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jeonqkooks · 2 years ago

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Do whatever your heart tells you

that was so fast, that post was up for less than a minute i think asdfkgjk. thank you 🥺 i'll sprinkle some love onto my other babies that haven't experienced the spotlight in a while <3

#i was gonna make a long rambling post about this but i might just do it in the tags here #so i was reading a really nice feedback for strictly platonic this morning and ofc i went back to quickly reread the fic #i had a good time writing SP. like my creative juices were just flowing so naturally without me trying to force myself to write #altho there was a period after the fic was released where i genuinely disliked it so much that i cringed every time i saw it in my notifs-#but we're not gonna talk about that bc i overcame my SP hatred and i like it now lmao 💀#ANYWAY! i think SP was the fic that kinda helped me develop a 'style' ?? which i felt so good about #and then i subsequently lost it bc for some reason i started comparing myself to every single writer i came across lmao #so i have a profound discontentment with all of my writing from august to at least december and maybe even now #so idk i guess i've been trying to find that 'style' again #that certain je ne sais quois (i deserve to be punched just for saying this 💀)#and i think i'll have to look beyond obs for that bc i've been focused on just obs for last few months so everything feels like it's just-#blending together #like i had a relatively pleasant time writing obs4 and it's not the same #idk this doesn't even make sense 💀 and it sounds v dramatic and i'm sorry that i'm a dramatic person when i'm left to my own devices 💀#sooooooooo yah idk #anon #answered

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