

and finally: 胸がはち切れそうで, because heart attacks :D

TLDR: for manga misa it wouldn’t be my first choice but it absolutely works. for audio drama misa this is practically her theme song.

[alwaysforetells]

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[ultrasweethibiscustea]

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Can we all just appreciate that Alex Hirsch, creator of Gravity Falls, was prank calling Republican voter fraud hotlines on November 6, 2020?

[tinyjordan]

@comput3rage

yo…. when jet breaks in the tea shop and accuses zuko and iroh of beinh firebenders….

do you think any of the patrons looked at zukos scarred face - obviously done by a firebender - and immediately think jet was an asshole? like

jet: hes a firebender!!!!

patrons, thinking about the backstory they concocted for zuko and iroh where their home was invaded by firebenders and they barely survived with their lifes so they could come and have a peaceful life selling tea in a city the war doesnt touch:

[ultrasweethibiscustea]

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Anything for the journal

[tinyjordan]

hey you know what would be funny?

@comput3rage

[my-chemical-rot]

@comput3rage

oh of course you have the wounds of christ and pronouns

[tinyjordan]

@comput3rage

Why everyone so obsessed with peter from mc ride or whatever his name is. peter? whats his name ? benjamin?

[ultrasweethibiscustea]

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[tinyjordan]

oooooooh~

okay umm..@charmingcritter @living3iohazard @comput3rage @timeflow @otickay

have a picture of one of my doggos

i wanna make one of those tag games but i have no ideas 😭

[tinyjordan]

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[neriumdelusion]

hello my love. I mean rival.

last song: strike 3 by ferry

currently watching: I’m rewatching killing eve <333

currrently reading: house of leaves by mark z. danielewski

current obsessions: desert bluffs. (just desert bluffs not really the rest of it sorry cecil palmer), I just finished generation loss and I’ve got to say the generation sure did loss, the distortion from the magnus archives (just the distortion. sorry)

right okay I don’t tag people often this feels like a lot of responsibility, no pressure to anyone tagged, and anyone who isn’t tagged can absolutely join! @worldendercharles @carriescarnage @norianfinch @thevoiceofdesertbluffs @comput3rage @changed-of-heart @princessofgames @d1g1talw0rld @waterfishlol0 OKAY, feel free to ignore if you so desire <33

tagged by @qrjung for a get to know me better thingy

Last Song- Shoot Him Down by Alice Francis

Currently watching- Shameless, Copycat Killer, Cabinet of Curiosities

Currently reading- The Gentleman's Guide to Vice and Virtue by Mackenzi Lee (technically listening to the audiobook)

Current obsessions- None? I don't tend to obsess over stuff

I'm supposed to tag 9 other people that I want to know better. @muffimtv @dioritepoodle @astr0-mj @gemsiiie @jynx-the-writer @slmccles @jaimeeday @gamesplayerrose @knifecroww

[my-chemical-rot]

Name of the artist: GWAR

What's your gender? King Queen

How do you feel? Sick and Twisted 

If you could go anywhere, where would it be? Pussy Planet

Describe your best friend: Maggots

If your life was a TV show, what would it be called? Bored to Death 

Favourite time of day? The Years Without Light 

What do you fear? The New Plague 

Relationship status: Completely Fucked 

What's life like to you? Damnation Under God 

@slut-kiss-g1rl @love-everlasting @low-po1y-princess @transsexualmagg0t @comput3rage

Music/Artist Tag Game 🌟

Rule: choose a musical artist you like and use the names of their songs to answer this as close as possible.

Thanks @nanoa1foryou for the tag!! I really enjoyed this!

Name of the artist: NateWantsToBattle (Nathan Sharp)

What's your gender? Phantom

How do you feel? Drowning

If you could go anywhere, where would it be? The world

Describe your best friend: Perfect by Design

If your life was a TV show, what would it be called? Let the floodgates open

Favourite time of day? Dawn of the third day

What do you fear? Time to move on

Relationship status: Isolated island

What's life like to you? A lesson in grief

I wasn't sure if I should do Nate for this or Bears in Trees but Nate has a lot more songs so I'm glad I went for him

I'm tagging @rattyboyisemo @th3w00ds @natethespookyenby

No pressure to do this of course

[my-chemical-rot]

last song: Plump by Hole

last show: Riverdale 😐

currently watching: also Riverdale 😐 I have it on as background noise while I work on homework 

currently reading: i have a list linked in my bio, I read a lot of books at once ^_^ plus I have to read & analyze Pope Joan by Carol Ann Duffy for a school assignment rn 

current obsession: playing guitar. Against Me!. Jeanne d’Arc. Stigmata. Erotic cannibalism. The usual.

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@lovecansaveyou tagged me in this like a week ago but

rules: tag 9 people you want to get to know better

last song: moshi moshi by brand new (SORRY but i have to pirate the song regardless)

last show: cunk on earth. it's this mockumentary that's supposed to be about western history but keeps up a running gag of playing pump up the jam randomly

currently watching: macbeth because i have a quiz on it tomorrow

currently reading: edgar allen poe stories because i have an assignment about it soon 

current obsession: watered park -____- 

Tagging: @lj-girlie @p4nsy @girlfrenger @revengeromance @sydmarch @skiptownlikea @twinkskeletons @pedros @paramoregf