#but yeah man i didn't eat veggies for like 2 straight weeks when i first moved away for college? i felt awful

[combinecremator]

I would also like to add that if you're ADHD like me, and tend to let fresh produce go bad, get bags of frozen veggies instead! They're usually pre cut and taste better than canned (canned veggies are just fine if that's what you're into, though!) and you don't have to worry about them going bad. Like half of my fridge at any point is full of frozen veggies. You can even freeze them yourself if, for example, there's something you like that you can't find pre-frozen. just look up "how to freeze [vegetable]" and it'll tell you what you need to do! Most freeze without any special steps, but some like snow peas and celery have to be blanched beforehand.

i mean this in the gentlest way possible: you need to eat vegetables. you need to become comfortable with doing so. i do not care if you are a picky eater because of autism (hi, i used to be this person!), you need to find at least some vegetables you can eat. find a different way to prepare them. chances are you would like a vegetable you hate if you prepared it in a stew or roasted it with seasoning or included it as an ingredient in a recipe. just. please start eating better. potatoes and corn are not sufficient vegetables for a healthy diet.

[justcafewriter]

Change of Heart

Genre : Angst

Pairing : Akaashi Keiji x Fem!Reader

Summary : When you realize that your boyfriend of three years experience a change of heart.

A/N : A little reminder that I suck at writing angst.

playlist : Bruno Mars - Talking to The Moon, Halsey - Sorry, Coldplay - The Scientists & Rihanna - Final Goodbye.

2:34 AM

You saw the time on your phone, opening a chat application which opened at the last text you sent to your boyfriend, Akaashi Keiji.

"I guess you pull all nighter again, Keiji? I hope you're not overworking yourself."

You read the message again. It was sent about an hour ago but you haven't got any reply.

It has been a week since Akaashi begin to come home late, 2 weeks since he rarely replied your texts and about a month since the last time both of you went on dates. At first you thought that he was busy, but now you couldn't help but to think that he was avoiding you.

"No, that can't be." You said to yourself as you try to close your eyes after you type, "I'm going to sleep now, there's food inside the fridge so you can reheat it if you feel hungry. I love you." and sent it to Akaashi.

4.12 AM

5 days passing by with nothing changed for good. Akaashi began to not come home regularly and he didn't even pick up your call either. Usually you find him sleeping beside you when you wake up in the morning, but it has been 2 days that you woke up to an empty space beside you.

The bag under your eyes has been deeper than ever, showing the effect for your lack of sleep. 4.12 AM. You looked at the clock and began to worry. You decided to take your phone, searching for Akaashi's name when you heard someone punch the passcode of your apartment. Not long after you saw Akaashi entering the bedroom, he looked at you, shocked that he didn't expect you to be awake.

"Keiji…" You called his name. Strangely it sounded so foreign to you, hinting it's been so long since you called his name.

"Y/N, why are you still awake?" He asked.

"I'm waiting for you. You haven't come for two days straight, I couldn't call you, I-"

"I've been busy. You should sleep soon. And it'll be better if you're not waiting for me like this. It feels like a burden." You felt a pang of pain hitting your heart. Tears swelled up inside your eyes as you saw the back which belonged to the man you loved.

6.30 PM

You saw the food you prepared for Akaashi left untouched. It was his favorite, how could he not eat it? Did he wake up late so he has no time for breakfast? You were questioning yourself as you threw away the food into the trash bin. You then decide to put your apron after you text Akaashi if he wants to eat something for dinner.

Ping. The sound of a message coming made you check your phone. It was from Akaashi, replying to your text earlier.

"I'll skip dinner." That was his reply.

You took off your apron while feeling dejected and confused. Sitting on the chair of your dining table, you rest your head on it and began to think, "What the fuck is going on? What did you do wrong? How can this happen?"

8.12 AM

"Hm? You're not going to work?" You heard the voice of your boyfriend coming from the kitchen's entrance. You looked at him, smiling, before you replied, "Good morning Keiji! And I took a day off today!"

You got no response from Akaashi. He just walked toward the fridge and took a water bottle before he poured it into the cup and drank it.

"The foods gonna be ready in a moment." You informed him as you lowered the stove's heat.

"Sorry, I have a plan today and I will have to eat there."

You stopped stirring the veggies inside the pan, it feels like your heart stopped beating too.

"Is that so?" You asked, your voice filled with disappointment.

"Yeah." Akaashi responded, his voice as flat as his expression.

"Hey, Keiji…" You called your boyfriend. "I was meaning to ask this…" You continued. "Are you avoiding me?" Your voice was shaking as you finally realized by the fact that you've been trying to ignore this whole time. You didn't dare to look at him, you were afraid that you'd break if you do so.

Silence filled the room, your chest felt tight, your eyes clouded with tears. You feel nothing but hurt at his actions.

"It's all just inside your mind." You heard Akaashi's answer.

"It hurts you know." You said, stopping Akaashi from leaving the kitchen. "It hurts so much, I don't know what I did wrong, you should talk to me if we have problems here, if you have problems." Nothing but sadness decorating your voice and tears started to run down on your cheeks while you speak.

"Like I said, it's all just inside your mind." By that he left the kitchen, leaving you all brokenhearted and hurted.

2 AM

Akaashi Keiji entered the apartment he shared with you. Unlike the usual, the apartment filled with darkness. He thought that you finally started to fall asleep without waiting for him. It has been 5 days since the 'argument' you and him had. He felt awful but he also couldn't understand himself. He felt like he made a stupid mistake but he didn't know how to fix it. Or was it he didn't feel bothered to fix it?

Akaashi entered the bedroom, the place which once felt so intimate to him, the place where he shared a sacred moment; a lot of happy moments with you. But now that place only became a place for him to sleep, for him to see your worried face every time he came inside, for him to see your sad back when you pretend to sleep. He saw a pitch black room once he entered the bedroom, an usual sight because you like to sleep inside the pitch black of darkness. He leisurely walked towards the bedroom, opened the door and greeted with a warm light inside.

There he sensed something was wrong. He turned his back and his heart dropped at the sight of it, the sight of an empty bed where you were supposed to sleep. In a flash, Akaashi turned on the bedroom's lamps. He walked to the cupboard and saw nothing but his clothes, he looked at the makeup table, your makeup table, but he didn't see any of your makeup kits, only his perfumes and his night creams remained.

"What the fuck have I done?" While thinking like that, he slumped down on the empty bed.

A few minutes passed and Akaashi decided to take his phone, 1 missed call, he saw that notification, strange because usually he always had a few missed calls from you but not today.

"She will come back soon, she's just trying to scare me now." Akaashi's ego said it, not even care to acknowledge the ache feelings that he felt inside his heart.

Akaashi felt his head pounding like crazy, it gave him a painful headache and his heart beating so fast that his breath came out irregularly. He decided to take some medicines so he went to the kitchen to get some water.

2.28 AM. Akaashi saw the digital clock which was placed on the shelf near the kitchen entrance. The kitchen was dark and Akaashi was not even bothering to turn on the light. He walked straight to the fridge, opening it before he took a small water bottle. He looked at the full fridge in front of him, his favorite veggies and fruits filling it, also some side dishes that you've always made and stored for him to eat. A tint of pain; Akaashi felt it when he suddenly remembered how much effort you put to make those dishes, how your face lit up whenever he said that your food was the best and realized how lately he never even touched the food you made.

He breathed out a heavy sigh, shaking his head to dismiss the guilty he felt and when he did it he saw something on the dining table behind him. He opened the fridge's door wider so the light from inside could shine towards whatever it was on the table. There he saw, Karashi Mustard, his favorite food, covered in food plastic and on top of it he saw a pink envelope.

Akaashi decided to turn on the lamps and walked back to the dining table. There he saw his name, carved in your handwriting on that envelope.

To: Keiji, it said.

Akaashi's heart was beating so fast, his hands were shaking while he tried to open that envelope. A vanilla colored paper was folded inside, he took a deep breath before he opened the letter in his hands.

2.33 AM. Akaashi opened the letter, your handwriting filled half of the pages and he started to read it inside his mind.

"I won't be here when you read this letter. I'm sorry for doing it like this, I've tried not to but it's not working. I've tried to call you, I've tried to talk to you, I've waited for you; for your explanation but you just never been here. You never make time for me, for our relationship.

Don't get me wrong, I love you, so much. Our relationship is the best thing I could ever ask, you brought me joy, you brought out the best of me. I feel happy but lately everything has felt so wrong. It feels like your love for me has faded away, like I don't even mean anything to you, like I'm a burden.

I truly want to keep our promises. To be with you in any kind of situation, to love you till death do us apart. But reality sucks. I can't stay in a relationship where there's no love anymore. I can't fulfill our promises when you have a change of heart."

Goodbye.

Y/N

2.34 AM

The time when Akaashi realized how jerk he was. The time when he realized how he broke the heart of someone who was so special to him and he truly loved. The time when Akaashi realized that his world seemed to stop.