#cnemcskcjen me spoke about i don't want to overshare

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pisces, MC, 12H

*cracks knuckle* We're goin' deep yall

Pisces- I would say I'm pretty good with words, I always had a soft spot for writing and it just comes natural when I sit down and start writing. I never researched how composhing phrases or chapters, or even stories should look like, I just went with my ideas and what felt right to write. Well in english I still struggle to find my style, for this is not my first language and the grammer is veeeery different from what I feel confident writing with, bit I think I make progress in that as well.

MC - Tbh a lot of time I feel like I'm the entertainer. And it's not a bragging, but somewhat a self-recognition of a not so positive trait. I always struggled with feelings and expression, you know I always was that little girl in the class/friedn group/family who's words weren't heard, as If they didn't hear me talking. Therefore, I try to make myself as likable and...well noticable as possible so they sould stop seeing throught me. Learning psychology this year opened my eyes up that Yes, indeed, some things aren't the way they should be in a healthier case, and I should start doing something about it, talk with someone. Because I know now, and I won't feel ashamed about it, that if someone needs help, or they won't doing well in mind, they need to get better. It's just as important as physical health. ANYwaY this leaned into another topic, so just to spear the typing, I think I have a reputation of "oh she's the loud and giggly one" or the "crazy one" which, you know I don't mind. I, myself think I'm crazy.

12H- DAMN THE SHADO WORK IS HERE ISN'T IT🙈🙈🙈🙈🙈🙈🙈

Uhhhh sooo one of my biggest fears of all time is being left alone or behind. Abandonment is a very hurtfull topic for me, and I don't even know why, because I wasn't neglected nor treated bad as a child, quite the opposite. I always try to be distant with everyone first, but then I get the feeling of "oh crap I want to do well alone but Im actually miserable, I need people" and sometimes I can cling to anyone who I feel even just a little bit confortable. And my tendency is to: be overly hyperactive - share too much - regret it - shut down- and out everyone - repeat.

The other is faliure. I try to be a maximalist, even tho well....my life and achievements are very-not-maximalists. So there's that constant thought in my mind that I could've done it better, I fucked it up, I'm no longer valuable. I also overthink EVERYTHING for this reason, and I constantly worry on things that usually people would get over with a shrug