#cariba's acting in this scene is fantastic btw

[arcadian-sea]

"and i watched the water unfold, it's a feeling i want you to know, 'cause i'm not the same as i was…" - unfolding by porter robinson - i do not know how to convey how truly crazy this episode (and its following mini arc) make me. the implications. the potential. the complete and utter lack of any answers or actual meaningful results. im going to start eating drywall so here's this drawing that i made to try and process my many feelings about it! (did not help, got more deranged actually)

face close ups under the cut! (also a rant about this shirt)

i loved rendering her eyes for this one (and also spent wayyy too long on her locket for how little it is in the piece) ALSO

FUCK THIS SHIRT! I HATE IT! IT'S EVIL ACTUALLY! do you, dear reader, know how utterly distraught i was when, upon looking up a photo reference for what i was 1000% convinced was a shirt with flowers, i discovered it was in fact RANDOM PIRATE IMAGERY1?!?!?!?1/! because flowers? are easy to fudge! they're not that hard to make look decent! but THIS?! no this was gonna take EFFORT! and that is to say nothing of the fact that this show is old as hell at this point and there are NO GOOD QUALITY PHOTOS OF IT! BECAUSE NO ONE HAS BOTHERED! BECAUSE MOST PEOPLE CANT STAND THIS SEASON! (also my main source of footage to look at when google images failed me was amazon and good god is amazon's episode quality absolute dog-shit, especially when there is anything related to the water tentacle on screen in season 3)

SO IM LEFT SQUINTING AT THIS GRAINY ASS IMAGE TRYING TO TELL WHAT thE FUCK IS EVEN ON THIS SHIRT AND FOR WHAT! i bet that i am the only person who has paid this much attention to this thing. i bet i could've actually made it flowers and everyone would be none the wiser, and instead i voluntarily suffered and for why

I expected the hardest part of drawing this piece to be the stupid magic water tentacle snake and instead it was a piece of clothing. also this is ignoring that it's a weird 2000s cut where it's not a tshirt and it's not a tank top and it's kind of off the shoulder but not really. also the colors are jsut, so much, and anyway drawing this thing could count as psychological torture but, i did it👍