#but we've been relying heavily on my parents to watch the boys

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Hard Talk Theater: I’m Not Well

Hey guys. I know I’ve been...erratic on here and elsewhere lately, and though I’ve talked a little about what is happening on my twitter, I’ve definitely been dragging my feet updating here, where the bulk of my followers are at.

Here’s the short of it: I went into the ER two weeks ago with what I thought was an allergic reaction to some antibiotic and ended up staying 10 days while remaining mostly a medical mystery. They found one autoimmune disorder (ulcerative colitis), and suspect that there may be another that they haven’t found (I have a LOT of follow up to do in the next few months).

I’ll be okay. They’ve ruled out a lot of the scary options, and we’re left with some more rare, head-tilty ones, but ultimately I’m going to heal up and get everything in order.

It’s just...going to take a while. Longer than I’ve ever really let myself have a break for.

I’m still here. Everything just currently takes....so much more effort than it ever has as I heal, and I’m realizing I really won’t just...bounce back in a week, ready to write up more fic. It’s actually been weeks since i had the energy to READ fic. But I am slowly improving every day, and I’m hoping it won’t be long until I’m back, interacting and creating as much as I always have.

It just won’t be as fast as I like

That being said, I’m so glad for all of you. These arrived for me today and I had a good half hour sob once my husband informed me my fandom ladies had wanted to send on their well-wishes. The hardest thing about all this is that I come from a big family, and I have some of the best IRL friends on this planet, and if we weren’t in the middle of all this social distancing I would be buried under their well-visits and food and any other help they could possibly offer-- but for the safety of everyone, we all have to stay away and it’s very...frustrating on all sides. So getting this little reminder of how lucky I am to have made this obiyuki family came right when I needed it most <3

Thank you guys so much for being there. I know I’m on what is probably just the beginning of a long, rocky journey toward recovery, but having you guys here to support me means the world. I love you all so, so much <3