#but when I'm deficated it's “too much”

[eldritch-bisexual]

Raaaaaaant

[demonslushh]

Oh yeah, i just realized that I actually have some more Mind stuff from like, forever ago. A doodle page sort of deficated to my headcanons. (Don't mind that these are all uncropped for some reason?? I'm not fixing it. Too many screenshots.)

One aspect of this I do want to delve into are his wings, or moreso his lackthereof. In my other post you can see he does have wings but they're broken and totally nonfunctional, and really either way it works, i just changed to the latter when drawing him because it looked cooler.

abut overall, I've not really seen the idea bounced around too often to play with angel/fallen angel imagery between heart and mind, and I thought it would be really fun to play into fallen angel imagery for mund since a lot of demons represent knowledge and science, which is very applicable to him, and since Heart is already angel themed. Much like the headcanon that heart's eyes were taken as a punishment by Soul for the fighting, I like to think that at some point, Mind's wings were shredded by either soul or Heart — Soul, as a punishment just the same, or Heart, in a different attempt to let out his anger and violent tendencies on Mind.

The Halo is more straightforward. But there is the one where Mind seems to be crying, which I don't necessarily think he Feels sadness because his emotional network isn't very complex (for ... obvious reasons.) But no less, being in a manifeststion of a body gives him tear ducts, and under stress he just cries oil or something akin to it, a dark black sludge. He doesn't understand why it happens even when they're not whole, because he thinks he shouldn't be able to cry at all. He doesn't like it.

And that's about it. Enjoy!

[forbidding-souda]

Kazuichi, Kokichi, Nagito, and Rantaro hcs for a male s/o that has a thing for butts/farts/poop?

I considered a few other characters for this, so don't be surprised if I come back at some point :3

Kazuichi Souda, Kokichi Ouma, Nagito Komaeda and Rantarou Amami with a male S/O who is into butts, farts and poop (short headcanons)

sorry guys i'm not posting so much like i promised but i'm in my relapsed era i haven't spent a single night sober #insomnia

This is also short short short short short headcanons bc brain is thinking about the versatility of situations so i don't wanna section things off into one scenario. + obvious i have no idea what i'm doing so let me know and send that prt 2! I'll provide! Whatever makes you feel more represented. Anyway I researched that this kink comes in a wide variety in terms of on a scale of things so i just wrote what i read about. I'll make it longer the second time bc I think I've gotten ahold of what's going on in this scat community.

this was so fun to write so if anyone wants to send requests then lmk i love stigmatized fetishes.

-Mod Souda

Kazuichi Souda

❤ It's not crazy to him

❤ He loves being desired anyway.

❤ Such a natural biological process having such a sexual effect on you is almost amusing, in a prideful way.

❤ Serial hand washer afterwards

❤ Definitely more on the emitting side rather than the touchy feely side.

❤ Consuming what his body can produce, it's alluring. It makes your heart race, it fuels your arousal. It's almost addicting. You feel as if you're involved with him on a level that surpasses physical and mental desire.

❤ Ass eater ty. Likes his ass eaten too.

❤ Has def never have a rim job but fw it heavy after you do it to him.

❤ The feeling of his farts coming out is just to die for. He'll let you touch him, smell him, adore him.

❤ Will jack you off as you can smell the scents his body lets out.

x

Kokichi Ouma

❤ Completely open to it, it's not the worst thing on the planet.

❤ It's the sensations that was the first surprise. Warmth, goo, touch, the smell.

❤ Okay to laugh at himself. he will not be able to take it seriously and will crack jokes.

❤ He doesn't have many jokes about the farting aspect, he'll just keep his eyes on you, analyzing your reaction.

❤ Loves having stuff inserting inside of his ass, and as a gay man i can confirm that when a dick is pulled out of you really fast it literally feels like shitting. So that's basically just practice for this fetish.

❤ It being taboo is part of the fun.

❤ Is hella good at rim jobs.

❤ Has mastered the perfect angles when it comes to taking videos of him shitting.

x

Nagito Komaeda

❤ Definitely flattered that you're open to him about it.

❤ He loves stigma's so bam.

❤ He definitely already has that one worksheet of fetishes ready to go.

❤ Does he wash his hands? Srry LOL.

❤ Now he definitely doesn't mind things like shit smeared on surfaces or touching it in areas like that.

❤ Will give you blowjobs as he deficates. Could be in the 69 position too, whatever you prefer.

❤ Give him a crazy rim job and he'll be devoted to you.

❤ I feel like he's be into piss to shit is like the short step above that.

❤ Farting makes him feel girly in a way. It seems like such a strangely feminine thing to be lusted over.

x

Rantarou Amami

❤ He's sexy ash so good pick

❤ Stigma stigma stigma but who gaf. He travels anyway. It's more popular in different countries. He's not uneducated, just unpracticed.

❤ Hand washer

❤ He's like get away from the carpet please and thank you.

❤ Not used to being the bottom in any way, and having things inserted into him is such a strange feeling, especially being stretched to suck an extent. But having his body's natural bowel movement be what gets you off, then perfect. He doesn't have to do much.

❤ Seeing such a beautiful man doing something so dirty, rawr rawr rawr,

❤ The fart part is easier, surprisingly.

❤ When he's away, he'll take videos of him shitting for you <3 he loves you that much.

❤ But his body's odor in person is what you want the most.

[catfox13102ndblog]

Unamed Yandere Maria AU concept.

In the beginning, all that Maria felt was nothing, she didn't have any emotion in her. Just a blank state was all that she was at the moment.

The scientists told Maria that she had Neuro-Immune Deficency Syndrome. But the truth was... much more complicated. They didn't even know what she had to begin with.

Some of them were certainly creeped out by Maria as well, they didn't even want to approach her. and whenever they gave her medicine or food, they would just run away afterwards. Others however felt bad seeing a beautiful young girl like her in this state. Including Gerald.

With enough medicine, they figured that she'd get better, and luckly for them, it seemed like she was acting normal now. So it was off to make the next project. Project Shadow.

Gerald believed that Project Shadow could cure Maria of whatever illness she actually had, but since Maria was seemingly normal now, they could just give the project to the goverment once it's fully completed, regardless of what Gerald thought.

Despite this, Maria still remained on the ARK. Some of the scientists didn't think she was fully cured yet. They we're still a bit weiry about her.

With Shadow fresh out of the tube, they started to do some tests with him from time to time, and when they weren't doing tests, they just let him wander the ARK.

On one of these days, Shadow would meet Maria, who was suprisingly friendly to Shadow despite his appearence. The two would interact with each other a bit and Maria talked to him about wanting to visit Earth.

Until Shadow began to see another side to Maria...

Shadow begun to see Maria following him everywhere. Touching his quills. And hugging him quite a lot. He even saw Maria staring at him, even while he was trying to sleep. Shadow began to feel uncomfortable around her, and afraid too.

Eventually he talked to Gerald about it. To Gerald, it was just odd, he never saw his grandaughter act like that before. All that he did know was that Maria was obvously obsessed towards Shadow.

At first Shadow tried to avoid her, but it didn't work, so Shadow went for Plan B, and that was to just accept that she won't stop being near him.

Eventually Shadow asked Maria why she was doing all of this anyways. What's so special about him?

Maria's reponse... "I did it because I love you"

Shadow was shocked. He didn't really know how to respond to that. He then began to ponder a bit. Maybe Maria was just shy. Perhaps he just misunderstood her. Regardless, Shadow accepted her confession.

Unfortunetly, G.U.N decided to shut down the ARK, but not before information about Maria was leaked to G.U.N, apearently somebody had somehow found out the truth behind Maria's "illness". In reality, she had a condition of sorts that causes her to develop a strong attatchment to a love one, but if they were to be taken away, or if another person loves them, she'll go violent, usually resulting in her murdering the rival.

This info led to G.U.N commiting a little "experiment", first they evacuated the ARK's residents, then they secretly escorted Gerald and Shadow off of the ARK. With everything set in motion, they watched what would happen through the ARK's security cameras.

At first, Maria began looking for Shadow, calling out his name, and asking others where he was. Then Maria became convinced that the scientists took Shadow away from her. Then she just went insane, grabbing any sharp object she could find to kill the researchers. Nobody was left alive, and honestly, what could they even do?

With the ARK's staff now dead, G.U.N sent a spacecraft to give Maria a message:

"We have Shadow with us, he is unharmed and we promise we'll give him back to you, come with us, don't bring any weapons."

I probably could've done a lot better with this idea. But at least I tried to put some effort into it.

I'm not too sure what else will happen in this. Maybe it could just be up to interpretation, I guess I'll let you all think up ideas for this if you want.

[fandomshatepeopleofcolor]

I'm gonna rip my eyes off it gets WORSE.

Feyre apparently thinks that she has a chance of seducing Tarquin, the High Lord of the Summer Court, despite being basically a child in comparison to the hundreds of years of experience he more likely than not has over her. Rhysand insults them by pretending to think they poisoned his wine. Feyre thinks that Amren (the edgy white immortal goddess of hot topic) is 'going to eat' Varian, the prince and captain of the guard of the Summer Court, because he DARED look her in the eye without fear of like. some half-assed ~snarky~ remark. Admit it, Fairy. You're just pissed 'cause you're too much of a pussy and every new being you meet makes you want to wet your pants, retch, or both.

Btw, don't think I didn't miss how this is the first court that's not introduced as fear-inducing or awe-inspiring, and how every-fucking-one looks the same:

"The five other people behind the High Lord of Summer swapped frowns of varying severity. Like their lord, their skin was dark, their hair in shades of white or silver, as if they had lived under the bright sun their entire lives. Their eyes, however, were of every color." - Chapter 32.

('their eyes were of every color' doesn't sound as if each one of them has a different eye color, it sounds as if they have RAINBOW EYES ffs learn to write at the very least).

Meanwhile, everyone on the night court and spring court is given a detailed description of every atom of their pasty-white skin. Hell, we got a detailed recount of the bare centimeter of skin that Amren's Jazmin disguise shows in this chapter, but I don't even think there's at least one paragraph deficated to the clothes of the people from the summer court, when SJM made a point of saying how they are all different because of their culture. blah blah blah. kill me now. ~mod ara

Sarah J. Maas: “I’m going to make the people of the Summer Court black, and then I’m going to describe their attempts at courtesy to my white self-insert as ‘groveling,’ because everyone knows that’s not at all racist, and it doesn’t have any kind of mightey whitey implication, since said self-insert also saved the lives of everyone in Prythia.

Also Feyre’s going to imitate the other assholes of the night court and be completely rude because like, that’s what they do, nevermind that she isn’t even one of them.

Btw, they are going to take advantage of the fact that Rhysand murdered their previous High Lord months ago and the new one didn’t have time to settle properly into his role yet to rob them of whatever they please, not just the Magical Item, because like, Old and Rude and Feeds on Blood For No Reason Other Than I Think It’s Edgy wanted to. #representation” ~mod ara

[intersex-support]

I was wondering if any of the mods could hear me out because I'm truly at my wit's end here. I'm AFAB and in my early 20s and have never had a period. All of my other parts have developed fine (though I think my vagina might be a tad on the small side). I'm currently diagnosed as having PCOS with hyperandrogenism, but I feel like my issues go further than that. For starters, I've been prescribed multiple strong doses of HRT and none of them have caused me to have a period. I also have a very thin lining on my womb (which I've been told doesn't align with PCOS) and a resistance to insulin not caused type 2 diabetes (which makes me believe I actually have NCAH instead since I had an early puberty too). I've also recently had a karyotyping done and the results on the letter I got said I have 46XY, which I know isn't what I should have but to be completely honest I think that's just a mistake, though I'm definitely planning on confronting my doctors about it. I was just wondering if the mods had any idea about what's wrong with me? Being on this treatment and not seeing any results for years now has caused me so much grief and I feel like I can't trust doctors anymore because I've been shamed and violated by them throughout. I'd much rather hear what other intersex people have to say on it, since the only thing I'm certain about is my hyperandrogenism.

So we have to start off by saying we can't diagnose you, but we can give you some ideas about what could be going on. None of us are medical experts, but the mod team does know a fair amount about intersex variations and we worked together for this answer! Intersex diagnosis can be so complicated, and unfortunately our answer might just leave you with some more questions. However, we’re going to try to break it down into possible scenarios that could be your intersex variations. We’re also going to rule out things that it could not be, in hopes that this helps narrow the search. It could be any of these suggestions, or none of them, but hopefully this can help you in your research!

First off, I agree that it is most likely not just PCOS-the things you’ve described seem like there is a lot more going on than that. Oftentimes, PCOS is just the first thing doctors diagnose with and it can be a sign that there is other stuff going on.

Second off, I’m curious if you know for certain if you have ovaries, since you didn’t mention it. I’m assuming that you do, because it sounds like you’ve done a lot of testing and have been through a lot of treatment, but let me know if you don’t have ovaries, because that would change some of the things I described.

Third off, in my experience with karyotype, it's not common for it to be wrong, but you're not wrong to seek a second opinion.  So with that in mind, I’m going to walk you through what the possibilities are if it is accurate and you do have 46 XY. It could potentially be Swyer Syndrome (also known as XY gonadal dysgenesis). Swyer syndrome is when you have 46 XY and a vagina, uterus, and oftentimes an enlarged clitoris, but no ovaries. People with Swyer Syndrome also do not have a period without HRT. However, the thing that does seem to make that a little unlikely is that usually, people who go on HRT with Swyer syndrome get a period. With Swyer Syndrome, you also don’t go through puberty without HRT, so if you had puberty before HRT, that might be another sign that it’s not Swyer syndrome. Also, the fact that you’ve said you have hyperandrogenism also makes me pause-as far as I can tell, hyperandrogenism is not associated with Swyer Syndrome at all.  Still, it could be a possibility, although I’m not sure it’s a very likely one.

There’s also a chance it could be Androgen Insensitivy syndrome, but I’ve gotten conflicting information about whether or not you can have a womb and AIS-some sources say that you can, some say that you can’t. So that’s something defintely worth asking a doctor about. But with AIS, you have 46XY, can have a uterus and a vagina with PAIS, but never start your period. Also, although it seems counterintuitive, hyperandrogenism is actually something associated with AIS, because your testosterone levels will be in the “normal” range for “male” people and diagnoses of hyperandrogenism is made by comparing it to the “female” levels. People with AIS generally have a clitoris and vagina, although it can be more shallow sometimes. If you had AIS, you would also have internal testes that could be found through an ultrasound, if I’m not mistaken. I’m really unsure about whether or not you can have a womb with AIS though-most of the sources said you can’t, but two sources said you could. So that’s something you defintely need an expert’s opinon on. 

We can also rule out 5-alpha reductase deficency, another 46XY variation, because you have a uterus and a womb. I’m assuming you would have mentioned if you didn’t have a uterus, but let me know if I’m assuming wrong!

Here’s what I think might actually be likely: 46 XX/ 46 XY chimerism. This is a really rare intersex variation, so statistically it is not likely, but because of what you’ve described, I think it actually is a possibility for you. With 46 XX/ 46 XY, you essentially have both XX and XY cells in your body. So this doesn’t always show up on karotype tests, because the way the random distribution of cells work, they might just test some of the XX cells or some of the XY cells. Chimerism has such a wide range of physical presentation that it can look like almost anything. It can look like having “typical” AFAB presentation with vagina, uterus, and womb, but maybe with factors such as a shallow vagina or a larger clitoris. This could also be a cause of hyperandrogenism. This could also explain why you don’t have periods. If you were interested in persuing diagnosis of this, you would likely have to get more karotyping done with a wider sampling of cells. 

Another option I think might be possible is mixed gonadal dygensis, which is also known as 45,X/46,XY mosaicism. This is also another statistically rare one, so doctors tend not to like to test for it, but I still think it could be a possibility for you. It’s similiar to 46 XX/ 46 XY chimerism in that you have two different types of cells, but it’s different in the way it’s formed and it’s due to losing the Y chromosome in some cells. Also like chimerism, it has a wide range of physical presentation-you can have a womb, vagina, uterus, but also could have mixed gonadal tissue and have both ovarian tissue and testicular tissue, which would be a reason that you wouldn’t have periods. Virilization/hyperandrogenism is also associated with this in AFAB people, which would explain that. 

None of the variations I’ve listed are specifically associated with insulin resistance, but hyperandrognism is associated with it and hormones are honestly so weird with intersex people, so there could defintely be a connection there. 

Now I’m going to talk about what the options would be if you didn’t have 46 XY. 

You’re absolutely right that NCAH could be a possibility that explains hyperandrogenism and insulin resistance. I’d actually lean more towards full CAH because completely absent periods are more prevalent in CAH than in NCAH. So if you don’t have 46XY, I’d say it is really likely that you could have CAH. 

However, CAH cannot be comorbid with 46XY if you have a uterus. There is a type of CAH called lipoid CAH that does present in people with XY, but if that is the case, you would not have a uterus, and the inner vagina would be absent so what you would have for a vagina would be extremely shallow. So having CAH and 46XY would all depend on whether or not you have a uterus.

I don’t think it’s likely to be other intersex variations like Klinefelters, Turner’s, or MRKH, becuase you don’t have the physical characteristics of those or the karotype. 

So honestly, if your karotype was incorrect, the two most likely options are going to be CAH or PCOS, and I would lean towards CAH. If your karotype was correct, I’d think that chimerism or mosaicism might actually be the most likely options, but that would require further karotyping

That was a lot of information, so please feel free to come back and ask any more questions, or just if you need support and want to vent. This whol process can be so confusing, and I’m really sorry that you’ve been shamed and violated by your doctors. You deserved better, and you always have a right to be respected and support in the diagnosis and treatment process. I’ve been there and I really feel for you, and I want you to know that you’re not alone in this, even if that doesn’t help solve everything. You desreve to find answers about your own body, and I know how hard and stressful it can be what you just don’t know what’s going on.There’s a lot of intersex people who get it and who are here to support you through this, and you are welcome in the intersex community. (If you want to come off anon, I’m happy to give you a link to an intersex discord server I’m in-it’s a really supportive place and you’d be welcome there.) 

Please feel free to ask as many questions as you need, or just to vent! We are here for you and we really hope that you’re able to find some answers 💜💜💜 

-Mod E