#but there seems to be another reason for Armand's dismissal considering he is quick to tell Daniel that photos don't capture everything
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Though it is all said in good humour, there is a subtle distinction between the way that Louis takes a moment to compliment the artistry involved in the theatre (âThe effect was wondrous.â) before he grumbles about its subject matter (âThey were weird! And always ended in death or some kind of cruel, barely motivated violence.â), and the manner in which Armand scoffs at the concept of Louis being interested in photography (âVampires with hobbies! Insanity!â), dismissing it as a human foible (âIt's a human perspective of time.â) that Louis has since outgrown.
#considering that Armand says that the killings during the theatre performances are insufficent to feed the coven#and it is doubtful they do all of this for the sake of money#one wonders what makes his pursuits worthwhile art and Louis' pointless hobbies#I hate that Louis agrees with Armand that his art was worthless; âI hadn't come to that conclusion yet. I liked taking photographs.â#particularly as he looks so fond and nostalgic when the photos are out#(it puts me a little in mind of how skills are degraded when they are done by women)#but there seems to be another reason for Armand's dismissal considering he is quick to tell Daniel that photos don't capture everything#I'm also fascinated to know what Armand thinks the purpose of immortality is#when being able to pursue your fun little hobbies with no worries about money or time is a fantasy shared by many including myself#considering how fragile and prone to ruminating miserably on the past Louis is I would say that he should be encouraged to have interests#Louis de Pointe du Lac#Armand#Interview with the Vampire#Jagged Jottings
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gimmie a quick rundown of which scenes break your heart the most, i'm not sad enough and need the pain.
I love you and this is both the best and worstthing anyone has never asked me, because apparently, I have no clue what a âquickârundown means.  I also tried very hard tonot make this entirely about Armand and⌠I failed about midway through. Butin my defense, can you ever be sad enough? No, you canât.
SO HEREâS THE TOP JUST-A-BIT-TOO-MANY LIST OFHEARTBREAKING VAMPIRE MOMENTSâ˘:
- Louiskilling the Marquis, and both his and Lestatâs reactions to it. Louis draggingLestat to his abusive fatherâs bed and forcing him to speak forgiveness,despite the fact that Lestat is having an obvious meltdown (âHe threw up hishands and let out a terrible roar of desperation. Â âDamn him! Kill him!â he said.â/âLestatdanced like the maddened Rumpelstilskin about to put his foot through thefloorâ/ âNever had I seen him so weak and at the same time enragedâ), thatLouis, in his lack of information, mistakes for impatience and indifference.Damn dysfunctional vampires with a thing for miscommunication. Â If only there was a scene with the two of themdiscussing this in a later book, it would probably make the list too. But,alas.
Rest of the list under cut because of excessively long post that no oneâs going to read:
 - Louisdumping Lestatâs âbodyâ in the bog.
âThis is Lestat. This is all oftransformation and mystery, dead, gone into eternal darkness. I Â felt a pull suddenly, as if some force wereurging me to go down with him, to descend into the dark water and never comebackâ.
     For no other reason, but that I feelthis is the prime example of Louisâ tendency to be unable to take control ofhis life and stand up for himself and what he wants, ending up being a passive observerof the most tragic events of his life, lamenting them only when itâs too late.Oh, Louis.
-Armandlying to himself about his relationship with Marius.
âA love so strong hecouldnât allow me to grow old and die. A love that waited patiently until I wasstrong enough to be born to darkness.â
-I donât normally care about Madeleine, but thisquote shatters my heart on a daily basis, considering the context in which IwtVwas written.
âAnd cruelly, surely, I said to her, âDid you love this child?â
I will never forget her face then, the violence in her, the absolute hatred.âYes.â She all but hissed the words at me. âHow dare you!â She reached for thelocket even as I clutched it. It was guilt that was consuming her, not love. Itwas guilt- that shop of dolls Claudia had described to me, shelves and shelvesof the effigy of that dead childâ.
-Armandleaving Louis, unable to bear the loveless, cold partnership anymore, indespair and suicidal. Especially this part of the farewell speech:
âAndI believed I would gather you to me and hold you. And time would open to us,and we would be the teachers of one another. All the things that gave youhappiness would give me happiness; and I would be the protector of your pain.My power would be your power. My strength the same. But youâre dead inside tome, youâre cold and beyond my reach! It is as if Iâm not here, beside you. And,not being here with you, I have the dreadful feeling that I donât exist atallâ.
Armand,the break-up line master. Jesus Christ.
-âHebent down, pressing his head against my chest and holding my hand so tight thathe caused me pain. The room was filled with the flashing red light of thesiren, and then it was going away.
âLouis,I canât bear it, I canât bear it,â he growled through his tears. âHelp me,Louis, stay with meâ.â
- Theway IwtV ends in general, with no silver lining or sliver of hope. Lestat andArmand are dying, of old age and despair, Louis is continuing his existencelike a bloodless empty shell, seeing no possibility of recovery or light at theend of the tunnel, and there is no comforting cosmic reason anything is everhappening at all. Â Life is pain and youdonât even die. No wonder IwtV is such a downer to the non-initiated.
- LittleLestat being beaten bloody by his father and brothers.
-âAndwhen we decided to go to Paris, I thought we would starve in Paris, that wewould go down and down and down. It was what I wanted rather that what theywanted, that I, the favored son, should rise for them. I thought we would godown! We were supposed to go downâ.
- Armandbegging Lestat and Gabrielle to take him with them and them refusing. Iâm notgoing to go into details, I feel this is an obvious one.
Exceptfor these gems:
âMaybeas the years pass, desire will come again to me. I will know appetite again,even passion. Maybe when we meet in another age, these things will not beabstract and fleeting. Iâll speak with a vigour that matches yours, instead ofmerely reflecting itâ.
and
âArmandwas a small boy in the doorway, holding the backs of his own armsâ.
Theconsistent implication throughout the series that Armand gets cold when heâsupset does things to my heart.
- Armandâsadmonition to Lestat that fledglings are bound to despise their makers, simplybecause itâs not true, or at least it doesnât seem to be in most cases. IsArmand projecting because heâs practically almost incapable of verbalcommunication at this point in his life which makes a hindered mind gift seemlike an unsurpassable obstacle in his mind? Or is he projecting because, onsome level, he knows his relationship with Marius was abusive and probablydoomed? (Spoiler alert: probably both.)
- Mariuscalling Armand his mistake.
-Lestat hearing Armand crying after he pushedhim off the roof:
âMaybe I imagined it, his lastinvitation, and the anguish after. The weeping. I do know that as the monthspassed he was out there again. I heard him from time to time just walking thoseold Garden District streets. And I wanted to call to him, to tell him that itwas a lie Iâd spoken to him, that I did love him. I did.â.
- âUglyfights, terrible fights, finally, Armand broken down, glassy-eyed with silentrage, then crying softly but uncontrollably as if some lost emotion had beenrediscovered which threatened to tear him apartâ.
-âEvenin moments of the greatest jeopardy, I knew we would meet before I would befree to die.â
Tell me again how Armandâs suicideattempt in Memnoch was out of character.
-Lestatbelieving that Daniel would have left Night Island with him if he had askedhim. So much theoretical pain.
- Itâsa pity that Daniel leaving Armand isnât technically  ~a scene, because that would make the top ofthe list.
- Everyscene in which Lestat is âhauntedâ by Claudia in TotBT. Itâs not hard to seehow he made the connection between her and the Raglan episode, even with himnever straight-up admitting it to himself. Remember when Lestat still feltcrippling guilt for his worst actions, even subconsciously? Good times.
- Davidâsturning. But this is not the time to complain about this, itâs canon heartbreakappreciation time!
- Armandâssuicide attempt in Memnoch the Devil. Iâve already elaborated on this way toomuch, but letâs take a moment to appreciate Lestat screaming Armandâs nameafter him. Take a moment. Thank you.
- Louisobjecting to Lestat being chained to the floor, but being completely dismissed.
- Theentire The Vampire Armand. I canât let myself elaborate too much on this, as Iâlljust be reciting the entire book. I can just open it to a random page and itwill probably be a Top Heartbreaking Vampire Moment:
 Armandâsobvious exhaustion at the beginning of the book, that no one seems to respect. Himscolding himself and admitting to David he feels heâs going mad. A child silentlywishing for death so hard, that Marius heard it amongst the mental voices ofthe entire city. Armandâs entire ârelationshipâ with Marius. Armand having a breakdownat seeing religious imagery, not yet being sure why he has that reaction. Meetinghis parents, especially the broken Ivan. The âBridge of Sighsâ metaphor, Jesus.The ashes of the Palazzo boys. The whole Riccardo horror. Armand trying toconceal his scarred face from Benji and Sybelle, putting all his energy intothe illusion. The shattering feeling of betrayal about the turning of Armandâs âchildrenâby Marius, and Armandâs conviction that it was meant as punishment. Louis beingunable to conceal his relief and joy to see Armand alive. Armandâs bitter, hurtdismissal of his relationship with Daniel as doomed from the start. Armandadmitting that Sybelle and Benji had to coax him out of depressive episodes attimes. Man, did Anne go ham on the pain in this one. Why, mom?
- Specialmention to that one time Marius beat Armand out of âfrustrationâ at him fortaking too long to emotionally get over his visit to Kiev, probably his mostblatantly abusive moment in the book.
ââYouâve had enough time to grieve and to weep,â hesaid, âand to reevaluate all youâve been given. Now itâs back to work. Go tothe desk and prepare to write. Or Iâll whip you some more.ââ
âHe smacked me across the face. I was dizzy.â
Nice going, Marius.
- Secondspecial mention to this little passage, because no one ever talks about it andit makes my heart bleed:
â I looked off, wanting the quiet, dreamingof bowers suddenly, not in words but in images, the way my old mind would doit, wanting to lie down in garden beds among growing flowers, wanting to pressmy face to earth and sing softly to myselfâ.
- Thirdspecial mention to this, but only out of context:
âFor all the wrongs done you, andthe loneliness youâve suffered, and the horrors that the world put upon youwhen you were too young and too untried to know how to fight them and then toovanquished to wage a battle with a full heartâ. Â
- SeeingDaniel in Blood and Gold after all those years. The shock of the degree inwhich his mental stability deteriorated, not objecting to being kept by Mariuslike a child. The terrifying possibilities of how he might have ended up therein the first place. The even more terrifying possibility that it might havebeen the news of Armandâs âdeathâ that pushed him over the edge. How Armandmust have felt about this ârelationshipâ.
- I am definitely not done, and yet Iâm going to stop âcause even I had enough.
Tl;dr: Sad Vampires.
#that took me so long to type with only my left hand#worth it? worth it#the vampire chronicles#monstersinthecosmos
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