#but then there's like. this whole 'gym culture' thing and im like. yeah u go girl @ friends and cousin who gym and im happy for them etc
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tw: body image ; brief sui imply (im okay!! just rambling) ; disordered eating but briefly ment at the end
#kats perosnal#uhhh spacer tag as i always do incase anyone doesnt wanna see the contents of my little rant ramble thing for any reason#idk if that was a large enough spacer bc i know that the amount of tags shown differs on mobile and desktop and even then i dont think its#consistent but surely this is enough#anyways i just#for the most part i don't really have a problem w my body/how i look#but sometimes i notice new stretchmarks and im like :/ oh that sucks huh#or like i realise i've gained a bit of weight and im like :/ oh that sucks huh#but other times im like. no yeah stretchmarks are totally normal and im fine w that and weight isnt gonna be consistent forever and its#bound to change#and for the most part im okay with myself and i know i need to be a bit more active so when i go to the beach to write i take a walk before#i go and i know thats not like 'okay great ur healthy now' but im kinda. hey i did smth.#but then there's like. this whole 'gym culture' thing and im like. yeah u go girl @ friends and cousin who gym and im happy for them etc#but i also feel this like.. pressure to work out and excercise and i know its not their intention when they tell me stuff about gym#like its 100% a me thing and its just this feeling i wish to Not Perceive lol#and then re: stretchmarks#i used to really not give a fuck at all bc i mean lmao didnt think i was gonna really make it long enough to get to the point where i worry#about how i look to somoene else?? idk if tmi but my stretchmarks are in places that are normally covered so its whatever#and not to get tmi/too comfy or anything but the idea of being in a position/situation where someone would see my stretchmarks makes me#very... worried and anxious bc like haha what if they're like. nope not for them.#that being said tho the prospect of having a rom partner/a future w someone is still smth i cant see for myself so like lol#and like sometimes i just become very aware of my weight or my thighs or my stomach/belly whatever lol or how a pair of pants fit a bit#differently and part of me is like. yo it doesnt really matter its whatever and then i move on. but then i also start to notice that im not#eating as regularly as i used to (not that i ever really had 3 meals but i always try to have 2)#and idk if thats a subconscious thing or if i really am just so absorbed in my day or i really jsut didnt have time#and idk its a very easy spiral to go down (body img thoughts) but im normally able to just shrug it off#but AH sigh. i just had it all on my mind just then and really wanted to get it out#im gonna try and not think about rom relos too much as well because thats a whole thing in itself and i can ramble/rant a whole new post's#worth of stuff on that so yeah. sorry if u read all this but also thanks??
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okay as much as i would Love to answer your whole post in detail and address the whole thing i can’t put a read more in my ask so i’m gonna limit it some 😭 would dms be more efficient? yes. am i writing this ask anyway? also yes.
and yeah i meant the Whole cb WHAT ARE THEY FEEDING THEM?? HOW LONG DID SUNGHOON HIT THE GYM FOR?? I DIDNT KNOW JAY’S VOICE COULD D O THE THINGS ITS DOING RN. NIKI IS OUT HERE LIVING HIS BEST ANGSTY TEEN LIFE.
“he’s selectively deaf” JDKSJDEB. no but fr i really do see jaan as a rigid, stubborn type, a stickler for rules when he’s the one making them but an absolute loose cannon whenever given an order. thankfully his “i do what i want” attitude doesn’t cause Massive problems bc he has a sense of responsibility and at least one braincell. jino, on the other hand… we’re just glad he’s cheerful and not particularly rebellious
CRAZY CAT VAMPIRES!! going back to noa with cat-like tendencies i imagine him padding around with a cat held in one arm “as a buddy” and everyone like “how has that thing not cleared you to death.” no but the guys having these old people tendencies is so funny to me it’s like a steve rogers situation where every once in a while it hits that “oh . oh right you may look like me but you’re Old” just heli smiling contentedly whenever he understands a pop culture reference or jaan crocheting (which is an even Better image now that i talked abt him up there) or jino learning to out-bake anyone’s grandmother (of course, being able to use his body as an oven helps)
no yeah . yeah sooha wanting to show them how to enjoy life as teenagers and then having to realize she couldn’t have a normal fun teenage life either and all of them working through it together and now i’m crying
i appreciate the chart and stuff bc there’s just So many ways to interpret vampirism and lycanthropy- disease, hereditary, extreme states of being (life or death), and each of them have so many implications and it’s fun to explore!! i wish we knew more abt solon and the guys’ origin UGH
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man i always forget the limitations of this form of communication <///3 HSJFBVJV im just thankful tumblr apparently got rid of that word/character limit that they had on their asks for a while at least im assuming they did. that would have made our entire thing far less convenient
NO YEAH THE COMEBACK. HA. WOW. jay's voice DEFINITELY does a thing at the beginning of future perfect and i do NOT know how to feel about it. hybe needs to close the gyms fr because how much more ripped is sunghoon gonna GET. and yes u go riki get in your angsty edgy teen phase!!
jaan gives me chaotic lawful energy honestly—he's made his own set of rules and he sticks to them to the letter, but anyone ELSE'S rules? its fair game. jaan and jino both have the potential to be absolutely insane loose cannons (and sometimes ARE if the situation calls for it) but theyre stopped from being complete harbingers of chaos by the fact that jaan is actually oretty rigid and responsible (in his own strange way) and jino is happy-go-lucky cheerful instead of aggressively rebellious. if those two aspects of their personalities did not exist the world would be screwed.
NOA CARRYING A CAT AROUND "AS A BUDDY" PLS I CANT. THATS TOO SWEET. and maybe because hes tall af he can carry several more cats than his brothers and hes always just like (while holding six cats) "its the benefit of having long arms"
ive never watched a marvel movie of my own volition but i got weirdly involved in the fandom for some reason a couple years ago and because of that i Know Some Stuff. so now im thinking about heli being the ULTIMATE out-of-touch grandpa of the brothers, because hes the one out of all of them thats the most focused on protecting them and making sure they stay hidden, so hes never taken the TIME to get involved with the pop-culture of the time. and then when he actually starts to slow down a little and give himself time to LIVE instead of survive (thanks to sooha), and he starts looking into pop-culture more, he gets ABSURDLY PROUD anytime someone (like shion, because you KNOW shion would be the brother thats absurdly invested in everything pop-culture just because he thinks these modern humans are very entertaining) makes a reference to a meme or movie or something and he actually gets it! so like you said hes just sitting or standing there with this big old content grin on his face and he goes "i understood that reference!" and sooha or jino pat him on the shoulder like "yes u did good job heli" LMAO
"oh . oh right you may look like me but youre Old." KSGFJFBFJ EXACTLY and this could be said by either sooha (who even though she WAS born at the same time as them in our au, was conscious for significantly less of it) or OTHER students, in a hypothetical world where the brothers get less terrified for their lives, sooha makes more friends, and heli admits it wouldnt hurt to have a FEW more harmless teenagers in on the secret as long as they're harmless teenagers sooha trusts. which also brings to mind a situation in which jino befriends sooha's friends, and he's nice to them and likes them and everything because he's jino, but then said friends introduce jino to their grandparents and its all off the wall from there. sooha's human friend just stares at jino happily baking cookies and gossiping with their grandma like "why are you better friends with my grandma than you are with me"
i dont have much more to say about sooha and the boys experiencing normal life as teenagers together so im just gonna agree that yeah i am also crying. a lot. i am crying a lot. although in the hypothetical world where more humans get let in on the secret, the guys and sooha would actually have some Normal Teenagers to teach them how Normal Teenager Life is lived—at which point they could all be like "huh. actually we like the weird way we were doing it, but thanks!"
im glad the chart and everything was appreciated!! yeah theres so many different possible interpretations and i HAVE so many thoughts about those different possible interpretations. and many different possible interpretations of my own as you saw HSJFBFJB. its just!!! theyre both so COOL conceptually and theres so much that can be done with them!!! i also wish we knew more abt the guys' origins because so far all we know in canon is "woke up in an orphanage with no prior memories, already possessing both vampirism and magical powers. created somehow???" which. is NOT a lot. pls hybe
and hey look at that! i managed to answer this the same day it came into my inbox! and i only saved it to my drafts ONCE! yay me
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