#caeli's adhd thoughts

[caeli0306]

let the booping commence

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hi everyone. the last few days have been extremely difficult for me. covering tragedies is the worst part of my job, but when that tragedy is caused by gun violence, its a million times worse. many people no longer trust the media (some of those criticisms are valid, others not so much) but i would highly encourage everyone to read about the psychological impacts many journalists have to deal with when they cover horrific events. we have to absorb the trauma of so many people without letting it affect us, and thats not an easy thing to do (at times, its not even a reasonable expectation). i don’t like getting personal on here, bc i want to maintain a degree of anonymity since im a public adjacent figure in real life that a lot of people know, but please support your local journalists. they do so much for so little, and get conflated with the bad actors at national TV stations and publications. and please keep all the journalists covering really hard things in your thoughts. anyways, personal thoughts are done, back to writing fanfics 🫡

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hi! im still alive! i graduated from college on friday and im taking a short break from the internet while i pack up my apartment and (finally) read ACOTAR! will start writing again in a few days!

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20 questions for writers tag game!

tagged by @widebrimmedhatsblog and @hockeyspiral23

Total number of AO3 works

Nine!

2. Total AO3 word count

287,489

3. Fandoms I've written for

Empyrean and that's literally it lol

4. Top 5 fics by kudos

Violet Sorrengail's Guide to Spinning a Scandal, castles crumbling, Tales from the Airport Bathroom, Did Someone Say Shots?, and Did Someone Say Vacation?

5. Do I respond to comments?

Yes! Sometimes it takes me longer to get to them, especially if I get a lot within a short period of time, but I always respond to comments.

6. What has the angstiest ending?

definitely the present, the past, and you in between. That was the first one shot I ever wrote and I still get comments of people being iike "bro why did you do that???"

7. What has the happiest ending?

All of my fics (except for the one mentioned above) have happy endings if they're done, more or less! If I had to choose one, I think it would be VSGTSAS.

8. Have I received hate?

Yes, once, but honestly in my line of work I get so much online hate that I just find it funny. I wrote a very sarcastic response and moved on. One of the reasons I love this fandom is because its super positive and accepting, so why dwell on the single outlier I've come across?

9. Do I write smut? And what kind?

Yes, and as of now just Riorgail

10. Do I write crossovers?

Unless you count the Top Gun AU I've been working on a crossover, then no. I think trying to mix worlds and characters would get too confusing for me, so doing an AU based on another world is about the extent for me.

11. Have I ever had a fic stolen?

As far as I know I have not! Hopefully it stays that way.

12. Have I ever had a fic translated?

Nope!

13. Have I ever co written a fic?

I have not! I feel like it would be fun though

14. What is my all time favorite ship?

Riorgail. They are my Roman Empire.

15. A WIP I'll never finish?

So I will always maintain that I will finish everything I start, but if there is any story that I think has a chance of not getting finished, it's Swan Song. I haven't had the inspiration to write it for a while, and my backlog just keeps getting longer. I hope I'll get around to finishing it eventually, but it won't be for a long time.

16. Writing strengths?

I've been told that I write angst well, and that I'm good at writing tension between characters. Personally, I think my ability to research (thank you journalism) and write things as close to realistically as I possibly can is my greatest strength. Not kidding when I say I had a 15 page document of job descriptions for senate office staffers that I got from a friend who works on the Hill back when I was working on VSGTSAS and that bad boy was open the entire time I was writing chapter 4.

17. Writing weaknesses?

I think I struggle to describe movement and action in a way that isn't repetitive, and sometimes my writing sounds a bit robotic (thank you journalism). I also think sometimes my sentences can get a bit convoluted.

18. Do I like foreign language dialogue?

I'm not sure - I don't think I've read any fics with that.

19. First fandom I wrote for?

Empyrean!

20. Favorite fic I've written?

This is like asking me to pick a favorite child. I'm going to include Violet Sorrengail's Guide to Spinning a Scandal and castles crumbling because I love them both and they are both my favorite.

I'm tagging @skyfallscotland, @suebswrites, and @witch-and-her-witcher (unsure if any of you have already been tagged!)

[caeli0306]

I have NEVER understood why people seem so obsessed with him??? like, he is so suspicious?????? also he really didn't do all that much from my perspective in IF???????? like what is the deal with this guy

Someone needs to sit me down and patiently explain to me why the fandom loves Brennan so much because I just do not get it.

I don’t dislike Brennan particularly, but like, is he really that great?

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so ive got good news and bad news. the good news is that i have lots of time to write tn. the bad news is that i have a raging headache and period cramps have decided to make their unholy reappearance. im not saying that i WON’T have the DSSS? sequel up tonight, but i am saying that there’s a possibility that i won’t be able to look at my computer screen long enough to finish it. we’ll see how i’m feeling! i desperately want to write this ending bc its been gnawing at my brain for DAYS now but i might have to call it a night early tn

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sooooo I can continue writing the next chapter of VSGTSAS or I can start writing chapter 12 of cc. decisions, decisions 🙃

[caeli0306]

so as some of you know, i am a journalist during the daylight hours. today, i unfortunately had to cover an extremely tragic event, and i’ll have to do more tomorrow. for that reason, there will likely not be a castles crumbling update this weekend. i can’t really bring myself to write, and obviously i’m not going to force myself to when i’m not in the right headspace. hope everyone understands 🩵

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my delulu headcanon that keeps me sane is that the jesinia neilwart who’s mentioned as the scribe curator isn’t the jesinia we know but like, one of her descendants. bc otherwise the chances that xaden and violet are dead are too high and i can’t deal w that

Me trying to explain to the person I'm reading Iron flame with that Brennan's book was NEVER mentioned as Recovered just like any other Archive but then why the FUCK would Rebecca go out of her way to mark Xaden's letters as "Recovered" and then I remember Rebecca has her own folder of characters she could kill and I'm vibrating like a naked chihuahua standing on Mount Everest while being circled by vultures

[caeli0306]

what if… i start writing chapter 8 today instead of unpacking like i should be

[caeli0306]

we are LOCKED. we are LOADED. we have a glass of WINE. we are FINISHING THIS DAMN SEQUEL TODAY.

[caeli0306]

these RY music vibes posts have me absolutely TERRIFIED on onyx storm

[caeli0306]

hi everyone i know i haven’t posted in a few days but im still alive just very very busy! i have been writing just not a lot! hoping to post something either tonight or tomorrow, depending on how much i’m able to write tn. thank you for being patient with me :)

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fyi the next chapter of VSGTSAS is probably going to come out before chapter 11 of cc because I'm rearranging some plot stuff after I realized by old outline had some holes in it that rly bugged me. I'll finish chapter 11 once I'm done making sure the story is where I want it to be (which will be soon don't worry! maybe by the end of the weekend, depending on how much time I have for writing this week. I'm just about done with the new outline.)

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i think i might write today. idk. we’ll see.

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its been TWO AND A HALF MONTHS since I first started writing Tales from the Airport Bathroom which is crazy. where the hell has the time gone lmao it does not feel like its been that long