#chiara's diary 🎀🤍

[fishy-kiddo]

Do ou ever read somefin dat has a tw but ou didn't realize it wou bover ou so now ou don know wha to do bc ou couldve prevented da slippin if ou knew

-Chiara

[fishy-kiddo]

Papa says I should go ni ni if m so upset. but da tinks I should finish what I started. All my works. now dey are yelling. I don't know if dey realize dey are. it hurts my head.

*scampers off to our shared bedroom and hides under my blankets*

[fishy-kiddo]

Dear Diary,

Da says someone new is coming to the hotel. Soon. M scared.

I don't like new people. I don like it when they point out my horn and steal my toys. Or if dey're always crying cuz dey're "havin a hard time" like Charlie says. It hurts m head even more than it always hurts when dey do that.

Being nervous like this makes my head hurt. I just wanna go to bed even though we haven't even had din din. I just wanna cuddle wif my papas n heavy stuffy. He calms me down. His name is Uni.

[fishy-kiddo]

Chiara Intro Post! // 🎀🤍

Dear Diary,

My name is Chiara. Ms Charlie gave me this notebook a bit ago at nursery school to write about anything. I dunno what to write bout.

I live in a big hotel wif lots of people. I share a room wif my papas. One I call Papa and he’s really tall and has 4 arms, and I call the kitty one Dad or just Da if I’m having a hard word day. My brother Ace looks a lot like dem and stays in the room next to us.

I don’t look like anyone. Das cuz I’m an imp. But most imps have 2 horns and I only have 1. Papa n Da say I had a TBI. I don exactly know what it means. They tried to explain it but the words were too big. I just know my head hurts a lot and sometimes I’m not fully here. My brain isn’t always where my body is n I can’t always control myself.

Sometimes I’m scary when I don’t mean to be, den I cry when I realize. Papa says it happens to everyone, but I know I do it a lot more than I should. I feel bad.

My friend Venus helps me when I have those times too. Whenever I have extra small stay-in-bed days, they visit me n hang out. Sometimes we don't talk. Sometimes we do. I like them lots. Dey're usually really really loud n hyper, but dey know when I need quiet n soft.

I really like my toys. Specially my dolls. I like to brush their hair n dress dem up. But I also like setting dem up in areas n den imagining what dey're doing. I don move them, even when some other kids say I'm doin it wrong. If I move dem it gets too hard n makes my brain stop workin as well. I like how I play.

[fishy-kiddo]

Dear Diary,

Today Venus is helping me write for Ms Charrie. (I'm writing this right now hehe!! - Venus) She told us to write about our favorite things, so that's what I'm doin. I'm gonna try to write five things but Venus says they'll help me think of things that are good if I can't.

My Monster High dolls. (whenever me and Venus play together, I give him Lagoona and he likes it lots. I like Draculaura and Frankie and Ghoulia)

My papas, cuz they are always there for me and never get mad even if I can't talk and cry for hours. even when my head hurts a lot and I just can't do anything but lay in bed and hug my stuffies.

My brother, Ace, cuz he's mean to everyone else but loves me and gets me. He keeps me safe from people who think I'm no good.

Being wif my papas n knowing they are safe n not getting hurt. I like when dey sing for me. even the songs that are all lovey n aren't actually for me but for each other. then i know they'll never leave me or each other.

Sensory quiet time. I like the break from all the stuff happenin all the time. (Ms Charrie always has a sensory area set up in the corner of the school room)

Board books cuz they're short so I can know what's happenin n I can bite them when my papas aren't lookin n they won't ever know.

Pasta papa makes. even though he likes it fancy and always adds tons of spices, he always leaves out some for me with only butter n is really good.

That's all I got right now. Venus helped me a lot wif the end. I like her a lot too, specially when they help me. They get it when my brain is sad at me.