#ca dash commentary

[qapsiel]

// Sam the "more socially hospitable Winchester", brb crying @fellandfeathers

[eyeless-smiles]

Waking up to @qapsiel and @murderdeals absolutely wailing on human Corinth 🥺 What'd this guy ever do to you two huh???

[murmursdraconic]

"People called me a Red copycat for years until I went obscure. Then met Red and he said that's fucking bullshit it happened to me. So you know he's alright."

By alright she means pretty great as far as her human dislike standards go.

[kinglyisms-archived]

Therapy? "Doctor Love can be open again for you!"

[general-kalani]

Winks at Caspian from across the room, ignoring he made the man nearly cry.

[arcxnumvitae]

Oh, and also--

[ofsavior]

Still haunted by Kazutora asking, " Was that his dream too? Or was it just yours that he's carrying out for you? "

Because a) Britt did this to punch me in the feels knowing I fixate on Chifuyu having wanted to be a pilot and gave it up to carry on Baji’s dream 😭 and b) Kazutora caring enough to notice — I doubt Chifuyu ever expressed his own personal goals or wants but Kazutora still sees it. Sees that this is all an ode to Baji and Chifuyu’s good with that but it’s not his own vision and never has been.

[thebananwithaplan]

. " 'Hot cocoa with marshmallows season', 'peppermint mocha season', 'gingerbread season', all of those I agree."

. "But imagine thinking that eggnog's only a winter season thing when these bad boys exist all year round."

[vendettamuses]

"It is actually a sin how my own AI companion is pulling more game than me."

[qapsiel]

// how is it that Balthazar @waywardmused is such a fucking charmer and never taught his bestest bro Cas how to flirt

[dementedspeedster]

"You didn't pick it up for four years?"

[plague-on-the-run]

(( Cas’ Trigun/Stampede AU is up and running! Her visual reference is in the works, but i hope to finish it in the next few days. Feel free to interact with either verse! ))

[murmursdraconic]

“The Tyranitar rave got a little out of control.”

[kinglyisms-archived]

“We are very popular, apparently. The Castle is running a popularity vote and we’re the most enjoyed place.”

“This is not a compliment. We’re supposed to be running under the radar.”

“I think it’s nice, I like people.”

“I think I need to move out.” He’s been here a few hours at most.

[wellofdean]

I've been reading lots of commentary on my dash about Dean's apology to Cas in The Trap that is, in a sense, re-litigating who is most to blame for their rupture, and who should be apologising.

On the one side, Cas, whose drive to protect and save the ones he loves leads him to go it alone and keep vital information from them, and on the other, Dean, whose anger, however justified, makes him cold, hard and uncompromising. Cas, who left, or Dean, who didn't ask him to stay. And, I think: can't they both be in error and standing in need of compassion? Is love a thing to be earned and deserved, or is it like grace, which is free and unmerited and complete forgiveness?

For me, these are two characters who are under tremendous pressure and in repeated dire circumstances, and who have given each other that kind of grace over and over and over again for years, and who have chosen each other every time a choice was there to be made. In the The Rupture, Dean is too angry to make talking about it viable (and I am not blaming him, he has his perfectly valid reasons! But, that's a fact) and Cas is too offended, hurt, and too proud to stay and bear Dean's anger, so he leaves.

A few episodes later, in Golden Time, Cas is told Chuck is back and is reminded of what they are fighting for, and who they are fighting against, and realises that his place is in that fight, at their side, whatever Dean's feelings, and that he has to go back. But, the tension remains -- Dean is angry, Cas is aloof. They go to hell. Rowena says "fix it" and reminds them that they don't have time to waste on grievances, and then Michael says "Since when do we get what we deserve?" And looks them both in the eye. Then, they go to Purgatory.

What happens in The Trap, for me, is that Dean, thinking he has lost Cas, looks into his own heart knows that his anger kept them apart, and he gives Cas grace and forgivenes, because he loves Cas too much not to and it doesn't matter if Dean has a right to his anger, or what anyone deserves, because the apology is to satisfy his own soul, and his own need to be better. I don't think it matters who is right and who is wrong. I think they are both right, and they are both wrong. Cas did apologise, and Dean was too angry to let him, Cas coming back to bear that anger and help is a capitulation and an effort to do what is right.

I love that Dean forgives Cas before Cas can earn it with his 'win', and don't think it's a matter of anyone deserving anything. Dean's very nature is love and goodness, and the constant striving to act on it; his anger works against those things. There is no basis for them to talk about what ails them if he can't let it go. Dean knows it's doing him damage, and he apologises for it. His conscience demands it, and grace cannot be a thing that is owed.

I love that scene, I love that Jensen acts his heart out in that scene, and I think that scene is about Dean's heart, and not about anyone's culpability. Both of them are so broken down by their losses and have such brutal histories of trauma, and that's why they are both falling back on habits that don't serve them. Cas came back, Dean gave up his anger. Do the problems still exist? Absolutely. But nothing is served by being apart and angry.

[ofsavior]

Chifuyu, proudly: “That’s right…”