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aventurineswife Ā· 1 day ago
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hear me out: sunday x reader, but when Sunday was Bronze Melodia and reader is someone who Gopher (and by extension, Sunday bc yā€™know grooming.) considers a sinner. Sunday finds himself falling for reader, but kinda mentally battling between love and what he was taught. aka religious trauma sunday ig (bonus points if he argues w gophers nasty ahh)
u can decide what to do with the rest :D just a lil concept i wanted to throw out
"Take me to church, I'll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies."
Summary: You are deemed as a "sinner" by the Oak Family, led by Gopher Wood, and is frequently summoned to the Dreamscape. Sunday, once a revered figure as Bronze Melodia, is tasked with guiding lost souls, but he begins to question the teachings heā€™s spent his life upholding. As he finds himself drawn to you, his inner battle between duty and newfound emotions intensifies. Torn between his role and the love heā€™s beginning to feel, Sunday faces a difficult choiceā€”one that challenges the very core of his existence within the Oak Family.
Tags: Sunday x Reader, Religious Trauma, Forbidden Love, Angst, Slow Burn, Emotional Struggle, Conflicted Feelings.
Warnings: Religious themes (exploration of indoctrination and guilt), Emotional conflict (internal struggles, self-doubt, and identity crisis), Mentorship/Manipulation, Angst (heavy emotional tension and heartache), Mild violence(?).
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In the Dreamscape, Sunday is Bronze Melodiaā€”a revered figure among Penacony's people, tasked with guiding lost souls under the Oak Family's watchful eye. You've become his frequent visitor, someone Gopher Wood has labeled a ā€œsinner,ā€ a title that weighs heavily on your shoulders and darkens your interactions in the Dreamscape. Gopherā€™s sermons have painted you as a threat to the Order, yet there's something about you that draws Sunday closer, unsettling the foundations of everything heā€™s been taught.
It begins in quiet moments: Sunday, reserved yet diligent, listens as you confide your thoughts and fears. You sense his inner conflict in the way his hands tremble ever so slightly as they rest on the pages of his book, the way his gaze occasionally softens before hardening again. He's polite, distant as Bronze Melodia, yet thereā€™s an undeniable pull between youā€”one that frightens and fascinates him.
One evening, when the weight of Gopherā€™s teachings grows too heavy, Sunday finds himself seeking solace in your presence. As you speak, heā€™s caught between his role and the truth that he feels stirring within. You challenge the ideals he's held all his life, quietly unraveling the bindings of his loyalty to Gopherā€™s ideals. But still, heā€™s torn. Heā€™s been raised to believe youā€™re dangerous, yet your gentleness speaks louder than Gopherā€™s condemnations.
Sunday canā€™t help but wrestle with his emotions in moments of solitude, replaying your words and Gopher's warnings over and over. The idea that love and care could exist outside of the Orderā€™s defined ā€œpurityā€ haunts him, conflicting with the strict doctrines heā€™s internalized. Finally, unable to stay silent, he confronts Gopher.
In a tense exchange, Sunday questions Gopher's labeling of you as a ā€œsinner,ā€ a term that has started to feel hollow in the face of what he feels for you. Gopher's response is calm but chilling, reminding Sunday of his place, of the Order that has made him who he is. Yet Sunday doesnā€™t back down entirely, holding onto the fragments of his love for you. In the end, Gopher leaves him with a choiceā€”one that could seal his fate within the Oak Family or cast him out as an exile.
Sunday returns to you, conflicted but resolute. He confides in you, sharing the depth of his battle against the values ingrained in him. Your presence becomes a grounding force, something that feels like hope amidst his turmoil. While heā€™s not ready to completely turn away from the Dreamscape and the Oak Family, he begins to imagine a world where he can both honor his beliefs and explore the connection that has grown between you.
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(Art credit to @oversaltedcat on Twitter/X)
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sergle Ā· 1 year ago
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please elaborate on the though about stealing a dog post
okay hear me out. and this is for small rural towns specifically. you know when you see that someone has a dog tied out in their yard (unfenced yard) (cute dog) (alone) and it's like a little puppy. and or. clearly a dog that is not meant to be a Yard Dog. like it's a pretty dog of a breed that's like, this is some long-haired fluffy breed of Something that is so not a keep-outside kind of dog. or just a really sweet dog that clearly needs more attention. you know. you know. and do you know when you're like. I could just take that dog....... my city now...... this could just be my dog now...............
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hinamie Ā· 1 month ago
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a tribute to celebrate the finale of the manga that has meant so much to me these past few years
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angelsdean Ā· 6 months ago
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ruthlessly deleting old 2021/2022 posts (not by me) from my dean studies tag like *click* un-incorporating that from my beliefs system! also the way SO many posts have me like ok uh-huh good aaand then say one completely wrong thing that loses me. it's so many posts.
#it's usually when they randomly drop some line of fanon. like saying dean has never admitted to being wrong in his life#or never expressed an emotion or been vulnerable or doesn't Talk About Feelings or is super duper RepressedTM#like i'm sorry. have you watched the show. oh and have you taken off the sammy POV goggles first?#bc this guy is always crying and being vulnerable and talking about his feelings. he is self-aware.#he may not always want to talk to sam abt things! but he sure does talk about things with other people#do i need to reblog the compilation posts AGAIN?#(also re: his sexualiy? AWARE. sorry i saw him flirt and be flustered by so many men. he knows how he feels.)#and then 'first time ever admitting to being wrong' this one came from a post abt dean's prayer in the trap#like i'm sorry but first of all. dean apologizes more than any other character on the show. there are hard numbers on this.#people have tracked this on spreadsheets. i think ilarual is one of them.#and often he is apologizing for things that aren't even his fault! but he still feels responsible for bc he's been made to feel that way#his whole life!!#other characters *cough samandcas *cough* apologizing Less doesn't mean they've Done less things wrong#it just means they're not owning up to it and brushing it under the rug. something both do frequently.#anyways. aside from apologies. dean also has no problem admitting he's wrong y'know when he's actually wrong#which is less often than you'd think bc he has pretty good instincts and intuition and often suspects things which turn out to be Right#but anyways. another thing abt the trap prayer is. i don't think cas Needed to be forgiven#i think dean was justified in feeling angry w cas over the circumstances leading to the Death of His Mother! totally normal grief response!#i think cas also understands dean to be someone who needs time to process and deal with his feelings (he says as much to jack)#however. despite me not think dean Needs to forgive cas. the thing is. with dean when it comes to cas the forgiveness is implicit#when he says /of course i forgive you/ and in the cut like /of course i wanted you to stay/ like. yes he was mad and dealing with grief#but also. yes cas was already forgiven even back then. he just needed Time to work through the feelings#anyways i think dean says he 'forgives' cas bc it's what CAS needed to hear to stop feeling guilty and dean gives him that closure#but i also think cas was already forgiven even in dean's anger. he wants him there always. i'd rather have you. we can fix this. etc etc#a lot of tags for a non-rebloggable post ajksdfs maybe i'll make these into a real post sometime#vic.txt#dean and feelings#so i can find this all again later
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sadhorsegirl Ā· 1 year ago
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fuck it posting moiraine playlist on main
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phagodyke Ā· 4 months ago
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was gonna say smth else but this turned into a vent sorry everyone just ignore. typical weekend post on this blog u know how it is here we gošŸ‘
#wild ik so many ppl getting married meanwhile im over here struggling to convince myself my friends even care abt me or want me around#pathetic to admit but i cant even fantasise abt someone loving me bc im too insecure n emotionally unstable#my mind just shoots the idea down like whoa. unrealistic. ur incapable of expressing or receiving affection in any way that matters#no matter how badly u want to... and even if someone did well u wouldnt believe them most of the time#gotta get out of the fucking labyrinth first i couldnt inflict this shit on anyone i cared abt#but it makes me so desperately sad sometimes i dont know how im ever going to get out of this ive been trying for years and years#and im a little better at it snd i dont feel like this all of the time i know it just comes around and itll pass again#but im tired of being in so much emotional pain so frequently. and shouldering it so alone. theres such a disconnect between myself and#others and i dont know how to bridge that i don't know how to stop feeling so isolated and unwanted !!!!!! im trying so hard#it doesnt even bother me w relative strangers in my life like i dont get insecure at all around them i like meeting new ppl#bc theres like. no expectations i guess. like ik they dont care abt me personally and idk them well enough to do that either#and its fun but it doesnt satisfy needs that i have like i need to feel close + connected to ppl i need to care abt them + feel cared for#but as soon as i do start to care abt ppl it gets all tangled and i end up getting rly badly hurt over and over. thru no fault but my own#bc im constantly alienating myself and bc i struggle so much w shit like physical affection which is frustratingly rly critical for me!!!!#it wouldnt fucking matter if i didnt like or want affection ik some ppl are fine without i wish it worked like that for me#but nope instead i have to be constantly messed up over my complete fucking inability to express myself in any form#and ik it makes everyone around me so uncomfortable so it just becomes self reinforcing and eventually they drift and leave me behind#and i just do that over and over and over and every time ill tell myself ill do better ill try harder and itll get easier and someone will#and it happens again and right now im at the stage where the abandonment fear is starting to kick in which is awful n paralysing#and usually a precursor to actually being abandoned ehich is always my own fault bc i start behaving so erratically out of fear or defense#its self fulfilling and im trying. im trying so hard not to let it overwhelm me again and not to start acting out and freaking ppl out#and im coping with it okay i think but just hurts me a lot its all internal my rejection sensitivity is gradually ticking up and up#and argh!!!!!!!!! and some days im okay and some days its like this and i dont know what todo when its like this im so tired and in pain#its not even that bad today tbf. once im done typing this to get it out ill be able to do smth else and distract mysrlf for a bit#and then calling friends later too so exposure therapy innit. but itll be fun and i love them but i will probably also feel very bad after#or even possibly during but thats okay ill still manage fine im not going to let it interfere i dont want it controlling my fucking life#i am going to have a nice time and be okay despite it all. even if i do have to fucking battle this every day forever#and even if it stops me living my life to the extent i want and feeling as ok as i want i just have to come to terms with and be ok w it#and im not going to be!!! a fucking asshole abt it!!! i dont want to hurt anyone else thats the most important thing no matter how i feel#thr rest is all secondary and ik i cant help a few little bumps here and there but trying hardest to keep it separate its not negotiable
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lesenbyan Ā· 4 months ago
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Scientists: want so badly for adult children who are friends with and/or still dependant on parents for money or a roof to be Bad that they are intentionally looking for detriment in the study results
Study results: so overwhelmingly positive they can't actually find the data needed to twist the narrative
Scientists: >:|
#i read an article#the article was pro kid/parent friendship and dependance bc MANY studies have shown that's beneficial to both sides#but people want SO BADLY to believe the fiction of Independence and it's necessarity that they think parents who still#care about and frequently talk to their grown kids are causing codependency and setting them up for failure and like#not inherently#living with my mother was super beneficial and i still would be if he wasn't anti ever living in MO again and i anti livinf in TX until#it's again a state i can comfortably live in as a trans person#like if i lived with my dad and step mom there'd be reason to question bc while he's gotten better she's just as bad#and expects me to sit down and take emotional abuse and revisionist history from my father's memories of abusive days#whereas dad will thank me for calling him out once he gets over the understandable moment of hurt in realizing what he thoughr was helping#one of his kids was actually hugely painful and detrimental#but also me asking my father for money isn't a danger to my independence it's a sign of the failure of the system#it's not a ''failure to launch'' it's a 'the system and economy are so broken it is literally impossible to get on your feet on your own'#like come off it#look at other societies and multigenerational homes#are they suffering for it? no! then why would we be????#like if you raise a child and all but evict them from your life when they're 18 then like. do you actually love them? do you actually care?#or did you feel like children was an obligation and now it's over and they only matter for holidays and birthdays?#bc the latter is much more of an issue than adult kids '''''boomeranging''''''
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nomaishuttle Ā· 1 year ago
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btw controversial but fuckk ptsd dude yohre telling me judt bc my parents shouldnt ever have been parents now i have to be fucked up for the rest of my life .
#i know like..coping mechanisms and ris8ng above and learning to live with it but like its fucking stupid and unfair bc im never gonna stop#having ptsd yk. my episodes might get less frequent i might build happier memories but jm always gonna have these memory blocks and trigger#s and nightmares like. forever. im never gonna get to have had a normal childhood thats the most fuckedbup thing ever#like ik this is whiny but like. why. why me what did i do to deserve that childhood. not that any kid deserves abusive childhoods obviously#it sounds like im like ermmm there r wayyy worse kids who shouldve been the ones to go to the zoo šŸ’€ but like ykwim. why does#thus have to happen to so many ppl i hate it i hate it. i wish i could just Actually forget everything instead of just like. not rly#remembering it but Knowing it..yk. i know everything that happened to me even if its all blocked out#and i still feel like. the effects of it even the stuff thats jncredibly hazy to me. and jm never not gojng to feel that. my personality hs#literally been fucking shaped by the childhood i have and like. yes you can 'change' your personality a bit and your choices blah blah blah#but like. even with that. im still always gonna be like. my first impulse will always be distrust and doubt and fear. even if i train#myself not to Act on those emotions i still will always feel them. im always going to expect people to leave even if they dont even if i#dont let myself push them away its something im always going to be terrified of in the back of my mind. im never gojng to have#proper social skills bc i fully missed out on that stage of development im never going to be like. at the same level as my peers bc i#missed out on those skills. sigh. ik ik ik feeljng inhuman and feeljng different from everybody else is a jniversal thing but i truly think#im like. im missing something that everybody else seems to have and i dont even know what it is but i know i dont have it and everyone#can tell j dont have it and it fucking. sucks . basically
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gays4vulo Ā· 11 days ago
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Making food bc Iā€™m hungry after work but also Iā€™m finishing my tea & now I just want to kind of go to bed bc Iā€™m showered and comfy & itā€™s like damn. Canā€™t win ever
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javierpena-inatacvest Ā· 9 months ago
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Cramps
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Summary: After going off of birth control, your periods have been a little more intense than you're used to. What starts out as a stressful morning between you and your husband, very quickly turns into a night that bodes very well for the both of you.
Paring: Husband Frankie Morales x Wife f!reader (no use of y/n)
Word Count: 5.4K on the dot (idk how we got here)
Warnings: SMUT (18+) PERIOD SEX, unprotected p in v sex (do better, but also they want a baby so), vaginal fingering, oral (f receiving, again, you're on your period but our pussy eating king Fransisco Morales is an unstoppable force of nature), creampie, praise kink, big fat nasty breeding kink (it's who I am now, I won't apologize for it), Frankie's got a NASTY mouth, Frankie is the best husband, reader is on her period/has period symptoms, talks about family planning/not being on birth control, use of nicknames (hermosa, quierda, cariƱo), reader has no physical descriptions besides that she can wear Frankie's clothes
A/N: Well... This was gonna be a drabble... and then it was just gonna be fluff.... and then it was gonna be just some implied smut... and now, we're here??? Idk, don't ask me šŸ„“ self indulgent bc I just finished my period (and my periods have been whack since stopping bc) and what better way to heal myself than imagining what Frankie would be like taking care of you šŸ„ŗ also pls be nice to me this is my first time writing Frankie and I'm v nervous EEK I hope you enjoy!!! sorry Javi bby, I still love u
Bitchy.Ā 
You wished you had a better word to describe your mood for today, but truth be told, bitchy was by far the most accurate.Ā 
You and Frankie were hoping to start trying for your first baby soon, and had recently gone off your birth control after your doctor had told you it may take a few months for your body to regulate itself before you had a better chance at getting pregnant. Your doctor had alsoĀ  warned you about many of the symptoms and side effects that stopping the pill could have, one of those being becoming more aware of your emotions and mood swings throughout your cycle. That, you were prepared for.Ā 
What you were not prepared for, was to feel like an absolute psychopath in the days leading up to your period.Ā 
Ā Your cycle hadĀ  been wonky the past few months as your body began to sort itself out- you had a feeling your period was probably about to start soon, but hadnā€™t thought much about it, considering your terrible and grouchy mood had overshadowed it. You had tried your best to pull yourself together the past few days, chalking up your grumpiness to long hours at work, or just being in a weird funk, but today, you woke up with a fire in your gut, ready to fight, and poor Frankie was about to be your punching bag.Ā 
Sweet Frankie had been nothing short of a saint when it came to just about anything, but dealing with your newly heightened emotions right before your period really should have earned him some sort of Presidential Medal of Bravery, considering that your newly discovered highs and lows while PMS-ing were just as frightening as any time he had spent during his time in the military.Ā 
Unfortunately for your husband, despite his best efforts, he had been on your nerves all morning. Not because he was really doing anything wrong, but because the little things that you were normally so good about letting go, or the patience you frequently had seemed to have flown out the window, and you were convinced that if Frankie even breathed the wrong way, you were going to absolutely lose it.Ā 
So when unsuspecting Frankie decided to ask you a simple request about after work plans, there was very little he could have done to prepare for your response.Ā 
ā€œMorning, Hermosa.ā€ Frankie cooed, emerging into the kitchen, his hand rustling through his untamed, sleepy brown curls as he let out a yawn and a stretch, the slight softness of his stomach peeking out between his t-shirt and pajama pants as he raised his arms above his head before settling behind you. He wrapped himself around your waist, pressing a gentle kiss into your shoulder as you finished putting the last of your lunch in your bag for work, trying to force yourself to focus on his sweet good morning, rather than the empty bowl of cereal in the sink that had greeted you first thing when you woke up, already starting you off on the wrong foot in your already irritable mood.Ā 
ā€œMorning, babe.ā€ You grinned, forcing yourself to forgo the annoyance hidden behind your smile as you pecked a quick kiss on Frankieā€™s lips before gathering the rest of your things for the day scattered across the kitchen table. ā€œSorry, I didnā€™t have time to make you breakfast this morning because I was running late, but thereā€™s extra scrambled eggs on the stove if you want them. Iā€™m really sorry, Frankie, I gotta head out, have a good day, Iā€™ll see you later okay?ā€ You sighed, slinging your work bag over your shoulder, your hands full of your coffee mug, water bottle and keys, your cluttered grip and running behind schedule only adding to your frustration.Ā 
ā€œAll good, Querida, no worries. Hey, actually baby, before you leave,ā€ He paused, setting down the coffee mug he was just about ready to take a sip of, as if a little lightbulb had just gone off in his brain, ā€œdo you mind picking up stuff to make that really good buffalo chicken dip for Bennyā€™s tonight? I told ā€˜em weā€™d bring like, an appetizer or something, if thatā€™s okay.ā€Ā 
For Frankieā€™s sake, you couldnā€™t have been more thankful that you had your back turned to him, because if looks could kill, Frankie Morales would have been a dead man.Ā 
Every rational part of your brain knew that even though his request perhaps wasnā€™t the best timing, stopping by the store and making dip to bring to Bennyā€™s for game night really wasnā€™t that much time or effort out of your day. But today, it seemed like every part of your brain but the rational one seemed to be functioning properly, and the raging, irrational part might as well have heard that Frankie wanted you to prepare and cook a Thanksgiving meal for 74 after you got home from work.Ā 
You took a deep breath, your grip tightening around the items in your hand, praying with every bone in your body that someway or another, you had misheard your husband.Ā 
ā€œTonight? As in, like, today, after I get home from work?ā€ You questioned, trying to do your best to keep your tone from sounding too condescending.Ā 
ā€œYeah, we donā€™t have to be there until 7, I just donā€™t think Iā€™m gonna have time to since I probably wonā€™t be outta work until 6:30.ā€ He shrugged nonchalantly, taking another swig of his coffeeĀ 
Oh yeah, youā€™d heard him right. Ā 
You let out a deep sigh, even more over dramatic than you had intended it to be, arms crossed over your chest and stark frown spread across your face as you turned towards Frankie.Ā 
ā€œOh, perfect! Thatā€™s a great thing for me to find out about at 7:45 A.M. the day of, Frank!ā€ Your voice oozed with ferocious sarcasm, now slamming your things back down onto the table to run your hands over your face. ā€œNo, thatā€™s great, because thereā€™s nothing I wanted to do more than to come home and make buffalo chicken dip instead of all the other shit I needed to do today before we left! Amazing! Thank you!ā€Ā 
At this point, you were almost positive that if your eyes rolled any further, theyā€™d be in the back of your skull, letting out another angry huff as you shook your head at Frankie, who was looking absolutely petrified as he leaned back against the counter, eyes darting to the floor to avoid yours, running his hand over the wispy curls at the nape of his neck. Frankie began to stammer, trying to defend himself from your wrath.Ā 
ā€œHermosa, Iā€™m- Iā€™m sorry? I know itā€™s last minute, but you normally make it every time we go over there, I just- I figured itā€™d be easy for you to do? You can get something else, or I can try to stop by the store really quick on the way home, I just might-ā€Ā 
ā€œNope, you want buffalo chicken dip, apparently Iā€™m making buffalo chicken dip!ā€ You groaned, collecting everything back into your hands, swearing under your breath as you tried to balance everything in your grip. ā€œJesus, okay, I need to go to work, just- I donā€™t even know. I gotta go, Frankie.ā€Ā 
ā€œQuerida, I-ā€ Frankie pleaded, beginning to trail behind you as you made your way to the front door.Ā 
ā€œFrankie, whatever, itā€™s fine! Iā€™ll make the stupid dip! I have to go to work, Iā€™ll see you later.ā€ You could feel the muscles in your jaw beginning to clench as you gritted your teeth, trying with everything in you to keep from exploding as you headed out of the house. Without even a kiss goodbye, you left Frankie in the doorway, watching you throw your things in the car and slam the door behind you as you drove down the driveway.Ā 
But as soon as you were on the road and your house was out of view, you could instantly feel the tears beginning to well in your eyes, slowly streaming down your cheeks as you began to sob, wondering why you had ruined the morning over as stupid as an appetizer, and even worse, that you had been a complete asshole to your husband about it.Ā 
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You couldnā€™t have been more thankful that work had been quiet today- no meetings on the schedule, and no one coming to bother you, leaving you plenty of peace and quiet to continue sulking and brooding in your unpleasant mood.Ā 
Right around lunch time, you found yourself eating alone in your office, wishing your lunch was about ten times saltier and chocolatier than it was, crying to yourself as you watched a video of a dog meeting its new human sibling for the first time.
Just as you were beginning to pack up the rest of your lunch and start back up with your work, you felt a terrible twinge in your lower stomach that had you just about keeled over in pain, followed by that all too familiar feeling in your underwear.Ā 
Frantically scrambling, you reached into your bag to pull out a tampon, hurriedly shuffling to the nearest bathroom, only to reveal the murder scene equivalent as you pulled down your pants.Ā 
Your period had come.Ā Ā 
In that moment, as much as you were dreading the pain and misery that was the next few days to come, you couldnā€™t also help but feel a slight sense of relief, realizing that you were in fact, not actually a crazy person for the way you were feeling, you were just PMS-ing out of your mind. You couldnā€™t also help but feel absolutely awful for your unjustified freak out at your husband this morning, your heart sinking with guilt as you made your way back to your desk, immediately grabbing your phone to text Frankie.Ā 
ā€œHeyā€¦ Iā€™m so sorry about this morning. What you were asking me to do wasnā€™t a big deal at all and I totally freaked out on you. My period just started, I think thatā€™s why Iā€™ve been such a bitch this morning. Iā€™m sorry, Frankie, I love you.šŸ’• ā€Ā 
It was almost instantly after you hit send that the reply bubble popped up in your message, your heart pounding anxiously waiting for your husbandā€™s reply.Ā 
ā€œItā€™s okay, I kind of had a feeling šŸ˜‰ babe, you werenā€™t being a bitch- I should have talked to you about it sooner. Shitty timing on my part. Iā€™m sorry. I love you too, Querida.ā€Ā 
Before you could even respond, another message popped up below his first.Ā 
ā€œDonā€™t worry about going to the store or making anything tonight. I already texted Benny and told him we couldnā€™t come. We can spend the night in, just the two of us. I can pick up takeout on the way home if you want and we can pick a movie to watch.ā€Ā 
You could feel your frustrated facade beginning to melt away as your lips shifted from a pursed frown to a small smirk reading Frankieā€™s text, your thumbs quickly tapping across the screen of your phone to reply.Ā 
ā€œThank you. Youā€™re the best.ā€Ā 
ā€œOf course. Hopefully none of your co-workers ask you to make buffalo chicken dip before you leave šŸ˜˜ā€Ā 
ā€œOh shut up, meanie.ā€Ā 
ā€œJust kidding. Have a good rest of your day, love you.Ā šŸ’™
ā€œLove you too. šŸ¤ā€Ā 
Although the rest of your day was nowhere near enjoyable, given the fact you felt like you were getting punched repeatedly in the uterus and your personality resembled that of Oscar the Grouch, you knew that your night in with Frankie was your light at the end of the tunnel, and only needed to make it a few more hours before there was at least some sweet relief finally headed your way.Ā 
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Despite the constant stabbing pain in your lower stomach and back, your drive home from work had you in much better spirits than your drive there, now not only having an explanation as to why you had felt like such a mess, but also knowing the rest of your night was going to be dedicated to nothing but cuddling up in your comfiest clothes and snuggling up next to Frankie on the couch.Ā 
As you pulled down your street, you were surprised to see Frankieā€™s truck already parked in the driveway, wondering what he was doing at home almost an hour earlier than he had mentioned he would be this morning. Gathering all of your things out of the back of your car, you quietly entered your home, confusion scrunching in your brow as you called out for your husband.Ā 
ā€œFrankie? Babe, are you home?ā€Ā 
Before you could even kick off your shoes or hang up your coat, Frankie had already appeared at the front door to greet you, boyish grin spread across his face as he grabbed your things out of your hand, carefully placing them on your entryway table before engulfing you in a bear hug, his broad arms wrapping around your body and pulling you closer into his chest.Ā 
You could feel all the muscles in your body instantly relax as your face rested against the soft cotton of his t-shirt, soaking in the familiar woody and savory scent of him, letting yourself be consumed by every ounce of his embrace.Ā 
ā€œHi Hermosa.ā€ Frankie cooed, pressing a soft kiss against your temple, running his hands up and down your back as you looked up at his sweet brown eyes shining down at you.Ā 
ā€œWhat are you doing home so early? I mean, not that Iā€™m mad about it at all, I just thought you said that you had to work until 6:30 and-ā€Ā 
ā€œTold my boss I had to head out early for a family emergency.ā€ Frankie smirked, laughing at you playfully rolling your eyes from his so-called excuse.Ā 
ā€œLast time I checked, your wife being a grump because sheā€™s bleeding out of her cooch doesnā€™t classify as a family emergency, Fransisco.ā€ You teased, giving him a little shove, making the two of you giggle in tandem.Ā 
ā€œEh, close enough. Iā€™m really sorry about this morning, querida. I was a dick for not talking to you about plans beforehand and just assuming you could go do it. It wasnā€™t fair of me.ā€Ā 
ā€œItā€™s okay, Frankie. What you were asking for wasnā€™t a big deal and I made it one because Iā€™ve been a psycho all day. Iā€™m sorry, too.ā€Ā 
ā€œWell,ā€ Frankie paused, pressing another kiss onto your cheek, the width of his palm gently cradling your jaw as you stared up at him and his sympathetic smile, ā€œnumber one, you are not a psycho. I canā€™t imagine how uncomfortable you must feel right now, so even if you were, I wouldnā€™t blame you one bit. Number two,ā€ he paused again, shifting his kiss from your cheek to your lips, his thumb delicately swiping across your skin, ā€œyouā€™re my wife and I love you more than anything, and if I can take a little time off to help make you feel better, itā€™s the least I can do. So, why donā€™t you go change into something comfortable, and when you get back down here, I will have pizza and ice cream, whatever movie you wanna watch, and a back rub ready for you, okay?ā€Ā Ā Ā 
ā€œOkay. Thank you, Frankie. God, youā€™re the best.ā€ You grinned, pressing up on your tiptoes to let your mouth meet Frankieā€™s, the plush pout of his bottom lip swiping across yours, lingering just long enough to let the butterflies in your stomach begin to swirl, heat creeping through your cheeks in the tenderness of the moment.
ā€œOf course, cariƱo. Te amo. Now go get changed.ā€ With one last peck on his lips, you wiggled out of Frankieā€™s grasp to make your way up the stairs, grinning to see that your husband had already set out your favorite of his oversized sweatshirts and sweatpants, neatly folded on the bed for you to grab, quickly shuffling out of your uncomfortable work attire and exchanging it for Frankieā€™s clothes, your smile growing even wider at the feeling of perpetually being wrapped up in the essence of him.Ā 
As you made your way back downstairs to meet Frankie, you found your heart skipping a beat again to see that the better part of the living room had been turned into a cozy sanctuary- lights dim and candles lit, both parts of your couch squished together, filled with every pillow and blanket you owned, and Frankie sitting in the middle, giant box of pizza, tub of ice cream and your handsome husband waiting for you.Ā 
As if your emotions hadnā€™t already taken you on a wild roller coaster of a ride today, the adorable sight in front of you had you on the verge of tears again, wiping the wetness pooling in your eyes with the back of Frankieā€™s sweatshirt sleeve drooping off your arm before crawling into the blanket fort he had constructed for the two of you.Ā 
ā€œFrankieā€¦ You didnā€™t have to do this.ā€ You sniffled, curling up next to Frankie as he draped a blanket over your lap and his arm over your shoulder, passing you a plate with 2 large pieces of pizza.Ā 
ā€œItā€™s the least I could do. I put on Hercules for us to watch, but if you wanna-ā€Ā 
Before you could let him finish the rest of his sentence, you were running your hand across the scratchy stubble of his cheek, pulling his face closer to yours as you planted a kiss on his lips, feeling your smiles melt into one another's as your mouths met. ā€œThat sounds perfect. God, howā€™d I get so lucky?ā€Ā 
ā€œI could say the same thing, mi amor. You ready to start the movie?ā€Ā 
ā€œOnly if you also pass me that tub of Ben and Jerryā€™s to go with my pizza.ā€Ā 
ā€œI think I can make that happen.ā€Ā 
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About half way through the movie, pizza and tub of chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream, your and Frankieā€™s bodies were tangled together in a sea of limbs and blankets, contently snuggled up with one another as Frankieā€™s fingers traced lazy circles on your back and shoulder as you laid against his chest.Ā 
ā€œYou doinā€™ okay, querida? Need anything?ā€ He cooed, his soft voice dancing in your ear. As if it werenā€™t enough that you had already been through the extreme highs and lows of almost every feeling under the sun today, the one you hadnā€™t been until this very moment was insatiably horny. While the mood swings you had mentally prepared yourself for with your new period symptoms, the constant other kind of ache between your legs you had not, and feeling the low rasp of Frankieā€™s words tickling your neck had been just enough to flip the switch to make you desperately needy.Ā 
Letting your leg slide over Frankieā€™s lap, you pushed yourself up to straddle his hips, running your hands through the dark curls of his thick, brown hair, and down his broad chest, your fists bunching the worn fabric of his shirt in your hands as your mouths became a mess of tangled tongues and teeth.Ā 
ā€œI need- fuck- I need you, Frankie, please.ā€ You pleaded between muffled moans, his tongue swiping in the parted space where your lips melted together as one, instinctively beginning to grind your hips into his, feeling the bulge in his sweatpants starting to grow beneath you.Ā 
ā€œFuck- You sure, baby?ā€ Frankie rasped, reactively bucking up into you, making you whine as his hands dug into your hips, guiding you as you swirled over the tented fabric of his bottom half rubbing against your covered core.Ā 
ā€œPlease. Please, Frankie.ā€ You were all but whimpering at this point, nodding frantically in approval as Frankie used the grasp on your hips to guide you onto your back, making you cock your head in confusion as Frankie scampered to the other side of the couch, back turned to you as he reached over the ledge, pulling out a thick, black towel with a smug grin on his face. ā€œDid you seriously have a towel ready incase I wanted to have sex?ā€ You snorted, shaking your head at Frankie, now crawling back to you, caging your body under his with an electric kiss as he shimmied the towel underneath you.Ā 
ā€œMaybe.ā€ Frankie smirked, breaking from your kiss to let his lips trail down your body, his hands toying with the edge of his sweatshirt covering your body as he pushed it up your stomach and chest, helping you to shimmy it over your head, leaving your top half exposed. He gently palmed at your breasts, taking each pebbled nipple in his mouth, sucking and flicking at the buds with his tongue before letting his kisses travel down the soft skin of your stomach and waistband of your sweatpants. The clothes on your bottom half soon joined your sweatshirt in a crumpled pile as Frankie nestled himself between your legs, gently nudging your hips to let your thighs part, revealing your pussy, slick and shiny for him with your juices.Ā 
Even though Frankie would eat you out for breakfast, lunch, dinner, and a late night snack, you couldnā€™t help but feel guilty that he still found himself between your legs during your time of the month, considering any other man probably would have scoffed at just the thought of going down on you on your period.Ā 
But, then again, Frankie Morales wasnā€™t just any other man.Ā 
ā€œFrankie, baby, you know you donā€™t- Oh fuck!ā€ You gasped, cut off in surprise as Frankieā€™s tongue licked a long, broad strip across your cunt, making you shudder in pleasure as his head perked up, revealing the devilish grin spread between his cheeks watching your chest already heave in heavy, shaky breaths.Ā 
ā€œOh I know I donā€™t have to, sweet girl. But I want to. Relax, baby, lemme take care of you.ā€Ā 
Before you could agree, protest, or anything in between, Frankie was back between your legs, arms wrapped around your thighs as they draped over his broad shoulders, digging his fingertips into the plush softness of your skin, dragging his tongue through your folds with the exact grace and precision that he knew made you fall apart in seconds.Ā 
With flat, firm presses of his mouth latched against your clit, you could already feel your bottom half writhing under him, the perfect pressure of his tongue dancing around your sensitive bundle of nerves making you moan in pleasure. As your head dipped back, falling into the couch pillow behind you, your hand shot down, fingers burying themselves in the wild curls of Frankieā€™s hair, tugging at the thick ends for any sort of release as he worked relentlessly at your aching cunt.Ā 
ā€œFuck, Frankie, oh fuck- Fuck, baby, you feel so good.ā€ You whined, your praise only intensifying the way your husband drank every ounce of you up, two thick fingers now gently pressing inside your heat, curled deliciously as they rocked in and out of your entrance, nudging against your g-spot.Ā 
Frankie had spent enough time worshiping the altar that was your pussy to know exactly how to make you crumble beneath him, leaving you chanting his name like a prayer as his lips latched around your clit, ferociously sucking as his fingers prodded at the soft, spongy spot that made your cunt begin to clench and heat in your belly pool.Ā 
ā€œThatā€™s it, Hermosa. I know youā€™re close, baby girl. Let me feel you, mi amor. Iā€™ve got you.ā€ Frankie groaned, his words humming deep in his chest, placing chaste kisses on the inside of your thighs before drinking you up like a man starved, adding a third finger into your heat, the added fullness and stretch, combined with Frankieā€™s relentless pace, enough to have the tingle that had been building at the base of your spine now washing through every inch of your body. Your orgasm began to crash through you, your pussy fluttering as pleasure radiated in your veins, making you cry out Frankieā€™s name over and over.Ā 
Frankie worked persistently through your high, only pulling back after making sure that you had cum again, sitting back on his haunches as he admired the blissed out and ragged mess you had become, your pussy slick and swollen as your chest rose and fell in wrecked inhales and exhales, trying to compose yourself from the Frankie and fucked you senseless with just his tongue.Ā 
Wiping the slick and juices glistening in his mustache with the back of his hand, Frankie tugged the sweatshirt covering his own body over his head, followed by his pants and boxers, freeing his painfully hard cock as it slapped against his stomach, his tip red and leaking with precum as his broad body loomed over yours, sucking and nipping at your pulse point as you whimpered his name.Ā 
ā€œFrankie, holy fuck.ā€Ā 
ā€œSuch a good girl for me, querida. You still want me to fuck you, baby?ā€ He mewled, the metallic and tangy taste of you still lingering on his tongue as he kissed you, laughing to himself at the way you found yourself frantically nodding your head to tell him yes before your words could.Ā 
ā€œJesus Christ, yes. Fuck, please Frankie, I need to feel you.ā€Ā 
Reaching down to stroke himself, he lined his cock up with your entrance, easily sliding into your heat and brushing his tip against your cervix, taking a moment to let you adjust to his fullness. The whine you let out as Frankie filled every inch of you was nothing short of ragged, digging your nails into the skin of his broad back as he ever so slowly began to thrust in and out of you, dragging his length against the slick of your cunt.Ā 
ā€œOh fuck me- Fuck, you hear how wet you are for me, sweet girl? This what you needed, baby? To fill up that pretty little pussy of yours?ā€ Frankie groaned, letting his forehead rest against yours, his sweaty curls now starting to stick to his skin as he pounded into you, rutting his hips at a faster and faster pace.Ā 
ā€œItā€™s all for you, Frankie- Oh shit- only for you.ā€ You moaned, your fingers wrapping around the width of his biceps, flexing deliciously as he hovered over you, sucking you in to a long, deep kiss, fucking into you over and over.Ā 
Even with the years between you and the ring on your finger, the possessive part of Frankieā€™s brain would never get over how the primal and all consuming feeling of knowing you were his, forever, your words shooting straight to his dick as a low groan rumbled in his chest, silently cursing to himself through gritted teeth, watching you fall apart below him.Ā 
Readjusting himself, Frankie sat back on his heels, hooking his arm under one of your legs to drape it over his shoulder, the new angle stretching you out in a way that had you seeing stars as Frankie rammed into your g-spot and began thumbing at your clit, still swollen and sensitive from your first orgasm. You could already feel the heat beginning to bloom in your belly once again, your leg beginning to tremble hoisted over Frankieā€™s shoulder as he dug into the meat of your thigh with a bruising intensity.Ā 
Just like he would never get over the fact of knowing you were his, Frankie would never get over watching you begin to crumble under his touch, taking the time to memorize every twitch and twinge your body made as you came closer and closer to your end, always savoring in the moaning mess youā€™d become as you fell apart around him.Ā 
ā€œFuck, Frankie, Fuck, oh my god- Iā€™m close, baby.ā€ You were all but rambling at this point, your brain barley stringing together coherent sentences as you felt your cunt beginning to clench around his cock, the lewd noises of your moans, wetness and skin slapping together as your hips met filling the room at a borderline pornagraphic rate.Ā 
ā€œMeirda, Iā€™m not gonna last much longer, hermosa. Fuck, where do you want me, baby?ā€ Frankie growled through gritted teeth, his eyes locking on yours and telling him everything he needed to know without you saying a word.Ā 
ā€œInside. Fuck, please Frankie, I want you to cum inside me.ā€Ā 
Your confirmation was all it took to flip the switch in Frankie that sent him absolutely feral, the thought of being able to actually knock you up now that you werenā€™t on birth control anymore, giving you a baby, proving another way to the world to mark you as his? The thought alone was enough to have him bracing every bone in his body to keep him from cuming right then and there.Ā 
ā€œFuck me. You want me to fill you up, querida? Fuck me full of you? Fuck a baby into you? That's what you want, huh?ā€ Frankie moaned, grunting with each thrust of his hips, his rhythm becoming more frantic and shaky as he felt your pussy begin to flutter around him, pressing the pads of his fingers against your clit, swirling them in frantic circles to make sure you came before he did.Ā 
ā€œFuck, yes. I need you too, holy fuck- wanna make you a daddy, Fransisco.ā€Ā 
You could feel the tightly wound knot in your core starting to snap, your legs trembling and breath shaking as Frankie fucked into you, finding yourself on the verge of collapse- but not before Frankieā€™s filthy mouth got the last word in.Ā 
ā€œJesus, fuck- Fuck, hermosa. Thatā€™s what you want, pretty girl? I swear, Iā€™m gonna fuck myself so deep into you itā€™ll fucking take. Get you fucking pregnant tonight.ā€Ā 
That was all it took to have you orgasm come crashing through you, every inch of your body radiating with pleasure as you came, crying out Frankieā€™s name as you gushed around him, your eyes practically rolling to the back of your head, your mind going blank and numb, the only thing grounding you were the incoherent ramblings of your husband as he followed suit behind you.Ā 
ā€œFuck, thatā€™s it, baby. Fuck, Iā€™m gonna cum too, fuck, fuck-ahhhhhh.ā€ With one final thrust, Frankie could feel himself spilling against your walls, coating you with his spend as his cock pulsed, making sure he milked himself of every last drop deep inside your cunt before even thinking about pulling out. Moving your leg, Frankie slumped into you, splaying himself across your body as your chests rose and fell in sync, laying in silence as you let your breathing steady, coming back down to Earth from your high.Ā 
With a shallow grunt, Frankie carefully pulled his softening cock out of your heat, leaning back to admire the mess he had made between your legs, his cum dripping down the inside of your thighs and pussy glistening with the mixture of your arousal. You let out a soft hiss at the loss of Frankieā€™s fullness inside you, only to quickly be replaced by a gasp as he buried his two fingers back into your cunt.Ā Ā 
ā€œGotta make sure every last drop stays in there, hermosa. Gonna keep you full of me all night, baby.ā€ He mewled, carefully gathering his spend and pushing it deep inside you, making you whimper as he slowly pulsed his fingers back and forth, pulling away his hand to lean back into your body, engulfing you with an electric kiss.Ā 
ā€œHoly fuck, fuck me. Jesus, Frankie.ā€ You laughed to yourself, your head dipping back on the pillow as you buried your face in your hands, at a loss for words at how euphoric you now felt in your post colital bliss.Ā 
ā€œWow, again, already? Gotta give me a few after that querida.ā€ He smirked, making you roll your eyes at his joke as you playfully swatted at him, making him lean in to pepper your body with kisses, leaving you squealing and squirming in delight.Ā 
ā€œYou are absolutely ridiculous, Fransisco Morales. If you keep fucking me like that, then yeah, absolutley.ā€Ā 
ā€œIf I keep fucking you like this, I have a very hopeful feeling that next month, weā€™ll have something else to care about besides period cramps.ā€
ā€œI swear to god, if one of my cravings ends up being buffalo chicken dip once Iā€™m pregnant, Iā€™m gonna be pissed.ā€
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chiikasevennn Ā· 6 months ago
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Our man x someone who's really into eye contact until y'know he got the glow up bc he be always teasin him with those gorgeous eyes of his ā˜¹ļøšŸ¤ššŸ»
You used to adore looking at Jinwoo's eyes so shamelessly at any occasion where opportunities arose.
Well, you still did. It was just that things have taken a change and you started to sometimes become as awkward as a fish out of water.
His eyes were often described as plain and dull, he didn't think much of it and even agreed at some point that they might be correct.
Until you happened.
You absolutely loved eye contact more than any other the moment you met him; it either caused him to blush or rapidly come up with ways to avoid it, as he knew it would cause him to fold like the flimsy twig he was.
It was an absolute delight to see his heart stammer and stumble over his words, such emotions always caused you to feel giddier than ever.
But now? The tables have flipped; now it was you who found it difficult to meet his gray gaze.
You were once the one who cherished the frequent eye contact for which you were known in your relationship.
"Why aren't you looking at me?" Jinwoo cooed, securing your cheeks between his much larger hands you couldn't escape from.
The S-rank hunter's gaze softened at how you couldn't even lift your eyes to meet him, instead looking left and right. Just anywhere but his gray, loving ones. The sting of sheepishness was a physical blow.
"B-because you're cute."
"Hm?" Jinwoo pretended not to hear which irked you further.
"I said you look like a cucumber."
"Does that even make sense?" He laughed, peppering your face with kisses while you felt strangely yet also familiarly hot underneath the snow.
Jinwoo really did treasure sweet moments like these. You were there for him when he had nothing, and when he was nothing. You didn't worry about what he could reciprocate for all your generosityā€”gifts, reassurance, financial helpā€”so how could he ask for less or more?
Guys comment something šŸ‘æ also pookie thank you, for this awakened something in me
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mrs-kmikaelson Ā· 3 months ago
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01| The Grey Area
Pairing: Aaron Hotchner x reader Summary: You meet Aaron Hotchner and he makes you see everything in colour; he makes you feel like you're the only girl in the room. But then, as you find out that you're not, you realize the colour he actually makes you see the most is grey. Warnings: emotional and physical cheating, forbidden love affair, reader is in government, cm level violence, r is a bitch at first, hotch is a jerk, based on olivia pope and fitzgerald grant Words: 3.8K
Masterlist | Series Masterlist | Part 2
a/n: is this based on scandal by shonda rhimes? yes. why? bc that was peak television. making this a series bc i need to learn how to make things other than long fics (be proud of me).
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1989
For as long as you could remember, life was slow. Everything was black and white: your surroundings, your activities, yourĀ beliefs.Ā 
And then you met Aaron Hotchner, and you started seeing things in colour.
"I'm sorry, is this seat taken?"
You barely looked up at the person, just shaking your head and continuing to twirl your pen on your desk. He sat down right after.
You didn't expect him to talk to you. In fact, you were sure your disinterest was written all over your face in bold red letters.Ā 
"I'm Aaron. Aaron Hotchner." He held his hand out; you only saw it because he held it over your desk, not because you actually looked in his direction.Ā 
You stared at his hand plainly before looking up to the front of the class where the professor had just stood up. "And I'm not interested," you said.Ā Presumptuous of you, maybe, but this was Georgetown, and it was your second year. Everybody was competition, and nobody actually wanted to be your friend unless they were looking for something a little more.
It was like you could hear his frown. "Iā€” we can't be friends?"Ā 
Finally, out of just pure exasperation, you looked at him, and boy were you taken aback. Aaron Hotchner, as he so formally introduced himself, had dark, dark brown hair, almost black, and a jawline that wasn't too sharp nor too round. His brown eyes looked at you expectantly, confusion swimming through them. Briefly, you thought he was perfect, but that wouldn't change your stance.
Despite your short-lived awe, you deadpanned, "No, we can't."
Aaron went to open his mouth, but then the professor started speaking and it cut him right off. You looked toward the front and didn't back at him once, listening intently. You were determined to succeed above all things, and no boy would get in the way of that.
Your first lecture of the semester went fine after that. You packed up your things at the end and you were gone before Aaron could try again. You went to one more class then got ready for work without another thought of him.
During nights, you were a bartender at this place near the campus. It wasn't just college kids; it was also frequented by businessmen and other big spenders who tipped well so long as you smiled and laughed at their jokes.
The excessive flirting wasn't ideal, but the job paid the bills, and since you were doing this all by yourself, that was exactly what you needed.
You rarely saw people you knew. There were regulars, and every once in a while you might've seen a kid from one of your classes, but it wasn't something you expected often.
You certainly didn't expect to see the hot guy from Advanced Legal Research.
"Hi there, what can I getcha?" You weren't looking at the customer, busy cleaning a glass and simultaneously passing someone their drink while you spoke to them.
"Hey, you're the girl from my LAW-J 301 course"
You paused at the person's voice, both at their enthusiasm and familiarity, and looked up. When you did, you couldn't help the groan that left you. "Seriously?Ā You, again?" Each word was enunciated slowly, accurately demonstrating your annoyance. However, you got back to what you were doing, taking your eyes off him. "What, are you stalking me, Hopscotch?"
"It's Hotchner."
This time, your sigh was accompanied by a pointed eye roll. "Duuuude." You looked back up. "I do not care. Now, what do you want?"
He snorted. "Do you talk to all your customers this way?"
You flashed him a sarcastic smile. "Just the ones that can't take a hint." He opened his mouth for a sharp rebuttal no doubt, but you redirected the conversation. "YourĀ order, Hopscotch. Or else you're gonna have to kick rocks."
He acquiesced like it was such a hardship you were asking of him, like you weren't in a bar that he came to specifically to order a drink. "Fine. Whiskey, neat."
That, you could help him with. You grabbed a bottle of Jack Daniels and poured some into a glass for him, all the while making conversation. He wasn't special; you did this with every customer. "What are you doing here?" When you got no response, you glanced back up to see a confused expression on his face. You elaborated, "Doesn't seem like your scene." You would've said no offense, but who were you kidding? You were already abrasive to begin with.
But he didn't look offended. If anything, he looked curious. "How so?"
You slid his drink across the counter, cocking your head at him as if telling him it was stupid to even ask. "You introduced yourself with your first andĀ last name, extended your hand for me to shake, then just now, you referred to our class with the course code." You raised a brow then. "A little formal, don't you think?"
Now he looked a little offended. "Formal? I don't think so. I'm a little old fashioned at most."
For the second time that day, you deadpanned. "You're at the bar in a suit and tie. You couldn't have made it any more obvious that you don't do this often."
He got a little red then. You think that, if he could've, he would've loosened his tie, but he just picked up his drink, taking a swig. You'd give him a little credit, though; at least he looked like he could take his liquor. "Fine," he admitted, "my friends dragged me out."
"Ah," you chuckled, "common occurrence here at GWU. You'll get used to it soon, freshie."
He furrowed his brows. "How'd you know I was a first-year?"
You grinned. "You just told me, Hopscotch."
He groaned, making you stifle a laugh. No, you wouldn't laugh at him; that'd make it seem like his presence was growing on you when it wasn't.Ā 
You didn't need new friends, and you certainly didn't need suit-and-tie-wearing, formal Aaron Hotchner.
But he stayed there. He stayed there and talked you as you served other customers, asking you to refill his drink every now and then. You wondered where his friends were, but by the time closing came 'round, you assumed they were long gone.
He talked to you all night, you realized.Ā 
And you didn't totally hate it.
Aaron visited you at work the next day, too. That's when you told him your name. Then you started talking to him in class. Then, before you knew it, you exchanged numbers and he was visiting you at work nearly every day.
But you were right in your earlier reservations. You and Aaron Hotchner couldn't be friends.
You just learned that too late.
2005
"Tallie, tell Gretchen that I need the files on Henderson's case by the end of the day, please."
You walked with your assistant at your side, heels clicking against the floor as you went through all the day's administrative business. Every day, Tallie went over your schedule with you as soon as you entered the building. Time was of the essence in your job, and you had none of it to waste.
"Yes, ma'am, andā€” if I mayā€”"
"Oh, and contact the President's Chief of Staff. I need to meet with him by the end of the day to discuss the recent terrorist attack in London again. We need to communicate with the British government without overstepping."
"Done, andā€”"
"And could you please get Rob Burton on the line for me?" You turned down the hall that led to your office. "He said he has an inquiry for me."
"Well, ma'am, umā€”"Ā You had just reached your office when Tallie stopped, sighing. You looked back at her, raising a brow. Sheepishly, she pointed ahead of you. "There's that."
Your brows knitted together. You turned, following her gaze to see a dark-haired man standing in your waiting room, eyes on his watch. As if he felt your presence, he looked up, and as soon as your eyes locked, you realized why he looked so familiar.
Tallie cut off your thought process. "I kept telling him he didn't have an appointment, but he said you knew him and would let him in, that it's urgent."
You let out a sigh of your own, muttering under your breath, "Somehow, I don't doubt that." It had to be urgent if Aaron Hotchner was at your office. You glanced back at Tallie, giving her a tense smile. "Thank you, Tallie. We'll raincheck that phone call with Mr. Burton?"
She nodded, giving a "Yes, ma'am," before she walked past the man in your waiting room to her desk.
Like old times, you couldn't hold back another sigh, but you got your exasperation under control before you walked up to him, if not just to be professional and keep up appearances.
"Agent Hotchner," you greeted, a faux smile on your face. "It's... nice to see you." It was like the words stung coming out of your mouth, and that was because they weren't true. If he was half as good of a profiler as you thought he was, then he'd know that.
If he knew you as well as he thought he did, then he should've known that regardless.
You didn't bother waiting for his greeting; you didn't care for it. "Let's talk in my office." Not a question.
He complied, following you into your office and shutting the door on the way in. With your back still turned to him, you momentarily closed your eyes, willing yourself to have the strength to sit through whatever it was he had to tell you.
When you had it, you turned back around, dropping all the pleasantries now that you were away from prying eyes. "What is it that's so important you couldn't say over the phone?"
He didn't answer. Deep down, you both knew it was because heĀ could've. He didn't need to be here, but instead of agreeing with you, he nodded to the two chairs in front of your desk. "You're not going to offer me a seat?"
You scoffed. "If I did, would you take it?" You're met with silence, another answer in and of itself. It'd been six years, yet you could still read Hotch's tells like a children's book. He didn't like to say anything when he knew you were right.
You took that moment to examine him. He looked the same, just as you left him. Maybe a bit more worn, a bit more tired, and a bit more cold, but weren't you all?
Briefly, you wondered what he was thinking about you.
He got to the point, as he always did. "I have a suspect for the murders of 12 women in D.C. spanning over the past six months," he told you. "His name is Eric Clark. He's the founder and CEO of a new tech start-up here; they're calling him the new Zuckerberg." The sarcasm in his voice when he said that last bit was evident, shining through his monotonous persona.
You were aware of the murders he spoke of, and you were aware of who Eric Clark was. He was invited to some state dinner you just went to. But you didn't say this. Instead, you shrugged like it didn't matter to you and asked him, "So why are you telling me?"
If your nonchalance bothered him, he didn't voice it. He simply explained, "I need a warrant." A warrant, he said, like that sentence stood alone. What he was realling saying was, he needed a warrant, and he neededĀ youĀ to get it for him. More than that, heĀ expectedĀ you to get it for him.
That forced a chuckle out of you, even though you didn't feel any humour at all. SoĀ thatĀ was why he was here; six years go by without any contact, but now that heĀ neededĀ something, here he was.Ā 
You felt a strange sense of dƩjƠ vu. Hotch needing something and claiming that you were the only one who could give it to him.
"You need a warrant," you echoed, splaying your hands out in front of you. "So go take that up with a judge."
You saw a sudden crack in his calm composure. His eyes narrowed just the slightest bit, so slightly you wouldn't have noticed it if you didn't know what to look for.
But you knew what to look for.
"Come on, Y/N." He said your name like you were just old friends, like this stop by your office was a normal occurence. "Everyone knows you have pull in this city."
YouĀ didĀ have pull in this city. In fact, you had pull in just about every city in America; being the U.S. Attorney General gave you that kind of power.
So yes, you hadĀ pull, and now Hotch wanted you to pull some strings for him as if you owed him a favour, as if you owed himĀ anything.
You didn't say this, but you were sure that your next words said enough for you. "Where's Gideon? Normally, he's the one to come knocking on my door when the BAU needs something." You found it highly unlikely that he'd ever send Hotch, of all people, on his behalf.
Hotch pursed his lips. "He's on leave."
You made a clicking sound of realization, but it was more mocking than anything since you already gathered as much. That meantĀ heĀ was unit chief now, and that was why he was here.Ā So that's what it took?Ā you thought.Ā All it took was a promotion, obligation, and now he was here.
He was here, checking his watch in your waiting room, marching into your office and shutting the door, clenching his jaw and pursing his lips likeĀ heĀ was the one with the right to be mad.Ā 
You'd give it to him: Aaron Hotchner sure as hell had guts.
You circled back to the original topic. "Yeah, Hotch, that's not happening." He went to cut you off, but you stopped him by raising a hand. Your were firm as you asserted, "If you're here withĀ meĀ instead of with aĀ judge, that means you have insubstantial evidence. So how about, instead ofĀ ambushingĀ me and wasting my precious time, you go back to the drawing board?"Ā It wasn't a suggestion as much as it was an insult.
His jaw tensed, his eyes hardening as he stared at you. "I am sorry to waste yourĀ preciousĀ time, but preciousĀ livesĀ are at stake." Condescending as ever.
"I undersand that, but you clearly have no probable cause."Ā Or did you forget what that was?Ā you wanted to add, but you kept that part to yourself.
You thought, if he clenched his jaw any harder, it just might break. "I have a profileā€”"
"Which clearly isn't enoughā€”"
"You of all people should understand the importance of a profile, Y/N."
You took a sharp breath through your nose. It was low of him to say that, and it was also such a profiler of him to say it, mostly because he knew it'd get you.
You weren't always the Attorney General.
Perhaps this is why you agreed. "Fine. I'll go talk to a judge for you."
He sighed, "Thank you." He said it without looking at you, then he was opening your door and walking out, and you nearly thankedĀ himĀ for it.
Six years had gone by.
Yet you wouldn't have been able to tell with the way your heart was racing.
You went on with your day after Hotch left, going through paperwork and dropping by the White House. You had a meeting with the President that day, theĀ PresidentĀ of the United States, the most important person in the whole damn country. That was little old you that did that.
You weren't the same girl he remembered, not that girl from Georgetown who rolled her eyes at every one of his corny jokes, and he wasn't the same guy who'd sit and wait for you the by the bar, either. He was the unit chief now. And you were the Attorney General.
Things were different now.Ā 
Or maybe they weren't.
Because Aaron Hotchner came striding into your office just later that night.
Your door flew open, Aaron walking in thereafter with a stone cold frown and determination etched onto his face. It wasn't like the Aaron you knew to frown so much, but that wasn't what you were focused on.
You immediately shot up from your chair and rounded your desk, baffled by his behaviour. "Hey! What the hell do you think you'reā€”"
You didn't get to finish your sentence. Before you could berate him, Aaron's hand was on the back of your head and his lips were slamming into yours. Slamming was the right word. This was fervent, almost violent, like he wanted to bruise you, like he wanted to permanently mold his lips into yours.
Your eyes went wide. You should've pushed him awayā€”you really should have. But it was like you weren't thinking. Like you were on auto-pilot, your hands automatically went to his hair, your lips moving in unison with his.
This was muscle memory. God, how could you have ever forgotten what this felt like? Like ecstasy, and butterflies, and all good things in the world. Kissing him felt likeĀ everythingĀ all at once.
But everything meant that it came with all the bad in the world, too.
Your senses came back to you as you pushed him away, stumbling backward. You were sure you would've fallen, had your desk not been right behind you. You were heaving, and he was no different.
Fuck. What did you just do?
Your eyes darted to the door, alarm flashing through them. "Tallieā€”"
He finished your thought, assuring you, "She's gone. I sent her home."
Relief flooded your body. She wasn't here, she didn't see anything. That was good. But then what he said actually hit you. Your eyes narrowed into slits. "You didĀ what?" He rolled his eyes, opening his mouth to retort, but you kept going. "YouĀ sent myĀ assistantĀ home?"
"Yes."
You scoffed. He sent your assistant home, and he was just admitting it proudly like it was nothing. Maybe nothing was different after all if Aaron was still here, barging into your life like he owned it, like he ownedĀ you.
And perhaps he did.
"You can'tā€” you can't justā€”"
"I can't what?" he cut you off then took a step closer. "I can't come see you?" Another step. "We used to see each other all the time."
You were already cornered, right against your desk. "That wasĀ before," you responded. "Beforeā€”" the rest of your sentence got caught in your throat. You had glanced down momentarily, catching sight of his hand in the process. There, something glinted in the light. A golden band.
A wedding ring.
Your chest tightened, your voice getting smaller. "BeforeĀ that." Even if he wasn't a profiler, it was impossible not to notice the crack in your voice.
You didn't know how you didn't feel the ring when he had his hand on your head.
Confused, Aaron followed your line of sight, right down to his hand. When he realized what you were referring to, he sighed, "Y/N, it's not what you thinkā€”"
A humourless chuckle left you. "It never is, is it?" You could count the number of times he'd said that to you. "God, I can't believe it." You chuckled again before your laugh faded into something angrier. No, not angrier. You were furious.
You didn't know if there was even a word in the English language that could describe how furious you were.
"Youā€”" you took a deep breath, stopping yourself from yelling. "You're doing this to meā€”Ā again?"
"Y/Nā€”"
You slapped his hands away when he tried to put his hands on your arms. You didn't want to feel that fucking ring touch your skin. "Again?!" you seethed. "What, two times wasn't fucking enough for you? You had to go and do this aĀ thirdĀ timeā€”"
"Please, justā€”"
You refused to let him get a word out. "No! I don't need any more of your excuses, Hotch!" Lord knew that if you heard them, you might just believe them.
You nearly did the first time.
To think that he had just been in your office hours earlier, acting like he didn't know you, like he didn't break you down just to build you back up and do it all over again.Ā 
He could've at least given you the courtesy of leaving you alone, but it appeared that he couldn't even do that. Still, he was defending himself, false conviction lacing through his voice. "Haley and I are separatedā€”"
"Separated?" That forced another chuckle out of you. "Sure, and I'm the Pope."
His glare at you hardened, likeĀ heĀ was mad atĀ youĀ "I'm being serious."
Another laugh. He couldn't figure out why the hell you were laughing.
"Haley, haley, haley." Your voice raised. "It's always about fuckingĀ Haley." Even when he was with you.
Especially when he was with you.
His jaw locked. "We're not together right now."
You snapped, "Tell that to the fucking ring on your finger, asshole."Ā 
It was laughable, really. You were the Attorney General of the United States of America. You sat in one of the highest offices of the land. Yet Aaron Hotchner still had the ability to turn you into putty in his hands.
The Attorney General didn't play second fiddle to anyone.
But you'd always be second to Haley Brooks.
"Get out, Hotchner."Ā 
"What?" He had the audacity to look hurt, confused. You didn't understand what there was to be confused about.Ā 
You managed to wriggle yourself out of the space where you were stuck between him and your desk, walking to your door and nearly yanking it open, holding it for him wordlessly.
He scoffed. "Y/N, come onā€”"
You shut him down. "No. I did what you asked earlier. I got you your warrant, therefore we areĀ done. Now get out."
You didn't meet his eyes but you felt them burning into you with the same heat that'd make an unsub crack. It was the same heat that'd make you crack, too, which was precisely why you refused to look at him.
After what felt like a lifetime of staring at you, his footsteps sounded. You didn't look up until you watched his shoes pass you. Immediately, you closed the door, locking it.
Your hand fell around the door handle, your forehead resting against the door. Briefly, you wondered what the sensation in your eyes was, until you realized it was tears.
You hadn't cried in so long.
But whenever Aaron Hotchner came around, tears seemed inevitable.
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ā€āž· ā€œanakā€ - child.
ā€āž· ā€œpoā€ - a respectful term with no direct translation used when talking to someone of higher rank than you such as elders or your boss.
ā€āž· ā€œmag ingat kaā€ - ā€œbe careful.ā€
ā€āž· ā€œkaā€™a sukuā€™un u?ā€ - ā€œcousin?ā€
ā€āž· ā€œkoā€™oten tin wĆ©etel in kaxtik tiā€™ le ajawo.ā€ - "come with me to find the king."
ā€āž· "in yakunaj" - "my love"
ā€āž· "in k'Ć”atĆ©" - my one and only.
ā€āž· "le ba'alo' leti'e" - that is her.
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FOR AS LONG AS YOU COULD REMEMBER, the ocean was your safe haven.
While others strayed from its depths for fear of the unknown, of the creatures that could be lurking down there, you had always been curious to know. There had always been an itch that couldnā€™t quite be scratched when it came to your love for the water. You frequented your local beach nearly every day, wandering aimlessly until you grew tired. Unlike others your age, your life was one of solitude. To an extent, you were content with it, for the ocean was your companion. It never judged you and always welcomed you. It listened when you spoke, carrying your worries far from you never to be seen again.
Nowadays, to your heartā€™s discontent, the ocean was not enough.
You were lonely. Truly lonely and feeling what it was like to be so for the very first time in your life. There were nights you stared into the abyss; eyes watery as you wished to drown in it. To be embraced by the one thing that was consistent in your life. Would you feel less alone then?
ā”€
From the deepest point of the very sea you gazed into, the heart of a God grew heavy. Kā€™ukā€™ulkan loved his people, adored them with every fiber of his body. Each and every one of the faces of those he ruled, dead and alive, were imprinted in his soul permanently. Every step he took was taken with them in mind. He prided himself for being a good leader, for doing everything and anything possible to keep his nation safe. After the events leading up to the alliance with the Wakandans, however, he did not know if that pride was deserved. He had made mistakes; misplaced his trust and allowed two of his own to die right in their very home. Namora, as loyal as she was, began to question his decisions. He was alone in bearing this burden with no one to rest his head on at night from the heaviness of the day.
What pained him the most? He knew he shouldnā€™t be alone.
He recalled the day he and his mother had been read the prophecy when he was a child clearly. The emotions he felt upon hearing those words spoken into existence were still fresh. There was someone for him. Just for him, and him alone.
ā€œFor His fealty, the First Son of Talokan shall be given a gift from the Gods; a descendant from the Heavens, a child of Bulan with the voice of an enchantress. For as long as He shall live, She shall rule the seas by His side.ā€
Years passed. Those years slowly faded into decades. After the passing of his beloved mother, it became difficult differentiating when those decades turned into centuries. Still, there were no signs of his soulmate. His people knew of the prophecy. Kā€™ukā€™ulkan was all too aware of the anticipation his children felt as they eagerly awaited the arrival of their queen. Yet, she never came.
He grew angry at the so called Gods for turning on their promise ā€“ at her. Where was she? heā€™d hiss. My people, our people, have come dangerously close to being discovered. I have nearly died defending them all alone. My wings have been ripped from my flesh. Why isnā€™t she here? The prophecy meant nothing to him anymore. Just as he was naĆÆve when he entrusted Princess Shuri with seeing his home, he was blindly foolish for believing in a fairytale.
Namor was without love in more ways than one.
ā”€
You didnā€™t remember falling asleep. There was no explanation as to how you ended up perilously close to the edge of the water, the violent thrash of waves serving as a warning to you. Still, you remained completely still as fear immobilized you. You racked your brain for any recollections of your previous actions. Nothing came up. You couldnā€™t remember anything after you came home from the market.
Nothing, that is, aside from a single voice.
It cooed to you, whispered your name like it had waited a thousand millennia to taste it upon its tongue. Sang to you like you were its favorite person in the entire universe.
Come to me.
Come home.
In yakunaj.
In kā€™Ć”ateā€™.
Come home.
Taking a moment to steady your breathing, you slowly stepped away from the ledge before rushing back home. As you tucked yourself into bed that night, you tried your best to bury what had just transpired. You sought out every possibility ā€“ rational and irrational ā€“ that could have resulted in your odd behavior. You always went to the beach, maybe you just wandered there after dinner out of habit. Perhaps something went wrong with the batch of your usual tea and an ingredient that causes cognitive dysfunction was accidentally added to it. Maybe tomorrow morning you will wake up to a news report about your batch being recalled from all stores.
The explanation you vied for never came.
As time persisted, so did the bouts of blacking out, regaining consciousness, and finding yourself near the ocean. Each time, you got closer and closer to its waters. Every day after the next, you would feel the fatigue in your muscles from all of the walking. And yet, it did not stop you. You always found your way back to the ocean. It didnā€™t matter if you walked into ongoing traffic or if a concerned neighbor physically restrained you, the pull was stronger. Shamefully, you began to avoid leaving your home altogether. You couldnā€™t bear to face the condemnatory looks you were bound to receive. Whatever those in your area thought of you, you didnā€™t want to know. You were afraid enough of what you were becoming.
When you wake up from the next spell, you were waist deep in the ocean. Shivering as your thin nightgown stuck to your skin. Wrapping your arms around your torso, you salvaged any and all body heat. The gravity of your circumstances hit you all at once. Biting your lip, you held back your tears as your turned around and began making your way out of the water hastily. Just as your bare feet touched the white sand, you caught the eyes of the elderly woman who lived closed by. The two of you had never spoken, but her presence as a resident was always acknowledged.
ā€œSorry, po,ā€ You spoke sheepishly, a polite and apologetic smile on your face.
Her expression was grave as she stared at you wordlessly. Silence stretched between the both of you and just as you were about to walk away, she harshly spat one single word.
ā€œMagindara.ā€
Before you could seek clarification, she was back inside her small hut, the door slamming behind her acrimoniously. The only proof that the interaction with her was even real was the residual sting of her hostility and rage. Her persecution was the straw to break the camelā€™s back. Unable to maintain your resolve any longer, you fell to your knees and began to youā€™re your hands clutching at your chest in hopes to alleviate the pain. Humiliation, terror, anxiousness, and frustration were just a few of the emotions you were feeling. Even then, they were just the tip of the iceberg. As you cried to yourself, sand sticking to your wet limbs uncomfortably, you longed for nothing but someone to wrap you up in their arms ā€“ for someone to tell you that for once, everything would be okay. Just this once, you craved a life outside of isolation.
Once your breathing evened out, you stood up and leisurely began to talk along the shore. Soothing yourself in the only way you knew how, you began to softly sing.
ā€œBeware, beware the Daughter of the Sea. ā€˜Bewareā€™ I heard him cry. His words carried upon the ocean breeze, as he sank beneath the tide.ā€
Namora watched acutely as the quill in her kingā€™s hands abruptly dropped to the floor. The warrior waited for the moment he would pick it up off of the ground and continue with his painting, but it never came.
ā€œKā€™ukā€™ulkan?ā€
She received no response. His eyes held an indecipherable expression, one far away from the present.
ā€œKaā€™a sukuā€™un u?ā€ Namora repeated, her tone now carrying concern.
The King of Talokan turned to her for a split second before he stormed out of the room with speed she had never witnessed from him before. Namora was hot on his feathered heels, but the second she dived into the water, her cousin was nowhere to be seen.
ā€œAttuma!ā€ She bellowed. ā€œKoā€™oten tin wĆ©etel in kaxtik tiā€™ le ajawo.ā€
Kā€™ukā€™ulkan was stunned when he first heard it ā€“ the most beautiful sound to grace his ears. He was livid with himself for being unable to find a better word to describe the voice, for ā€œbeautifulā€ was such an understatement that it was borderline insulting. Without hesitation, he followed it. It didnā€™t matter that he didnā€™t know where it was coming from or who it even belonged to, he needed to find it. It called to him, turned him into a man possessed as he soared through the waters restlessly to get to it.
His head broke the surface, and thatā€™s when he saw its owner ā€“ her. His soulmate.
She was the most exquisite living being he had ever laid his eyes upon. A gift from the heavens she was. Her beauty made him dizzy, his knees growing weak as he took in his belovedā€™s features. He admired her as she outstretched her arms, cupping the moon in her delicate palms. It paled in comparison to her. Everything did. Nothing could possibly compare. He remained paralyzed as she continued to sing, a foreign feeling settling in his stomach.
ā€œWhy this? Why this, oh Daughter of the Sea? Why this? Why did you forget your seaside days? Always the pride of our nationā€™s eyes, how could she go astray?ā€
The words of her melody pierced his heart. They reflected their journey far too accurately to be a coincidence. Did she know that she had always been destined for him? To be loved by the entire nation of Talokan? His lids fell shut slowly as he basked in her harmonies, feeling tranquil at last.
ā€œI heard, I heard, across the moonlit seas, the old voice warning me. Beware, beware, the Daughter of the Sea. Beware, bewareā€¦of me.ā€
Namor studied her face as her song ended. He noted her red rimmed eyes and wet cheeks. Her damp nightgown stuck to her body tantalizingly. The despair in her hypnotizing voice was palpable. All of the wrath and resentment he had once harbored dissipated. Oh, my love. I have longed for you too. He could do nothing as he watched you turn your back to him from above, only pray for another encounter. He rose entirely from the sea, the wings on his ankles fluttering in the air as he watched her in the sky until she was safe in her abode. A quiet splash could be heard from under him. Attuma and Namora stared up at him expectedly.
ā€œLe baā€™aloā€™ letiā€™eā€™.ā€
He nodded slowly, eyes burning holes in the spot where she once stood.
ā€œA human?ā€ Attuma questioned, his voice rigid.
Namor shook his head.
ā€œā€™A child of Bulan with the voice of an enchantressā€™.ā€ Namor quoted the prophecy directly. ā€œBulan was a deity the heavens sent to the ocean to protect the moon from sea monsters. She is a siren; they are descendants of Bulan.ā€
ā€œWhat is she doing on the surface?ā€ Namora chimed in.
The king frowned, his fists clenching at his sides as he longed to feel her touch.
ā€œShe is lost.ā€ Ā 
ā”€
Returning to the beach after the unpleasant encounter with the elderly woman who lived on its grounds probably wasnā€™t the most sensible decision. In your defense, however, nothing in your life was sensible nowadays.
Magindara was what she called you. A whole dayā€™s worth of research, hundreds of Google searches, and several life crises later, you found out what it meant ā€“ siren. A subspecies of mermaids that were known for being especially vicious. You wanted to badly to laugh it off, to chuck it up to her being a senile old woman, but that was not an option. To do so would be like ignoring statistics. The facts of your life were laid out clearly; there was a connection between you and the ocean. A connection so strong that it bewitched you ā€“ mind, body, and soul. There were no traceable origins you could use to refute the womanā€™s claims. Afterall, you had no family. There was nothing more to do than return to the very place that could give you answers.
Your eyes darted everywhere in search of the familiar head of silvery locks. Once identified, you ran to her.
ā€œExcuse me, po?ā€ You called desperately, your eyes begging her for something. Anything. ā€œWhatā€¦what am I?ā€
She stared at you with a severe expression on her aged features.
ā€œThe man from the sea with wings on his ankles. Mag ingat ka, anak. Heā€™s coming for you.ā€
You furrowed your brows in confusion.
ā€œCould you explaā€”ā€
ā€œDo not come back here.ā€ She warned. ā€œHe will drag you down with him.ā€
With that being said, she entered her home and slammed the door in your face for the second time. Vexation filled you as you were met with another dead end. A man from the sea with wings on his ankles. What the hell was that alluding to? Did the elderly have to always speak in riddles? Were you in danger? Why was he after you?
You dragged your feet as you trudged home dejectedly. You were already exhausted, not sleeping a wink once you returned home after your stint last night. Sleep was unfathomable considering you were haunted by unanswered questions. Once you crossed the threshold of your bedroom, however, you could no longer ignore your bodyā€™s need for rest. Flopping down on your bed, you shut your eyes and instantaneously succumbed to a peaceful slumber.
That night was the last time you slept in your own bed.
The beach was eerily quiet, void of the usual sound of waves crashing against the shore. Seemingly, the ocean yielded to you, itā€™s queen, the second you stepped foot in its territory, entranced and guided by a single voice.
Come home. Come to me.
Your feet carried you to a cliff high above the sparkling midnight waters.
My love. My soulmate.
Home. You needed to come home. It was time.Ā 
Come home.
Just a couple of more steps.
Come home.
This is your destiny. Fulfill it. Fulfill the prophecy.
Come home.
With that, you took one final step off the cliff and prepared yourself to plunder into the deep waters. Your feet were only in the air for a brief moment before a pair of strong arms caught you midair. Upon physical contact, you snapped from your trance with a sharp gasp, your heart pounding in your chest as you began to panic.
A deep, gentle voice lulled you. It was then that you finally registered who it belonged to. The being who had saved you was the epitome is beauty. Everything about him exuded regality from the air of confidence and ease he carried himself with, to the adornments on his muscular body. A large gold and jade neck plate took up the most space on his expansive chest. Ropes of auriferous shells and opalescent-like pearls hung around his neck. Gilded cuffs were locked around his biceps, wrists, and ankles. You quickly noted the alabaster wings fluttering away attached to them, the very wings responsible for suspending the both of you in the air. Your eyes trailed to his delicately pointed ears, embellished with jewels just like the rest of him. The only clothing he sported was a pair of emerald shorts that left nothing to the imagination. The walls of muscle that were his thighs were on full display, the muscles of a man built to withstand the brutality of the ocean.
This was the man the elderly woman was speaking about. The man from the sea with feathers on his ankles.
That revelation should have scared you. Every alarm in your body should have gone off.
Escaping him should have been the only thing occupying your mind. You should have kicked and screamed until your throat was raw and bloody.
But you did no such thing.
Instead, it was the way he looked at you, gazing at you with the most intense smolder in his eyes that occupied your attention. He gazed at you with pure wonder, and held you delicately yet fiercely in his arms like you were the most precious thing in the entire world. Instinctively, you placed your hands on his bare chest, mindlessly tracing the dew drops sticking to his golden skin. The beautiful man shivered beneath your touch.
ā€œ500 years I have waited for you.ā€ He whispered reverently.
Your mouth opened, prepared for a response that never came. Instead, your vision went dark.
ā”€
You woke up to hushed voices and heedful, diligent hands. One set of hands languidly brushed your hair away from your face. Another daintily shimmied clothing onto your body once they were finished drying you off with the velvetiest cloth to ever touch your skin. The last set secured what you assumed was jewelry onto your wrists, neck, and ears. Upon opening your eyes, your assumption was correct. The dress on your body was stunning, embroidered with hundreds of crystalline beads. The jewels on your wrists alone were probably worth more than what you had made in your entire life.
The women who stood above you were unlike you had ever seen before. Their skin was a brilliant shade of cerulean. Vibrant, yet pleasantly understated. Masks covered their mouths and noses, but you could still see the bright smiles behind them.
ā€œHello,ā€ You greeted shyly. ā€œThank you for taking care of me.ā€
Each of them let out a small cry, their eyes welling up with tears as they bowed earnestly.
ā€œBienvenido tin wotoch tiā€™, in reina.ā€ They spoke warmly in unison, forming a gesture with their hands at you respectfully. Their mother tongue was foreign to you, but not for long. As if you had spoken it your entire life, your mind made quick work of interpreting it.
Welcome home, my queen.
Once again, you were puzzled. You had no idea where you were or who exactly that man was and why he had taken you here. You obviously hadnā€™t a single inkling as to what he meant by ā€œ500 years I have waited for youā€. Now, these women were calling you their queen in a language you had never heard your entire life but somehow had the ability to understand perfectly.
The sound of feet pattering lightly gradually got closer and closer until the man of the hour stood before you at the foot of the bed. The women attending to you immediately turned their attention to him, bowing and forming the same hand gesture you had seen moments ago. He looked just as regal still, now adorned in a cape tucked into golden plates of armor on his shoulders. He regarded them gratefully.
ā€œLeave us, my children. Thank you.ā€
They bowed to you both once more before swiftly making themselves haste. You now had his undivided attention.
ā€œI hope you slept well. The healers said showed signs of exhaustion.ā€
ā€œIā€”ā€ You cleared your throat nervously. ā€œI did, thank you.ā€
The barest hint of a smile graced his features. With graceful and controlled movements, he poured water into a glass and handed it to you.
ā€œDo not be nervous.ā€ He spoke lowly. ā€œSpeak freely.ā€
ā€œThank you.ā€ You squeaked out again, taking a generous gulp of water before speaking again. ā€œWhere am I? Who are you?ā€
ā€œMy people call me Kā€™ukā€™ulkan. To my enemies, I am Namor. You are in our kingdom ā€“ Talokan.ā€
The water got caught in your throat mid swallow, causing you to cough obnoxiously. The man who you now knew as Kā€™ukā€™ulkan, discreetly smiled to himself as if this was a reaction he had anticipated. Before you could blurt out another string of questions, he held his hand out to you.
ā€œCome. I will remedy all of your concerns.ā€
As if you had done so a million times, you placed your hand in his and stood by his side. Namor lead the both of you through a series of corridors. Your eyes took in your surroundings with pure astonishment. Cavern seemed to be a secluded corner for the king, crystal waters surrounding its premises. Bits of glittery minerals were embedded into the sediment walls. An air of serenity blanketed the entire area.
From the corner of his eye, Namor gaged your reactions, his heart so full of unfiltered adoration that it felt like it would explode in his chest. His hand was still tightly clutched in yours like it was second nature. Subconsciously, you had drawn your body closer to his. He was a meticulous man of control and strategy, but at that very moment, Kā€™ukā€™ulkan wanted nothing more than to take you into his arms and kiss you breathlessly. The moment was cut short when you reached his study. He offered you a seat at his desk, drawing the door shut behind him for privacy. It didnā€™t take long for you to deduce that the murals painted on the walls were ones depicting the history of Talokan.
ā€œCenturies ago, my people took an herb that allowed them to survive underwater. The herb was infused with vibranium. We are the only nation aside from Wakanda to possess it.ā€ He began, his hands tracing over a painting of a beautiful woman cradling an infant. ā€œMy mother was pregnant with me when she ingested it. That is why I am the way I am ā€“ why I am the only one out of my people that can survive on both land and underwater, fly, and age slower than the rest. For this, they made me their king. Their god.ā€
You listened intently, fascinated by the discovery that they had remained a secret for this long.
ā€œThere was a prophecy made shortly after my birth. The gods promised me a soulmate.ā€
Turning around to face you, he bore his soul to yours through his eyes as he read the prophecy to you. With each word that fell from his lips, the world around you spun quicker and quicker. It made sense. It all made sense.
ā€œI gave up on the idea of the prophecy coming true as time passed. In yakunaj, when you have lived as long as I have, seen as much as I have, happy endings are nothing but meaningless fallacies. But then, that night cameā€¦the night I heard you sing for the first time.ā€
He approached you slowly, cautiously like a wild animal that would take flight if startled by any sudden movements. What happened next made your eyes fill with tears; he knelt before you. This man ā€“ a king, a god ā€“ surrendered to you with no hesitation.
ā€œI have finally found youā€¦ā€ He breathed, his orbs shining with devotion. ā€œYou are home. Why do you think you have no family? No one to trace your roots back to? You were made for me. Mine.ā€
Your face fell in between the palms of your hands as you wept. Quickly, your hands were replaced by his. He held your face in his hands like he was holding the entire world, the pads of his thumbs gently brushing away your tears.
ā€œWhy the tears, my love?ā€
You shook your head, placing your hands on top of his. The spark you felt every time the two of you touched could no longer be ignored.
ā€œWhy did they just now bring us together?ā€ You cried. ā€œWeā€™ve both been alone for all this time, how could they not do something about it!ā€
ā€œShhh,ā€ Namor cooed. ā€œYou think I have not been angry with them, my sweet? I have held myself back from tearing their skies and oceans apart just to find you. But what I feel for you right now in this very moment? That feeling will always win.ā€
The both of you said nothing more, for there was nothing that needed to be said. Your long lost love held you in his arms as you liberated yourself from what felt like decades of anguish. His grip never faltered even as you gripped his flesh hard enough to draw blood. Instead, he soothingly rocked you as he recounted the stories of his peopleā€™s origins. Talokan was a clandestine national treasure, one of the only things on the earth that had not been bastardized. That was all the doing of this wonderful being who had been promised to you.
ā€œThey were wrong about you. Your name.ā€ You whispered. ā€œYouā€™re not without love, quite the opposite actually. The actions you have taken, the lengths you have gone to protect your people and your home, are ones of a man consumed with nothing but love. You can see it in how happy they are.ā€
With cautious hands, you caressed his cheeks. He preened against your touch, melting right into your palms. The world would never see the stoic warrior king falter, but already, you had him firmly wound around your finger. He could sit there for hours soaking in your ardor.
ā€œOur home. Our people.ā€ Namor corrected. ā€œThey canā€™t wait to meet you.ā€
Lovingly, he pressed his forehead to yours, nudging the tip of your nose with his.
ā€œAre you ready to meet them?ā€
He observed endearingly as your eyes widened as large as flying saucers as you nodded overzealously, a giggle tumbling from your lips. Kā€™ukā€™ulkan noted once more how full of love he felt. He wondered if this was what your lives together would consist of, overcome with all of the possibilities. Was adoring you more than he did in this moment even conceivable? When your smile faltered slightly, worry filled him.
ā€œIā€™ve never seenā€¦myself.ā€
ā€œI am honored to be the first to see your true form.ā€
The two of you stood, walking hand in hand out of his personal study and to the outermost cove surrounded with the most water. Inhaling shakily, you eyed what awaited below you with apprehension. You were not human, far from it, and yet it felt as if you and your true form were worlds apart. Namor was silent. He knew this was something you needed to do alone. The only form of assurance offered to you was a look of encouragement.
Slowly, you dipped one foot into the water and allowed the other to follow. Keeping your eyes closed, you focused on your heart rate as your body adroitly descended into the abyss of the sea. You could have easily fallen asleep if it werenā€™t for a tingly sensation disrupting your peace. It started small, gradually winding around you until all at once, currents of electricity bolted through your limbs. Instinctively, your lungs expanded, and you took your first gulp of air underwater. You ripped your eyes open in bewilderment when you didnā€™t choke on water. The clear-cut view you had of your surroundings despite no sources of light being near further consolidated your shock. A noise akin to a squeak and gasp escaped your lips and before you knew it, you were cutting through the waters with newfound ease until your head broke the surface.
Namor would have given everything to his name to capture the sight before him. There you were, beaming at him with unrivaled radiance. He stopped breathing when you lifted your tail out of the water. Just when he thought you could not be any more magnificent than you already were, you defied his expectations. The scales covering the muscle were a range of shades of lapis lazuli, emerald, and gold. Towards the tips of your forked fin, they all blended into a rich shade of dark indigo. Your torso was bare but hidden behind your locks as they cascaded over your breasts. Namor could have gawked at you for hours if it werenā€™t for you playfully flicking water at his face. He felt light and dream-like as your melodious laughter echoed through the cavern. He decided then and there that your laughter was his favorite song. The scowl permanently etched onto his face fell. In its place, a smile so wide it hurt spawned. For the first time in centuries, he laughed so hard his abdomen hurt.
Powerless to his desires, he dove into the water after you, finding shelter in your embrace once more. Intuitively, your tail curled around one of his legs. He submerged the two of you back into the water and before you knew it, his lips were pressed against yours. Skin to skin, naked chests were tightly pressed against each other, your arms locked around his neck as your mouths feverishly meshed against one another. A barely audible moan slipped from your mouth right into his as his tongue pushed passed your lips. Namor voiced his pleasure with a low rumble from his chest. Pathetically, you could cry again right then and there. How could you have gone without this your whole life?
A loud clearing of the throat caused you both to cease your ministrations. Namor was anything but sorry as he pulled away with the softest expression you had seen on his face thus far. He regarded the two individuals standing in front of you ā€“ a hulking man with long inky tresses and an ornate headpiece resembling the skull of a hammerhead shark and a fierce looking woman with a feathered lionfish-esque headdress. Though both clearly high up in the royal ranks with a cutthroat reputation to uphold, they studied you and Namor with mischief.
ā€œKā€™ukā€™alkan, they are waiting for her.ā€ The man spoke.
ā€œYou might want to put this on before you go.ā€ Spoke the woman, pulling an opulent bra top from behind her back and extending it towards you.
The state of undress you were in hit you like a bus. Your face felt like it was on fire from embarrassment, your lover pressing a tender kiss to your heated cheek. Tactfully, he maneuvered you away from the eyes of the warrior you now knew was Attuma. The woman, his cousin and second in command named Namora, expertly laced you into the garment.
ā€œThat was so embarrassing,ā€ You mumbled to yourself once your modesty was secured.
Namor cracked a hint of a smirk.
ā€œAttuma and my cousin expected nothing less from us. Now, shall we?ā€
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Talokan was a magnificent sight. The agriculture was impressive, the vibranium rich soil working wonders for the crops. Sea creatures from colossal sized sea turtles, lengthy luminescent jellyfish of different colors, lively fish, and enormous whales to start were one with the Talokanil, peacefully existing with one another. The treatment you received from everyone was something you would never get used to. Despite not knowing you, they acknowledged you as if they had known you their entire lives. K reina perdida they called you with earnest smiles and misty eyes. Our lost queen.
But you were no longer lost.
It was evident in the way the orcas sang with you as you glided through the waters, seemingly understanding you in a way no one else could. Namorā€™s soul was finally content after seeing you swim freely, laughing so hard your stomach hurt as a couple of toddlers crawled around on your tail. His people loved you. Just as he thought they would. And you fit right in just as you were meant to. With further exploration of your physiology, the two of you discovered that like Namor, you could survive both underwater and on the surface, donning a set of legs seamlessly upon contact with land. Your strength, speed, and agility matched up perfectly with his. For hours, he chased you through the ocean, the both of you weaving in and out between walls of coral and tall beds of seaweed with dexterity. You truly were made for him.
A week later, you were officially crowned their queen. You and Namor ended the celebration with an intimate wedding ceremony in the cavern. After years of going without each other, neither of you had the patience to wait for a union on a grander scale. You both were enough ā€“ you would always be enough. And as he laid your bare body across the bed he occupied by himself for half a millennium, he was confident in that conviction.
You felt dizzy as he pressed his hard bulge against your core. The most heavenly noise to grace your ears came out of your now husband when you raised your hips to grind against it. Your hands liberally roamed his chest, now stripped of his jewels, before slithering to his robust back. Your nails drew tiny half moons as they dug into his flesh when his lips made their way to the column of your neck. The decorum of countenance he upheld was nowhere to be found as he ravaged your breasts with his mouth, lightly tugging your erect nipple between his teeth before he began to suckle. You cried out pathetically. His lips twitched, umber orbs now staring up at you with lust.
ā€œYou are so noisy for me,ā€ He purred. ā€œI have not even touched the most sensitive parts of your body yet.ā€
ā€œPlease,ā€ You breathed. ā€œPlease, I need you,ā€
Namor made his way down your body, leaving no part of you untouched by his lips. Deftly, he gripped your thighs and place both of your legs over his shoulders. Gently, he kissed your dripping core.
ā€œYou have me, my love. Always.ā€Ā 
His mouth took you straight to heaven. He devoured you like a man starved, tongue flicking your nub of nerves tirelessly with precision. Your thighs were already trembling, but he had just gotten started. Your orgasm crept up on you, the strongest one you had ever experienced. It left you heaving with your back arched off of the bed, unable to do anything besides chant his name like a mantra. But your belovedā€™s ministrations did not cease. He continued working at your core, now swollen and glistening from your juices and his spit. The second orgasm built up slowly, the knot in your stomach getting tighter and tighter with each time he sucked your clit. The final straw was when you noticed his hips gyrating. He was pleasuring himself while pleasuring you. This time when you came on your loverā€™s tongue, no words or sounds were able to slip passed your mouth. You were quite literally speechless.
With a satisfied moan, he lapped up the rest of your arousal, cooing to you as you quivered and whimpered from hypersensitivity. His scorching body covered yours once more, his lips familiarizing themselves with yours. Namor held you tightly against him, whispering sweet nothings against your lips as you steadied your breathing. It wasnā€™t long before you felt the head of his cock prodding your entrance. Gripping your face firmly, he forced your eyes open. The frenzied look in his eyes as he languidly sunk into you alone could have made you come for the third time that night. But alas, the universe was on your side. Instead, you savored that moment ā€“ the feeling of him. Every inch, every vein, ingrained into your memories for as long as you shall live.
ā€œYou feel incredible.ā€ Namor panted, now beginning to steadily thrust. ā€œYou truly were made for me.ā€
You could only respond with wanton cries, too consumed with desire. The king began to piston in and out of you until he was fully pounding you into your marital bed.
ā€œNamor!ā€
He grunted into your ear, pulling out of you for a brief moment to flip you onto your stomach. He plunged back into you and picked up right where he left off. This time, however, he was brutal with the punctuality of his thrusts.
ā€œAm I your enemy, wife?ā€ He taunted. ā€œAre you even worthy of any mercy I have to spare?ā€
At this point, you could not even recognize the sounds you were making. They were debauched. Depraved. Combined with rhythmic percussion of skin against skin and the squelch of your wet cunt each time Namor entered you, the song you two orchestrated was one only for the lecherous.
ā€œKā€™ukā€™ulkan,ā€ You barely managed to murmur. ā€œIā€™m s-so close, you make me feel so good,ā€
He hummed satisfactorily, driving into you even faster.
ā€œYou are, arenā€™t you, my sweet? Thatā€™s it, sing for me. Take my seed. Carry my children.ā€
ā€œPlease!ā€ You screamed as your walls convulsed around his cock. Please come in me,ā€
With a shout and one final thrust, he released in you. Rope after rope, he filled you with his cum with proclamations of everlasting love on the tip of his tongue. His cock remained nestled deep within you as you both descended from your highs, keeping his spent from spilling. He shuddered at the image of you round and radiant carrying his child and just like that, he was hardening inside you once more. As you lay there, thoroughly cock drunk, he began to pull out of you and slowly push back in. This time, he was tender and gentle, unhurriedly focused on taking you apart for one final time that night. The two of you had centuries left together. There was no need to rush. Then again, Namor could live another 500 years with you by his side and still feel like it was not enough. He needed you forever, and then some.
ā€œI love you,ā€ He whispered against the blade of your shoulder. ā€œYou are everything.ā€
The next morning you would wake to the sight of your husband painting a new mural. One of a beautiful woman with the upper body of a human, and the lower body of a fish. By her side, a man with ears that pointed to the skies and wings on his ankles, their eyes locked and hands intertwined.
The beginning of your story.
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the-summ0ning Ā· 3 months ago
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Obsessive/Possessive!Bestfriend!Vessel HC :(
content warnings: swearing, oblivious ves :/, aware reader, poor editing, rambling, two idiots in love
a/n: I personally have beef with this one bc my Tumblr kept crashing as I wrote this on multiple occasions through the week, and I got fed up oops (so sorry if this is a bit eh). Pt 2 perhaps when I'm less ready to throw my phone and laptop against a wall maybe a more NSFW edition?
Bsf Ves who thought it was normal to feel intense emotions towards you. He was always intense and profound about his feelings in general, so why would that exclude his best friend?
He was protective, but he was protective of all the people he cared about?!
So of course it was so normal for him to always walk you home after hanging out even if your place was a breezy block away. It was only a bonus to keep the hang out going for fifteen extra minutes with one of his, if not, his most favorite person!!!
Especially during cold nights, and youā€™d grab his hand intertwining your chilled fingers with his. Always telling him how he was so warm and inviting, leaning into his touch. That flush on his cheeks? Psh from the brisk weather, nothing else, whyā€™d you ask?
Ignoring the annoying feeling of butterflies in his stomach whenever he was in your presence
and you ignored the fact you weren't down bad for him
he was the first person you showed your shopping hauls to.
His personal favorites were when you'd send pictures in the dressing rooms asking for his opinion. Not caring if there nearly 20 attachments to go through
he was simply no help, he was but a guy, and thought you looked good in everything hehe
close best friends just always were overly affectionate with one another, right?
Like cuddling casually, legs entwined, his rough fingertips slipping underneath your shirt tracing patterns on your tummy :( not bc he liked how soft your skin felt, but bc it calmed you and made you less restless
or or or when he'd be writing lyrics or gaming, he'd be sitting on the floor, and you on the couch running fingers through his hair. All solely to help him focus. You couldn't help how he'd stop what he was doing to crane his neck upwards to stare dreamily at you with a dopey smile
When you knew you'd be spending the night at his house, you'd lotion extra, and spritz a couple more pumps of fragrance on you and your things. Not bc you had hopes it'd linger on his sheets, and you wanted to get his on and off situationship you weren't fond of secretly to get the hint to buzz off finally BUT bc you just liked to smell nice and clean to rot in bed with Vessel
And he totally didn't use boys night as an excuse to stay up and occasionally glance at your location, while you went out with pals, awaiting your ā€œjust got homeā€ text. Finally feeling tired enough coincidentally once he got the notification and kicking everyone out or going home to bed.
Or pushing past his social anxiety, to go out and make his rounds with IV or Sam to the pubs for a pint or to watch a match. He was /totally/ a big sports guy like his two friends so why wouldnā€™t he enjoy a loud rowdy overstimulating environment to watch a game?
He, in fact, did not care for sports like Ivy and Sam did and only knew enough to keep up with conversations.
And he definitely did not subject himself to these nights only bc he knew you liked to end nights at these specific pubs or occasionally came out to meet your mutual friends for drinks. And certainly not to see you in real time in your going out outfit, even though he looked at the picture you sent him before leaving your place frequently throughout the night
ā€œOh hey! I didnā€™t know youā€™d be here? Let me buy your next drink darling!ā€
You knew Vessel too well, knowing his disdain for these social settings. So every time you saw him at your favorite pub, youā€™d shoot him a look and heā€™d only sheepishly smile.
ā€œThe guys dragged me out of the house. So annoying.ā€ Heā€™d groan, and rub the back of his neck in annoyance
Yeah he was so normal about you.
Like a normal best friend would disregard every person you dated right? You only deserved the best and dating that person is settling in Vesselā€™s eyes?
Scowling immediately when heā€™d meet them, grilling the fuck out of your date. Watching how their hands lingered on you throughout the night, and how his chest tightened, knowing that should be him beside you, touching you like that
It wasnā€™t jealousy, never that. Just that protectiveness he felt for youā€”and all his friends ofc (canā€™t forget his other friends)
After a series of failed dates, tonight taking the cake, you showed up to Vesselā€™s house, disappointed needing the comfort of your best friend. You came right from the date to his place still in your pretty outfit you wore.
His chest tight and aching seeing how upset you were curled up on his couch, in his hoodie and sweats, blundering on everything you could have done wrong rather than accessing what your date did wrong
Seething about it actually, how could the person that brought him so much joy think they could have royally screwed things up?! Heā€™s met a handful of the people you dated, they were all so wrong for you!
If they were wrong, who was right then?
That is when it smacked him in the face rather aggressively, feeling agitated hearing you ramble how you must have been unworthy and so broken for someone to love you. But he had loved you so effortlessly, it was one of the easiest feats he has done in his lifetime. Your imperfections and all were laid bare to him, and he still hadnā€™t recoiled because of it.
ā€œBut I love you.ā€ It tumbled out of his mouth before he could stop himself.
A half hearted smile on your face, sniffling, wiping your stray tears with the floppy oversized sleeve of his hoodie. ā€œYouā€™re my best friend, Ves. Itā€™s different.ā€
What he didnā€™t know was your miserable effort to date was to distract and repress what you knew was love that blurred that bordered more than platonic would be unreciprocated. Realizing months ago, it was always more, but rather staying friends, keeping it locked away, in fear he'd reject you. That most of the conversations on your dates involved stories with him, only tonight, realizing that was your flaw so blatantly.
He was the brightest star of your universe. An overbearing presence that made your dates uncomfortable, but you had considered him and you a package deal for anyone wanting to get to know you
And when you'd moan about your love life woes, it subtly included him as well.
ā€œWould it be so horrible if I love you more than a best friend should?ā€ It was a quiet confession that you thought you imagined if he wasnā€™t on the other side of the couch facing you. Leaving air caught in your throat, speechless. The air growing tense with the silence between you two
ā€œIt wouldnā€™t be horrible.ā€ You finally willed the words out, but your nerves were clawing at you not at the realization that your feeling were reciprocated.
"So let me then." he willed, inching closer to you. "Let me show you how you deserved to be treated, and stop entertaining these lame fucks." His face now so close to yours, hand cupping your cheek
You searched his eyes for any chance he was messing with you. This had to be dream right?? The brush of his thumb on your cheekbone the only thing grounding you back to earth. Only nodding dazed at his words making him smile gently. "I need words, dove." his thumb trailed to your bottom lip, dragging it down a bit.
"That's all I wanted to hear for months." You admitted shyly.
That was all it took for his lips to be pressed against yours in a soft kiss, all the tension dissolving and encrypted into the gesture. The love, frustration, and yearning melding between your mouths, his hand wrapping in the hair at the nape of your neck to bring you impossibly closer.
"We were never meant to be just friends." He mumbles against your lips.
"Never." you agreed, crawling into his lap.
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leonstoenailunderhisbed Ā· 7 months ago
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I just got out of my psychology class and I kept having thoughts about Leon and how his mind works. Hereā€™s a psychoanalysis on Leon bc I truly do like how his brain works:
TW: mentions of mental illnesses, substances, substance abuse, suicide. (Guys- I am not a medical psychologist or a medical psychiatrist. This is strictly based on my psychology class, take this with a grain of salt.)
Leon suffers from Combat and Violence Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD). This type of PTSD (because thereā€™s subcategories) is most often common in veterans and in men.
More often than not, one can tell when someoneā€™s suffering PTSD (flat voice, substance abuse, inability to sleep, change in personality, etc.)
Leon in RE2/RE2R didnā€™t necessarily show signs of PTSD until after the events took place. Leon was too busy trying to survive that his brain shut off the emotions he was feeling ā€œin the heat of the moment.ā€ He was scared but it was his survival instinct that allowed him (or the player) to move forward. Hence why I think he also suffered from Depression and Acute Stress Disorder (ASD).
ASD is commonly found in patients with PTSD, ASD is kind of like the first stage after a traumatic event took place. PTSD victims often find themselves having frequent panic attacks. I think it would be safe to assume that Leon in RE2/RE2R had several panic attacks during or after Raccoon City. I donā€™t think heā€™d go to therapy/psychiatrist/psychologist because in RE4R he stated that he immediately got called to the White House after he survived RC. And this is where I think it got worse.
RE4 and RE4R both portray very distinct Leon characters. One is more ā€œfineā€ than the other in short words. Leon in RE4og doesnā€™t necessarily show signs of having mental issues but maybe heā€™s just good at masking them. Leon in RE4og often finds himself being very witty or very lean back. Heā€™s less serious but I think itā€™s a coping mechanism. Up to that point in his life, heā€™s been in very serious situations that I think this is his way of gaining some of that control he lost when the virus first started. His brain is fighting battles of being in control or letting others control him. In this case- the situation is controlling him. He wants to have that sense of individuality and most of the time this is a coping mechanism. To gain back some of the things heā€™s lost in the process.
In RE4R, however (and Iā€™m going to be very bold with this one), we donā€™t know much about how he feels. He is flat and his demeanor is distant to an extent. Iā€™ve noticed a few changes to him from when he first started the game to where the player made it halfway. In the beginning of the game (when heā€™s with the two Spanish cops) heā€™s similar to RE4og- sarcastic and a little unserious. Which can be guessed as his normal personality. He doesnā€™t really show how much heā€™s actually been through with those two strangers. Heā€™s got better things to worry about- he neglects his own issues. When he tries to find Ashley and he sees the zombies again- his PTSD gets triggered and it makes him be able to pull the trigger (aside from the player lol) There are few types of reactions when PTSD gets triggered and I think Leonā€™s reaction is a bit depressing.
When Leon sees these zombies again, his brain automatically jumps back to the memories of Raccoon City and almost immediately finds himself back in his former selfā€™s shoes. But he doesnā€™t have time to linger, he forces those thoughts away and keeps going. I donā€™t think he wants to have time to think about what just happened because heā€™s often trying to keep his brain occupied ā€œsorry, mustā€™ve slippedā€ or any other phrase he says makes me believe that heā€™s just trying to make himself laugh (because believe it or not, laughter really does help with mental issues) or heā€™s trying to make the situation seem lighter. Or maybe heā€™s in denial, his brain hasnā€™t processed that the same thing that happened in RC is happening all over again. And when youā€™re in denial, you are repressed. Sigmund Freud said that repression is when someone turns something (trauma, thoughts, events, feelings) away. They deliberately choose to cast their thoughts and feelings aside. Leon bottles his emotions, itā€™s his defense mechanism. He doesnā€™t smoke (as mentioned in the game) nor does he drink (thereā€™s a Reddit post that perfectly summed it up for me) He knows substances arenā€™t good for you and the fact that heā€™s against them makes me believe that he has other ways of dealing with PTSD such as exercise. Iā€™m not saying this just because Leon looks very built, I want to think that maybe half the reason he works out isnā€™t just for his job. I think it also because it helps him mentally.
Mobility, sleep, and nutrition are the most important things to keep yourself mentally and physically healthy.
Iā€™ll get on to RE6 because in that game, he pulled a 180 imo. RE6 Leon is more empathetic. He cares about the people that couldā€™ve survived. He suffers from survivorā€™s guilt. After RE4/RE4R, Leon probably became more aware of his struggles and has tried to deal with them. Heā€™s become more human, heā€™s allowed himself to feel human. Heā€™s still the same serious guy with the flat effect but heā€™s becoming more open about his thoughts and feelings. I think the game is trying to hint at us that MAYBE heā€™s getting better. (Guys this is a stretch okay. RE6 is lowkey messy)
Now on to the films (Iā€™ve done the liberty of researching a ā€˜orderā€™ of when these may have taken place and not by the release date order so you guys wonā€™t get confused):
ID Leon: Heā€™s very compassionate in this one. He has a sense of self righteousness but I know why. He wants to make up for the losses of the people heā€™s seen die. He wants to fight against the corporation and wants to end the spread (submarine scene when he talks about RC) He wants to make up for what he couldnā€™t save. (Hence why he didnā€™t give Claire the chip- he wanted to protect her because he cares for her)
Degeneration Leon: Protection can only go a long way. Leon is moreā€¦ assertive in his objectives, if you will. Heā€™s back in his RE4 days in other words (any of the two games tbh, this Leon is complex) Leon wants to keep fighting for his cause. Not only is he forced to be a soldier for the government but he also has found a drive. All his pent up PTSD and trauma has shifted into something else. If no one couldā€™ve been the hero then HEā€™LL be the hero himself, does that make sense?
Damnation Leon: Haha Russia go brr (sorry) Again, heā€™s become more chill. When heā€™s with JD, heā€™s funny but still cautious (bc letā€™s be honest, JD couldā€™ve still shot his ass) nothing much to comment, I think heā€™s been consistent since Degeneration.
Vendetta Leon: NOW WE GETTING JUICY. This man- this Leon is the epitome of what a relapse does to you. Leon is seen drinking away his problems. Heā€™s relapsed back into the mentality where his brain is finally processing everything. Heā€™s even tried to attempt suicide- thatā€™s how bad he got. His PTSD, his ASD, depression (bc you canā€™t tell me he didnā€™t have depression) it all came back to him and it made him feel shitty. He lost his power over himself, he no longer feels useful. He feels empty and broken. Thatā€™s sh he drowns himself in his own sorrows. Because heā€™s learned that if you drink until you pass out, you donā€™t dream. He doesnā€™t sleep- no. Heā€™d rather black out because when youā€™re in an unconscious state, you donā€™t dream at all. Youā€™re simply just lying there on the floor with your eyes closed. And thatā€™s the feeling Leon wants to feel. He wants to forget everything for one minute and just calm down. And alcohol does that to you, thatā€™s why people with PTSD become addicted to substances.
DI Leon: homeboy somehow got better (Iā€™ve yet to watch DI lol) but from what Iā€™ve seen, heā€™s definitely back to his ā€œnormalā€ self. He probably learned that maybe living life is the best thing. That if his attempt wouldā€™ve succeeded, then he wouldnā€™t have been able to live to his fullest. Regret makes people do a lot of things and I think Leon matured and learned.
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i feel like this is going to turn into a mini series, but i can't stop thinking about being on video calls with yeonjun, your closest companion and most beloved person. no matter what kind of relationship, be it platonic or romantic, i just feel like having yeonjun in your life would make it a whole lot more bearable. finding those moments in your day to ring him up and update him on your latest endeavour... he'd shoo his members away and make the time to specifically spend time with you even if he's far away or you're off somewhere else :( it would be so special. at times, you'd refer to him as "healing" and he'd melt and he's just happy to be that person for you :(( no matter what happens in life, he's your priority and he makes sure that you know that you're his priority as well :((
don't want to get too angsty all the damn time, so i'll keep it mellow and nice, but my point is he's just a ball of comfort you can snuggle up against to escape from reality's often harsh reminders. his energy is infectious, frequently bringing life back to you. even on lagging calls, you'd somehow feel replenished and ready to take on the day/night hehe. once, he was forced to rest because of an injury and he'd called you in shambles, feeling the guilt eating him up and he'd sought after your presence next to him, but you were out of country and it was honestly a terribly emotional day for you and him :( so you'd opened a movie and shared your screen to watch it face to face and when the members were back at the dorm, they found him knocked out on his bed with his laptop screen on full brightness haha and they wanted to put it away to let him properly sleep and they saw you doing what seemed like important work on camera, keeping a dozing yeonjun company, so they waved you a hello and left the laptop back in its original place ahahhaha they were so cute like they were struggling not to make any noise bc it's not often they'd get to see you without having a mad yeonjun chasing them away bc how dare they take away your precious time together dhdhdhhs im smitten. this idea rots my brain and comforts me on a daily basis. or should i say nightly.
yeonjun would notice the slightest frown and softest sniffle and the moment he asks what's wrong, you'd break down and all your walls would crumble because it's just him. it's just yeonjun. your healing. your piece of peace. he'd be able to pick up on all of your minute and miniscule cues, letting you know that he's here should you ever need him. not everyone is as lucky as you. you found your soulmate in the body of someone named yeonjun. even in silence, your hearts would converse. knowing that he's there is what keeps you motivated to do your best in life, because he works his absolute hardest every single day as well :(((
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