#but yea this is vent tags at this point but honestly if you cant be bothered for the empathy

[heedular]

the thing that got me cut out of my local queer group was firmly putting boundaries in place regarding:

missgendering,

trap jokes,

refusing to give my deadname for them to call the cops if I make them think I'm a bit too mentally unwell/depressed that day

Refusing to just be a token trans fem for all of the above as I watched every fucking trans fem be systematically driven out of the space due to this bullshit

people dont get that tma people let transmisogyny slide most of the time because if we didnt wed have no tme friends or literally time to do anything else, its not that most of you are fine its that we cant destroy our whole lives to stand up for ourselves

[ryign]

@geeselord​ tagged me in a very long post fuck u sofi

1) Put your iTunes on shuffle. Give me the first 6 songs that pop up. neon trees-everybody talks. sia-angel by the wings. nicki minaj-feelin myself. aquilo-calling me. sleeping at last-mercury. jesse mueller-she used to be mine

2) If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? myself 10 years ago. someone needed to tell her she will be alright 

3) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17. “Okay! Okay! I was just curious is all.” from wildwood by colin meloy 

4) What do you think about most? probably griffin mcelroy 

5) Ever had a poem or song written about you? not that i know of? i write poems about everyone else but i dont think people write them about me

6) Do you have any strange phobias? drowning ironically 

7) What’s your religion? i dont really believe in organised religion i do believe in god. a god. but im not really religious 

8) If you are outside, what are you most likely doing? i like being outside so maybe tramping or running who knows, having ice cream?

9) Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band? i dont know? i have so many maybe sleeping at last or neon trees

10) What was the last lie you told? its okay

11) Do you believe in karma? mostly

12) What does your URL mean? its like from the word reign but with a y not e. its about how i feel

13) What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength? trusting myself. fast thinking

14) Who is your celebrity crush? um like probably Chandler Riggs

15) How do you vent your anger? yelling. or writing which is kinda like yelling in my head

16) Do you have a collection of anything? buttons?

17) Are you happy with the person you’ve become? im still, becoming. i havent finished evolving into the best me yet but im happy with the path im on

18) What’s a sound you hate; sound you love? metal on metal. rain on metal

19) What’s your biggest “what if”? what if no one likes me

20) Do you believe in ghosts? yes

21) Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm. right my book left my necklace

22) Smell the air. What do you smell? home.

23) What’s the worst place you have ever been to? australia it was hot and loud. idk probably not but i cant think of anywhere

24) Most attractive singer/s of your opposite gender? gender is fake af

25) To you, what is the meaning of life? i dont think there really is a meaning

26) Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed? yes and no

27) What was the last movie you saw? eagle huntress 

28) What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had? i broke some bones as a kid ive never had any very serious injuries

29) Do you have any obsessions right now? change

30) Ever had a rumor spread about you? most likely if someone knows one they should tell me

31) Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong? not often

32) What is your astrological sign? virgo

33) What’s the last thing you purchased? a shirt?

34) Love or lust? maybe neither or both for different reasons

35) In a relationship? no

36) How many relationships have you had? maybe 5ish

37) What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you? fuck if i know 

38) Where is your best friend? i dont have one?

39) What were you doing last night at 12 AM? probably watching greys anatomy in bed or listening to rose buddies

40) Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend? no honestly i have no idea why people keep me around

41) You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do? dog

42) You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid? a,no b,leave go somewhere else,far away. c,no

43) What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it? to build a home i only need to hear the first note to know it

44) In your opinion, what makes a great relationship? communication. calm

45) How can I win your heart? you cant

46) Can insanity bring on more creativity? maybe

47) What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far? to keep going. keep pushing

48) What would you want to be written on your tombstone? ev said- just. a transcript of the scene where you get timy to kill the frog guy from out first campaign. “timy slid down ur sleeve and bit the dude but nobody saw him so it looked like you just touched a dude and he died”

49) Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word “heart.”? fist.

50) Basic question; what’s your favorite color/colors? red all of the reds

51) What is your current desktop picture? a mountain 

52) If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be? no one i dont have the right to make that decision.

53) What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on? what do you want

54) You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power? probably to be able to know how to help people

55) You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again? my first time listening to mbmbam

56) You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be? no

57) You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be? no?

58) You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go? i have no idea just far away 

59) Ever been on a plane? yes.

60) Give me your top 5 hottest celebrities. i dont really get on the whole celebrity thing but yea

i tag anyone who reads this if you read it you have to do it bam. i mean you dont have to but like you can and tag me